Here's a long chapter with lots of Spashley! I hope you like! Some of you might be disappointed because you wanted certain things to happen, but what I wrote just felt right.
Thursday
I got out of bed a little late today because I am kind of dreading working with Ashley. I just don't know what to expect.
After I get ready for school, I go downstairs and actually eat breakfast here. I make myself a bowl of cereal and slowly eat.
"Why are you still here?" I hear Glen say as he walks into the kitchen still wiping his eyes.
"I woke up late." I mumble. He nods in acknowledgement to what I said. I finish my cereal and leave the house. When I get to my car, I turn the radio on and turn it up loud so I can try to drown out my thoughts.
Place my wants and needs
Over your resistance
As selfish as it is of me, I really wish Ashley didn't have this fear. I wish that we could just be together. I want to know what's stopping her from coming out. I mean Kendra's out and yea people may look at her differently but those are the ignorant assholes that for some reason have a problem with her being gay. It's something more to it than that with Ashley and I have to figure out why if I ever want to be with her.
No one can do ya
The way that I do
We have something that could be great. Something that is strong. I've been with guys and Kendra and no one has made me feel the way that she does.
And she told me herself that she normally doesn't catch feelings for people but for some reason she did for me twice, technically. That has to mean something to her. At least I hope it does.
Gosh Rihanna you are only making me think more. I turn the radio off and finish my drive to school. When I get there, there are a lot of people already there so I have to park further than what I am used to.
When I get to my school from the parking lot the bell rings.
My first period went as normal. A hot looking Ashley was there, on time this time, and we stared at each from across the room, only when the other wasn't looking though.
Nothing interesting happened in the rest of my classes. Fourth period was just like first with Ashley and I.
I don't think I can handle not being with her for much longer. I hope something changes soon. I was hoping these feelings I had would go away and I could move on, but I am not so lucky. My feelings are still here and I think they are staying.
When I got to lunch, we somehow got on the topic of the hottie again.
"Oh her name is Ivy, so you can stop referring to her as the hottie." I tell them.
"Is someone jealous?" Carmen asks probably catching the tone in my voice when I said Ivy.
"No why would I be?"
"Maybe because she is always with Ashley which is where you want to be." Chelsea says with a knowing look.
"I have no idea what you two are talking about." I tell them, and I hope they believe the lies that are slipping throw my lips.
"That's bullshit and you know it." Kendra says and I slap her arm. "Ow, just because I'm telling the truth doesn't mean you have to hit me."
"Whatever. I'm done dwelling on the Ashley situation so can we please drop it." More lies. They probably caught on to the annoyance in my voice, so they changed the subject.
"Hey is everything ok?" Chelsea asks once we get to our Lit class. "I mean with the whole Ashley thing."
"Not really but I can't do anything about it." I whisper back because the teacher started class.
"I think you need to talk to her and tell her how you feel. Tell her how it makes you feel to see her everyday but you can't be with her. Tell her how it makes you feel when she laughs or smiles but you are the one that's making her do those things." She smiles at me and I give her a small smile back. "I just want you to be happy and I see the way you look at her. I just think you should talk to her."
"I will have plenty of time to talk to her after school. We are working on our project today."
"Perfect." Chelsea smiles big but then it changes. "Don't back out of it." I go to reply but she cuts me off. "I know how you get."
"Fine, I'll try." I hope I can do it. I just don't want to push Ashley. She is the one that said that she needed space from me.
During practice we played a full game without stopping. Coach called our fouls and told us what we needed to be careful of, so we had to stop every few minutes making practice take longer.
I loved being on the court and actually playing. I think we are going to do well tomorrow, our team is looking good.
Practice ran longer than normal and I didn't get out until five. I was honestly too tired to take a shower here, but I didn't want to show up at Ashley's all smelly. I decided to call Ashley to let her know that I was going to be a little later than normal.
