A/N: AAAhhh this chapter was so hard to write. I'm not completely happy with it but it had to be done. I don't think there will be any other Edward's Pov. I liked torturing him but I am no good with writing him. I hope its good enough.

Disclaimer: Everything Twilight still belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 6

Losing Her

Edward's POV

I had made up my mind. I was going to watch over Bella for the next few days and assess whether she was doing well without me or not. Then I will make the decision to stay away from her for good or not. I went over my plan as I drove to Forks. With each mile I passed I grew more and more anxious to see her. September 16, 2005 was the last day I saw her. It had been exactly 6 months and a day since I last set eyes her lovely face.

I was about an hour away from her house when a rush of red flew through the trees that surrounded the empty road. I knew that red. I had been tracking that red for a while in failed attempts to distract myself. I brought the car to an abrupt halt on the side of the road and followed after her. She was waiting for me. Her mind was enraged with thoughts of James, her sorrow, and dogs. I knew immediately where she'd been and it infuriated me to know how close she had been to my Bella. Why hadn't Alice seen this? I wondered as I crouched ready to attack her.

She whipped her hair and laughed a menacing laugh.

"Edward, Edward, Edward, What am I gonna do with you?" She scolded me her voice a threatening whisper. She began circulating me. Her thoughts were now simple. A mate for a mate kept repeating over and over in her head like a mantra. Suddenly she stopped behind me I will kill Bella, Her thoughts screamed at me. I hissed at the sound of Bella in her mind while she displayed a number of images of how she planned on hurting her. She laughed again taking in my pained expression.

"It's only fair Edward." her voice switching to that of a mother soothing her child then right back to a furious scream mixed with a hiss. "You killed James." She seemed ready to kill, but she retreated. She then made a whistle like noise and disappeared into the trees.

I followed determined to end her. I would not allow her to get close to my Bella. I heard her laugh one more time before 3 vampires blocked her exit. The middle one took a step forward.

I crouched ready to kill them. I did a quick search of their thoughts but found nothing but blood-thirst. Immediately I recognized they were newborns and therefore I stood no chance with 3 against 1. I began planning my way out when their own planned slipped off one of their minds. Don't fight him unless he attacks. Do not let him follow. I want him alive. A human for every minute you hold him back. Simple instructions, I knew she had carefully planned this. Every minute I stood there a human would die. I wanted to fight, but if I died Victoria would still be out there. I knew I had to walk away. I ran back to my car and found my phone ringing with Alice's number flashing on the screen.

"Edward!" her tiny voice shrieked "Why the fuck didn't you answer? I must have called a million times to try to warn you. Please tell me you're okay. What happened? What does she want? Why is she so close to Forks?" Her words came out too fast even for a vampire.

"Alice!" I stopped her "I left the phone in the car. I'm fine. She had no intention of hurting me. She wants Bella, a mate for a mate" I repeated her little mantra.

"You have to let me go Edward. We have to keep her safe. All of us, we can kill Victoria." I knew I needed them to keep her safe so I agreed.

"Fine, but, not in Forks" I responded as I began to formulate a plan.

"What do you mean not in Forks?" She questioned then saw my plan for herself. "Oh," was all she said. I hated Alice's pain too but Bella's safety was more important at the moment.

"I won't interfere in her life unless I'm sure, Alice." I pleaded with her. "I need her to be happy. We can protect her without her knowing. You will stay anywhere and everywhere between Seattle and Forks. We can easily cross the distance if necessary. Please tell Carlisle the rest. I have to go now. I need to make sure she's okay."

"Okay Edward, but I can't see if this will work. There seems to be no plan to attack from her yet. I'll let them know. Please call me and tell me how Bella is. I can't see her future with her being so close to the mutt." A tiny sob slipped out of her. I knew how much it hurt her but this was the best way.

"I will Alice" I said and quickly hanged up.

I was back on the road driving even faster than I normally would. My thoughts slipped back to yesterday. Rosalie called me telling me Bella had jumped off a cliff and disappeared from Alice's visions. In that second I had felt myself die. My life without Bella was nothing. I had to make sure. Alice's visions were subjective and I couldn't jump to conclusions when it came to Bella's life. She had to be alive, she just had to. Without another though, I dialed her number hoping Charlie would answer and tell me what I needed to know. The phone rang and rang, and I was losing my patience. Finally a male voice answered, but it wasn't Charlie.

"Swan residence" the voice said. I was aware of two hearts beating, one of them suddenly increasing in speed. I asked for Charlie and he informed Charlie was not there. Then I heard her.

"Jake, who is it?" her voice chimed in. Bella, it was my Bella. If my heart could beat it would be jumping off my chest. Suddenly I panic.

"Jacob please" I begged him, "whatever you do, do not hand her the phone"

"Jake, give me the phone right now" Bella sounded irritated. My chest ached for her. I had been missing her for way too long and hearing her voice was the most painful and beautiful torture I could think of. Still I couldn't disrupt her life now.

