MadisonPOV

I know it's wrong.

I've known it was wrong since the first time it happened five months ago when Lila and her family went to Seattle for a weekend.

I know I should tell her; tell her what a douche bag her boyfriend is, tell her that he's having sex with multiple girls, that I'm not the only one. Of course, if I told her all of that then I would be ratting myself out. I would be destroying my friendship, my best friend, the only person who has ever believed in me, the only person who thinks I deserve better then what I set myself up for. And I'm betraying her.

"Have you talked to Lila? She's not answering any of my calls or texts." Ryan said as he buttoned up his pants.

"No." I said, and then walked out of the door.

I just can't help myself.

LilaPOV

"Lila, are you even listening to me?" Madison asked impatiently with her hands on her hips. "I've been trying to get your attention for the last five minutes!"

"Sorry, I'm just a little distracted." I said sitting up straight in Madison's desk chair. I came over to try to help her pick out an outfit for her date tonight but she doesn't seem to want my opinion so I've been just sitting for the last hour and a half. I couldn't help it if my mind started wandering.

"You've been really distant lately, Ryan thinks so too. Is everything okay?" She asked, suddenly concerned.

"Uh… yeah everything is fine. I just have a lot on my mind right now." I said reassuringly, then, "Wait, what were you doing talking to Ryan?"

"Oh, I just uh, ran into him at a party last night and he asked me if I had spoken to you recently. I told him that I had and he said that you weren't returning any of his calls." She said while rummaging through her closet looking for shoes. "So, what's up with you?"

What was up with me was tall, dark and handsome, also known as Paul. Well, Paul and Brady.

It's been 4 days since Brady first phased and he's been staying at Sam's house because he's "emotionally unstable" and his temper could make him phase at anytime. My parents got home from their trip 2 days ago and I've been covering for Brady, telling them that Collin came over wanting to make up. So the two boys are catching up by having a videogame marathon and Brady wouldn't be home for a few days. I wasn't as consumed with thoughts of Brady as I was with thoughts of Paul.

I couldn't get him off my mind. I don't even know him that well and he's all I think about. I think about him holding me (when he was half-naked) and want him to hold me again. I think about his eyes and how beautiful they are. I think about his hot, sexy muscles and want to lick them. I think about his smile and swoon. There's nothing that I want more then to just be with him, talk to him, figure out who he is, and I really hope that he thinks about me too because if he doesn't then that makes me a freak. I couldn't tell this to Madison.

"Lila, just tell me what's wrong." Madison said with pleading eyes.

"It's not a big deal. Nothing to worry about." I said while giving her a reassuring smile. "So, whom are you going out with again?" I asked trying to change the subject.

"His name's Josh and I hear that he's really good in bed. He's my type of guy, a total asshole, major turn on. We've gone out twice before and I think that we're going to do the nasty tonight." She said while putting mascara on in her vanity mirror.

"Ew, that's gross. Why would you go out with a guy who has that kind of rep? It show's how many girls he's had sex with." I said cringing. "I bet he has some kind of STD."

"I go out with guys who have those kinds of reputations because I have needs that have to be taken care of. The asshole thing is just a plus, its super sexy and I love it when a guy is jerk and tells me what to do. You'll understand when you lose your virginity." She stated simply.

"Wow, um, you sound ridiculous and slutty." I said bluntly, suddenly very upset with her. "You know you deserve better then an asshole even if they do turn you on."

"What makes you think I deserve better?" She asked, challenging me. "What makes you think I don't get exactly what I deserve?"

"Because I know you and I know that you're better then all of the guys you date! I know that you're one of the most honest and trustworthy people in this world and that none of those guys can even compare to you!" I screamed desperately. I saw a flicker of guilt pass over her features before her face became hard and unreadable.

"Why do you care?" Madison asked with fury building up behind her eyes. "It's my life. It's my body! I can do whatever I want, and I'd rather not have you judging me, Lila! Just because you're jealous of me getting some doesn't mean you have to be such a bitch and try to dictate my life!" She yelled in my face.

"Why would I be jealous of a whore?" I whispered cuttingly, then turned around grabbed my purse and calmly walked out of her house.

Oh my god. I can't believe I just said that; that was the one thing that I knew would hurt her feelings, and I had said it.

This is a short one but I just needed to get the ball rolling a little bit.

A shout out to my beta, egirlm, she just posted her first chapter of her first story, check her out!

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