Sitting here on the floor, I became very good at counting seconds, minutes, hours. 30 seconds pass from my decision. 45. 1 minute. 5 minutes. 30 minutes. 1 hour. No Peeta. 2 hours. Now, 3. No Peeta. I feel my heart drop lower with every counting second.

The grass is green they sky is grey

The wind is blowing through the leaves

I hear the birds sing merrily

I smell the flowers sweet of May

As through the fields I walk alone

The cold grey creeps inside my skin

I feel numbness oozing in

My heart has not yet turned to stone

I need no one

I stand alone

The fields are bare

Wind in my hair

I look away

My eyes are shy

I feel a tear-

Must be the wind

My poetic thoughts are disturbed by a slammed door, ruff sigh and dialogue. "Katniss, I'm sorry you won't have kids. I'm sorry I pushed it onto you."

I suppress a smile while walking over to the door to wrap my arms around Peeta. I kiss him passionately but get no response. "Peeta, I'm sure having kids with you would be wonderful. Damn right they would be gorgeous, I mean they have you as a father. I want kids with you, Peeta. But not now, maybe next year. We are so young. I think we deserve a chance to live life a little louder before bringing a soul into the world."

15 seconds. 45 seconds. Only sea blue eyes staring back at me in amusement. 1 minute. He captures me with his lips excitedly. The kiss lasts 15 heart beats.

"KATNISS! I am so happy!" He says while lifting me up to spin me. We are laughing like crazy.

"I'm glad." And the kisses filled with happiness continue.

We swan-dive into the volcano, burning;

We're creatures of the catching fire,

Mingled male and female, yearning

For the heat, the sweet explosion of desire

I splash into the pleasure, all consuming;

I'm joyfully insane,

My passion for you deep, and fully blooming;

Long after, sweet warm flickers still remain.

You make my body sizzle with your kisses,

And yet there's so much more;

My heart is kindled, too; It knows what bliss is,

This closeness that I've never felt before.

My body and my heart belong to you;

I'm peaceful and complete.

I see more adventures coming for we two,

We creatures of the tender fire and heat

Peeta picks me up and I hang there for a moment unsure of what to do. I wrap my legs around his waist and tug at the buttons on his shirt. "It's okay, Peeta. We can do it, but as long as it doesn't lead to kids." I whisper against his lips.

"Positive? If I hurt you in any way, you must tell me." He responds, carrying me up the stairs.

"Positive." He lays me on the bed and the night dances around with us. The night I will never forget. I get the same feeling at the bakery. The feeling I call: fearless.

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When I awaken, the birds outside sing happily. Peeta's naked body lays beside me. I blush feverishly as I think of what we did last night. He stirs beside me as I giggle like a little girl. "Morning darling." I say romantically. Am I flirting? Well, that is new for both of us.

"Morning love." He says back tiredly. I roll so I am pressed against him.

"We have to get up Peeta." I say groaning.

"I know, I know. I can sleep for another lifetime. But that would mean days spent without you."

"Shut up, Peeta, I'm blushing." I laugh.

"I have one request of you." He says, growing more serious, "So I can fall back asleep to a beautiful voice, may you sing to me?"

"Sing?" I croak. "I haven't done that in so long."

"Well, you did whisper poems in my ear last night that were quite amazing." He praises.

He heard? I said my poems aloud? I feel my cheeks grow red before saying, "Okay."

The only poem that comes to mind is something my mother sang to my father when she was sick. It was the only thing I heard her sing after he died.

"A gentle brush of his fingers,

Sending shivers down my spine.

In the love I see in his eyes,

Is a love that equals mine.

He greets me with a smile,

and leaves me with a kiss.

If he were to ever leave me,

I couldn't imagine what I'd miss.

Maybe it's his touch,

Or the way he makes me feel.

But whatever it is,

I'm head over heals"

"Katniss," Peeta whispers, "That was beautiful."

"Thank you."

"Stay with me, Katniss, please? Until i fall to sleep?" He plead.

Maybe he was asleep, or just awake enough to here it but I responded with, "Always."

When Peeta is asleep, I do the counting game again. Only this time, I am counting his heart beats and breaths. I play with his hair while his head is in my lap and sing him sweet lullabies. How idiotic of me to not believe his love to me was real back then. A stupid girl I was. It took me 2 Hunger Games and a War to realize my true love for Peeta. Why he hasn't left me is an amazing thought. I took his love for grated, couldn't see through my blind eyes. I do not deserve this boy. He is an angel, and my job is to create a life that is heaven.

Okay.. I'm sorry for the over load of poems/songs but I was just in the mood. Sorry if it's horrible because I didn't want it to be too long before I got another chapter out. If there is any spelling and grammar mistakes, I'm sorry. Don't you worry, this weekend I have all the time in the world and I'm planning on giving you a new chapter everyday. Get ready for a big, big, big event that involves the wonderful EFFIE! I have enough drama with Gale and want him AWAY so I'm going to give you a twisty suprise! (At least I hope it's twisty!) Love you all!