AN: So I can't control them. They are still talking and they just won't stop. Sorry for the lack of action but I think it's important to communicate. So that's what you get. Enjoy!

Chapter 20

After a few minutes of sitting there, Blaine nudged Kurt a bit so he was sitting up again. "We need to talk about earlier. You still broke the rules with Sebastian."

Kurt gave Blaine a look. "And by talk what do you mean?"

Blaine arched his eyebrow at the question. "Well, I meant a talk but if you want to keep up the attitude, we can just skip it and get straight to punishment."

Kurt blushed but kept up his angry look. In a snide tone, he asked. "So I'll actually get to talk this time? You didn't let me talk earlier. You just lectured me and sent me to the corner. I don't know if I like that."

Blaine sighed and gave Kurt a stern look. "Kurt, I apologize. From now on, we will talk it out before any type of punishment happens. However, that doesn't mean you get to have an attitude now. So stop it or we can sit in silence until you think you can speak respectfully to me."

Kurt breathed in deep and tried to pull in his attitude. He was still angry with Blaine but it was starting to get overwhelmed with guilt for how he was treating him and worry about how bad his punishment would be if he didn't quit.

"Sorry. I just really didn't like that you just decided without hearing my explanation that I was guilty and then you sent me to the corner without letting me defend myself." Kurt explained, carefully keeping his attitude in check and hoping Blaine would notice the effort.

Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and squeezed. "Thank you, baby. I appreciate it. And as for that, I'm sorry it felt like that to you. You were getting angry and I was getting angry and I didn't want to take it out on you so I sent you to the corner so we could both cool off before we talked."

Kurt relaxed at the bit of praise and nodded. "Okay, I can understand that. I probably wasn't helping you calm down but it feels like I'm being punished for your temper. Like, you needed the time to calm down so I have to go stand in the corner. That doesn't make sense to me. Not unless you are trying to punish me too."

Blaine rubbed the back of his neck with his free hand. "I guess it does seem that way and I can understand why you would feel that way. Still, there are going to be times when I need time for both of us to cool off before we start talking so I don't hurt you and you don't hurt me. Can you agree with that?"

Kurt nodded. "Yeah. I can."

"So do you have any ideas for how we can do that without you feeling I'm being unfair?" Blaine asked, wanting Kurt to come up with something so that he wouldn't read anything more into it than a cool-off period.

Kurt leaned back against the couch and thought for a while. "I don't know. Maybe if we just sit quietly until both of us are calm again? It might be awkward but I don't think I'd feel bad about it. I don't know." By the end, he was frustrated, not sure what would be a good alternative for them.

Blaine nodded, a thoughtful look on his face. "Okay babe. How about we try that next time? If it doesn't work, we can find something else. Okay?"

Kurt nodded. "Okay."

Blaine squeezed their hands once more and spoke. "Okay. Now that we have that out of the way, tell me what happened today. Why did you go after Sebastian like that?"

Kurt huffed. "See, right there, you are putting all the blame on me. And yes, I shouldn't have said anything but if you heard what he said to me…Blaine I just couldn't stay quiet." His voice faded out and he looked down.

Blaine sighed. "What did he say to you?"

Kurt spoke quietly. "I ignored him at first. He made a stupid comment and I just kept my mouth shut because I know that's what we agreed on. But then he started talking about us having sex and how I wasn't good enough for you and it just got to me. Blaine, I know I'm really not knowledgeable about a lot of stuff relating to that and him saying it just, I don't know, dredged up all sorts of insecurities. I couldn't just let him say things about me and not respond." Kurt pulled his legs up on the couch and wrapped his arms around his legs, forming a ball.

Blaine watched his boyfriend literally put walls up and felt his heart break. He didn't want Kurt to feel like he had to sit and be attacked because of something Blaine said. Sighing, Blaine pulled Kurt into a hug, wrapping his arms around his balled-up form.

"This isn't working. Kurt, I don't think this is a good idea anymore." Blaine whispered into Kurt's hair, kissing the top of his head. Kurt froze, not sure what Blaine meant but hoping he wasn't breaking up with him. Blaine continued, unaware of his boyfriend's thoughts. "We should just stop now. I'm sorry."

