A/N: Thank you so much for your reviews and support of this story. In all honest I don't know if I am going to continue this story because I have no idea where to go from here. I miss little Rachel and I'm thinking of just starting a new chapter where she's like a little girl again. Review and tell me what you think.
"Alright Rach I've got to get home before my parents do alright?" Jesse asked cautiously as he slipped on his shoes the following morning. At Rachel's very hesitant face the boy placed a soft kiss on her hairline. "I'll be back later I promise Rach."
"You don't have to." Rachel murmured shyly as she marched over to her dresser and threw a sweater on over her thin long sleeve t-shirt. "Thank you for spending the night with me I really appreciate it." She told him as if she were putting a world between herself and her best friend. She didn't want to be a burden to one more person, she couldn't be.
"Don't do that Rachel!" Jesse shouted grabbing his friends shoulders and giving her a slight shake, ignoring the painful glint in the brunette's eyes. "Don't you dare push me away Rachel. I am here for you and you can't get rid of me that easily."
Pushing Jesse away from her harshly Rachel spat. "Don't you dare touch me again Jesse. I need you but I just I don't want to be a burden."
Jesse sighs and kneels down in front of his favorite girl in the entire world. "I love you Rachel and I've told you that time and time again. I love you so much and I just want to see you happy and you're not happy" As Rachel opens her mouth to protest Jesse holds up a hand to silence her, "Rach I worry about you so much because I can see in your face that you're miserable. I'll be back later alright."
As Jesse walks out of the room he feels something in his gut, telling him that today is not going to be a good day in fact it's going to be a terrible one.
"Where's Mom?" Kurt grumbled as he sat at the breakfast table picking lucky charms out of the box like a little boy.
Blaine kissed Kurt's cheek and gave him a wide grin. "I love you when you're hungover baby." He smiled kissing his husband softly. "Look at how cute you are baby!" He squealed excitedly. Kurt had only been drunk about three times in their relationship but seeing him like this afterwards made him make a mental note to get his husband drunk more often.
"My little brother is always adorable." Santana told him as she sat at the table with the two men while everyone else sleeps off the stress from the previous night. "I think Mom's still at the hospital baby brother."
Kurt grumbled something before turning back to his box and munching into the cereal angrily. "Good morning Rachel!" He smiled when he saw his little sister walk into the kitchen and grab a bottle of juice from the fridge.
"Morning," She doesn't smile at all and this concerns the rest of them. "Is mom still at the hospital? I thought I heard her come in last night.I'm actually sure I did because she told me good night."
Santana grabs a bowl and the box of cereal from Kurt who pouts and grumbles before handing Rachel some cereal. "Maybe Mom went back this morning princess."
"Yeah maybe!" The petite brunette mumbles before biting her cereal ferociously just like Kurt. This day is not going to be a good one, but on the bright side most of the family will be gone tomorrow and she'll be alone at last.
"Mike, honey, why don't you go and try to talk to your sister again." Tina begged as she held her husbands hand, the couple looking into the incubator that held their little girl ,their beautiful and incredibly strong little girl.
Mike looked away from his baby girl and into the eyes of his wife. " I don't know what to say to her Tina and right now I don't think she'll ever forgive me. I can't even forgive myself for what I've said."
Tina pressed a soft kiss to her husband's neck and smelled his scent, letting it calm her. "Rachel loves you she'll forgive you, but not if you don't try. Mike please do it for me and Kennedy."
Mike looked down at the baby and quickly slipped his hand into the incubator rubbing the small hand with his pointer finger. "I love you both and I'll be back soon."
"Rach!" Mike calls into the empty house, having seen no cars in the drive except for hers and he takes a chance that she's there. "Rach!" he screams again running up to his sister's room.
"Oh god!" He cries when he sees her with a razor in hand and blood flowing down her legs. "Rachel Oh god!" He screams rushing to her and pulling the offending item from her hand. "I'm sorry!"
Rachel's still high from the after effects of the harm she's done herself and she smiles dopily. "It helps me feel happy!"
"Oh god help me please!" The man cries falling to his knees and putting his heads in his hands."What have I done to you?"
"Oh princess!" Mike cries once his sister is cleaned up and he's holding her in his arms. "I never meant any of it baby girl." The young father and husband just wants to drop dead on the floor because he knows he caused his little sister to harm herself, he led her to self mutilation and no matter how much time goes by he'll still be unable to forgive himself.
