''You are coming to firehouse for dinner, right?''

''Yeah, don't worry, I will be there.'' He assured her and she kissed him on his forehead. Packing up her stuff, she kissed him one more and walked to the car. Closing the door, Matt sat back with a sigh.

Gabby had been so worried about him the last few days he was glad it was finally the day today so he could just show her that he was fine. He knew she meant it well and she didn't underestimate him, but because she cared about him and loved him.

Getting into the shower, he hoped she had a good day at work. The last thing he wanted was to stop her doing what she liked.

In the shower, everything took a lot longer. He was worried to fall over and since Gabby wouldn't be home till tomorrow morning, the last thing he wanted was to fall over. Looking down at his hands and legs, he felt bad. Months ago he had been workign as a firefighter, and now he could barely feel the water hitting his legs.

He got out of the shower and made his way to the kitchen after getting dressed. Wanting to make breakfast, he looking for something but saw there was a sandwich on the table and he rolled his eyes.

''Oh Gabby.'' He sighed. He knew she meant it well but he felt that she was really scared to leave him alone, while he had been working really hard so he could do things on his own again, but she was so worried about him. It was sweet, and she was his wife, but he wanted to get used to doing things himself again. He knew there were a lot of things he could do, especially because of his hands. She did want to make him comfortable, but it only made him frustrated.

Grabbing the laptop from the table and putting it on his lap, he started checking his emails. His hands were shaking and he didn't have a lot of power in his fingers. It took a lot longer than before and it annoyed him. Especially around Gabby he could barely do it, since she usually insisted on helping him.

Leaving to go to physical therapy, he hoped that he could soon drive again as well. It was all small steps, but he wanted to do good for himself, as well as for Gabby.

After physical therapy, he made his way to the firehouse. He was frustrated after the long session and he just wanted to go home, but Gabby wanted him to be here for dinner. Even though he had worked really hard in the center on regaining use of his hands, it was in no way good enough to make a full dinner.

Coming in, the squad table greeted him. Kelly got u and walked his way, shaking his hand.

''How are you feeling?'' Kelly asked.

''Fine.'' Matt mumbled. Kelly was silent and Matt knew that he knew Matt just said it to be done with the answer.

''Can I drop off my stuff in your office?'' Matt asked and Kelly nodded, walked along with him.

''How was your day alone at home.''

''I am fine.'' He assured Kelly. ''It would be a lot easier if people would stop worrying about me all the time.''

''Sorry, I don't think any of us mean it in a bad way.''

''I know, sorry. I am just frustrated.'' Matt admitted.

''I get that, don't worry. Gabby has been nervous all day. She is not doubting you, she just wants you to feel okay.''

''I know, you are right.'' Matt sighed, ''I am just really frustrated.''

''Again, I get it, really.'' Kelly said and Matt felt a bit better talking about this with his friend.

They made their way to the common room where they were finishing up dinner.

''Hey, good to see you.'' Gabby smiled as she saw him, kissing him.

''Nice to be here.'' Matt lied as they hugged.

''Nice you are joining us for dinner.'' Hermann smiled.

''Gabby didn't trust me in the kitchen. Honestly I shouldn't be.'' Matt mumbled. Joining the table, Kelly stacked his plate up for him and put it in front of him.

''Good luck, Cruz made it.''

''Funny!'' Cruz shook his head but had a laugh about it himself then as well. After dinner, even though it was nice to be here, he really just wanted to go home.

''Alright, I am heading home.'' Matt said and Gabby walked to the exit with him as she was calling a taxi for him.

''Everything fine at home?''

''Yeah, I mean, I worked hard in the center to manage myself and go home, so I am fine.'' He said a bit angry.

''I was just a bit concerned. But I know you can do it.''

They looked away from each other and shared a kiss at the taxi arrived.

