"Spencer can you come here please?" My mother says in a not so sweet voice. I get up and slowly walk over to her, my heart is pounding like it is about to burst out of my chest.
This is not how I wanted her to find out. What the hell is she going to do?
"Yes mom?" I ask as sweetly as I can when I get closer to her.
She roughly grabs my arm and takes me around the corner, away from the waiting room. My mother never likes to cause a scene; she cares too much about her reputation so this really isn't surprising.
"What the hell were you doing back there?" She whispers but it comes out as a low yell. I don't even bother to say anything because I know that nothing will come out. Besides I wouldn't even know what to say. "Who is that girl?"
"Ashley." I whisper.
"Did she make you do this? Did she force her-her ways on to you?" I can't believe she would even think that.
"Mom, no I-" I try to explain but she cuts me off.
"Because I know that no daughter of mine would ever contribute to such-such things." It's like she can't say what we are both thinking. "I know that I did not raise you to behave this way, especially in my work place." She stops and runs a hand through her hair. "Are you doing this punish me? Is this because I haven't been home much lately? Is that it, because I can take some time off and we can-"
"Mom, just stop!" I scream at her and she shuts her mouth with a shocked look. "Ashley is my girlfriend. Yes I did kiss her back there and I have plenty times before that. She did not make me do anything. You can't make someone be gay. I am who I am. This has nothing to do with you or anyone else. This is about me." I pause and take a deep breath. I never thought I would be able to stand up to my mom like this but this really needs to be done. I should have told her weeks ago.
"Spencer-" She tries to speak but I don't care about what she has to say right now. I have to get this off of my chest.
"No mom, just stop. I let you talk, let me finish what I have to say." She huffs and throws her arms over her chest. It feels nice having this power. "Nothing you do or say will ever change the fact that I like girls. You will just have to accept that and accept me!"
"I-I can't." She says after a long pause. My eyes fill with tears for like the millionth time that night. She moves forward and puts her hand on my shoulder. "You are my daughter and I will always love you." I smile a little when she says this, but I have a feeling that this isn't over. "But I just can't accept this. I just don't understand why you are choosing this lifestyle for yourself."
I shake my head. "This is not about you mom! If I had a choice about this don't you think I would choose the easier option? Do you think I like having to hide part of myself from everyone for the fear of being out casted because I'm different and who I am is considered a sin?" She opens her mouth but nothing comes out so I continue. "If I could choose, I would continue living the life you have planned for me. I would continue doing everything I could to make you happy. If I could choose, I would choose to have you accept me for me, mom." I tell her and some tears escape and make their way down my face. I wipe my tears and clear my throat. "If you want to continue telling me how wrong I am or how you want me to live my life, then we can do this at home. Right now my best friend was just in an accident and I need to be clear minded so that I can be there for her when she recovers." I walk around her and head back to the waiting room.
When I get there I see Ashley talking to Ivy and Kendra. She looked up at me with a smile, but then it turned into a frown. My red-rimmed eyes probably caused that sudden change in expression. In a second she was up and by my side. This simple act made me give her a small smile. Without questioning me or anything, she wraps her arms around me whispers reassurances in my ear.
"Thank you." I whisper when we pull back. She smiles at me.
"It's nothing. I don't like to see you upset." She leads me back to the bench and we take our seats again. "And besides, I feel really bad for what just happened."
I shrug. "She was going to find out sooner or later."
"I know but she didn't have to find out like that. I feel really bad about that." She sighs. "Usually I would never do anything like that in such a public area, but with you it's" She stops and it looks like she's searching for the right words to say. "With you it's like I can't control myself. It was so hard to stay away from you before, but now that I can call you mine, it's almost impossible."
I smile at her words. And I'm surprised that she feels the same way I do. I mean Ashley is sexy, how can I not want to touch her?
"I know exactly how you feel, so don't worry about it."
"Is everything going to be ok when you get home?" She asks taking my hand in hers and intertwining our fingers.
