A/N : I wasn't expecting all those nice comments and that amount of those who added this story in their story alerts, also those who added this to their favorites. That's for all being amazing. To thank you, here's another chapter.
Also, I'm aware of the spelling mistakes in the first chapter, I'll have to go back to correct them. So sorry if they disturbed you.
Disclaimer : I do not own Glee otherwise we would have another episode next tuesday.
My eyes shot to the door once I heared it open. A similar brunette walked into the room and sat down next to me bed. Rachel.
She leaned forward, to go closer to the bed and let out a long sigh. Her bottom lip was quivering, and she had tears in her eyes. I knew she was trying to fight them, trying to keep them in, and save them for later. Because I knew that she was strong, and that she wouldn't have wanted me to see her like this. So, her jaw tightened and she looked down at my hand.
Then she lost it. I didn't think she would, but she just started crying her eyes out. The brunette took hold of my hand and squeezed it gently. Even though I couldn't feel it, I knew that I would have felt something, a spark, something magical. Because that's what she did to me, that's the effect she had on me.
"We'll do it all
Everything
On our own"
I heared her whisper. She was singing to me. I recognized the song after the first words.
"We don't need
Anything
Or anyone."
It was heart breaking. Hearing someone sing when their voice was cracking and ready to choke up on their tears.
"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?"
She broke down just then. I could see that the tears just flow freely down her cheek. How can I do this? I can't look at her. I told myself, trying to drag my eyes away from Rachel. But I was scared that those clouds would appear and that I would never see her again.
She didn't manage to finish the song. Instead, she cried into my hand. I could hear her, I could hear the pain in those sobs, in her breath.
But what could I do? I couldn't talk, and tell her that everything would be alright, because it wasn't. And besides, I couldn't speak. Well, I could, but she wouldn't hear me. I was going to talk anyway, but she managed to do that before I started.
"You need to wake up" she stated, whispering into me hand. Rachel lifted her head up and looked at me, her bottom lip shaking again. "You need to wake up, Quinn." the brunette repeated. "Otherwise, you won't be able to give me a lecture about how stupid my marriage attempt with Finn was the most ridiculous idea ever"
I laughed at this. Not laughing, like 'rolling on the floor' laughing. Just a light chuckle.
"We didn't do it, you know." she said.
I looked at her, and went closer to her. I was standing next to her chair now.
"We didn't get married. Your mother called as soon as she got the news..." She trailed of.
Gosh, please don't cry again... I can't take this anymore.
But she did. She started crying. "Please just wake up. Please. I'm begging you. You have to wake up, Quinn" she sobbed. "This is all my fault. I shouldn't have texted you. You wouldn't have had that accident if I didn't text you. I'm such an idiot!" Rachel cried.
I looked away for a spit second, because I couldn't watch her in this state anymore. It was too heart breaking.
But then I realised that I shouldn't have. Clouds surrounded me again as I tried to fight them. There was no use in doing it, of course, but I needed to stay next to Rachel. I needed to tell her that everything was going to get better and that I would come back soon. But that was something I couldn't do. First because she wouldn't be able to hear me, and also because I wasn't even sure that I would actually come back. I remembered what Jason told me, the thing about becoming weak just before you wake up. Well that was the thing, I felt perfectly fine. I was aching nowhere, and it was scaring me. Normally I would have been worried if I was in pain. But it was the opposite this time, I needed to become weak.
The clouds flew around me as the view of Rachel next to my hospital bed faded away.
Darn, why does this always have to happen ! I thought, frowning as I crossed my arms against my chest.
Jason appeared again and saw the expression on my face, "I'm guessing I should talk to you now, right?" he said, looking slightly amused.
"I'm sorry" I told him, my face showing a smoother expression, "I just- I hate these cloud things!" I exclaimed, throwing my hands into the air, annoyed by the presence of white fluffy things around me.
"You'll get used to it" he shrugged, smiling.
"I guess"
"So, where did you end up?" Jason asked.
"In my hosptal room..."
"And someone was there?"
