Take the Fight Out of the Kid

Chapter Nineteen

'What a heavy burden is a name that has become too famous.'- Voltaire

My whole body hurts, is that normal, no, no it's not. All I remember is this blue monster grabbing me up, and then as I was falling through a rabbit hole. I think a red monster jumped out of nowhere and grabbed me. It turned into some kind of dragon and wrapped around me, so tightly I felt like I couldn't breathe, but that might have been from the falling feeling.

As we were falling I heard it say something, I think it said: 'I'm sorry Roxie.' but no one calls me that. No one has called me that since Axel, and that was only once or twice.

I open my eyes and the tree I'd found a year ago is above me, it's twisted and leafless branches above me, looking like they're going to eat me. It's a sight I'm comfortable with seeing, I've laid in this spot enough times before to know that this is the meadow I've found, I had been out looking for Axel's in the scary forest. Intent on making a memorial for him, but I couldn't find him.

Wait a minute, it feels like something is still wrapped around me; my head, my arms and torso, and my legs. It's the dragon, oh god! I try and worm away from it but the hold is too tight and it's actually really comforting, maybe the dragon was just another hallucination.

The sky is pretty dark, the meadow is only lit by stars. Damn, this is gorgeous… how many times have I stayed out this late? Man, by the time I get back that Sora kid is going to freak and flip out on me. I don't even know why I go back though, there is nothing there but horrid memories for me. Axel is around every corner of that house, especially in the room I sleep in, and in that room downstairs where I find almost all of my comfort with the old couches that Sora and Luxord moved.

"Why did he have to leave? He shouldn't have died and left me alone." Nightmare Delirium is the only thing I find comfort in now, it takes away the pain and it makes everything more enjoyable to live again. The excitement of never knowing what I'm going to see is what I love.

"I'm sorry Roxie, I fucked up… and I… cant fix, it." my eyes go wide and I turn my head towards where the voice came from, it was really close to my ear and I cant believe it but the dragon that grabbed me from the rabbit hole is now that hallucination of Axel again. It's arms wrapped around my head and torso, it's legs around mine and I'm on top of it.

"Oh god… not again." I roll to the side and we both groan, me and my hallucination. "God, get out of my head already, will you?" it just groans more as I sit cross-legged beside it on the moist ground, my clothes are kinda wet too, damn it must have rained while I was asleep. "Fuck… how the hell do I keep picturing you like this?" in all honesty, he looks hot now. Until just a little while before I was taken here to Ireland, he still looked like the normal Axel, all the hallucinations I'd had before then he looked normal. But then it was like a brick wall hit me and now he's older, stronger, all around more. He's sexy and hot, god, it makes me love him even more every time this hallucination pops up.

Thinking of which, these recent hallucinations are killing me. I shouldn't be able to feel them, I shouldn't have felt that kiss before, it shouldn't have been able to take my smoke. All of a sudden my hallucination is stronger, and I can touch him. It might just be the way it was when I was back in Vancouver, seeing people with red hair as him because I wanted to, but the colours had never been right before, the green of their eyes had never been apple enough, or had enough of that acid undertone. Even their hair wasn't the right colour, it never had been. Axel's hair was red and the epitome of fire to me. Everything about him reflected his personality so well, he was Axel, and he was the love of my life.

I'm not sure why I think of him that way, we only knew each other for a short amount of time. But when I went to the morgue as per the request of the Reaper when they got word, and I saw him laying there. God, he was so cold and grey, that same red hair dulled with death and his eyes closed out of respect. I had cried for hours, I'd flung myself at him, my lifeline and cried my eyes out, and when my arms lost all strength I crumpled to the floor and cried some more.

I don't know why I even killed Ventus when I got back to the Reapers Palace, I was just so sad, and so filled with rage… when he came at me I couldn't take it, I thought I was only punching him, that I was only hitting him with my fists. I don't know when the knife got there.

I run my hands through my hair a few times, it's damp but still manages to bounce back into the same style I've had for years. I should be getting back, but something about this hallucination just keeps drawing my attention, maybe it's the tattoo's under his eyes that weren't there until two years ago, maybe it's the fact that his face is contorted in pain and he's mumbling my name. But I just cant leave him here. Even if he's a pigment of my imagination.

