April 7
...I...don't really want to talk about what happened yesterday. Then again, I can't say I have much of a choice, so...here we go.
It was a massacre.
It started out decently...we learned that Lissa's friend from the Shepherds had been captured by Plegian bandits, and Emmeryn wanted us to come along with her to parley with their ruler, "Mad King Grangrel." We traveled to a mountainous border pass between Yylysse and Plegia, and the king blathered on about how Maria Bell "invaded their territory" and "injured the noble soldiers who sought only to bring her home." Do you not realize that she's a defenseless Troubadour, Mongrel? He demanded the sacred treasure known as the Fire Emblem as recompense, but Emmeryn refused. He sent some Barbarians after her, but Chrom easily cut them down. The king's...sidekick, I suppose, went over to kill Mary Bella, but this Mage kid that Chrom wouldn't let come with us saved her. We got in our battle positions, and I was confident we could defeat these Plegians without too much trouble.
Then...the slaughter began.
I immediately had Lissa run over to the right to rescue her friend from the cliff above. The mage tried to follow her down, but a Wyvern Rider swooped over and cut him down...
...I never even learned his name.
I tried to tell myself it was all right. We already had a Mage, and she was turning out even better than him at the moment. However, I couldn't forget that he was practically a child, out here in a war zone, and I got him killed.
...I had Fredrick ride up a path to block off the Plegian soldiers from coming down to us. Of course, I forgot about the Wyvern Knight, and...
Well, I'll just say that we don't have any Mages anymore.
Chrom tells me I became unresponsive right about then. That makes sense, since the rest of the battle was a blur. I'm not sure why my systems shut down like that. Maybe I was blaming myself for their deaths, and my mind couldn't handle all the guilt. Maybe I subconsciously realized that the army would be better off without me, and I decided to take that matter into my own hands.
Maybe I was just a really sore loser. I don't know. What I do know is that, without any guidance, Vaike charged right at some Dark Mages, without support, without even a ranged weapon...
Fighters generally don't have good magical resistance, you see.
We ended up winning the battle, by the way...if you could call it that. Heavy casualties, and we just started a war, to boot.
...last night, I made myself a promise. I would never again let one of my soldiers die in battle. No matter what happened, I would make sure they all came back, safe and alive!
Then Lisaa dropped a toad down my back. Way to ruin the moment.
~James Helpmeeee