"Hello?" Gosh her voice is just so sexy. She can just talk to me and I would get instantly turned on. I wonder what would happen if sh- "Uh hello?" Oh shit, Ashley!
"Oh um sorry. I know I'm supposed to be there, but practice went longer than I thought it would. I am just going to take a shower and I'll be over there soon." I rush out.
"Oh yea no problem. You can shower over here if you want to. I mean I can understand if you don't want to because that can be a little weird. But I know the showers at school aren't the best and I have a nice clea-"
"Ashley!" I stop her rambling even though it is really cute. "I'll be there soon."
"Oh sorry, yea I'll see you soon."
Should I take a shower here or risk being naked in front of Ashley? Whatever, I'll just use her clean shower.
"Hey Kendra, I'm leaving. I'll see you tomorrow." I tell her as I leave the locker room.
"I thought you were going to Ashley's house today." She says as she follows me.
"I am. She said I could just shower at her house." I reply like showering at Ashley's is something that I do every day.
"Oh. Wait is that a good idea? You know with the whole not being with each other thing. If you were at my house taking a shower and I just happened to see you naked, do you know what I would want to do to you?" She tells me with a big grin on her face and a faraway look in her eyes as if she is picturing it. "On second thought maybe it is a good idea for her to see you naked, something can finally happen."
"Yea well unfortunately I think Ashley has more self-control than you." I say seriously.
"That's because she hasn't seen you naked yet." Kendra says with a smirk.
I laugh and say "Right well we will see how it goes. I'll tell you about it tomorrow."
"I'm expecting a great story." She stops at her car and opens the door. "Oh and see if you can find out more information on Ivy for me."
Oh right, I almost forgot about her.
"Yea I will try. I don't think we will be talking about anything other than the project though." Unless I get the courage to tell her how I feel.
"Ok have fun and good luck."
"Thanks."
I got in my car and put on the GPS in my phone. I had already stored Ashley's address in this morning. I decided to drive in silence so that I won't have any songs influencing my thoughts. I need to have a clear head when I get to Ashley's house.
When I finally get there my mouth hits my lap. This is a fucking mansion. It looks like my house can fit inside of here like five times. I pull up to the gate and I had to get buzzed in.
I park in the garage next to a nice looking sports car which I'm assuming is Ashley's because she told me that she is the only one ever home. I take my bag with my clothes and walk up to the front door to ring the bell.
I fix my clothes and try to make myself look as good as I can in basketball shorts and a t-shirt.
"Hey" I jump and look up because I didn't even notice that Ashley opened the door. I double take at her because her shorts are about an inch away from being considered underwear and her tank top shows a few inches of her tan stomach. When I get to her eyes I notice that she is looking at me just like I was looking at her. Who knew someone would think I looked good in my practice clothes. "Come in." She opens the door wider and steps aside.
I adjust my shoulder strap of my bag and walk in. "Sorry I'm late." I say again and look around. The inside of this house is just as amazing as the outside. It is huge and everything looks so fancy, I can't imagine being here alone all of the time. I remember Ashley telling me that her dad is always working at his record label and her mom is always on vacation. Vacation from what, I don't know. I feel bad that she has to stay here all alone.
"It's ok. I had enough time to finish up some other homework." She smiles at me like she's trying to put me at ease. "Come on, I'll show you a bathroom where you can shower."
We walked up the stairs and I felt like I was on the episode of Cribs when everything you see was better than the last.
After walking past a few doors, we finally stopped and she opened a door.
"Ok so there's everything you need in here. When you are done, I will be in my room which is a few doors down; you will know which one it is." She laughs a little. "Are you all good?" She looks at me dead in my eyes with a deep stare. I can barely force myself to look away but I do.
"Yea I'll be good thanks." I step inside the bathroom and she leaves.
After a nice shower, I walked down the hall and tried to find her room. I easily find it because of the 'Princess Ashley' sign on the door. I laughed and made my way in the room.