My body's hurting so much, but I pull myself up to my feet and let out a groan as I stretch up and my spine cracks. I knew I fell into the gutter, but good god, this is like taking the express route through the down pipe and into the puddle on the ground. My mind is spinning and the world is spinning around me, and I feel like there is no saving me from this. The horrid thing about Nightmare Delirium is that it's taking my fondest emotions and distorting them, it's taking good things and making them funny. I don't know reality anymore, that's all it is to me now, a word.

I sometimes have to remind myself the simplest things like: my name is Roxas- I don't remember my last name -I had a brother named Ventus, but I killed him. I have been in love with Axel O'Riley since I was eight- but he's dead now. I was born in London, moved to Vancouver, then was taken to Ireland. I'm on a drug called Nightmare Delirium that I love, because it takes away all the pain in my life.

The tree is looking a little less scary but I don't know if that's because of me or not, it might just change- what doesn't change nowadays? I let out a sigh before slightly stumbling towards my hallucination, I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I give up thinking and just walk over. I roll him onto his side and put one arm over one of my shoulders and a leg over the other, it'll be an odd position, but there is a fairly high tree I can use a few feet into the forest that'll help me move him around.

I pick him up and start on my way back home, this hallucination is heavy, but hallucinations do stuff like this, don't they? God, if only it didn't hurt so much for this to happen.

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My Axel hallucination is on my back now, arms over my shoulder, legs around my waist and my hands under his knees. His face is pressed against the side of my neck and I've been feeling a steady breathing coming from him, so luckily I know the hallucination is alive.

The city around me is filled with large moving creatures that don't resemble humans in the slightest, it smells horrible and the noises are so loud I had to stop at a bus stop three blocks back to put my iPod in my ears. I'm hearing nothing but soft naturalistic sounds now thanks to the tracks.

Axels house is in sight and I climb the mountain of a driveway easily, but I fumble with the front door and it doesn't open. The monsters that fly through the air on a normal basis are getting closer and it's starting to scare me. Without much thought I walk back down to the low window to the playroom downstairs at the top of the front lawn that resides at the top of a hill, that I know is unlocked.

I set Axel down on the ground and lay him out flat as I work the window open enough for me to crawl through. It's not even close to a tight fit for me since I'm so thin, and the fact that my nails are still glowing random colours makes it unnecessary for me to really look where I'm putting my hands.

I belly crawl into the room and stand on one of the dressers Luxord put here for storage and look back through the window at Axel, his face is still scrunched in pain and he's groaning a little again. With a grunt of my own I pull him into the room and hop down with him on my shoulders, that makes his weight come down on me though and I falter so I'm on my hands and knees, Axel on my back in an awkward position that I cant help but think bad things for.

Shaking my head slightly I get up and haul Axel over to the couch, allowing him to fall onto the couch and I situate him on the soft cushions before grabbing a blanket from the far side of the room, one of the ones that smells like Axel and walk over, laying down beside him and pulling the blanket over the both of us. I still hurt so much, and I doubt I'll remember all of this in the morning, but I need another smoke soon, or else the withdraw effects will start up again.

I've come close to quitting before, but the pain always gets too bad and I chicken out. I'm scared of pain, I hate it so horribly. It's why I love ND.

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"Who the fuck is this twerp? And why the hell does he look like me!" the voice is loud and it's woken me with somewhat of a start.

"It's Roxas, I wonder how they got in last night." I roll over towards what feels like a chest and I snuggle in so I'm blocking out the sounds more. I don't know what's been going on, but that nagging pain in my stomach is back- soon it'll spread to my head, and eventually my whole body.

"Will you guy's shut up? We're trying to sleep." the chest that I'm snuggling into rumbles with the voice and air brushes my hair as the person I'm obviously clinging to speaks.

"Fine Axel. I'll feed the mutts for you. Anytime you want me to wake you up for?"

"No. and their not Mutts, now get outta here assholes." it sounds just like him, and their calling him the name I know so well. But Axel is dead, so why does this have to happen to me? Isn't the drug supposed to make me hallucinate about good or bad? One extreme to the next? But no, this is targeting my worst fear, the fear that Axel is nagging me from beyond the grave.

The sound of the door gently clicking shut catches my attention and I let out a sigh, I don't think I can fall back to sleep now, I know that my hallucinations are taking over again. I open my eyes and the shirt-clad chest is swimming with bright colours and insane spirals on a black base. The lights are too bright and I close my eyes again as I groan, hiding my head further into the chest. Axel always smelled like fire, just like this couch… that's the only good thing about sleeping here, in this house, in Ireland. Is it all reminds me of him. Even if that remembering hurts.

