Four classes down and I finally get a break. Thank God for having an hour lunch break.
As I am walking to lunch, I am actually paying attention to what's happening around me, rather than getting lost in my thoughts. So this time I actually see the cheerleader that I've bumped into every other day coming towards me.
When we pass each other she looks at me and slightly smiles, I couldn't help but return the gesture.
I make my way on to the quad and I notice that Chelsea and Carmen are actually sitting at the table. I guess they aren't mad at me.
When I get closer, they shift apart a little. Why do they do that every time I come to the damn table?
I sit down and take out my food. "Hey guys."
"Hey." They replied in unison. I guess they are still mad.
"Look Carmen, I want to apologize for how I acted yesterday. I was just shocked and I didn't know what to say. But I don't have any problem with you being gay. It actually makes you more unique." I say with a smile. I hope it works.
"It's no big deal. I've had a lot worse, but thank you for apologizing." Carmen says with a smile.
"I feel really bad about that. I hope you didn't think I was some homophobic freak." I laugh. She laughs awkwardly. "Oh My God! You did, didn't you? I really didn't mean to give you that impression."
"It's ok really. Yesterday, yes I did think you were homophobic. I wasn't going to sit here today, but Chelsea threatened me if I didn't." Carmen says sticking her tongue out at Chelsea.
"You know you really wanted to. I mean, where else would you have gone?" Chelsea raises her eyebrow at Carmen.
"You're right, but I could have easily made some new friends or sat alone."
"That wouldn't be as fun though, would it?" I jump back into the conversation. She laughs and shakes her head. "Exactly!"
I spent the rest of lunch and whatever class I had after thinking about LAbabe4u and how I am really starting to like her. Our conversations seem to flow naturally. Even though I only started talking to her a few days ago, it feels like I've known her for forever. I've never felt that way with anyone else, I mean even Chelsea didn't immediately like me when we first met.
During gym, I figured that I should stop perving on the other girls before I get caught. I just can't help that I find them attractive. I got a few looks in before quickly changing and heading out to the court.
Today we did nothing but drills. I love that I have a brother that plays basketball; it makes everything I do in this class so much easier.
Another 45 minutes later and I start walking towards the locker rooms.
"Hey, Carlin!" I turn around to see the gym teacher calling me. I sigh and make my way over to him. What did I do now?
"Yea coach?" I ask fiddling with my fingers. Nervous habit.
"Why aren't you on the basketball team?" What?
"Excuse me?" I tilt my head in confusion.
"You are obviously good at basketball; I just want to know why you aren't playing for the girl's team."
"I guess I didn't think I was that good, and I never really thought about it."
"Well the girl's team has been struggling so promise me that you will at least think about it?" He asks sweetly.
"Yea sure." I turn and walk into the locker rooms. That was weird.
I quickly change and walk to the parking lot.
As soon as I walk through the door I see my parents sitting on the couch watching the news. How boring, I hope I don't get like that one day.
"Hey mom, hi dad."
They turn to look at me. "Hey Kiddo, how was your day?" my dad asks.
I absolutely love my dad, sometimes I wonder why he's with my mom she can be a real pain in the ass.
"It was a good, nothing really interesting happened." Then I remembered what happened in gym. "Oh except my gym teacher thinks I should join the basketball team."
"I think that's a great idea." Of course you do Paula. "I mean just think about how that would look on your college applications!" That earns an eye roll.
"I think it would be great, but only do it if you really want to, don't feel like you have to just because other people think it's a great idea." My dad says giving my mom a look. And this is why he is my favorite.
"I haven't made a decision yet, I'm still thinking about it." I shrug.
"We will support you either way, honey. Right Paula?"
She looks like she wants to say something else, but my dad gives her another look. "Right."
"Well I'm going to my room, call me for dinner." I say and then head upstairs.
As soon as I get to my room, I throw my bag on the floor. I walk over to my desk to grab my laptop then I lay down on my bed.
I immediately went to the gay chat website and logged on. And fortunately for me LAbabe4u was on this time.
