So sorry this chapter is coming out a little later than usual. I was pretty sick last week and life has been hectic. You all know how it goes. But thanks so everyone for being so patient!
Pacing across her living room anxiously, Rey glanced at the clock for the tenth time in five minutes.
Kylo was due home from the airport any minute. She'd debated with herself a dozen times about what to do, how to welcome him home after he'd been gone for a week.
Wait in his apartment and surprise him? Too clingy and slightly creepy.
Conveniently walk outside her door when he was coming up the stairs? Transparent and obvious.
Do nothing and wait for him to get home and come to her? That just wasn't her and she wanted Kylo to feel missed.
In the end, she decided to just wait for him to get home, give him a few minutes to get situated, then head over and see him. She was playing it safe to be sure but she wasn't positive how he'd been feeling and after the events of yesterday, she was feeling a little uncertain herself.
She had stayed up all night fretting over how and when to tell Kylo about Snoke, part of her listening for a sound from his apartment, afraid he was lurking somewhere in the darkness.
In the end, she firmly told herself that she would not let Snoke come between them and ruin her reunion with Kylo. She would push him from her mind until the right time to tell Kylo, after he was home and relaxed with her. The next day or two would be about them, happy to be back together. They deserved it before she had to bring up Snoke.
When the time came, they would figure it out together.
The telltale sound of Kylo's door shutting loudly jarred Rey from her thoughts.
He was home.
She felt like she could feel the electricity thrumming through the wall between them. She wondered if he had debated coming right to her apartment first, if he was excited or nervous to see her.
Anticipation was rushing through her and she was almost bouncing up and down, trying to give him a few minutes to get settled.
When she finally couldn't take it anymore, she hurried out of her front door, nearly running to his door.
He flung it open before she could even knock and there he was. Messy ebony hair, brown eyes full of some unnameable emotion, a black t-shirt stretched across his broad chest.
And then she was in Kylo's arms and she felt like she was where she belonged for the first time in a week.
His hold was tight around her as he pulled her into his apartment, kicking the door shut behind them. They just stood there, wrapped around each other. Rey left out a shuddering breath, the masculine scent that was so distinctively Kylo's, a scent she had come to miss over the past week, surrounding her.
She tilted her head back, opening her mouth to say something, to tell him how much she'd missed him, how happy she was that he was back. But he kissed her before she could get out a single word.
Kylo kissed her desperately, fiercely, and it told her all she needed to know about him missing her. She could taste it on his lips, feel it in the way he pressed against her, fingers grasping desperately at her shirt as she slanted his mouth over hers.
Moaning into his mouth, she sank her hands into his thick, dark hair, wanting him closer. Their lips pressed together, tongues boldly exploring each other in a playful fight for dominance.
His taste, his smell, the feeling of him against her...
God, she had missed him.
That was all the encouragement he needed to pick her up, hands supporting her under her ass and she wrapped her legs around his waist. Kylo let out a sound of approval as she settled around his hips, his erection rubbing her.
He was already hard, just from kissing her.
She hadn't planned on jumping him immediately. She'd assumed they would be awkward for the first minute and he'd tell her about his trip and she'd talk about how boring her week was. But this felt so right. It was what they both needed, to be close and to feel each other.
Rey leaned back, knowing Kylo would support her, and maneuvered his shirt off, tossing it somewhere behind her. He let out a quiet huffing laugh when she yanked her own over her head. But she didn't care, she wanted skin on skin contact.
One of his huge hands skated over her ribs, dancing along the edge of her bra and her breath caught.
He glanced down, sucking in a sharp breath.
"You're so gorgeous in blue," he muttered, eyeing the soft sapphire colored bra she was wearing with approval.
Rey felt herself flush at his words, heat rolling down to her chest, coloring it pink.
She kissed his perfect, soft mouth, sucking the tip of his tongue between her lips, feeling his groan reverberate through her. She loved when he couldn't hold back his sounds, needy and aroused from the things she did to him.
His grip on her ass tightened and he pulled her closer, rolling his hips against her own. With every forward press, the front seam of her jeans rubbed her clit and she couldn't breathe.
"Bedroom," she muttered against his lips, too distracted to notice they were already moving.
