You Love, You Die
Chapter 3:
( Dimitri POV )
Tasha told me Christian was on the phone and he wanted to speak to me, I walked over to her and she handed me the black cordless phone and I walked outside with it.
"Hello Christian," I said him, "what's wrong?" I asked him, wondering why he would want to speak to me.
"It's Rose," was all Christian managed to croak out. I felt the shock ware off and then the pain taking over and the guilt and I felt silent tears falling down my face.
"What's wrong with Rose? Did she do something wrong? Did she get expelled?" I asked, and my heart started thumping wildly and I was getting really worried.
"No. She committed suicide, Dimitri," he told me. "She was acting really strange after you left, she dyed her hair blonde and got bubblegum pink, purple and blue streaks and started straightening her hair even more straightened then it was. She never talked to us any more and she was always in her room. She ran and trained more than usual, you'd see her up at 12.00 pm while everyone is seeing and she'd be running 120 laps twice a day-morning and afternoon-and I've seen scars on her arms, from cuts and then about half an hour ago we found her with a Stake through her chest," he said.
I felt my heart ache and I felt tears run down my face and I wished I had never left Rose and I knew it was all my fault and I felt horrible, and I wanted to see my Roza.
I sighed heavily. "Tasha and I will be coming," I said and then paused, "right away."
"Okay, well I want to go see if Lissa's alright," he said..
"Okay bye," I said. I wanted to see my Roza-my love, my life. But, I left her and she isn't mine now and never will be.
"Dimitri!" Tasha called, trying to be seductive at it. I internally groaned. I felt disgusted in myself that I actually decided to be Tasha's Guardian.
"Yes Tasha?" I asked her with no emotion showing and had-what Rose likes to call it-my Guardian face on.
Tasha frowned when she seen my face was as stoic as ever. "What did Christian want?" she asked.
"We have to go back to Saint Vladamirs," I told her.
"Why?" she asked.
"It's Rose, she committed suicide," I told her, trying not to cry. At that moment when I said that, it felt like it was true and I wanted to cry for what I had caused. I broke her heart and even when she pleaded my name I had never turned around, even when I wanted to run back to her and pull her into my arms. I never turned back to her when she fell to the gym floor and wrapped her arms around her knees and laid her forehead on her arm and cried for me to stay and that she would keep her control and made all these promises to be good and to graduate with a top mark and do well on her assignments and do well on her schooling and try to make me proud of her, but the fact was that I had been proud of her and she was the top her class and she did try to get good marks on her assignments and she did try to be good, and she had perfect control. She was perfect. She is perfect, and always will be, I knew that for sure.
Tasha gasped when she heard that Rose committed suicide, Tasha's face was a look of shock. "Oh my god," she whispered lowly, but not low enough for me to hear. "Are you alright?" she asked when she noticed the tears in my eyes.
"Yeah," I said but my voice cracked.
"Oh Dimitri," she said and came forward towards me and hugged me. I hugged her back. "I'm sorry, she was your student and you would have never known, I'm sorry," she said. I pulled back and smiled at Tasha, she was-and still is-my friend, almost my best friend. I felt bad for her because I could never like her the way she likes me.
"I'm going to call Janine, if the school hasn't already," I said to Tasha and went back outside. I felt Tasha's eyes on my every move as I walked out the door.
I dialled Janine's number when I was outside on the front porch and the phone started ringing.
"Hello Guardian Hathaway speaking," Janine answered.
"Hello Janine it's Dimitri Belikov," I said into the phone.
"Hello Dimitri. What's wrong?" she asked.
"Nothing, it's just that Rose...she uh..." I didn't know how to tell her that her daughter committed suicide because of me.
"What did she do? Did she get expelled? Did she get into a fight?" she asked.
"No, but Rose she committed suicide," I told her. I heard wind gushing in the phone and then a sob.
"Thanks for telling me Dimitri," she said. "I've got to talk to Lord Szelksy now about going to Saint Vladamirs," she said and then hung up. I walked back inside and then put the phone back on the hook and went upstairs into my room and started packing my suitcase.
Once my suitcase was packed I went downstairs to see Tasha with four suitcases near the door and keys in her hands.
"Come on, I've sorted out the flights and if we wanna get there in five hours then we've gotta leave now," she said and picked here bags back up and we quickly went outside.