"I hope so. I mean she probably won't talk to me for a while, but everything else will be fine. I think I was getting to her when we had our little argument." I tell her sadly. "Plus I'll have my dad for support, I'm sure he won't have the same reaction as she did."
"Mr. and Mrs. Lewis?" I hear the same female doctor call out for Chelsea's parents again. I quickly stand up with them. When we reach her, she gives me another uncertain look before continuing. "Chelsea made it through a successful surgery and is recovering in her room. You may go see her but please do not overwhelm her, she needs to stay as calm as possible." After giving us the room information, she went about her business.
Mrs. Lewis barely even waited for the doctor to finish what she was saying before she was making her way towards Chelsea's room. Mr. Lewis stood there looking apologetically at me.
"Go see your daughter. I'll give you some time alone with her." I tell him with a small smile.
"Thank you for being here. I'm sure it will mean a lot to her." I smile at him. "It means a lot to me." He says before heading off to find his wife.
I walk back over to the rest of the girls so that Chelsea's parents can have some alone time with her.
"What did the doctor say?" Kendra asks as I take my seat next to Ashley again.
"Chelsea is recovering from surgery and she can have visitors now." I say with a smile. I am so happy, ecstatic even, that Chelsea is going to be ok. I feel Ashley grab my hand and squeeze it. I look over at her and she smiles at me. I give her a smile back.
"So when are you going to see her?" Ivy asks.
"I'm waiting for her parents so that they can have some time alone with her." I say. "Are all of you going to see her?"
"We were going to let you see her tonight and come back tomorrow. You know so she's not so overwhelmed with a lot of people and she can get some rest." Kendra says.
I nod in agreement. "What about Carmen? Will we be able to see her tonight?" I ask them.
"The doctor said that she will be out all night recovering from her head injury, so we will see her tomorrow as well." Ashley says.
"I really hope the damage isn't too bad. Chelsea is going to be heart broken when she finds out what happened to Carmen." I say sadly.
"I'm sure both Carmen and Chelsea will be fine. And they will be back to themselves in no time." Kendra says.
"I guess you are right." I say.
"Can I talk to you for a second Spencer?" I hear Ashley whisper in my ear. I nod and she stands up. She turns to me and holds out her hand, I gladly accept it. "We will be right back." She says to Kendra and Ivy.
Kendra smirks. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do." Ashley turns and sticks her tongue out at Kendra and then leads me outside.
"I bet you are probably wondering why I needed to talk to you." She looks nervous and I immediately think it's something bad. Is she going to break up with me already? We have only been together for a few hours. I bet my mother scared her off. Maybe she's afraid to be with me. "What are you thinking?"
"I…are you breaking up with me?" I blurt right out.
She gives me a confused look. "No! Not at all." She shakes her head vigorously. "When I said that I wanted to talk to you, it's not because I wanted to break up with you. Actually I wanted to do the opposite." She takes a deep breath. "I think we did this kind of backwards." I give her a questioning look. What is she talking about? "I mean yea we did talk for weeks getting to know each other before we started dating. But we haven't been out on a date. You know the whole traditional date before you make it official thing." She smiles shyly.
"I never thought you were the traditional type of person. I mean we did meet online." I joke.
She laughs. "I know but I want to do this right with you. I want this to last." She says and takes my hands in hers.
"I want us to last too." I tell her.
"Good. So Spencer would do me the honors of going on a date with me?" When she says that, I laugh. I couldn't hold it in. "That was cheesy I know. I just…gosh I'm messing this up aren't I?"
"You are very cute. I never thought you would be this nervous to ask someone, let alone me, out on a date." I say as I take my hands out of hers and put them around her waist.
"Well you are very special to me, so of course I am nervous."
"You have nothing to be nervous about. It's not like I would say no, I am your girlfriend remember?" I lean my head on her shoulder. I love being able to be this close to her.
"I love the way that sounds." She laughs. "You're my girlfriend. Spencer Carlin is my girlfriend!" She is too cute. "Spencer and Ashley are finally together."