In his room, he laid her out on the dark comforter, lifting her hips to pull off her jeans slowly. His eyes devoured every inch of bare skin he revealed, lingering on her matching blue panties. She could feel herself getting hot under his gaze, the way he looked at her like she was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen, like he could look at her forever. It's impossible to get embarrassed when someone looks at you with stars in their eyes.
"I missed you," he said hoarsely.
"How much?" Rey whispered, wanting to hear him say it, to know that he'd missed her as much as she had him. "How much did you miss me?"
He stripped his own jeans off quickly, leaving on just his boxers. Her breath caught as she took him in, his beauty just as stunning as the first time she saw him. Pale skin, scattered beauty marks making a path across his body that she wanted to learn every inch of.
Kylo leaned over her, pressing soft kisses along her collarbone, nipping at her shoulder.
"I thought about you pretty much every minute of every day. Even when I was trying not to think about you, it didn't work. It was like I was missing something vital, like there was a hole in my chest."
Rey felt warmth spread through her chest as his words.
"It was the same for me," she admitted, biting her lips as his mouth dipped down to her cleavage, licking the swells of her breasts. "I thought about you when I woke up, when I was working, once I got home. I especially thought about you when I was in bed alone at night," she said teasingly, feeling a wicked smile curl at her lips.
His eyes met hers and they were nearly black, a glassy dark that reminded her of a lake at night.
"Did you touch yourself thinking about me?" he nearly growled, his deep voice making her squirm with need.
When she didn't respond immediately, he bit her nipple gently through her bra, making her gasp.
"Yes," she admitted breathily, arching against him. "I did a few nights but it just made me miss you more." It was true, she'd managed to get off but it just left her feeling hollow and her bed colder and emptier than usual.
Kylo groaned, shifting up her body so he could kiss her, thrusting his tongue against hers hungrily.
Pulling away, he moved back so he hovering over her, powerful thighs on either side of her legs.
"Show me," he growled.
It took Rey a second to understand what he meant, heat curling in her abdomen. She would never have considered doing this in front of someone before but with Kylo, he always made her feel sexy and beautiful. He made her daring and bold.
Keeping her eyes locked with his, she slid a hand slowly down her chest, cupping her left breast. She thumbed her nipple, knowing Kylo could see it peak through the thin, silky fabric of her bra.
Licking her pointer and middle finger of her right hand, she slipped in underneath her panties, rubbing gentle circles on her clit.
Kylo watched her with hot eyes, his erection straining at the front of his boxers.
"I'd lay in bed just like this," Rey panted. "Imagining you were here, touching me. Rubbing me just right, telling me how good I felt, how wet I was for you."
She dipped a finger down into said wetness, biting back a moan.
He let out a growling noise in the back of his throat, grabbing himself through his boxers, slowly making circles with his thumb on the tip. Rey could see the wet spot where his precome was soaking through and she licked her lips.
Slipping two fingers into herself, she tossed her head back against the pillows, working herself in a slow, steady rhythm. Having him watch her, feeling his eyes on her, it was a surprising turn on.
"Take off your underwear," he rasped, and she opened her eyes back up to see he had already gotten rid of his own and was pumping his hard cock in a rhythm that matched hers.
Jesus fuck, that was the hottest thing she had ever seen. Suddenly she understood the appeal of this.
Rey slid her panties down to her knees, letting Kylo take them off the rest of the way as she unclipped her bra and tossed it off the side of the bed. Completely bare before him, she spread her legs, savoring the loud moan he let out at the sight.
"Your fingers are so much bigger than mine though," she told him breathily, plunging her fingers in and out, watching as he sped up the speed of his hand to match her. "Doing this just made me ache and wish you were here to fuck me just right."
She was dripping onto the sheets, so wet and ready for him. Her free hand pinched at her nipples, making her hips buck into her fingers.
Kylo gently grabbed her wrist, pulling her hand away from herself and up to his mouth. Keeping eye contact with her, he slid her wet fingers into his mouth, sucking them slowly. She couldn't hold back a husky moan as his tongue twirled around them.
"I'm here now," he said, letting go of her wrist. "Is that what you want from me?"
Before she could say anything, he lifted her legs over his shoulders one at a time, the action lifting her hips from the bed slightly. He shifted closer, adjusting his cock hovered right above her core.