He remembers when Rachel was just a teeny little five year old and had looked at him with those chocolate brown eyes and he had promised to protect her with everything he had, even if she wasn't biologically his sister. When she was just a baby practically she had invited Mike into her family and allowed him to protect her, and now he couldn't even do that for her? Hating himself was the first thing on his mind.
"Mike?" The young brunette whispers hesitantly as she looks into the eyes of the young man holding her. "Mike. Listen none of this is your fault," She whispers when she sees the self hatred clearly in his eyes. In all honesty Rachel is upset over what he said to her but she knows in her mind that he would have never said those things if he hadn't been absolutely terrified of losing all he ever had. "I was cutting before. I started in the fall and I've been doing it ever since."
"Why would you do that to yourself? Rachel, I think we need to have you talk to a therapist."
"No I won't do it again Mike. Please? Mike, please don't make me!" She pleads grabbing onto her brother's hand and gripping it as tightly as possible. Rachel's telling lies but he can't know that, and he won't.
Mike's already feeling incredibly guilty for what he's said to his little sister, but what can he do let her continue cutting or tell everyone what's going on and get her to stop? He has no clue what to do in a situation like this; this was never mentioned in the how to be an older brother handbook and now he's just lost. "Rach? You need help. I know that you're scared but you need it. This may all be my fault but I love you more than you can know and I just can't see you hurt." Those are the words the young man wants to speak but he can't, his mouth feels full of cotton and he just nods his head dumbly.
"I'll try to get better," Rachel whispers leaning her head against her brother's shoulder. "I don't want to be this way."
"I can't believe we have to go back home tomorrow." Finn tells his children as he packs their suitcases and they try to assist.
Eve nods her head and looks to her father with tears in her eyes. "I don't want to go back Daddy because Aunt Rachel is really sad and she's going to cry."
The young man sighs heavily before sitting down and pulling his eight year old onto his lap. "I know that you're worried about Rachel and I know that you love her, she's going to be just fine. Soon will be living in our new house and we'll be really close to Rach."
Eve looks up at her father with wide eyes that nearly breaks his heart. "You promise." Finn doesn't know how to respond, and so her doesn't.
"Artie you go back to Texas and I'll just stay for a week more." Brittany promises as she looks at her fiance sweetly. "I just... I can't leave her like this or my mom and Dad. Mike is still a mess, Tina will be in the hospital for four more days ,and then they'll be staying until Kennedy's out of the hospital."
"Sweetie you can stay with your family." Artie smiles and kisses her lips chastely. "Baby girl I love you and your family and they need you more than I do right now."
Feeling like her heart might completely explode at that moment Brittany opens her mouth," How did I ever get to be so lucky to have someone like you fall in love with me?" She's not just asking to see that adorable little smile on her true love's face, no she says it because she wants to know. Brittany has baggage, like the big kind ,not a little carry-on, and he has never held that against her. The Blond was not the most intelligent girl and he was a doctor and yet he never looked down on her. Artie never called her stupid when she asked rather simple questions or had that dazed look in her eye when he spoke in medical lingo. Artie was the best man she could ever find and she had no idea why he chose her.
"Baby are you kidding me?" The man in a wheelchair asks astounded. "I'm the lucky one. The beauty that fell in love with the beast."
"You're the most beautiful man in the entire world to me." Brittany tells him as she pulls the man in for a long and steamy kiss, lasting for several minutes before breaking apart. "I love you."
"I love you too."
"Can I come in?" Shelby asked poking a head into her youngest daughter's bedroom when she arrived home from the hospital later on in the day. "What are you doing?" She asked as she saw her daughter writing furiously in her diary.
Rachel let a soft smile drift onto her face to answer her mother, "Just getting some stuff out of my head." She answered simply, not wanting her always worrying mother to worry." How's Tina?"
"Tina's fine but the real question is how are you princess?" Shelby asks sitting on the edge of the bed and placing her hand atop Rachel's blanket covered leg. "Mike told me you talked out your differences today."
"We did. I assured him that I do not under any circumstances harbor ill feelings towards him. I know that Mike would never hurt me purposefully."
Will hears his wife and daughter talking as he strides down the hall and he stops sitting on the bed next to his wife. "I'm glad you know that baby girl.I know he did hurt you a lot though."
"Daddy it's okay,we all make mistakes." The young brunette tells her father as she sees the creases in his forehead deepen. "I love him and I know deep down that he loves me too."
"I love you so much Rach." Shelby whispers as tears feel her eyes and she leans forward to wrap her arms around her daughter. Will wraps his strong arms around his daughter and wife and sighs heavily because right now things aren't great, but this moment it is.