Her room was painted purple and she had a huge queen sized bed which she was lying on top of.
"Hey Princess Ashley" I joke.
"Don't make fun of me because you are jealous that you don't have one." She sits up on her bed and smiles at me.
"Oh you caught me. Do you know how hard it is to find a sign that says Princess Spencer?" I laugh and sit on her bed.
"You should blame your parents for that one. I think you are the only girl in the world with the name Spencer."
"And that's why I like it. It's different and unique."
"It fits you perfectly then." I blush and look down. She clears her throat. "So we should get started on this assignment."
"Uh yea. We need to research Multiple Personality Disorder and then find a video to show the class how someone with Multiple Personality Disorder acts. Then we need to put all of our research into some sort of media to present to the class." I ramble out like the true nerd that I am. I look up at her and she is staring at me. "What?"
She shakes her head. "Nothing it's just really cute when you get all into your school work." I give her a confused look. "I don't know why but I like it." She shrugs. "But yea let's get started."
Throughout the entire time we were working on our project, it wasn't awkward like I thought it would be. Sometimes we would stare at each after one of us made the other laugh, or after one of us gave the other a compliment and we blushed. I love that we can easily spend time together without anything affecting us.
"Look Spencer, I'm sorry." Ashley says suddenly.
"What are you sorry for?" I give her a questioning look.
"For putting us in this fucked up situation, and then flirting with you today. It's not fair I know, but I just can't help myself when I'm around you. In class the only thing I can do is stare from far because if I sit anywhere near you I would be too tempted to talk to you and tell you how cute you look when you are really concentrating on whatever it is the teacher is talking about." She tells me and I just smile.
Everything she just told me was absolutely beautiful. I had no idea she felt that way in class. I don't know what I would do if I did know. Now that I do know, what should I do? I mean she still hasn't said anything about coming out or even being with me, but what else am I supposed to think of this information?
I guess I need to do what Chelsea said and just talk to her.
"If you don't want to answer this then you don't have to, but why is it so hard for you to come out? I feel like it's something more than just social rejection." I tell her seriously.
There is a long silence in the room. She looks like she is having an internal debate with herself. I guess it must be really hard for her to open up to me.
Just as she is about to say something to me, I hear a buzzing sound. She hops up out of her bed and goes to an intercom box near her door. She pushes a button and video shows up, then she pushes another button and the video is gone again. It seemed to be a video of the front gate; I guess she's the one that buzzed me in.
"I should get going now. I have more homework and my parents are probably worried." I say because she has other company coming over. "We can uh finish putting everything together over the weekend seeing as we will both be busy tomorrow." I say as I grab my bag and head towards the door. I find the stairs and practically run down them.
"You know you don't have to go. We are almost done really." Ashley says as she follows me.
I open the door and I see none other than Ivy standing there in shorts and tank top.
I turn back to Ashley. "I really should go. It looks like your busy anyway." I step around Ivy without saying anything to her and make my way to my car.
"Just go set up and I will be right there." I hear Ashley tell skank. I will no longer try to be nice to her because it's pretty obvious what she is here for.
I continue my way to my car.
"Wait Spencer!" Ashley calls from behind me. I stop and she jogs to catch up to me. "What's wrong? Why are you upset?"
"I'm fine. I have to go." I get into my car and drive off without giving her a chance to respond.
I nearly cry on my way home but tough it out and hold back the tears. When I get home, my parents are sleeping so they were not worried after all.
After reading for some of my classes, I went to bed. My phone vibrated as soon as I closed my eyes.
I meant everything I said today, I am really sorry. I don't want to hurt you.
Well I guess it's too late for that one. I close the text and decide not to respond. The only thoughts I need to keep in my head are ones about my first game tomorrow.
Friday
There you go pulling me right back in,
Right back in
I sing and dance along to the song while I'm taking my shower. I had lovely dream about Ashley last night; so much for just thinking about basketball. I think that if I would not have gotten paired up with Ashley in the first place, I would not remember how good it felt to be around her. I would not remember how easy our conversations are when we talk.