He pressed a kiss to the inside of her right thigh before gripping himself again, running his tip up and down her wet slit. "Is that what you want? You want me to fuck you? Is that what you thought about to get yourself off?"
"Yes," Rey gasped, trying to buck her hips up. "Kylo, yes."
He pressed firmly against her clit, swirling the head of his cock against it. Her legs were shaking around his shoulders and she tensed up in anticipation, so ready for him to drive into her, to fuck her savagely into this bed, to-
But instead, he leaned away, working a hand up and down his length, shining with a mixture of their wetness.
"I touched myself too," he admitted. "I imagined coming home to you naked and waiting for me in my bed. I'd imagine all the ways I'd take you, on every surface in this apartment. I'd come with your face in my mind and your name on my lips."
There was a sheen of sweat on his heaving chest as he teased them both. Rey knew he was doing this intentionally, dragging this out, making them both wait just a little longer. He wanted her to watch, needed to hear her beg and know she wanted him. And she did. Hearing him confess this, seeing his hand sliding up and down his swollen, twitching cock... she was ready to beg.
But she wasn't going to.
"You're going to fuck me within the next ten seconds," she told him in a voice that was passably confident. "You're going to give me the best sex of my life and make me orgasm so hard I can't breathe. Now stop teasing and take me."
Kylo froze for a second in surprise, then a huge grin spread across his face.
In one smooth movement, he thrust forward and filled her, cutting off her gasp with a kiss.
"God, Rey," he whispered against her mouth. "I seriously fucking lo-"
He bit his lip, cutting off whatever he was about to say. She forgot about it a second later though, when he finally started moving.
Her legs thrown over his shoulders lifted her hips at a perfect angle and she was seeing stars as he plunged in and out of her in a relentless rhythm. He was gripping her thighs tightly, fingers digging into her flesh but she didn't care. All Rey cared about was the feeling off Kylo inside of her.
This last week, she'd been so afraid that he was going to change his mind once he was away from her, that he'd come back and be finished. That he wouldn't want her anymore. But here, now, back with him, she felt stupid for thinking that. This, them together, it was perfect... how could he not come back to her?
Consumed with need, she lifted herself up higher, both of them cursing as he pressed fully inside of her. The stretch of his thickness inside of her burned in the best way and she nearly teared up at the feeling of being so full.
"Fuck," she gasped. "You feel so good, Kylo. Fuck, I missed you."
Losing herself in the sensation, she closed her eyes and twisted her hands in the sheets over her head, just trying to hold on and savor every second of being connected to him. Kylo wrecked her in the best way possible, destroyed everything she thought she knew about being intimate with someone.
For a few minutes, the room was filled with the sound of their moans and cries, the slap of skin on skin.
Suddenly, the sensation of being lifted up made Rey's eyes fly open.
Kylo pulled her up into a sitting position, her legs falling off of his shoulders to settle on either side of his waist as his cock pressed back into her. He gathered her close, their chests pressed together, breath mingling in the air.
"Rey," he breathed, hands smoothing her hair from her face. His eyes were slightly glazed, heavy-lidded as they met hers. "Look at me. I- I just need to see you."
She nodded, knowing what he meant, throat tight.
He helped her lift up and down gently, pumping his hips underneath hers slowly. His brow was furrowed, hair sticking to his forehead, eyes locked on hers as they both steadily worked up to their orgasm. One of his hands cupped the side of her jaw, thumb ghosting across her skin in a caress that she felt all the way to her core. Nuzzling into his hand, she pressed a kiss into his palm.
"I'm close," she whispered, and he nodded back jerkily.
Clutching at his shoulders, she sped up slightly, wanting him to finish with her. She could feel her wet heat tightening around him, her clit throbbing to the beat of her heat, so close to coming.
She didn't look away from his eyes once, not when her core shuddered and she tumbled over the edge, not when she moaned his name, struggling to keep moving over him. So she saw that he did the same, biting his lip, hips stuttering under hers, cock thickening inside of her as he came, his eyes never straying from hers as he pulsed in her, coming in hot spurts that filled her.
Dark brown and hazel eyes connected in the dark as they gave each other all they could.
Panting, she stayed on top of him for a minute, feeling his hands running gently up and down her back. She tipped her head up and kissed him softly, feeling strangely bare and vulnerable before him.