I didn't answer this, knowing that he would figure out my answer on his own.
"Someone special?" he asked.
I just nodded, looking around and wishing that he would change the subject.
He didn't, though, "You'll often end up in places where someone special is." he explained.
Shook my head, that couldn't happen. I didn't want to see the people I love, hurting. It was too hard. I wish I could just vanish from thos cruel world. Maybe it has a meaning, though. Being here? Watching what people do. Maybe it's because I have to realise something. I thought, as my eyebrows furrowed.
I quickly got the thought of my head, though, and pushed it aside. I would have to think about that later, when I would be alone.
"I need to get out of here" I blurted out.
Jason looked at me, with a 'sorry' face, "I do, too. But I don't know how." he said.
"I don't belong here, I need to get out" I was starting to panick now. I was almost sure that I was going to brake down sometime soon. "I can't stay here ! I need my friends. I need to tell them that everything was alright. I'm going to be a Cheerio again. I'm going to be there when Glee club win another trophee! I need to see the lock on that hideous Finnocence's face when I crash his wedding. I have to be there when Sue Sylvester gives birth to her baby. I need to go back !" I yelled, tears were running down my cheeks but I didn't care. I probably looked like some wild right now, but I didn't care.
I sunk down to the floor, which was covered with clouds, "Damn these things!" I exclaimed. I think I had never been more angry in my life than I was at this moment.
Jason shot me an apologetic look, and crouched down next to me. He wrapped his arms around me, and I tried to fight back, I tried to push him away for a moment. But he was the only person who could see me right now. He was the only person here right now.
I burried my head in his shoulder and started crying like my life was depending on it. I cried my eyes out, I cried my heart out. And I was pretty sure that his sweated was getting soacked right now.
Come to think of it, I wasn't dressed in pink, with a white cardigan anymore. I had one of those summer skirts I always wear, and a plain white t-shirt, covered with a denim jacket. How can this be happening right now? I asked myself, confused.
Jason slowly rubbed my back and he whispered, "You need to calm down. You'll get out of this."
That's when I realised that I was being a little selfish, so I said, "You'll get out too, right. And then we'll both be back on Earth, where we belong, alright?" Those were questions thhat couldn't be answered for now, although I desperately needed those answers. I needed to be sure that we were going to go back, and live our lives, like we were supposed to.
He just nodded, not daring to say anything, because I was in some state right now. I felt sorry for him to have to put up with me, because I knew that at any moment, I could just flip. Just like I did a few seconds ago.
"I'm so sorry" I said, pulling out of the hug.
Jason smiled softly, "It's fine, I remember that things got kind of out of control when I first ended up here, too. There's no need to apologize, I understand" he said. That reassured me a bit.
The clouds started to vanish, again. So we stood up, only to see clouds between us again.
"We're going separate ways again?" I huffed, I didn't want to be alone again. Well, not technically alone, but I needed someone to talk to while I was watching people.
"I guess so. See you later, Fabray" he said. Wait, did I tell him my surname? No, I didn't. How did he know that? I asked myself, as I saw him fade away behind the clouds. I made a mental note to ask him later.
The clouds didn't stay much longer, as I appeared in a house. This looks familiar. I thought, as I looked around. Right, I live here. I told myself as I looked around a bit more. I was right, it was my house. But what was I doing here? No idea, at all. Plus, there wasn't any sounds at all, it was so quiet, like no one was here.
That's when I heared the door open. Mom?
There she was, her cheeks were tear-stained and she looked a mess. Pretty much like every person that came back from the hospital after visiting her unconscious child.
She walked through the hallway, handing her coat on the coat stand, before going to the kitchen.
I followed her. She took out a glass from the cupboard and poured herself a glass of water. When she lifted the glass to her mouth, to drink, I noticed that her hands were shaking.
I started tearing up while she slowly drank all the water. When she placed the glass on the kitchen counter, she started whimpering and breathing faster, like her throat was blocked.
Why do I have to witness all of this? I asked myself, while watching my mother let her tears out.
It hurt, seeing people cry. It hurt right there, in the heart.
