Prompt: Pain
Post-TRB
Warning: Possibly trigger. Got some Angst!John here for you.
Length: 211 words
Disclaimer: Still no, but I promise you'll be the first to know.
The pain was good. I reveled in the pain. The pain proved that I could still feel, even if the dried tear trails suggested I had wept out all feeling, in the small hours. The pain proved otherwise. I was not an empty shell, for how could an empty shell hurt so?
Pain is the body's way of telling you something is wrong so that it can be fixed. I am a doctor, I should know. A shell of a person does need fixing so pain is unnecessary.
I was close though. It did hurt, yes, but the pain didn't bother me like it should have. I felt it, felt my body reacting properly, and even felt the natural want to fix the source of the pain, to make it better.
I recognized the need, and followed that recognition, but the want or urgency wasn't there. I am close to becoming a shell, and that thought scares me. God, does it scare me. I suppose the fear is good.
The fear means some part of me wants to keep fighting, and for the life of me, for the memory of a man I now realize I love, I will.
But this battle, this uphill struggle, I may not survive.
In fact I am sure I won't.
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-JC