Is it bad that I've only started talking to her two days ago, and I miss her so much? I don't think that's healthy but oh well.
SLC823: Heyyy
L.4u: Hi what's up?
SLC823: Nothing, I just got home.
L.4u: Same here. School sucks.
SLC823: I know! It's like 8 hours of torture.
L.4u: At least we get a break for lunch right?
SLC823: Very true, I'm thankful for that at least.
L.4u: How was your day besides the torture?
SLC823: Well it was awkward, and interesting.
L.4u: continue
SLC823: Well I kinda gave someone the impression that I was homophobic yesterday.
L.4u: How the hell did you manage to do that?
SLC823: lol well she made a comment about this girl being hot, which she is, and I asked if she was gay. She said yes and asked if I had a problem with it.
SLC823: I was shocked and didn't know what to say. And I felt that if I would have said anything than I would have told her that I was gay and I'm not ready for that yet.
L.4u: Oh so you just didn't say anything?
SLC823: No the bell rang, and I went to class.
L.4u: Wow I would have thought you were homophobic too.
SLC823: Ugh I know, I'm horrible. But I didn't know what else to do.
L.4u: Don't be so hard on yourself; you are new to it all. It will get easier.
SLC823: I hope so. I just don't see why it's a big deal. I like girls instead of guys, big deal.
L.4u: I understand completely but not everyone else does.
SLC823: This is going to be hard.
L.4u: I know, but what made it easy for me was that I had my best friend by my side to help me throughout it all. Does anyone besides me know?
SLC823: Nope you should feel lucky that you are the only person to know my secret.
L.4u: I will never tell anyone, I promise.
SLC823: Thank you, Gayle. That means a lot.
L.4u: No problem. But maybe you should think about telling someone that you trust, like a friend or your brother.
SLC823: Well my best friend seems to be ok with that girl that thought I was homophobic, so maybe I can tell her. I'm not sure if I want to tell my brother or not yet. I mean we are close, but what if he doesn't approve, I don't want to lose him.
L.4u: You don't have to figure it all out now. Take your time.
SLC823: I will. Thanks for letting me vent, and giving me advice.
L.4u: I like talking to you so it's no big deal.
I hear a knock on my door and I quickly minimize the screen. "Come in!"
Glen opens the door and pokes his head in my room. "Hey Spence, it feels like I haven't seen you since the day before school started." He walks in my room and sits at my desk.
"Yea I know. I'm sorry but I've had a lot of homework." I lie. I hate lying to him, but what else could I say? Oh yea sorry that I couldn't hang out with you Glen, but I've been in my room talking to girls all day because I just found out that I'm a lesbian! Yea, no not happening.
"That's what you get for taking all of those hard classes. If you would have stuck to the standard classes like me, then you would have time to hang out with your big bro." He laughs.
"How many times do I have to tell you that you can't be considered my big bro if we are twins? And I have your mother pressuring me to get into an amazing college. I don't have any chance at getting an athletic scholarship like you." I roll my eyes.
"First, I am older than you by five minutes. And second, you already have good enough grades to get into a college. I don't know why you let her control you Spence."
"Yea I know, I just…I don't know."
"Look how about we go outside and play a few games of hoops. We haven't played since summer and tryouts are starting soon so I need to perfect my game."
"Yea yea, let me change and I will be out in 5."
"Awesome, thanks Spence." He finally leaves.
I open the screen and LAbabe4u is still there, thank God.
LAbabe4u: Hey Oprah are you still there?
SLC823: Sorry, my brother came in.
L.4u: It's all good.
SLC823: I'm really sorry to cut this short, but my brother wants me to play basketball with him so I won't be back on until later.
L.4u: that's hot
SLC823: Ok Paris Hilton. Do I have to give you a new name? Lol
L.4u: lol eww no not Paris, I'm fine being Gayle.
SLC823: that's what I thought. But anyways what's hot.
L.4u: girls playing sports is just hot to me.
SLC823: well if you're lucky maybe you can watch me play sometime.
