Not alone anymore: chapter 8
Shadow's POV
I was really dissapointed. I thought that i was waking up next to my late husband. I thought that sonic's passing and my years of loneliness were all just one big nightmare. And that i would wake up to find my late husband comforting me like he always used to do whenever i had a nightmare. I was sitting at the table drinking my coffee. Well, you couldn't exactly call it drinking if i was just going around with my small spoon in the cup.
"you that dissapointed?" Sonic asked and placed his hands on my shoulders. "you weren't who i thought you were. i apologize." I said and took a sip from my coffee. "you don't have to apologize. i think i have an idea as to why you're so sad now." he said and went to sit down opposite of me at the table. "oh?" I said and kept staring at my coffee. "i have a feeling you really care for this hedgehog." He said and held up the photograph of my late husband. "and you're sad because you didn't wake up next to him." He finished his sentence and placed the frame on the table. "i can tell what relationship i had with him. but you have to promise me not to get mad." I said and took the frame and looked at it. "okay, i promise." He said and looked at me curiously. "he was my husband." I answered and smiled at the frame. "for some reason i don't seem surprised. i wonder why that is." He said. "he passed away a long time ago." I said and felt sadness grow inside me like it always did. "i see, so uhm... is it possible that i'm related to you since i look alot like your late husband?" He asked. "it's impossible." I said. "it is? how?" He asked with his regular curiousity. "i had only 2 children. one was a few months after the other. but unfortunatly the first one was a misscarriage and the second one passed away during the first night." I said and began to have tears in my eyes. "oh, i'm sorry." He said and watched me as tears gathered in the corners of his eyes. "excuse me." I said and got up to maybe hide in my bedroom and cry a bit silently.
Sonic's POV
I watched shadow walk away. He was about to cry. I had to do something to comfort him. I softly grabbed shadow's wrist and pulled him back gently. "shadow, it's okay. it's okay to cry whenever there is someone near to comfort you." I said and smiled at him gently. "oh, sonic, i can't take it anymore." He said and fell to his knees. I went to my knees in front of him and laid my hands on his shoulders. "i can't go on any longer. i can't wake up anymore to find myself completely alone. Friends, family or place to truly call home. I don't have that anymore." He said let his tears fall freely from his eyes. "you have been alone for a very long time, haven't you?" I asked and pulled him in for a hug. "you were the last one i had left. you were the last mental support i had left. after you passed away, i was completely lost." Shadow sobbed into my chest. I was stroking his quills. I honestly had no idea what to say to comfort him. He looked like nothing could comfort him. "s-sonic...please...please don't leave me again. please, i beg of you." He whimpered and held tightly onto him shirt.
I allowed him to cry his heart out into my chest. I honestly had no idea what to do or say. "sonic, please answer me." he begged and looked up to me. I wish i could answer him. I really had no idea what to answer. "say something! please!" he yelled and gathered new tears in the corners of his eyes. I didn't answer once again. What was i supposed to say anyway? The new tears started to run down his cheeks. He pushed me away and ran to his bedroom. "shadow, wait." I said and ran after him. Shadow ran into his bedroom and locked the door behind him. I ran to the door and knocked on it. "shadow, could you please open the door." I said and tugged on the door knob. He ignored me. "shadow?" I said and tugged on the door knob. Shadow didn't answer again. I sat down in front of the bedroom door and waited. Listening to shadow's crying.
A long while passed by before shadow's crying had silenced. It had stayed silent after that. Nothing moved at the other side of the door. Which got me worried about him. I got up from the floor again and knocked on the door. "shadow?" I said in worry. Still no answer. I got really worried now. I broke the lock of the door and opened. "shadow?" I said carefully and walked inside.
I looked around in the room silently. I looked at shadow's bed. I sighed in relief. He had just fallen asleep from the crying. I sat down on the side of the bed. I laid a hand on shadow's forehead. I laid down on my back and waited for him to wake up. I had decided my answer to his question. I had decided to stay next to him. Just like he had requested me to do. If i really was his only mental support he had left years ago. Then it would only end badly for him if i didn't stay with him. And for some reason, i felt like i had to do this. I felt like something or someone inside me who was forcing me to submit to him. It almost felt like an old instinct. I couldn't quite put my finger on it. But i dismissed the thought and tried to fall asleep aswell, even though it was still morning.