Kurt moved quickly and wrapped his arms around Blaine. "Blaine, you can't break up with me because of this. I'm sorry. I swear, I won't do it again. Just don't leave me." He begged, tears building in his eyes.

Blaine quickly realized what his boyfriend thought he had meant and interrupted. "No, no, Kurt, I'm not breaking up with you. I love you. You're the best thing in my life. It's okay."

Kurt pulled back. "So what do you mean we should stop?"

Blaine pushed Kurt's bangs to the side and wiped some tears from his face. "I don't think that the whole 'discipline' thing is working. Babe, I don't want you to feel like you can't defend yourself and I don't want you afraid to say something because of how I'll react. I love you and I don't want to change who you are."

Kurt gave him a confused face. "But that's not how I feel. I mean, with Sebastian, I knew how you would react before I said anything and I still said it. I'm not afraid of you."

Blaine returned the confused face. "Wait. So you said those things knowing that you would probably end up getting spanked? But then why?"

Kurt smiled sheepishly. "It seemed worth it at the time. Blaine, I don't think you understand just how much he bothers me. Every time I see him, I feel like he is just waiting to snatch you up. And he doesn't hide it. He insults me, he talks about taking you from me, I needed to say something. In retrospect, I could have responded better, in a way that wouldn't get me in trouble with you but would still get the message across to him. But that isn't what I was thinking then. I was just too annoyed and all I wanted to do was hurt him."

Blaine rubbed the back of his neck. "I don't know what to do then. I still don't know if this is a good idea for our relationship."

Kurt looked down at his lap, picking at his nails. "What if I asked you to?" He asked in a soft voice.

Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and twined their fingers together to stop the picking. "What do you mean babe?"

Kurt sighed and spoke up, blushing lightly. "I mean, what if I asked you to…you know, spank me?" His face grew bright red as he continued. "The other night, when you did, I said thank you. Do you know why?"

Blaine shook his head. "No."

Kurt met his eyes. "The feeling afterwards, like everything had been wiped clean again, it was amazing. I hated the spanking. It hurt and I wanted nothing more than for it to end and to never have to go through it again. But at the same time, I felt…lighter, I guess is a good word for it. I was glad someone was calling me out on my words. Do you know how much I get away with? No one tells me to stop. They pity me. I'm just the poor little gay kid in small town Ohio so it's okay if I'm mean to people. I've had a rough life. When you sp-punished me, I felt like none of that mattered anymore. You didn't just see me as that but you saw who I could be and I felt good. In pain, but good." Kurt added the last bit with a laugh to his voice, trying to ease the tension in the room.

Blaine looked a little shocked as he processed the words Kurt had just said. "I, wow. I just, babe, that's what I wanted. I just, I don't know. I'm just afraid that I'm going to overstep and end up changing you."

Kurt looked up at the ceiling as he replied. "If I didn't agree with what you were punishing me for, you wouldn't be able to punish me."

Blaine cocked his head to the side at that. "What do you mean?"

Kurt looked back down and gave Blaine a look. "What would you do if I said 'Red' while you were punishing me?"

Blaine answered. "I would stop. Anytime you safeword, I will stop immediately." As he said it, a knowing look grew on his face.

Kurt nodded. "Yup. So do you really think I would let you punish me if I didn't agree? No. I'd safeword. We would need to talk at that point because if you are punishing me for something I don't agree with, I'd just end up mad at you." Kurt smirked as he continued. "Besides, I'm stronger than you. If I really wanted you to stop, I'd stop you."

Blaine gave him a smirk back. "Oh you would, huh?"

With those words, he started tickling Kurt. Kurt let out a shriek of laughter as he tried to squirm away. Blaine followed him and continued tickling. Kurt, out of breath, turned the tables on Blaine and caught his hands with one of his own and started tickling him back. Blaine started laughing and squirming, unable to get his hands free.

They fell so Blaine was lying on his back on the couch, Kurt on top pinning his hands down. Kurt gave Blaine a kiss and asked. "Believe me now?"

AN: So, yeah. Lots of talk again. I'm trying to clear up what their relationship is for them. I want it to be healthy, not abusive, type of spanking relationship and that means they talk a lot. Next chapter will either have smut. Or spanking. Or both. Or they could decide to completely ignore my wishes (again) and do something entirely different. We'll see if they finally finish talking then.