"That has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?" I pick my head up and press a soft kiss to her neck. I feel her shiver and I press another soft kiss to her neck. She pulls me back after this and I pout.
"Shouldn't that come after the date? After a few dates actually?" She says after clearing her throat. "Although you never even said yes to the first date."
I stand up straight and look directly into her eyes. "Ashley Davies, I would love to go on a date with you." She gives me a big smile followed by a sweet kiss.
"I don't think you realize how happy you've just made me."
"I might have an idea." I go to kiss her again but I hear someone clearing their throat from the side of us.
I turn to see Mr. Lewis standing there trying not to look at us.
"I'll wait for you inside." Ashley says before kissing my head and going inside.
I walk over to Mr. Lewis.
"Sorry to interrupt, but I want to let you know that you can go see Chelsea now. We would have stayed longer but Chelsea didn't want us to worry and we know that you wanted to visit as well." He smiles at me. I walk closer and give him a hug. He seems a little shocked at first but then he hugs back.
"Thank You." I say.
"No problem." He says as we pull back from the hug. "I'm sure I'll see you tomorrow." He smiles at me before heading to his car.
I walk back inside to the waiting room.
"We just saw Chelsea's parents leave, so we are going to get going as well." Kendra says standing up. She comes to me and hugs me. "She is fine." She whispers in my ear when she pulls back.
Ivy gives me a smile and follows Kendra out. It's only a matter of time before those two get together.
"Do you need me to stay with you?" Ashley asks once we are alone.
"No I'll be fine. Thanks for asking though. I just need to see Chelsea."
"I get it." She hugs me. "Call me if you need anything, I'll be over here faster than you think."
"I will." I kiss her. "Now go home and get some rest." We laugh.
"Ok I'll miss you." She says cutely.
After more kissing and hugging a little more, Ashley finally left. And I'm scared. I am finally going to see Chelsea after all of these hours and I am nervous. I don't want to say or do something that could make her feel worse than she already does.
When I get to her door, I take a deep breath or two before opening the door. As soon as I do, I hear beeping sounds from the machines next to Chelsea's bed. My eyes are only on one thing though, Chelsea's fragile body on her bed. Her leg is in a cast, her right hand is wrapped up, and her neck is covered by a large bandage, not to mention the cuts she has all over her body. I hate that she has to go through this.
"Would you just come in already?" I hear Chelsea whisper/yell to me. Even in a critical state, Chelsea will still be Chelsea. I shake my head and take a seat next to her bed. "You don't have to be scared Spence."
I wipe the few tears that managed to stray down my face. "Hi Chels." I say weakly. And I have no idea what I am supposed to say.
"Did you kick ass tonight?" She asks. I am so confused. What is she talking about? "The basketball game."
"Oh yea it was awesome! We won. I wish you could have been there though." I say sadly.
"I will be at the next one, well whenever they let me out of this hospital." She laughs a little.
"I'm really sorry that this happened to you."
"Spencer it was an accident. There's nothing you could do about it." She coughs and groans a little. I feel bad for working her up. After a moment of silence, she talks again. "How's Carmen doing?"
I clear my throat before answering. "She hit her head pretty hard and she broke one of her legs." I look over at Chelsea and she closes her eyes tight and I see tears starting to flow down her face.
"This is all my fault." She says with more tears rolling down her face.
"It's not your fault Chels. Like you said, it was an accident!" I try to stay calm, but she doesn't need to blame herself for all of this.
"But I was driving the car. She is going to hate me for this. I can't lose her Spence, I love her." She says quietly probably thinking that I didn't hear her. Oh but I did, and this is huge.
"You love her?" I say with a smile. "Aww Chels, that is so sweet. Does she feel the same way?" I'm sure she does. You can see how much they care about each other just by looking at them. Chelsea turns her head away. "She doesn't know yet, does she?" I grin.
"No she doesn't and she probably won't care now."