She cried some more before walking into the living room and sitting down on one of our leather sofas.
She placed her head into her hands and I could hear her crying again.
I sat down next to her, knowing that she wouldn't see me, or hear me and I started to talk to her, as if she could hear me.
"I'm coming back" I breathed out. "I'm going to wake up, mom. Everything's going to be alright." I said. But I didn't even know if I was lying or telling the truth. I didn't know anything, to be honest. "I need you to believe in me. I need you to pray for me to come back." I paused for a second, "Pray for me and Jason" I stated, before leaving the couch and standing infront of her.
I wanted the clouds to come now, because I couldn't stand one more second of seeind her mother cry like this. I couldn't handle one more second of seeing her in such pain.
But, obviously, the clouds didn't come when I wanted them to. Ugh.
So I walked around the room, and headed towards the stairs. I walked up and ended up infront of my bedroom door, which was closed. I turned the handle and opened, seeing white clouds as soon as I did.
So I can't even see my own bedroom now? I thought, rolling my eyes in annoyance to what was happening.
I waited alone for a while, for Jason to show up. Thing he did about five minutes later. He moved forward and he had a smile on his face as if he had seenn something joyful.
"Where did you go this time?" he asked.
"My house" I simply replied.
"Did you see your parents?"
"My mother, yes" I nodded. My father wasn't there of course. I didn't want to see him anyway. "And where did you go?" I asked, curiously.
"Somewhere special" he sighed happily.
I decided not to ask any questions as he seemed to still be floating on clouds. Even though technically, we were floating on clouds. So I figured that I was going to ask him how he knew my family name.
"You called me Fabray, before we went separate ways. How do you know my surname?" I questioned him.
"I was in McKinley one year ago. Then I graduated" he explained. "I knew your surname because everyone knew it" Jason chuckled.
"Oh" I managed to say.
"Surprising?" he asked, with raised eyebrows.
"No, it's just that I wouldn't have expected to 'meet' anyone who knew me in here" I said, motioning around us to explain that 'here' meant in between two different worlds.
He just nodded and sat down on the ground.
I sat down next to him and asked, "Do you remember Rachel? Rachel Berry?"
"The one who often got slushied?" he questioned.
I always felt guilty whenever someone brings that up. It's not like I have to be reminded that I used to torture the girl whom I'm in love with at this very moment.
"Yeah" I said, shamefully.
"What about her?"
"She visited me. She was in my hospital room. I saw her talk to me" I explained.
"So she was the special someone, then?" he asked, with an understanding look.
I just nodded and lowered my vision so that I was now staring at the ground.
"You don't have to be ashamed. I won't judge you" he said, letting out a quiet laugh.
"So you're not going to tease me about liking girls or something?"
"Of course not" he said.
I looked at him and he smiled at me. He was probably the only one who wasn't going to judge me concerning this topic.
"Thanks" I simply said, with a shrug.
The clouds slowly started fading away again. I was just surprised that this time, none of them had come in between us. We both stood up and faced eachother.
"So we're going to this place together?" I asked.
"It looks like it, yeah" Jason nodded, looking around as the clouds became thinner and thinner by the second.
I looked around, too, figuring that we were in the hallway again.
Once all of the clouds had disappeared, there were doctors rushing through us at high speed. I turned to look at Jason, who just stared at the doctors with wide eyes.
"What is it?" I asked, concerned.
"They're going to my room" he stated, starting to follow them. I quickened my pace to follow him, since he was going faster than me.
There they were, the doctors were next to his bed. Some were rushing around the room to prepare the eventual equipment that the could be needing. There was one beside his bed, holding defibrillators, ready to shock his chest.
We heard the buzz. And then another one. Jason was pacing around the room now, looking worried, and angry at the same time. "This can't be happening, not now. This can't be happening" He mumbled repeatedly.
"We're losing him!" A doctor exclaimed.
Voila for this chapter ! I hope you liked it. Feel free to give any suggestions. And also, who would you like see talking to Quinn in her hospital room?
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