"Are you awake Roxas?" the velvet voice, oh god I love that voice, it sends shivers down my spine. I nod my head as fingers start to run through my hair, they feel so long, almost too long. As the fingers trail down my neck and back a bit I feel like their snakes and I move away from the touch, further into the person in front of me. "Something wrong?"

"S-snakes." I'm shivering and the snakes move away from me completely. I take the opportunity and get up, the room spins around me and I'm completely dizzy and falling over. The snakes come out of nowhere and I scream as they circle around me, crushing me until it's hard to breathe.

"No! No! I-I hate snakes! No!" my fear is getting to me and I'm crying in hysterics and the snakes are holding me up off the ground. "I-I d-don't wanna die! I-I cant yet! Oh god, let me go! Please?"

"Roxas, Roxas, relax… it's me." I turn my head towards the sound but a contorted half Axel, half snake is there instead. Long sharp fangs are pointed at me and I scream again, renewing my efforts to be freed despite the tightening grip. Is this how a rat feels before it's killed and eaten by a snake?

"No! don't, don't eat me! I'm sorry! I'm sorry Axel! don't eat me!" I open my eyes to see large birds and dogs coming into the room, the birds go after me and the dogs after the Axel-snake curled around me.

"Axel! Let him go! He's having an episode!" I push the birds beak away from me as I keep screaming. I don't know what I did to deserve this kind of end, but I do agree that I deserve to die, this pain is getting bad, my leg is pulsating with so much pain that I want to cut it off, and the snakes coils are crushing my lungs like their small balloons.

The bird that grabbed me has let me go and I rush to the back corner of the room and duck down behind the old bed that's there, hidden by so many spirals of coloured light and the trees that have sprouted.

I put my hands over my ears and curl into the smallest ball I can, hoping the animals don't find and eat me. I'm rocking back and forth fairly far, but I'm trying to quell the cries and sobs I want, especially since the Axel-snakeis still arguing about eating me.

"You know, that could very well be the real Axel. So what are you so scared about? You know this is only happening because of the drug." I look to the side and see a small version of me, wearing a pair of white skinny jeans, a white v-neck shirt with a clean mouth, clean nails and bright eyes without bags under them. "You know Roxas, it's not hard to look like me. That Axel wont let you die if you go off ND." it sounds convincing but I know that's not true.

"Yeah right! You'll die if you stop! And that Axel, well… you saw it yourself! It's a snake and wants to eat you. Are you going to let that happen?" I turn to the other side, seeing another small me. It's hair is streaked with black, it's wearing black pants and a black v-neck like the other. The bags under this ones eyes are huge, it's mouth is practically dripping with black and it's nails are so bright their light is blending in with the swirls and curls of light around me. "If you top taking ND, all that pain of loosing Axel and killing Ventus will come back. Do you want to feel the guilt, and pain of that happening? Is that something you want to live with every moment for the rest of your life?" I'm-he's right. Why the hell would I want to feel those emotions again? I don't want to feel those emotions again. They are horrid and I cant live with them.

"B-but… I-I don't want to be scared. I don't want to look like you." I glare at the scarier me.

"You already do look like him… or somewhat at least." I turn my head so I'm looking at the clean cut me and I tilt my head, I do look normal, don't I? The other me raises a hand and snaps his fingers together. A mirror pops up and I see that I have bags under my eyes, and that my mouth has turned black. I look sunken, like skin over bones and a small amount of flesh.

"I look horrible." I thought I looked like the white one, no… half way between the two. How does this make sense? I thought I was alright, I thought I was normal. But seeing myself, oh god… this is disgusting.

I open my mouth and look inside, seeing that my tongue is black and the gums around my teeth, my teeth are partially black themselves too. My eyes are bloodshot and as a whole I look disgusting.

"Oh god… I think I'm going to be sick." the pain in my stomach has spread to my right leg and to my head, but I pull myself up and dash out of the room, running out passed the now completely different looking monsters and up the stairs, running passed the front door that looks like a big mouth ready to eat me. I run up the stairs, ignoring all the monsters in the living room, sitting on the rotting bags of garbage and I make the sharp left, run two steps and sharply turn right into the bathroom.

I collapse in front of the toilet and get sick, I wasn't aware I had that much in my stomach, oh… I'm dry-heaving, this is painful. Make it stop, where is my ND- no! No, don't think like that! I don't want any of that anymore… I'm disgusted by it, that's why I ran a floor to vomit when there was a bathroom downstairs.