L.4u: I hope it's sometime soon.
SLC823: enough with the flirting I have to go.
L.4u: later Oprah.
SLC823: bye Gayle.
I close my computer and go to my closet to change into a sports bra and some basketball shorts.
I head outside to see Glen shooting the ball. I run up to him, steal the ball and shoot it. Swish!
"That was a lucky shot." He whined.
"Yea you keep telling yourself that. Whatever helps you sleep at night."
"Whatever let's just play. Best 2 out of 3?"
"Yea sure."
After he won the first game, we got a drink of water.
"How about we make this interesting?" He asks. Oh God what does he want now?
"Keep talking."
"If I win, you do something for me, if you win, I'll wash your car for a week."
"What's your something?"
"I'll tell you when I win."
"Fine, but I'm not going anywhere near that thing you call a room." I say seriously. I mean come on. I can hardly walk pass there without gagging.
"Fine, but you have to pinky swear that you will do it."
I sigh. "Fine." I walk to him and hold my pinky out. We have been pinky swearing since I can remember. You can never back down on a pinky swear.
I won the second game; see I'm not that bad.
"Last game Glen, are you ready?" I tease.
"You won because I let you. I wanted you to think that you actually had a chance."
"Yea whatever, let's go."
It's the end of the game, and we are tied 20-20, game is 21. I have the ball now and I know I'm going to win.
Dribble the ball, fake left, jump for the shot, and "Kids dinner!"
"Fuck!" I miss the shot. Thanks dad, I love you, but you just made me lose.
"Yes!" I hear Glen yell as he makes the shot.
"That's not fair, I was distracted. I almost won!" I whine.
"Keyword: almost. I won fair and square."
I roll my eyes. "Fine what do you want?"
"Well coach came up to me and told me to convince you to try out for the girls' basketball team. So because you lost, now you have no choice but to try out."
"Glen basketball is your thing, not mine."
"Spence, you are good, better than a lot of the guys on the team I mean you almost beat me and I wasn't taking it easy on you."
"Fine I'll think about it."
"You pinky swore. Why don't you want to try out anyway? You love basketball just as much as I do."
"I know, I just don't want Paula pressuring me to win and do better."
"I will be right there to tell her to back off if she does."
"Thanks Glen. Will you help me practice?"
"Every day."
"Thanks."
After dinner, I took a nice long shower. I did my homework and brought out my laptop again. I really hope she's online.
SLC823: Don't you have anything better to do besides talk to lesbians all day?
L.4u: lol I haven't been on all day. And what's wrong with talking to lesbians?
SLC823: Nothing at all. But what have you done while I was gone.
L.4u: Well I had to go to cheer practice right after you got off, I had dinner with my 'boyfriend', took a shower, and now I'm back on.
SLC823: Nice. How was practice?
L.4u: It was good. Some of the girls can't get the simplest routines and I wonder how they made the squad anyways.
SLC823: lol probably just because they are hot.
L.4u: probably lol I have recruited some girls just because they are hot
SLC823: I knew it!
L.4u: I'm only human, and they make good eye candy.
SLC823: but what's the point in being a cheerleader if you don't know how to cheer?
L.4u: To get people to come to the games.
SLC823: aren't the teams good enough?
L.4u: some of them are but others need a little help
SLC823: oh so using cheerleaders to attract a crowd? Smart thinking.
L.4u: I know
SLC823: is your ego always this big?
L.4u: yup
SLC823: wow
L.4u: lol so how was basketball with your brother?
SLC823: interesting, I almost beat him but I was distracted
L.4u: didn't you say that he was on the basketball team at your school?
SLC823: yea
L.4u: And you almost beat him?
SLC823: yea.
L.4u: nice, why don't you play?
SLC823: well as of today, I'm trying out for the girl's team next week.
L.4u: awesome, I definitely would love to see you play
SLC823: maybe one day, but for now, I have to go
L.4u: ok, I will talk to you tomorrow right?
SLC823: of course
L.4u: cool good night Oprah
SLC823: Night
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