It had felt almost like they had shared souls there at the end, she thought, then felt silly for thinking something so ridiculous.
"Here," Kylo muttered, helping lay her down on the bed, straightening out her stiff legs before joining her, tucking her head against his shoulder and resting an arm across her middle.
Rey could feel it in the comfortable silence that followed, that he had felt it too. Whatever has been thrumming between them there. Though sex was always intimate, it felt like things had been taken a step further somehow. It felt like they had been making love to each other, bonding through body and soul.
When she drifted off to a light sleep in Kylo's arms, she still hadn't managed to wipe the smile from her face.
...
The growl of Rey's stomach had her slipping silently from the bed a while later. Kylo hadn't moved, huffing soft breaths into the pillow as she stretched, picking up his shirt from the floor and putting it on. It brushed the tops of her thighs and she smirked, thinking of Poe's neanderthal comment.
She crept into his kitchen, opening his cupboards quietly and looking for a snack. In the second one, she spied a package of chocolate chip cookies and her mouth watered. Nearly tearing the bag open, she was disappointed to see one lonely cookie sitting on the bottom.
Surely Kylo wouldn't mind...
She snatched up the cookie, heading back into the bedroom. She sat down on the bed softly, checking her phone for any messages and lifting the cookie to her mouth.
"Is that my last chocolate chip cookie?" Kylo's deep voice rumbled from beside her and she squeaked, jumping slightly.
He was watching her with an amused expression on his face, head propped up on one hand.
"Uhm... it might be," she said, glancing at the cookie guiltily.
He looked like he was holding back a laugh. "You were totally going to eat it and not say anything, weren't you? Stealing my last cookie right out of my cupboard, you rotten scavenger."
"Hey!" she said indignantly. "If anything, I'm a rotten thief, you jerk."
He chuckled, then leaned over quickly and bit almost all of the cookie right out of her hand before she could react. In a flash, it disappeared between his lips.
She stared at the shiver left clutched in her fingers, an aghast expression on her face. "You're a monster."
"Better a monster than a scavenger," he teased, smacking his lips loudly. "Mmmmh, that sure was a tasty cookie."
Pouting, she ate her crumb then crossed her arms. "You have no heart, depriving someone of a goodie with a sweet tooth like mine. That's just cruel and I'll probably never forgive you."
He stood up, putting on his boxers with a laugh. "Give me a minute." Then he disappeared through the doorway, leaving Rey to blink in confusion after him.
A few seconds later, he reappeared at the door with a decent sized box in his hands, pink stripes going down the sides.
"What's that?" she asked suspiciously, trying to peek at the top.
"Your gift," he told her. "I had to bring you something back from New York."
Rey blushed. Kylo obviously liked giving her gifts but she still wasn't used to it. While she loved getting things from him, as they were always thoughtful and sweet, it did make her a little uncomfortable.
"You didn't have to-" she started but he cut her off by thrusting the box into her hands.
There was some fancy gold writing on the top of the box, one word standing out.
Bakery.
Her stomach growled on cue and Kylo bit back a laugh.
When she slid the top of the box off, Rey's jaw dropped. Inside were so many different desserts, she didn't know which to look at first.
Cookies dipped in chocolate. Delicate fruit tarts. Chocolate mousse in fragile chocolate cups. Thick slices of decadent looking cake. Macaroons in various colors. Cream filled chocolate eclairs.
"I didn't know what to get you... so I got you a bit of everything," Kylo admitted self consciously.
Rey's mouth watered as the scent of dough and chocolate hit here. "I've never seen so many delicious looking things in my whole life. This is the best present ever."
He ran a hand through his hair, looking away with pink cheeks. It was so adorable that he insisted on giving her things but usually ended up more embarrassed than her.
She leaned over, giving him a lingering kiss on the cheek. "Thank you, Kylo."
"You're welcome," he muttered.
Rey picked up a chocolate eclair, biting into it, her delighted moans filling the air. Holy hell, she'd never tasted something so good.
"Try it," she said through a mouthful of cream, shoving the pastry at Kylo's face.
He arched an eyebrow, obviously amused and pleased, taking a bite. The surprise on his face was comical and he took another bite quickly.
