Season 4
Episode- "On The Head Pin"
Uriel had just left in a flutter of wings, Dean and Castiel were left alone in the run down factory. Dean turned to Castiel," You guys don't walk enough you're gonna get flabby." He joked. Castiel stared at him confused not getting it as usual. Dean shrugged, " You know I'm starting to think Chuckles has a better sense of humor than you do." "Uriel's the funniest angel in the garrison ask anyone." Castiel replied in his usual serious tone. Dean looked slightly taken aback then he shook it off and approached Castiel," What's going on Cas, since when does Uriel put a leash on you?" Castiel looked away then he brought his eyes back up to meet Dean's, "My superiors have begun to question my sympathies." He stated simply. "Your sympathies?" Dean questioned raising an eyebrow. " I was getting to close to the humans in my charge...you." Dean looked stunned Castiel considered them to be close, he was pulled out of his thoughts by Castiel's voice, " They feel I've begun to express emotions, doorways to doubt, this could impair my judgment..." Before he could continue Dean cut him off, "Me?" Castiel turned away and looked down at the floor trying to hide the blush that he could feel creeping into his cheeks. "Yes I have strong feeling towards you... stronger than I've had for any other human..." He turned to face Dean and their eyes met. Castiel tried to fight back the blush but it was to late it was there and it wasn't going away. He hoped Dean wouldn't notice as he continued, "It's as if we're..." Castiel tried to find the words. "Friends?" Dean spoke up trying to finish the angel's thought and process all this as best he could. "Yes I suppose." Castiel said taking his gaze away from Dean and once again staring at the floor. Deep down he knew the feelings he had for Dean were much stronger than what humans called friendship but he couldn't admit that...not to Dean anyway. Dean stepped a little closer to the angel and placed a hand on his shoulder, "Cas.." Castiel looked back up at him Dean noted the slight redness on the angel's cheeks, he smiled 'He's actually kinda cute when he blushes.' His smile faded when he realized he had just actually thought that his male friend was cute! He decided to try and ignore it he could beat himself up about it later. "Cas, I'm asking you as a friend please don't make me do this." he finally spoke again. Castiel's heart sank hearing his friend's plea. He sighed, "If it were up to me I wouldn't but, I've been told it's necessary." Dean walked past him and over to the door, " You ask me to open that door and walk through it, you will not like what walks back out." his lips were trembling as he spoke those words. "For what it's worth, I'd give anything not to have you do this." Castiel said with a heavy heart.
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Dean wheeled the cart of instruments up to the door, he paused, "Dean.." Castiel's voice called from behind him. Dean looked over his shoulder, "Yea." "Be careful." Castiel said sincerely concerned for his friend's safety. Dean just nodded and continued into the room. Castiel prayed to his Father to keep Dean safe, even though Alastair was completely bound there was always an element of danger involved in dealing with demons. Especially demons as powerful and tricky as Alastair.
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Something wasn't right Castiel stared at the door it was quiet too quiet. He approached quickly and opened it his heart leapt when he saw Alastair was loose and had Dean pinned. He grabbed the knife off the table and lunged forward. He spun Alastair around and plunged the knife into his chest, unfortunately he had just missed Alastair's heart. The demon staggered back he looked down at the knife, "Almost" then up at Castiel, " Looks like God is on my side today." the smugness in his voice was all to evident. Castiel extended his hand and tried to use his power to maneuver the knife but Alastair took hold of it and pulled it out. He dropped the knife to the ground and lunged forward knocking Castiel back. Dean lay bloodied on the floor, 'I have to help Cas.' he thought and tried to get up but his body was too weak. The last thing he saw was Sam pinning Alastair to the wall then everything faded to black.
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Castiel stood under the street lamp the cold night air blowing around him, "Anna.." He called to his sister. He waited but there was no response, "Anna please..." he tried once more. Seconds later the street light above him began to flicker, he turned to see Anna standing behind him. "Decided to kill me after all." she said coldly. "I'm alone." He said hoping to lighten the tension. "What do you want from me Castiel?" he asked tone still unchanged. Castiel sighed, "I'm considering disobedience." he admitted. Anna nodded, "Good." she was glad she had gotten though to he brother earlier if only a little. "No it isn't for the first time...I feel..." Castiel paused looking down. Anna smiled she knew what was troubling her brother, call it big sister's intuition. "It's Dean isn't it." she moved closer to him. Castiel remained silent for a minute, "Yes partially." he admitted reluctantly. Anna decided it was time to clear the air, "You don't have to worry..." she paused and placed a hand on his shoulder, " I won't try to come between you and I'm sorry for what I did, I don't love him I was just tyring to get back at you. You were trying to kill me after all." she laughed a little. "Forgive me?" she asked with her hand still firmly on Castiel's shoulder. His only response was to nod in agreement, Anna smiled again and pulled her little brother into a hug. Castiel sighed and buried his face in his sister's shoulder, "Anna..." He finally said just above a whisper. "Yea" she answered. "What's happening to me?" she could hear the fear in Castiel's voice. She softly stroked his head, " It's called love, and it's just the beginning, there are other emotions, it's confusing overwhelming even at times." Castiel groaned he didn't want this to get worse he wanted things to go back to the way they were. He pulled out of the hug, " I don't know what to do, please tell me what to do." Anna let out a small laugh, "Just like old times..." She wished she could, give Castiel an easy answer, make all his confusion go away but she couldn't not this time. " I'm sorry Cas, it's time to think for yourself." that was he final statement before she disappeared in a flutter of wings. Castiel was left there alone with his thoughts and still no clue as to how to handle these budding emotions.
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Castiel appeared in Dean's hospital room he had just come from his battle with Uriel. He kept thinking that all that was going though his mind the entire time was that Uriel had put Dean in danger on purpose and would've gotten Dean killed if he had his way. He made his way over to Dean's bed, Dean was still asleep. " I'm so sorry Dean..." He reached out and lightly stroked the sleeping man's hair. "From now on I promise to protect you, I'll never let anyone harm you again." He leaned down and pressed a light kiss to Dean's cheek. He sat down in the chair next to the bed and relaxed he wanted to be there when Dean woke up. When Dean awoke hours later Castiel breathed a sigh of relief and when he started to cry after finding out he was the one that had to end the apocalypse Castiel wanted nothing more than to wipe his tears away and make all his pain disappear.