I'm stuck on you
Whutooo whutooo
Stuck like glue
You and me baby we're stuck like glue
Just like the song says, I'm stuck. No matter how hard I try, I can't escape my feelings for her. And from what Ashley told me yesterday, I think she is too. I just wish everything was easier.
I dance to the rest of the song and pretty much yell at the top of my lungs. After my shower, I get dress, grab a pop tart and leave for school.
When I get to school, I see Ashley sitting at my normal table this time. I don't know if I should stop or if I should just walk past her like I don't see her.
I decide to go to the table because she is there for a reason. When I get closer, I notice that she is wearing her cheerleading uniform and wow she looks hot in it. I shake those thoughts from my head because this is not the time to be having those thoughts.
"Hi." I say and sit next to her. She looks surprised that I'm talking to her. I would be too if she did what I did yesterday.
"I wanted to see if you were ok. You practically ran out of my house yesterday and you didn't text me back last night."
"I know, I just…" I pause and figure out how to explain myself. I should ease into what I really want to say. "Are you sleeping with Ivy?" Or maybe I should just come right out and say it. I swear sometimes I don't have a filter from brain to my mouth.
"Is that what this is about?" She asks with a small smile on her face. I really don't get why she's smiling.
"Well yea, it seems like you two are really close and then I saw you fixing your clothes yesterday when you got to lunch, not that I am a stalker or anything. And then I really thought so when she came to your house yesterday with very little clothing." I explain and then she starts laughing.
She slows her laughter down and then replies. "We aren't sleeping together Spencer." Thank God! "Ivy just moved here from Mississippi and she joined the cheerleading squad. As captain, it was my responsibility to make sure that she was ready for the game today. We were practicing any chance we got. That's all it was Spencer, I promise." Ashley finishes.
I groan and put my head on the table. "Gosh I'm so embarrassed." She chuckles. "I feel like a self-conscious jealous girlfriend." I freeze at my own words. Where is that brain to mouth filter? "I mean not that I am your girlfriend or anything I was just…yea I'm going to shut up now." This is bad.
"You're cute, you know that?" She tells me and puts her hand on my back which relaxes me. "And for the record, if was in your position I probably would have jumped to the same conclusions." She laughs.
"We should get to class; the bell rang like two minutes ago." I say standing up.
"You are such a good girl Spencer. I really like that about you." She laughs and I shake my head and start walking to class and she is right next to me.
Halfway through the class, I feel my phone vibrate. I look up at my teacher and she seems to be passed out on her desk. I take out my phone and smile when I see what it is.
LAbabe4u: I'm really happy that we were forced to be partners
SLC823: To be honest, I was worried about it
LAbabe4u: Me too, but it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought.
SLC823: Yea I thought we would end up fighting and not get anything done.
LAbabe4u: Fighting? You are too sweet to be a fighter
SLC823: What that's just my cover. I'm tough.
LAbabe4u: Right I would like to see you try to be tough.
SLC823: Get on my bad side and you will see.
LAbabe4u: On second thought, I don't think I want to suffer the wrath of Oprah.
I laugh a little too loudly because everyone in the class including Ashley and the teacher looks at me. I burry my head in my book and pretend to be doing work.
LAbabe4u: Stop disrupting class, I'm trying to learn here!
SLC823: I hate you so much right now!
This is how my first few classes went, Ashley and I IM'ing each other throughout the entire class. I had a few more outbursts, but I couldn't help it, Ashley kept making me laugh.
"You seem happier today." Chelsea says as I take my seat at our table for lunch.
"I am." I say with a grin. I look up and notice Ashley walking with Ivy to their table, both looking really hot in their uniforms. Ashley looks over at my table and smiles at me when she catches my eye.
"So I'm going to assume that by the smiles you and Ashley are giving each other, something big has happened." Carmen says. I blush because I didn't think anyone saw that.