My body is done dry-heaving now and I slowly stand up. There is muffled talking coming from the monsters in the living room, but I ignore it as I flush the few stinking contents of the toilet and stagger over to the sink, keeping my body up on my throbbing leg and excruciating arm. My head is throbbing so much that I don't want to think, but I cant… I have to get clean. I have to look better, I hate how I look.

I grab any toothbrush and toothpaste with shaky hands and squeeze half the tube into my mouth before shoving the brush in and starting to scrub. I make sure to get my teeth, and my gums, my tongue, cheeks, the roof of my mouth even.

Eyes are drilling into my own, bloodshot and dull blue, accompanied by greasy blonde hair, pale parchment skin, to the point where you can see the veins under the skin. A mouth dripping with black, foam, and blood, a toothbrush hanging from the corner of their mouth as I stare at them and they at me.

I hate that face and I clench a fist before smashing it into the other persons. The face shatters in front of me like glass and the shards go flying around me. I notice now that the person was my reflection and I shiver, not caring that my fist is bleeding horribly as I just grab the toothbrush again and continue working on my teeth.

"Roxas! What happened? Are you- oh shit! What happened?" Axel's back, and he looks the same again. He's in the horrid mouth, filled with teeth, that is the door before rushing in. I feel him take the toothbrush from my mouth and it hurts a bit. "Shit man… Luxord! Go get the car started for me!" he turns his head away from me as he leans over and starts running the tap.

"Why, what's going- shit, what happened?" my eyes lazily travel away from Axel for a moment to see the annoying blonde again, I've always hated looking at him… and I don't really know why.

"I don't know, just go get the fucking car started up!" the loud shout from Axel scares me and I pull away for a moment. Before I stop myself, I can trust him… he's safe, isn't he?

"Roxas, you have to swish this around your mouth then spit it out for me, alright?" Axel's holding up a cup of what looks like water, but there is blue and green swirling in it, it looks like some kind of cocktail drink. I open my mouth a little, feeling whatever is in my mouth cracking slightly out of protest.

The drink tastes horrible whatever it is, and I spit it out right away because it makes my head hurt more. "I'm sorry Roxas, but you have to do this alright? If you don't, your mouth could get infected." he sounds so apologetic… is this hallucination really that worried about me? I can taste copper in my mouth and don't fight it as he raises the glass to my lips again.

I force myself to put up with the pain for a few minutes as I swirl the water around my mouth before Axel says I can spit it out. I bend down slightly and spit the water out, right onto the floor… shit, I thought there was a sink there.

"Oh well, come on Roxas… I have to get you to a dentist… ASAP." he grabs my hand and tries to pull me towards the monster mouth that is the exit for this room.

"I don't want to, I'm scared… the doors going to eat me." he looks at me like I'm crazy for a moment- I knew he always would -before turning around and looking at the door. I see him look at all the teeth with his eyes before he turns back to face me fully and gives me a smile.

"Well then, we'll be eaten together, alright? I promise, I won't let anything hurt you Roxas." if only he knew that I am in pain, if only he knows everything I want to tell him right now. If only he knew that I love him.

"Axel…" I reach up and grab a handful of his bright red hair, loving the feel of it right away I pull him down so our lips are together. This hallucination feels so real, it's not fair. I don't want to be in love with someone that's dead, I don't want to love him but I cant help it.

I pull away from the kiss and give a bit of a smile that hurts my mouth to make. "… I love you. And my ND is in the top drawer of my dresser… I want you to help me, please?" I know tears are streaming down my face, because it feels like waterfalls coming out of my eyes.

Axel just smiles and he leans forward pressing a kiss to my forehead before be tightens his grip on my hand, it's my left hand so it hurts so much, I yelp a little and he loosens his grip a bit.

"I promise Roxas. I'll help you. I'll be your knight in shining armor for as long as you need one." that's bad, I don't want a knight in shining armor, I just was Axel. Nothing special, just one with the right shades of eyes and hair, one that wont mind putting up with me and one that wont mind helping me and hopefully, just maybe, one that will love me, even in a way that isn't romantic would suffice. Just so long as their in my life for a little while.

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I've been stuffed into a car, stuffed into a chair, bitten a dentist and had my mouth worked on for some reason I don't understand. All I know is I'd freaked out when that huge beak-faced monster tried to rip it's claws into my mouth.