"I just wanted to speak to Charlie, not…" my voice trailed off. I couldn't say her name. The ache in my chest was too much. It hurt to think of the love I left behind. I thought about her constantly but never out loud.

"He's at a funeral" I was confused for a second then realized he was talking about Charlie. I quickly thanked him preparing to hang up when she spoke again.

"You can't tell me who I speak to or not. Give me the phone right now Jacob Black." I could hear her irritation and I pictured her standing with her hand held out for the phone. Her voice made me weak. I missed her too damn much. I knew if I heard her speak to me I would lose the battle I fought every day to stay away from her. I begged Jacob not to hand her the phone over and over again. Then there was the rustling of the phone and My Bella's voice surrounded me.

"Hello," I stayed silent enjoying every second I got of her voice. "Who is this?" she asked and waited. I could hear her breathing; I could hear her heart beating. I missed her. I was lost. I hanged up the phone and I was on the road in mere seconds. I had to see her.

By the time I finished recalling her beautiful voice I was home. I parked the car and ran to Bella's home. I wasn't sure how close I could get without being detected by the wolves. If they knew about Victoria then most likely they were keeping watch. I got as close as I dared to her house, but it wasn't enough. A few hours ago I had heard her voice and now I wanted to see her. I knew she was home because her truck was there.

I climbed a high tree grateful wolves didn't actually climb and worked my way from tree to tree until I was positioned to view her window. It was opened and that made me wonder if she still hoped I would climb in. I waited for a bit but she never came in to her room. Her house was silent and I couldn't tell in which room she was in. I made my way to a tree that gave me a clear view of the entrance. I broke a branch of the tree and threw it at the door hoping the noise would make her come out for me.

I heard her terrified screamed and I mentally kicked myself for scaring her. Finally I saw movement through the window next to the door and a second later she was there. She looked around cautiously and finally looked down. I saw as irritation tinted her eyes and she slammed the door.

I didn't like irritating her but I loved being able to finally see her. She was beautiful. I could see the changes that took place in her body while I was away. Her hair was longer. Her hips had more curve to them as did the rest of her.

I heard her move up the stairs and I quickly moved to the tree that let me see through her window. She threw her door open and warily took in her surroundings. I wondered if she could feel me. Then she came up to the window and looked through the trees. She looked right at me and for a second I thought she had seen me, but then she sighed and pulled out a phone from her back pocket. She walked to her bed, laid out in the middle and flipped through her phone. She was beautiful. I missed being closed to her so much I almost gave in to climbing in to see her.

She was intently looking through her phone and I was instantly curious. I wanted her phone number terribly bad. How did I not know she finally had a cell phone? I wondered while taking out my own phone out. I put it on silent and changed the settings on the brightness just in case. Quickly I texted Alice; I told her Bella was fine and asked her to get me her cell phone number.

For the next few minutes I watched as Bella listened to what I assume were her voice mails and flipped through her texts. I couldn't make out what was being said through the phone so I settled with watching her expressions change: fear, irritation, disgust, happy, adoration and even giggles. I could not even imagine how or what things were being said to her to cause so many expressions to flicker through her. All I knew was that I was jealous of whatever made her giggle. She wasn't much for giggles when I was with her.

When she was done with her phone she looked at the clock several times as if she was waiting for something or someone. A look of eagerness crossed her features and then she disappeared out the door.

As if on cue Alice's message came through. "Thanks for the CALL! I'll send u her # asap"

I didn't respond as someone's thoughts began to assault my mind. Bloodsucker, Bella, Bloodsucker, Bella, Bloodsucker, Bella… It sounded like an internal debate probably from one of the wolves. Bella must get to Bella. I was angry that whichever wolf was sent to keep watch didn't thoroughly search the vampire scent first. Finally I saw the source of the thoughts. Jacob, half naked, walked over to Bella's window and silently launched himself off a branch from a small tree effortlessly landing in her room. That way if she kicks me out she'll have a longer way to go. He thought satisfied with his cleverness.

With Jacob here I had a clearer way to hear exactly where Bella was through his thoughts which were concentrated on her almost as mine where. I was intently listening to the shower when a series of images of a naked Bella in the shower hit me. I was angry at this dog. I wanted to rip his throat out and burn his body. I had to fight my instincts hard so I could stay still and remain undetected. The set of images in his head then switched to a movie. I heard Bella moan from where she was in the shower. For a second I thought Jacob's fantasies weren't a fantasy and I almost took off to kill. I was relieved when I glanced back through the window and saw Jake still there and not with Bella. He was so caught up in his little fantasy he missed out on a true Bella moan. That I was happy about, I had heard Bella moan through her dreams and that was something I wanted only for me. Finally I heard Jacob mentally scold himself for daring to think in such way of my Bella. Again he was so deep in thought he missed when she came in.

Her little gasp of surprise made my arms twitch with the need to hold her. Instead I watched as another man reached for her and took her in his arms. The ache in my chest threatened to rip me apart. I hadn't truly known jealousy before now.

Bella began talking and to my dismay he shushed her voicing an apology to her. I wanted to hear her voice so bad. I hadn't even heard her say a complete sentence yet. I missed her.