"Kind of. We still haven't cleared the air on us yet, but we've been talking again." I say with another smile.
"That's good. I'm guessing you took my advice and talked to her." Chelsea says confidently.
"A little. We still have a lot to talk about though if we want to move on past the friends phase. But just talking to her now is better than nothing." I tell them happily.
"I'm glad that you are happy." Kendra says.
LAbabe4u: I really wish I was sitting over there with you.
SLC823: Me too. It's not the same without you.
I know I really need to talk to Ashley because right now it feels like we are more than friends. It's weird how we can go from practically being strangers to talking nonstop in less twenty four hours. It's just how we are and I don't want to question it.
After lunch, I went to class with Chelsea and we actually had to do a class discussion, so I couldn't talk to Ashley. Yea I know I'm upset about that too.
At practice, well we didn't practice. We stretched and did some exercises. Coach said she didn't want to tire us out before the big game and I wasn't going to argue with that because I am usually exhausted after practice.
We ate a snack about two hours before game time, and then we had time to relax for about an hour before the game actually started. I went to the bleaches and took out my phone.
SLC823: I think I am going to play a lot better now that I know I will have my own personal cheerleader.
LAbabe4u: Oh yea Ivy did say that she thought you were cute.
SLC823: Nice! Did you put in a good word for me?
LAbabe4u: Definitely! What kind of friend would I be if I didn't?
SLC823: The kind that wants me all to herself!
LAbabe4u: Oh dang, you caught me, but Ivy did say that you were cute.
SLC823: Tell her I said thanks. How did she know who I was anyway?
LAbabe4u: After we almost ran into you she saw how we were looking at each other and asked me about it. I was hesitant to tell her but then she told me that she was gay too so she was cool with it so I told her about you.
SLC823: Oh so you will no longer be the lone gay cheerleader anymore then, right?
LAbabe4u: Lol yea. And she's really cool you should meet her again, now that you don't hate her.
SLC823: Oh you noticed that?
LAbabe4u: Of course I did, I notice a lot of things about you.
SLC823: Aww that's sweet. And I guess I will try to be nice to her now. Is she single?
LAbabe4u: I thought we've already established that I want you for myself.
SLC823: Not for me. But I know someone that's interested.
LAbabe4u: And this person would be?
SLC823: Kendra.
"Hey Spence!" Speaking of Kendra, I look up and she is by the locker room door. "We need to change and get ready to play." An hour went by that fast?
"Ok I'm coming." I say.
LAbabe4u: She is single. We should play matchmakers!
Aww she is so cute when she's excited.
SLC823: Sounds good. I have to go get ready. I'll see you soon Gayle.
LAbabe4u: Good luck, Oprah. I'll be there cheering you on.
I went to the locker room and everyone was there changing. I went to my locker and started changing as well.
I can't believe that I will be playing in less than thirty minutes. I am really nervous, yet excited.
"Ok girls, this is our first game of the season. We have been working our butts off for this and I have a lot of faith in all of you. Now let's go show this other team what King High is all about!" Coach says as we are about to leave the locker room. After her speech we yell some sort of cheer and run out to the court.
When I get there I see the cheerleaders already cheering the crowd on. I catch Ashley's eyes and she winks at me. I swear I almost fell. We make our way to our seats and wait for the announcer to call the starting players.
I look in the crowd as I wait. I see my dad sitting next to my mom who is holding a video camera. Oh gosh, how embarrassing? I look over and see Glen and Aiden in some deep conversation. I'm happy that they are all here supporting me.
The announcer finally announces everyone and we get in our positions for the tip off. They ended up with the ball first. The girl that I am matched with is fast, but I am right there with her.
At the half, we are down 35-27. Coach told us that we had enough time to catch up and win this game.
When we got back to the court, my attention went straight to Ashley for some reason. She was cheering to the crowd, and then turns her head to look at me. 'Go Spencer! You can do it!' She cheers to me. And I really do feel like I have my own personal cheerleader.