Axel had turned back into a snake by this point and I had to fight the fear I had of him as he soothed me, telling me it was all going to be alright.

I'm currently sitting somewhere with him now, back to normal, having an ice-cream because my mouth is killing me and that looser dentist monster said it's all I'm allowed.

"Roxas… what were you trying to do in the bathroom?" I look up at him, my throat is pretty frozen and I just wait a moment before taking the ice-cream out of my mouth to answer.

"It was disgusting." it comes out as a mumble and I allow my eyes to wander away from him as a large blue dragon flies behind his head across the sky. I'm not too sure how it's happening, but the dragon is turning into a rainbow and my eyes are glued to it.

"What was disgusting Roxas?" my eyes snap back to him and I stick the ice-cream back into my mouth as I close my eyes. I don't want to see his eyes right now, they are too hard for me to look at right now.

"Me. My-my mouth is disgusting. I-I never knew until I told myself. And-and I-I don't want to look like that anymore." I replace my ice-cream and curl my legs up to my chest, hiding in the small hallucinations that are in this small space between my knees and face.

"Roxas, I told you, I'll help you. I promise." I look up in time to see him reaching for my chin. "I wont let this kill you."

"B-but there are so many dangers. S-so many things want to eat me." my ice-cream falls from my hand onto the ground and I can see out of the corner of my eye that it's exploding into sparks and swirls of blue color. Axel runs his thumb over my slightly sticky lips and I look back at him in time to realize that he's about to give me a kiss.

My eyes go wide and I push my hands against his chest, pushing him back to arms length. "No! You cant." I don't want him to kiss me if I look like this, I'm disgusting and I don't want to have him around me that close. I don't want him to kiss me while I look like this.

"Roxas?"

"I-I don't want you kissing me right now. Y-your nothing more then a hallucination, I shouldn't have feelings for you." I feel so worthless knowing that he's not really hear. "Hey, I have a question what's your-" I want to finish the question but that same searing pain comes back to my mouth and I clap my hand over my lips.

"Here, finish mine." Axel hands his sea-salt ice-cream over and don't want to refuse because I know it'll help my mouth so I accept it. "And if you were going to ask me what my name is- like I think you were - it really is Axel. I promise." I let out a sigh, I was afraid he'd say that.

I nod my head and run a hand through my hair. "I want you to help me. I'll only know for sure if I'm off ND. I've, tried before… but I can never take the pain and start up again. I need you to help me Axel, I don't want to die, but I want to know if what you're saying is real." Axel nods his head and I take another lick of his ice-cream as I reach down and grab his hand so I can try and discover what my mind is trying to tell me and what's reality.

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The pain in my stomach is so bad right now, I don't want to eat, I don't even want to be breathing right now. It feels like I've been stabbed, and the monsters are back. I've been off of ND for close to half a year now, and it's been hectic. Axel isn't here a lot of the time because of that blue monster that tried to eat me.

Sora and Riku have been the ones who are there to fight the monsters away when it gets too bad, it's them who'll tie me to my bed so I don't run out and get more ND. I know my Axel hallucination isn't doing it because subconsciously it's impossible for me to hate him, and when I'm to the point where I need to be tied up- like I am right now -I scream anything at everything.

My entire body feels like it's burning right now with pain, I cant help it… it's been this way for months. How many times have I come close to starving myself again? How many times has Axel walked through my bedroom door, removed the ties and just held me? How many times am I going to once again beg for Nightmare Delirium? And how many more times am I going to try and kill myself?

Luxord came up with the Idea of tying me up after the first attempt, Axel comes in and watches TV with me every now and then, but I don't know what time it is, or what day. He came on one day and said it was my birthday, he brought cake and we shared the piece. I tried to count the days after that, tried to figure out just when his birthday was, but I couldn't and it must have passed by now.

"Sora! Sora…" I'm whining but I don't think they mind anymore. It still pisses Luxord and Riku off to no end, but Sora doesn't seem to mind much. My bedroom door opens and Sora walks in with a tray, he always brings it: a washcloth for my forehead, water for me to drink, a bit of food I always refuse and a herbal blend of something that he rubs on my temples to help with the headaches. "I want Axel… please. Get me Axel." I grab the sleeve of his shirt and he just lets out a bit of a sigh, why is this usually his response to my question?