''I will be fine, really.'' Matt said frustrated and he got into the taxi. At home he was glad to be home honestly. Even though it was just a short dinner at the firehouse, the whole day had tired him out with the therapy session as well. But he wanted to get breakfast for him and Gabby as well. Making his way to the shop, he got the bread she really liked, as well as some juice and stuff for the bread.

''You want some oranges? Got lots fresh in today, getting more tomorrow.'' The shopkeeper said as he held up a bag.

''Sure, how much are they?''

''No, you can take them.''

''Thanks!'' Matt smiled, getting his money together for the rest of the groceries.

''I remember reading something about a firefighter getting stuck in a collapsed building. I have been wondering…I hope it is okay I ask that.''

''Yeah, that was me.'' Matt admitted.

''Sorry.''

''Why is everybody so sorry for me? I can't really change it.'' Matt said a bit angry, feeling bad immediately.

''Sorry about that.''

''I shouldn't have asked.''

''No it is fine, anyway, thanks again. See you next time.''

''Have a nice evening.''

''Thanks.'' Matt said and he made his way back home.

He got showered and settled in bed, turning the TV on. It had been nice to be at the firehouse, but it also confronted him with the fact that there was not a lot he could do anymore of the things he used to do when he spend an evening at home. Before he would go on a run, or work on some contracting job, but now he had to look for other things to do. It wasn't something he had thought about in the hospital and the center, just focusing on going home, but now he knew he had to find something else to do. He knew that when he was done with all his therapy, he wanted to start working as soon as possible again, but he had no idea what.

He knew that he had to finish up his rehabilitation first, but he really wanted to. Being home alone while Gabby was on shift was really boring, even after one day.

His back was hurting and it was a bit annoying. The whole day he had been upset, and he felt frustrated. He had been practicing so hard and even now, he was still frustrated about it, even though he could do most of the things he needed to do.

Getting ready, he fell asleep, annoyed with the night, hoping he and Gabby would be better tomorrow.

Gabby walked into the house the next morning, silent. She didn't want to wake Matt up, but when she walked in he was already in the kitchen. There was some bread on the table, as well as toppings and he was waiting by the coffee machine for it to be done.

''Hey, glad you are home.'' Matt smiled and they shared a kiss.

''Good to be home again, it was a long shift.''

''Starving For breakfast?''

''You bet.'' Gabby nodded, hungry after the shift.

''Got some bread from the store and that cheese you really like.''

''You are too good for me.'' Gabby kissed him.

''I know it is not great, but I tried.'' Matt admitted

''Are you kidding me, it is great.''

''How was work?'' He asked as he put the coffee on the table so that Gabby could pour it in their cups, as he was worried to spill it.

''It was good, how did you manage?''

''Oh fine, just had a slow morning, got ready, took the bus to therapy and hung around the house a bit after going home from the firehouse.'' He admitted. He looked a bit down and Gabby laid her hand on his.

''What is wrong?''

''I just wish I had a hobby I could still do. I can't do contracting, I can't do sports and I can't play games with my hands. I just want to find something to kill time again.'' Matt admitted. ''I was really frustrated yesterday.''

''I understand.'' Gabby said, she could imagine that it was hard on him.

''I was just sitting around watching TV. I got really bored.'' Matt admitted.

''I get that, you always had so much going on so I can imagine it is weird, but you will find something, I know.''

''I know.''

''Oh, the shopkeeper added in some oranges as well, just came in fresh.'' Matt pointed at them on the cupboard. ''I didn't bother making juice from them cause you probably didn't want to clean the kitchen after a long shift.''

''I can make some if you like.''

''I would like some.'' Matt admitted.

Gabby started cutting the oranges them as Matt looking at her from the table.

''Gabby?''

''Yeah?''

''I am sorry I was so frustrated yesterday. I am really grateful for how you have been and I am really grateful to have you as my wife.''

She smiled at him and walked his way, kissing him.

''Thank you…and I get the frustration, but you know it is going to be okay, right?''

''I know.''

Holding her close, he hoped that he would finally accept it all soon himself as well.