Chapter 3: Over?

Disclaimer: Do we see people fan servicing around the world dressed up as the adorable couples from KH? No? Oh then I guess I still don't own it.

I like the feeling in my gut when I don't eat for days, the twisting, moaning, clenching, feeling that makes my stomach shrivel up inside of me like a stone but still feel like it isn't even there. There's no hardness in my midsection, it's like it starts to disappear. Then the pain starts it's the only reminder I have to eat when the monster inside of me opens its mouth to demand food. I heard this metaphor; it feels like there is a tiny man inside my stomach who pulls on a rope whenever he is hungry, but whenever he pulls the rope my throat closes up not letting any food in. I feel like this describes me almost perfectly, besides the fact that I also don't want to eat the pain is something I can take to become skinny.

I shut my journal with a snap and hid it underneath my mattress, looking in the mirror I fix my hair and take one last glance at my outfit before I head out. I'm meeting up with Riku in Radiant Garden, it's a bit of a train ride away but it's worth it once you get there. Unknown to Roxas, Sora was also heading out to meet up with Riku.

As I approach the bench where Riku is sitting I stop for a second. Why did Riku call me out here? I mean it's not like don't I love that we are doing something but Riku was never the date kinda person with me. We went out now and then we mostly just went to each other's house or went out with friends. Pushing aside my nerve's at this sudden change I continue my advance on the bench and sit down beside him.

"Hey" I say to announce my presence

"Hey, is there anything wrong?" Riku turns to look at me.

"What? Oh no nothing is wrong."

"Good." With that said he grabbed my head and started to roughly kiss me. At first I don't even react but when his tongue starts to trace the contours of my lips I lose all thought and open my mouth; inviting him in. We battle for dominance but Riku soon wins, with his victory he starts to map out the expanse of my mouth while laying my down on the bench and crawling on top of me. We disconnect to gasp for breath. "R-riku" is all the time I have to pant out before he's back on top of me running his hands under my shirt. I fist my hand into his hair and pull him closer not wanting any space between our bodies. His lips leave mine and start to travel down my neck, leaving bruises and bitemarks in their wake. When I start to moan his name he suddenly stops and just gives me a hard and long kiss before pulling away.

"W-whats wrong?" I ask trying to straighten up my appearance before the old man staring at as can get a passing guard to kick us out.

"Roxas, you know I love you right?" Riku is staring at me, his hands holding mine but other than that he isn't touching me.

"Yea, I love you too Riku."

"Just remember I will always love you no matter what, you mean so much to me." When those words left his mouth my hearts sank to my stomach, I had a good idea where this was going but I didn't like it, not one bit.

"Where are you going with this Riku?"

"I think we both know Roxas."

"But….why? Why Riku why?"

I heard a snap and turned around to see Sora standing there he looked straight at me and said;

"Because of me." Riku let go of my hands and went to stand by Sora.

"Sora?"

"Yep it's me Roxas, Now I have a question for you. How does it feel to know that your little brother has been sneaking around with your boyfriend, fucking in the room next to yours, going out on more dates then you do, tell me how does it feel to have the one thing you care about ripped away from you."

"Sora stop it."Riku says giving him a stern look.

"Tell me Roxas….COME ON FUCKING TELL ME HOW IT FEELS! I WANT TO KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN YOUR IN HOW BETRAYED YOU FEEL YOU LITTLE PATHETIC WHORE!" I am frozen at Sora's words, what happened to my innocent little brother, the sweet caring kid, the one who still believes in Santa Claus and the tooth fairy? It hit me then, it has all been an act, the whole thing of Sora's life, how he acts to everyone it had all been a fraud. The real Sora was conniving, and evil, and mean, and just terrible. There was no doubt about it Sora was an evil genius.

I cough to clear my throat; "Riku do you have anything to say about this?"

"I'm sorry Roxas I didn't mean for it to happen it just did, well fuck how do I put this, it's entirely my fault. I sorta accidently fucked him one night thinking he was you, and it just progressed from there. I mean at first he blackmailed me into meeting up with him threatening to tell what I did, but I got feelings for him and when he said I had to choose between you two, well I chose him."

"Well all I have to say is goodbye to both of you, don't expect to talk to me ever again, or be allowed at our table oh and bring Kairi with you when you leave she's such a little slut. Bye whores." Turning on my heel I walked stiff legged to the train station, what the actual fuck did I say? I sounded so calm and collected while I told them off, but yet here I am barley holding back my tears as I sit here just wanting to go to my room and cry.

When I get home that is exactly what I do, I barge through the front door run upstairs, add a nice slam to the noise with my door before I lock it and collapse onto my bed to cry, I laid there and sobbed my eyes out for hours not believing what had happened, till I just had to man up and admit it. Riku was gone, lost to black hole of an evil, bitch, stupid, crazy brother. I had lost two people in my life like that, I had already lost Ventus 3 years ago and now my other brother is gone to, Sora is dead to me and Riku can't be forgiven.

It's all your fault, you know that don't you, Riku left you because your not good enough, he wanted Sora who is better then you in so many ways why would he ver choose to be with you? That's the last thought that filters in my head before I give into the darkness of my mind.

AN:/ Another update! Things are about to get crazy *evil smirk*

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