"Axel isn't here right now, he's out with Leon and the others. Their plan is getting closer though, he's almost-"

"I don't care about Saïx! I want Axel! Please, get me Axel! I-I cant take it!" my throat and eyes start stinging- they weren't before? Sora lets out a sigh and applies the washcloth to my forehead. It's so fucking lonely here, even when Sora comes in to spend the day with me, just watching TV and having small, meaningless conversations, it's so lonely because he isn't here.

"I know Roxas, but he called earlier, you were sleeping and Yuffie didn't want to wake you, but he'll be home tomorrow again. I'm sure he'll come right up to see you, alright? Do you want me to have Lumier or Cerberus come up to be with you?"

"No, where's Oogie Boogie?" the wonderful Golden retriever puppy that Axel brought back from one of his absences around my birthday. The puppy doesn't like being in the room with me whenever I go through an episode of hallucinations, but he'll always hang around if I just want to cuddle and watch some TV. He'll usually stay until I fall asleep then go back and hang out with Lumier and Cerberus again.

"Alright, I'll go get him and bring him back." I give Sora a smile as he gets up and leaves the room, the tray on the nightstand and the damp facecloth on my head still.

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"Hey Roxas… I see Oogie Boogie stayed with you overnight. That's good to hear, care to wake up now? Sora said you wanted me again last night." this feels nice, I'm awake and my head doesn't hurt. I think Oogie Boogie is against my chest, something small, fuzzy and warm is for sure. This feels so nice.

"You're looking a lot better now, how're you feeling?" I don't want to answer because I'm so relaxed right now, maybe if I just fake being asleep he wont figure it out and curl up beside me again… I like it when he does that. "Common, I know you're awake, I can see the smile Roxas." I feel him touching my cheek and I cant help but smile before opening my eyes a little. My arms and legs are untied, this is good. It only happens when he's around and not leaving me.

"Wanna sleep? I'm tired." no matter how his face looks there is always a smile in his eyes when he's around me, and usually on his face too. I'm happy that I've gotten this far in the detox that I know he's not a fake- wait, isn't he?

I watch as he pulls his shirt off, it's a little grimy looking, and I can see writing on his arm that I've never seen before- though I cant read what it says at the moment. He lifts the blankets and curls in behind me, pulling my body back to his and I feel a kiss pressed to the side of my neck before he reaches over me and grabs the TV remote. He flicks it on and my favorite movie starts playing: Peter Pan.

I wait for Axel to fall asleep before slowly sitting up, he's always really tired when he comes to my room, I'm not sure if he's home any other time, but whenever he comes in and sees me he's so tired he barely wakes up, no matter what I do to him. I've kissed him a few times, held him on more then one occasion, I've even cried and apologized for putting him through all of this, but he's never woken up, or never acted like it.

Once I sit up I grab his left arm and stretch it out as he rolls onto his back, still asleep like a log. My eyes travel the pale skin and I catch the words right away. The script isn't too fancy and the words are easy to read: I'm a lost Cause, Not a Hero. And well… I disagree completely.

I hate the tattoo, Axel shouldn't have something like that. Of course he's a hero, and this is my breaking point, I would never give Axel something like that, I would never picture Axel with such horrid words.

God, he's real… he's been real this whole time. Why-why didn't I see it before? He told me enough times- everyone did. But he was dead, I saw that too… he was on that table and-and he looked nothing like himself. My Axel was gone, just like Ventus. They weren't supposed to come back!

I take a deep breath and let it out before doing it again, the tears running down my face are fading- though only a tear or two fell to begin with. But I really don't like that tattoo… I have to get rid of it somehow.

My eyes scan the room and I'm just about to give up when I see something that'll get the job done, and Axel sleeps like the dead, so he shouldn't wake up to notice.

AN:

Me: wow… that was kinda hard, it's hard to describe stuff like this happening. I hope it was alright.

Axel: you used Roxies point of view! I'm ashamed of you! You said you wouldn't!

Me: yeah well, the way I was describing the drug was just making him sound insane. I had to see the world through his eyes for a little while. But you should be thanking me, he knows your not a hallucination now.

Axel: if it wasn't for that I'd be-

Roxas: thank you for putting me back into the fic Elizabeth. Axel is really grateful too.

Me: don't worry about it, it's hard for me to make a sad fic… I'm not good with the whole 'playing on peoples emotions' thing.

Gaara: thank you for reading this chapter and we hope you've liked it enough to read. Have a good one & don't forget to look out for Polar bears while crossing streets.