"I'm sure she doesn't blame you for this. And I'm sure that when you leave here you will still have your girlfriend." I tell her as I try to cheer her up. I get up and take tissue so that I can wipe her tears.
"Ok ok enough about me." She says when I sit down again. "I don't want to cry anymore."
"Do you want me to turn on TV or something?" I get up to do just that but she stops me.
"No I want you to tell me about you and Ashley." I smile at the mention of her name.
"What makes you think that there is something going on between me and Ashley?" I ask with a raised eyebrow.
She scoffs. "Well my parents came and here and asked me why haven't I dated you before. I asked them how they knew that you even liked girls. And they said that you were in the waiting room kissing some girl." She smirks at me and I blush.
"We are finally together." I tell her happily. "And unfortunately my mom caught us kissing in the waiting room." She gasps. "Yea but I stood my ground and told her how I felt. I know it will be hell when I get home, but the happiness I feel when I'm with Ashley over powers all of my mother's negative attitudes."
She smiles big at me. "If I could hug you then I would. I'm very proud of you Spence."
We talked and laughed for hours. At some point Chelsea ended up falling asleep on me and I nodded off in the chair I was sitting in.
I woke up when I heard the door opening. It was a nurse walking in with a clipboard. He gave me a nod then went to check on Chelsea's machine. After writing a few things down he left the room. I took out my phone and it showed 8 am.
I also had a text from Ashley saying that she couldn't wait to see me. I smiled and sent a text back.
"Ashley?" I jump and look over at Chelsea while she just smiles.
"Geez Chels, you scared me!" I place my hand over my chest. "And yes I was texting Ashley if you must know."
"With a smile that big, it couldn't be anyone else." She laughs a little.
Another nurse comes in to feed Chelsea some of what I assume is breakfast. It looked horrible though. During her feeding, Chelsea's parents came back. After chatting for a bit, I decide to go to the cafeteria to calm my growling stomach. I just realized that I haven't eaten anything since before the game yesterday.
On my way there I see Ashley at the front desk and looks like she is arguing with receptionist. I walk up to her.
"What are you doing here so early?" I ask her.
"I brought you breakfast." She says holding up a bag that I just noticed. I can't help but smile big. I have the best girlfriend ever. "I was trying to get to Chelsea's room, but she said visitor's hours did not start yet." I laugh as she gives the receptionist a dirty look.
I engulf her in a tight hug. "Thank you so much Ash. I was just on my way to the cafeteria. I was just going to tough it out because I am pretty hungry."
"I'm glad I can save your taste buds because what I made tastes so much better than hospital food." She laughs. I take her hand and guide her to the cafeteria.
After making a few wrong turns, we get to the cafeteria and find a table for two in the back. Ashley immediately takes out the plates, silverware, napkins, syrup, and two bottles of orange juice. She uncovers my plate and there are pancakes, eggs, and bacon. This looks delicious!
"You made this?" I ask her. This looks like something my dad would make or something I can get at a restaurant.
"Yea, is that hard to believe or something?" She asks as I start eating. I moan as soon as I take a bite. So freaking good! Ashley looks at me with a smirk.
I swallow my food. "No it's just that I wasn't expecting that. You're rich; I would expect you to have your own personal chef." I say before taking another bite.
She laughs. "We did have a chef when I was younger. He was the one that actually taught me how to cook. My mother fired him after a while because she claimed that he tried to make a move on her." She rolls her eyes obviously she doesn't believe that at all. "When he left, I had two options: cook for myself or eat out every day." She shrugs and digs into her food.
"I'm glad he taught you because this is amazing." I take a bite out of the bacon. Heaven! "Cooking for me might have been a bad move on your part."
"Oh really, why is that?" She says with a sexy smirk.
"Because now I will expect you to cook for me." She laughs at me.
"Oh I plan to." When she says this I get a warm feeling in my heart.
This girl is amazing.
Happy New Year's! I hope you enjoyed the chapter. As always let me know what you think!