This story is AU.
~*~o~*~
Todd arrived at Rae Cummings private psychiatric practice. Rae was a marriage counselor and a relationship expert. Todd hoped she would be able to help him with a few of his issues. His marriage was in trouble and he didn't want to lose Marty to his own doubts and insecurities.
"Todd!" Rae gasped with surprise when Todd walked into her office.
"Ohhh so you remember me, huh?" Todd asked as he stood there staring at her while she sat behind her desk.
"You're not someone I could easy forget," Rae said with a little sarcastic chuckle.
"Well, I need some counseling again according to my wife, but I will let you be the judge of that," Todd said with a heavy sigh.
"Why don't you sit down and get comfortable, Todd?" Rae suggested.
"Where's the nice, comfy couch?" he asked as he plopped himself down on an over-stuffed chair.
"I guess that chair will have to do," Rae responded as she prepared to jot down some notes regarding the session.
"So, Todd, what brings you here to see me?" she questioned.
"I seem to be having a problem."
"What sort of a problem?" she asked as she stared deeply into his eyes.
"Well... uhhhhhhhh... it's sort of a personal problem," Todd said as he fidgetted with the fringe on the armrest of the chair in which he was seated. "It's a little problem I'm ... uhhhh... having in the bedroom..."
"Really? Could you be more specific?"
"I can't make love to my wife. She scares the hell out of me... and I'm afraid I'll hurt her," Todd blurted out.
Rae quickly jotted down a few notes, much to Todd's annoyance. "So, you can't keep an erection with your wife?" she summarized.
"Listen," Todd groaned as he almost got up and walked out. "I just need you to help me, okay? Because I love Marty with all my heart and soul... and she wants a baby so damn much... but since we've been married I have only been able to make love to her a few times... and always it isn't very satisfying. I just don't want to hurt her again."
"I can help you, Todd," Rae promised. "But you've got to be willing to work for the end result. You'll have to work through all your issues and face all your demons. It isn't going to be easy."
"Just what do I have to do?" Todd questioned.
"We have to start with you being totally honest with me," Rae answered. "First of all, what scares you most of all when it comes to making love to Marty?"
~*~o~*~
Eventually Marty realized she had soaked Victor's shirt with her tears. She pulled back from his embrace with tears swimming in her dark-blue eyes. "I'm sorry, Victor. I shouldn't have..." she spoke as her voice suddenly trailed off.
"It's alright, Marty. You needed me, and I'll always be there for you if you let me," Victor responded.
"I know, but I opened up to you about personal issues concerning me and Todd when I should have kept my mouth shut. I'm sorry for putting all of that on your shoulders."
"It seems to me you needed someone to confide in. You know, Marty, you could have had my baby four years ago," he told her quietly. "But you chose to take the morning-after pill so you would not conceive my child."
Stark pain and sadness flashed through her eyes at his words. As true as they were, it was an unwelcome reminder. With a heavy sigh, she began to apologize. "Now I sort of wish I hadn't taken those pills because I would have loved your baby," she admitted as she gazed into his eyes.
Knowing that her words were sincere, he tenderly brushed a stray curl back from her face. "I believe you," he responded.
"Now perhaps it's too late... and I really want to have a child."
"I'll help you have a baby, Marty. Todd will never know. After all, he and I are identical twins with identical DNA. He will never know that it isn't his baby. And you will have your dream come true."
"What exactly are you proposing?" she asked him in surprise. "Are you suggesting artificial insemination?" Immediately, her heart began filling up with hope. Hope for the future and for a precious baby. Just as he had said; her dream come true.
Victor laughed dryly and said, "No, I want the real thing. The child will be conceived naturally or I am not doing this."
"You are suggesting I sleep with you?" Marty demanded.
"You know you want me, Marty. And you also know you want a child," he said with a smirk. "Unlike my brother, I happen to love sex. I will give you all the pleasure you ever dreamed of and a baby, too. Hell, I bet after one night together, you'd definitely be pregnant."
Marty stared at him in shock. She wanted to slap him for his wickedness, but part of her wanted exactly what it was he was offering. "I can't do that, Victor. I love Todd. And I can't betray him," she said in a voice shaking with the turbulence of her emotions.
"I think I can make you change your mind," he stated. Before she could respond, he suddenly he tugged her closer and settled his lips on hers.
~*~o~*~
Todd hesitated as it wasn't easy to talk about his sexual intimacy issues. "I'm always afraid I'll lose control," he finally admitted. "...That I'll lose control and hurt her like I did that terrible night all those years ago."
"And since you've been married, have you ever lost control and hurt her in any way?" asked Rae.
"No, but I've been very careful. All the time I feel I have to be on guard so I'm not too rough; so I won't cause her any pain. It would kill me if I ever hurt her again."
"And when you are making love to her, does she seem satisfied?"
"No, something's missing..." Todd said with a heavy sigh. "The first time we were together; it was so fuckin hot... and we just don't have that magic anymore. I'd give anything to have it back."
"What are you willing to do to get it back?" questioned Rae.
"Anything," was Todd's answer.