By the fourth quarter, I was on fire. It was like nothing was stopping me. I would see and hear Ashley, my parents, or Glen cheering for me and I would just get inspired to play better. I was even fouled a few times so I wouldn't score. I was loving this game.
By the end of the game, we won, 72-68. We cheered in the middle of the court before they made us leave because of the boys' game that's starting soon.
We took showers and most girls left, but I wanted to stay to watch the boys' game and you know, to watch Ashley cheer. I dragged Kendra along so that I wouldn't have to sit near my parents.
"You're lucky I like you." She grumbles as we find a seat on the bleachers that had a clear view of the cheerleaders.
"Oh shut up. You will like me even more after I tell you what I'm about to tell you though." I smile at her.
"Yay good news. Ok tell me!" She says excitedly.
"Ivy, the new cheerleader, is definitely gay." I tell her and her smile gets bigger. "And single." I add.
She sits back in her seat and looks at the cheerleaders as they rest for the next game. My eyes stay on Ashley the entire time.
The game finally starts twenty minutes later. I try to concentrate on the game but Ashley looks too hot for me not to look at her. Her short skirt and the flips she does is such a turn on.
"Woo!" I hear the crowd yell. I hear the announcer say Carlin makes the three.
"Yay Glen!" See no one will ever know that I wasn't paying attention. I am so grateful for announcers.
At halftime, King is up by fifteen points. I sit back and wait for the second half to start. But the cheerleaders make their way to center court and both Kendra and I lean forward in our seats. I completely forgot about the halftime show.
I guess we missed this during our game. And I am kind of glad that we did. All of the flips, kicks, and jumps that they are doing would have made it hard for me to concentrate on the second half. After watching Ashley do all of that I am so turned on that I decide to step outside for the remaining ten minutes of half time.
I go outside the gym and lean against the wall. Not a minute later, I hear the door open.
"Hey" A sweaty Ashley says as she comes forward.
I gulp and reply. "Hi."
"Did you like the show?" She asks with a smirk on her face. I nod because I don't think I can trust myself to say anything right now. "You did amazing when you played. It was very hot."
I gulp again. What is she doing to me? "Thank you. My cheerleader had a lot to do with that." I smirk at her now regaining my confidence. I want her so bad right now, but I won't overstep any boundaries. I know we flirt, but actually acting on it is different. I need to change that. "Are you ever going to tell me why you can't come out? Because Ashley, I really like you and I want to be with you." I know she will probably think that that was very random but there's no more backing out for me. I'm ready to do this now.
She puts her head down and looks away before sighing. "I really want to tell you Spencer, but it's hard for me to talk about." Ashley says and I can tell that she really means it. Something really important to her must be stopping her and I have to respect that.
"Then I'll wait." I say surprising both me and her.
"You'll wait?" I nod and she smiles. "What does that mean?"
"Well it means that whatever it is that's holding you back must mean a lot to you. I don't want to have to choose between having you in my life and not being able to be with you how I want or not having you in my life at all. I can't get over the way you make me feel, Ashley. I've tried, but it's useless because you are always on my mind." I smile at her and she gives me a smile back. I grab her arm and pull her into me. "I want you. I want this…us." I tell her sincerely.
She looks at me as if she is trying to see if I am serious. I guess she found whatever it was she was looking for because a few seconds later her lips were on mine.
And yet again, I am lucky enough to experience an amazingly blissful kiss. I finally have what I wanted.
"I've wanted this for so long, Spencer." She says after she pulls back from the kiss. I smile at her and pull her closer to me and kiss her again.
I am not worried about anything else right now, because I am too happy to care.
A/N: Am I forgiven for the lack of Spashleyness in the past few chapters? I hope so. If not, I'm sorry I guess. Let me know what you think. Love it? Hate it?
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Stuck Like Glue- Sugarland
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