More jealousy gripped through me as I saw Bella pushed herself further into his embrace. I saw how she looked at him through his eyes and if I thought I regretted leaving her before I was wrong. I now truly regretted it. All the pain I had gone through was nothing compared to the pain of seeing her in another man's arms, especially a man from who I could read his thoughts.

I wanted to leave, but the fact that I missed her too damn much wouldn't let me.

"Who called earlier?" Bella's voice brought me out of my head. I heard through the dogs mind she meant my phone call. I wondered if he would tell her it was me who called. Probably not I answered myself as I heard how much he hated that she still wasn't truly his. At that my jealousy eased a bit. She was still my Bella.

Sadly I now watched the moment she realized it had been me. I could see the pain in her eyes which mirrored my own pain. Once more my arms twitched wanting to hold her and tell her I would never leave her again. She knew it was me, but she still pressed the dog who was stumbling with his words unsure of how to tell her. For a second I thought he would lie to her to ease her pain. I knew I would've most likely lied. He didn't lie though. The moment he said my name Bella broke down before my eyes. It was like being in hell burning.

"He hanged up." She whispered before tears began falling from her eyes. I couldn't listen anymore. This very moment I hated myself more than anything. How I could I have caused her so much pain? I wondered. I was still loathing myself when I finally noticed the scene before me. Bella wasn't crying anymore she was looking up at him all traces of pain gone. That ugly jealousy in me sparked once more. I saw the moment that dog decided to go in for the kiss and I lost it. One of the branches I was holding in my hand snapped and a wolf was now flying out the window.

I considered running but I knew any movement would be instantly detected. Instead I froze as I watch the mutt circle the area a few times wondering if it was another Cullen, meaning me, or someone else. Without completely finishing his search he went back to Bella. What kind of security is this? I wondered as I realized that any other vampire could easily spy on them the way I have been for the past couple of hours.

"Bloodsucker" he explained

"Victoria?" She said fearfully

I watched the simple exchanged of words. So they did know Victoria had been around. He questioned her about Alice and then finally thinking about her security he decided to alert the rest of the pack. Bella being Bella didn't want to let him leave. I would've left anyway, but he didn't. He easily succumbed to her begging doing whatever she asked of him. I understood she was scared but still. He had to realize her security was more important right? Everything was so wrong. He was wrong for her. I wanted her to find someone who did what's best for her not just what she wanted. The dog simply settled for calling his alpha like Bella had suggested.

Enviously I watched as he settled in her bed taking her in his arms. I was so angry. I was considering ripping him apart. Bella was mine and he was dangerous to her. I recalled what I had seen in the alpha's mind some time ago. I tried calming down and went back to watching my Bella.

Bella fell asleep instantly but he stayed awake just watching her the way I used to when she was in my arms. Instantly I brightened as I remembered what came with her sleep. My favorite part of our nights which were her sleep talking and constant calling of my name. My joy was short lived. Now it was his name that she called not mine. I felt as if my heart was ripped apart. Her dream turned out to be anything but innocent. I saw and felt through Jacobs mind as she rubbed herself against him. I was angry. She had never done that with me. I knew she had wanted us to be more physical but she had never tried it subconsciously. I was losing her, my Bella, my reason for existence.

Her little moans in ecstasy were torture. Even though I was angry she awoke in me the desire I had long suppressed. The fact that I could also feel her through the dogs mind further fueled my own desire. I was grateful when the dog pulled away from her. At least now she wasn't rubbing her hot little body against him. She was beautifully sexy although I knew she'd never believe it. My eyes were cemented on her, and I, as well as the mutt, memorized every sound and movement she made. This went on for quite a while and then she settled down. The dog immediately ran right back into her bed like a moth to a flame and took her in his arms. When she awoke, the dog's mind was still on Bella's sleep talking behavior as he teased her. She changed the subject on him asking him about the alpha's instructions yet he somehow he managed to turn the conversation back to them. When Bella asked him if he had slept, he nervously teased her making her walk away from him. He followed her and threw her back on her bed.

Although jealousy was burning through me I smiled when I saw the genuine smile on Bella's lips. The dog wouldn't let me enjoy though. He was on the mission to kiss her again. This time he took his time building up the tension. I wanted to stop this kiss from happening. Fuck I hated this. I quickly reached for my phone and smiled when I saw Alice's message with Bella's number. Immediately I dialed it but not before the dog was able to brush his lips against hers lips. He pulled away from her unable to contain his desire for her and left her to answer the call

Few seconds later he was outside yelling obscenities while Bella stared at the phone hatefully before she answered it. She frowned at the silence. I smiled. I had to get away now. I couldn't stand much more of this torture. I couldn't just watch her slip away from me. I waited until the mutt was back inside. I jumped from tree to tree until I was far away enough and ran home. I got in my car and drove away from forks.

End Notes:

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Did you enjoy the little torture? I sure did.

Is anyone interested in a Victoria Pov? She's so much fun.

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