"This is wrong but I can't help but feel like there ain't nothing more right babe." - Taylor Swift

Good days never seemed to last long, though, and that was just the way of the werewolves. Every time we had something good, it would be ripped away from us. It just wasn't fair.

It was bad enough we were still trying to kill the leech Victoria, but we also had to worry about the other fucking Cullens. I was so close to killing the muscular one. He came onto my land, and I wasn't having any of it.

But then Jacob was invited to the leeches' house for Bella's graduation. He already started bringing her over to the reservation more, which I hated. She was the reason we were all in so much trouble.

That night Embry and Quil went with Jacob. Sam said that Jacob should go, but I was completely against it. I almost forced Jacob to stay at my house before he went to the party. I barely let him go.

Sam invited me to his house to try to get my mind off of the party. He knew very well what I was going through, and I appreciated that he was trying to do for me.

Emily even made my favorite meal: chicken fettuccine alfredo. She even made red velvet cupcakes just for me. She also wanted to make this easier.

Jared was over too, and that made the most difference. Jared was my best friend, and he distracted me from my crazy jealousy. It took me a little while to get the thought of Jacob at the Cullen's out of my mind, but my friends and food did that.

But I was so relieved when Jacob came back safe. As soon as he walked through the door, I got up and held him so close. He hugged me back, resting his face into the crook of my neck. I petted his head, kissing the top of it.

"Earth to the love-birds," Embry called. "We've got something to share."

"What?" Sam was curious. "What's going on?"

"One of the vamps had a vision," Jacob mused, pulling away from me. "She saw a huge vampire army coming our way."
"A vampire army?" Sam asked. "What do they want?"
"They're in Seattle," Embry continued. "That's all they know for right now."
"You've got to be kidding me," I growled. "We've got a vampire army?"
"Apparently." Jacob sighed. "What else can we do?"

"What else can we do?" I chuckled bitterly. "We can let the Cullens deal with it. This is their fault!"

"No it's not," Sam growled.

"You're right. It's not their fault; it's Bella's."
"Shut your mouth Paul," Sam continued.

"I just want to go home," I breathed angrily.

"Fine," Sam replied. "Go home. But we're dealing with this later."

"Whatever."
I started walking out of the house, and I could feel someone behind me.

"Paul!" Jacob called.

When he came closer, he grabbed my hand and held it close. I stopped and turned to him. I was about to scream, but then I saw the hurt in his eyes.

"Baby," I whispered, holding his face in my hands. "What's wrong?"

"This is my fault," he sniffled. "This is all my fault."
"No baby." I kissed him and held him close. "No, it's not. It's Bella's."
"I brought her into our lives." He started crying. "I brought her here."
"You wouldn't have known Jacob," I whispered. "You didn't know. She came and brought that Victoria leech with her. This was all her fault."
He kept crying, and I held him close. I pressed his face into the crook of my neck, still holding him close. I wanted to make all his tears go away.

"I feel so guilty," he sobbed. "I did this. Did you see the way you and Sam were arguing? That was all my fault!"
"No, baby. No it wasn't." I kissed his forehead. "Let me take you home. We'll cuddle in bed, and you can cry all you want. I'm here."

He nodded, rubbing against my neck. I picked him up and carried him to his house. Luckily it wasn't too far, because I was so tired.

I carried him into his house and set him gently on his bed. I lay down next to him, and he eagerly cuddled against my chest. Before long, he started crying loud again. I felt so terrible, and I just wanted to make the tears go away.

"It's okay, baby." I ran my hands through his hair. "I love you. I'm here."
"Look how angry I make you," he sobbed. "I make you so upset. You get jealous and angry, and it's all my fault."
"Baby, it's okay," I cooed. "I'm still here. You don't make me mad. It has nothing to do with you."

"It has everything to do with me."
"Please stop this baby," I whispered. "It's all gonna be okay. We will get through this. I promise."
He rubbed his head against my chest in submission. He just wanted love from his mate, and I was giving all I could to him. I held him close and kissed his head over and over again. I couldn't give him enough love.

His breath was slow on my bare skin, trying hard to stop crying. I shushed him softly, continuing to hold him as close as I possibly could.

"I love you," he whispered, kissing my chest.

"I love you too, baby." I took his chin and pulled his face up so I could give him a kiss. "And nothing will ever change that."

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Of course I'm sure. You're my mate, and you mean everything to me. I will never let you go."
He tried to smile, but I could still see the hurt in his eyes. I wiped the tears away slowly. I couldn't stand to see him so upset.

"Please stop crying baby," I pleaded. "I just can't take it."
"I'm sorry. I'm trying so hard not to."
I nodded, keeping him close. "I just want to be happy."

"Me too. I want all of this to go away. I just wish I had never met Bella."
"I know, baby. I know."

"Just please, please forgive me," he whimpered.

I ran a hand through his hair. "I was never upset."
"Paul, how much do you love me?" he asked.

I stopped and thought for a second. How much did I love him? I loved him until the end of the universe and back times infinity. I loved him more than any word could describe. I loved him more than my body loved air.

"There are no words that could ever describe how much I love you," I whispered, pressing my lips onto his. "But I can tell you that you are like my gravity; you keep me on this earth. You are like my air; I need you to survive. Not only do I love you; I need you. I hope someday you will understand just how much I love you."
"I love you too." He snuggled close, like he could never get close enough. "I love you so much."
I smiled softly. "I know you do, Jake, and I promise that we will be together forever and always."

"Paul?" he questioned.

"Yes baby?" I replied.

"I want kids," he said plainly.

I sighed. "I know baby, but I don't know what we can do about it. We really need to discuss our options. Plus we should wait a couple years, or at least until we can get married."

"That'll be forever," he replied.

"It might be, baby, but we don't need to get married. We just need to wait for a while. I promise it'll happen soon, whether we get married before we have kids or not. I promise that everything will work out perfectly. I swear my life on it."

He reached up and kissed my lips again. "I love you."
"I love you too."
And then he closed his eyes and fell asleep.