CHAPTER8
APOV
I stare at myself on the mirror trying to fully grasp as of what I had dreamt. Was it because I had wished so bad to see him once more? To be lost in his grey stormy eyes that are darkened by the secrets he hides, darkened by the devil he tries so hard to hide but I can see glimpse of him swimming in his eyes. Maybe this is what is left over of his rough start in life that still tortures this man to this very day. His past is his tail- and a very long one in fact- considering he is still so haunted.
Holy Moses! he had a horrible childhood. I pity this poor man to had suffered so much.
I slap my face so many time that is now reddened. Wake up Ana, you have somewhere to be! But to no avail one Christian is not happy to leave my so soon. Why must he still torture me to even now, isn't enough was our meeting yesterday enough?
Laugh all you want, and say all you want but at the end of the day I felt it my heart, my head is still buzzing from last night and also my eyes fucking still sting from crying too much, so it was indeed real. I did meet the infamous Christian. But how? The answer is lost in me.
"Ana are you finished here? I can feel my pee dampening my panties."
I sigh in exasperation, clutching the basing tightly to withhold the tears that are clouding my eyes.
"Give me a second," I say.
"One! One!" Kate exclaims on the other side of the door and continues, "You said a second. Your time is over Steel."
"Give me two minutes then."
"Are you fucking mad Ana. I need to go now and by that I mean like pronto"
"You know Kate. The more you talk, the more likely you are going to pee yourself," I tease, my bad mood receding. For the first time in a month I laugh as Kate screams as if she is up to close with her murder. I open the door ajar to accommodate my head as I witness such a spectacular scene. She paces down the aisle as if like a headless chicken, her face so similar like a garden dwarf.
She cease in her semi delirium and I swear I could steam see steam blowing off her nose and ears as I can feel the anger radiate from her that is as hot as if the sun was brought closer. And her next words chill me to the bone:
"Wipe that smug off your face Steele. My panties are dripping wet,"
"At least you saved a plant. Who knows what pee does to plants," I say in a low voice to lighten the tension.
"Yeah whatever," she huffs and brushes against me as she enters the bathroom.
To tease her one last time I say, "I hope there is not poop there otherwise I'll have to but you nappies." Kate snickers while i laugh my ass off as I make my way to my bedroom to dress for work.
Its six o'clock when I arrive at Bellevue Elementary school. Truly it is the castle on the hills which indeed is made for a king, or for in this instance for children with parents that wield so much power but the poor are considered- not much anyway. It feels good to work here even though I had not aspired to it, I am more than satisfied with what I have now.
I slip into my class unnoticed because I am not in the mood of small talk because there's a mountain of test papers happily waiting for me to work them. Fucking hell!
I hear by the chatter of children that school has begun. I look at the marked pile and what a fine job did I just do. I resign marking and conduct the class like I do.
My eyes scan the room, mentally doing the attendance register. The noises dies down until only I could hear was the soft blow of the mid spring air and the magnificent chirping of the birds which brings music to my ears. Now this I enjoyed.
"Hello class," I happily greet them, smoothing my knee high black dress with the tiniest of white pickidots.
"Now today class will be a very fun day. I hope you are all well rested during the holidays in the past week," I continued after an orchestrated hello from the learners. And today will be a very fun day with learning about the life that is today that roams all the four corners of the Earth before the field trip along with the parents in three weeks.
"Who here can tell me what is an animal?" all hands of my class of 20 raised their hands. I chose Gabriella, a young African American girl, who is at the rear end of the class.
"It's my dog. That Is what daddy said an animal is when I asked him." I lightly laugh at her comment and went to choose Theodore at the front of the class. His looks astounded me as he looked like a lot like him…I banish the thought in a nanosecond.
"Yes darling." His lips quirk up, lighting up into a smile .
"I think Ma'am is something that is alive that doesn't look like us." he says hesitantly, his eyes cast down in fear. Will him with all the power I have for him to look at me. His grey orbs lock with mine. In the two years I have been a teacher I have not heard such answer from such a young boy his age. I am truly astounded. "But ma'am I seem to not understand what a 'wild' animal is."
I rephrase the question to the class to get the great minds at work. Scotty, the city's mayors child raises his hands, his muttered pleas getting on my nerves.
"Yes Scotty," I sigh amused.
"Well Ana I think is to drive crazy 'cause my daddy says I drive him wild. oh.. oh.. oh… and also is when my daddy and mommy are on top of each other, sometimes they jump on-"
"OOkay Scotty, that's enough!" I exclaimed shocked. I don't think bleaching the memory of his parents fucking won't work.
"But why do they scream." I light laugh at the enormity of the situation. Please dearly remember me by the mercy of God how the conversation turned from animal to sex! I pat his big filled with cluster of –what do I say - illicit thoughts? I snicker to the thought.
"I think dear that that is the question you should direct to your parents."
We continued on to discuss about everything we knew about animals and the wild- which means as quoted in the oxford dictionary: "Animals and plants live and grow in their natural state and are not looked out by people." like lions for Pete's sake.
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I called Theodore to meet me afterschool, the questions bursting in my head having no intention of retreating. His head is bowed down, his copper curls glistening in the golden afternoon sun.
"Hi dear please sit down." He sits at the other side of my desk breathing loudly. And boy is my soul troubled!
He raises his head, eyes dancing around the classroom. I can literally feel it in my bones and to my heart . Something just isn't right. I bet my bank account on it.
"Am I in trouble. Did I do something wrong?" he quizzes, his voice barely a whisper.
"No darling. I just want to talk to you about you. I can see that something is always cooking in this big head of yours."
"I thought you were angry at me," he says, sadness evident in his voice. In thought of doing good for him, I call him to stand before me. I pull him into my lap and his scent reawakens something deep within me, something Christian could stir up. Their resemblance strikes me that everything, almost every feature of Christian is copied and pasted into Theodore. I doubt whether their related, some weird shit happens in this world where you can have a replica of yourself, somewhere there in the world- in existence- without sharing an ounce of blood.
"I think you have a misunderstanding. I have no reason for you to think that."
Theodore falls in deep silence then looks up to me again and says, "Why did you call me Theo and why do you call me darling."
"Do you like that? Should I stop?" I say panicked. Why in hell is he like this?
"No!" he exclaimed." can you call me like that Every time. I think I like you."
"So do I baby." he relaxes on to me chest, holding me so tightly as if I will disappear and never see me again. He looked dependent on and I made an obligation to take care of him. He looked lost and found will he be. Several minutes later a man in a black suit and skinny tie enters. I could have sworn he was from the secret service, approaches me.
"I am looking for Theodore Grey. It is his first day here." he states in a bored tone. I wake Theo who is sleeping soundly against my chest. The man in black carries and his saddened expression haunts me ever since he walked out the door.
a/n
sorry guys for late update. there are plenty coming3 :D