"CLAY!"

I was thinking all night. Was he telling the truth? No, I know he's lying. Wasn't he dating Jessica, no wait, first Hannah with the photo and then rape with Jessica.

What's will happen to me next huh.

If I say yes, will he take advantage of me like Hannah or get rape like Jessica.

"Clay!"

Walk faster Clay

Don't let him catch you

"CLAY STOP!"

"Leave me alone Justin"

I snapped at him, but never turned around.

I yelp, as I felt a hand grasped my wrist and draging me to an empty classroom.

"What do you want Justin"

"Look clay you have to understand that I really do like you"

"Uh huh, yeah right, I bet you say that to every girl in this school, especially Hannah and Jessica. well I'm gonna go"

As I turned around to leave, Justin grabbed me by the wrist agian, but what he did got me shocked ...

He was doing this on purpose. this is not real. why am I letting him pin me to the wall. one hand to my left.

Wait is he getting closer

"No Clay"

Justin said to me with a possessive tone in his voice.

What the fuck is going on.

Never once has Justin act this way to me, actually Justin and I never even talk after the tapes.

We were enemies when it came between the tapes.

But all I know was that Justin was the start of them all. Hannah is gone. One snap of a photo... lead a reason to a dead girl.

Jessica is gone. you let someone do one awful things. lead a reason for her to leave you.

I might be gone, because I don't want to risk my life because of you... Yet I don't know why I haven't left yet.

"No what Justin"

"Do not walk away"

"And why not"

why cant he leave me alone.

why am I the guy he likes.

why doesn't he go fuck a girl.

will I be just an object he can use when he is bored?

Why cant I think straight!

to be honest Justin... I like you since the beginning of the school year... crazy right.

I felt like it was love at first sight. but you never noticed me.

and here I am being pin to the wall, by you.

"I love you Clay"

There is that word

"You don't know what you are talking about"

" I do know. just give me a chance"

now I am debating. should I?

Tony knows. he knows I like you justin... he tells me. why like a guy, who doesn't know you exist.

I told him...

its not easy to let go of someone who has planted a flower inside my heart. its not easy to cut away the roots that has grown inside me because of you.

until you met Hannah...

until you met Jessica...

I have created thorns barricading my heart to let no one in now. I felt helpless.

Hannah tried to cut the thorns. Tony tried also. But failed...

"Will you cut the thorns that's hurting me"

I said, hesitantly

why did I told him that...

what made me blurt it out.

A hand in my cheek. A shiver throught my body as I felt the contact. Heat rising to my face.

"I will cut them... and plant new ones"

"New ones?"

"Beautiful ones"

What are you thinking clay...

Who are you, its like you don't know yourself anymore...

Helmet ...

What?

Flash back

"Hey helmet"

Hannah said walking next to me.

"Hey Hannah, what's up? You look happy today"

Hannah came up to me with the sweetest smile I have ever seen since I first met her.

"What I cant come up to you and smile"

"Well I didn't say that. I was just asking"

"Well since you asked, I have a date with Justin today"

"Whoa, Hannah are you sure? Why justin"

"Your saying it as its a bad thing"

"It is. Just imagine if dark Vader promising not to kill anyone. Guess what, that's a lie, everyone is dead"

" Oh my god, clay. Your such a nerd. Plus I know what I am doing."

"Are you sure because clearly you weren't thinking straight.

Why did i say that... she looks mad, I made her mad

"Well pardon me, but you really hurt my feelings"

Hannah walking faster away from me heartbroken. Stupid clay, why did you say that that her.

"HANNAH. Hannah WAIT.."

FLASH BACK END

"Will I end up like Hannah, Justin"

Justin looked at me shocked. Probably wasn't expecting that. Not even I expected that to come out of my mouth

"What do you mean clay?"

"You know what I fucking mean!"

"Will I end up dead as Hannah, or will I end up as Jessica?"

"No clay don't say that. I'm not going to do those things to you. I'm not going to be that person anymore"

"Pleased clay... just give me a chance"

No

"Okay..."

Okay? Did you just say OK clay? I meant to say no you dummy.

"Thank you clay, I love you"

Oh shit... he's leaning in.

why? Do I have something in my face?

Oh wait... Clay why are you so slow. Hes leaning in to kiss you!

He's kissing me. Should I stop this. Do I push him away. I like it... should I like it? Should I kiss back?

Maybe I should...

He is putting another hand on my right now, both hands now on both my sides.

Why am I letting him...

"Justin"

I managed to speak out.

"Yes clay" he says in between kissing

"I love you to"

Theirs that word...

I just fucked up didn't i

After some time of kissing we ended up breaking it...

"Ill see you later?"

"Later? Like where later"

"Your house later"

My house... he wants to go to my house later. Oh man I should say no

"Ok. Yeah sure my house"

You idiot

"Kay, see later Jensen"

He pecked me on the lips before leaving.

"Bye" I say as he leaves. Touching my lips where Justin was kissing me.

I just fucked uo my life didn't i...