"I know, right?" She eyed the box, wondering how many things she could eat in one sitting.
There was only one way to find out.
She grabbed Kylo's hand, pulling him on the bed with her so they were sitting together. Crossing her legs, she set the box between them.
"We aren't leaving this bed until we try one of everything in this box," she told him firmly, already reaching for a slice of cake and taking a huge bite out of it.
Kylo's disbelieving laugh filled the room as he leaned over and kissed her on her chocolate covered mouth.
...
That night, Rey tossed and turned in her empty feeling bed.
Her and Kylo had spent the whole day together, eating treats and talking in bed. He'd made her dinner and they showered together, until finally, she'd had to come back to her own apartment. BB needed dinner and she needed a change of clothes. She'd wanted to come back and spend the night with him but neither of them brought it up, the uncertainty of being apart finally drifting back between them.
Rey had wanted to be brave and ask, knowing he probably wanted her too. But he'd had a long trip and maybe just wanted some down time alone in his apartment. So instead, she kissed him goodnight and made plans to see him first thing in the morning.
She'd been drifting in and out of sleep all night, until around three in the morning, a guttural moan sounded from Kylo's room.
Tears pricked at her eyes. Poor Kylo. He couldn't get one night of uninterrupted sleep and here she was, stuck in her apartment once again with no way to help him with-
Her eyes fell on the key on her bedside table.
Rey was up and out of bed in a flash, feeling dumb. Of course, she had a key to his apartment.
Wrapping her silky gray robe around herself, she hurried out of her place and over to his door, shivering as the chilly air nipped at her bare legs. At his door, she didn't even hesitate, unlocking it quietly and letting herself in.
She locked it behind her, setting the key on his kitchen counter, before creeping over to his room. The door was slightly ajar, the hall light illuminating a sliver of the bed and Kylo in it.
He had flung the blankets off of himself, hands twisted in the sheets so tightly that the tendons in his arms were standing out. His teeth were bared, mouth locked in a wordless snarl, pained sounding moans slipping out.
As Rey crept closer, she could see his eyes darting around beneath his closed eyelids.
"No, please," he rasped quietly, flinching in his sleep. He pressed himself into the bed, trying to get away.
Rey covered her mouth, trying so hard to push back tears. She'd had to listen to this for so long, but now, to see it, to see him in so much pain... it was like a knife to the heart. God, he hurt to look at.
She straightened her spine, pushing the thoughts from her mind. Kylo needed her, needed comfort. She could pity him later.
Slipping into his bed cautiously, she ran a gentle hand up and down one of his arms, just trying to soothe him with her touch. Part of her was nervous that he would lash out at her in his sleep and hurt her, but as she touched him, he just whimpered and relaxed slightly, fingers uncurling from the sheets.
Slowly, she kept stroking his arm, raising her other hand to rub soft circles on his chest. After a minute, his breathing slowed down to a more normal rate.
He whimpered again and Rey pressed against him, wrapping her arms around him.
"Shhhh," she said softly, pressing kisses against his shoulder, his chest, wherever she could reach. "Shhhh Kylo, you're safe. I've got you."
His eyes fluttered open slightly. "Rey?" he asked groggily.
"Go back to sleep," she whispered, running a hand through his hair slowly. "Everything's okay, I promise."
He nodded slightly, eyes drifting shut as she caressed his face.
Laying there in the dark, Kylo finally sleeping peacefully, Rey felt a new sense of determination, of purpose. Perhaps, if Snoke was punished for what he did, Kylo would sleep easier at night, free of his demons. He needed to know that peace could be achieved, even after being abused.
There was someone she needed to go see, now that she had saved up enough money. She didn't want to go see him but she knew that doing so would help her heal and be free of her past. She needed to do it, for her.
She hadn't been sure about taking Kylo with her but now, watching him in the dark, she thought that perhaps doing so would help him. Maybe seeing her face her fears would inspire him to do the same.
So she laid in bed with her arms wrapped around her lover and started making plans for tomorrow.
Yay, reunited babies! I'm so excited for all of the chapters coming up, I wish I would write like ten times faster. I'm also compiling a collection of deleted scenes from this story that I have no idea what to do with haha! Anyways, thanks so much for the support, I might have some cool news coming up soon that has to do with this story :D love you guys!