Take the Fight out of the Kid
Chapter Twenty
'Was I deceiv'd, or did a sable cloud; Turn forth her silver lining on the night?'- John Milton
It feels warm here, it always does when I come home and sleep with Roxas. He's looking so much better now, really. His eyes have cleared up and he doesn't have bags under them anymore, his nails are completely back to normal- he hasn't painted them because I asked him not to so I could check their progress. Roxas' mouth has also cleared up completely, it's nice seeing him like this, he's been this way for a long time now, but the last time I was here about a month ago he had another episode. From what Luxord is saying though, it only happens when I'm not here, and they are always about getting me.
I move my left arm slowly and gently run my fingers through his hair a little, feeling that the soft locks are slightly oily, he needs another shower. It's horrible how we have to keep him locked up in his room, but it's for his own good. He tried to kill himself, and there is no way we cant spare anyone to chase him around all day and make sure he doesn't do it.
"I'm sorry Roxas, but I have to head out again soon. Are you awake?" I know he is, he's not breathing regularly and his eyes are moving too much under the lids for him to be asleep.
"I don't want you to go. You just got here Axel." it's so fucking bittersweet, I love him with all my heart, but I don't think he knows it yet. I've still yet to hear him tell me if he thinks I'm real or not.
"I know, but we have to get up. You need a shower and I could probably use one too. We're getting closer to Saïx, to the point where we're so close, I'm sure we'll have him by the end of the week." Roxas hates it when anyone else talks about it apparently. He flips out on them and screams at them to shut up, that he doesn't care unless it's about me, everything just seems calmer with him when I'm here according to others.
"Can I have the first shower? W-would you mind?"
"Of course not. Can I watch some TV in here while your gone? I really don't feel like being in the living room." my house has basically turned into the Irish version of the Russian palace, Yuffie's promised that once Saïx is dead, that the place will clear out and it'll be mine again. But when I come home, I really want to just kick back and relax with Roxas and who I consider my immediate family. My living room is always filled with people though, the old playroom has been half converted into a guest room with a tarp protecting the storage from whoever sleeps there, my parents room is for Leon and Yuffie since their siblings apparently. The house is just filled with people and I don't really like it, I've always been isolated.
"Go right ahead. I'll be back in a few minutes then." Roxas sits up and leans down to give me a chaste kiss on the lips, nothing really new. It's always safe though, always testing, as if to see if I've vanished with the fact that he's coming off the drug. Maybe he thinks he's still addicted as long as he can still feel me.
I always want the kisses to last longer, I don't know how much more I can flirt, how much more skin I can show and how much more I can do without freaking jumping on him. I want him, in the way I've only had him once. That night is permanently engraved on my memory as a horrible experience, I was practically crying and he had no idea, he still might not have an idea.
I sit up on his bed and start flipping through channels, Oogie Boogie is on the bed beside me, just laying around since Roxas isn't bugging him and the bed is so comfortable.
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"Alright Axel, I'm out." I look up from the annoying commercial as he walks into the room and I give him a smile. "There should still be plenty hot water." it really didn't take him that long, and the smile he's giving me in so sincere I almost cant stand it. Maybe he's just given into his own delusion and is deciding that with or without Nightmare Delirium that he'll hallucinate about me, god I hope not.
"Kay, thanks Roxie." he stands in the corner of his room close to the closet in his towel, waiting for me to leave before getting dressed I suppose. I get up and grab my shirt off the floor where I tossed it last night and pass Roxas with a kiss to the top of his head before I walk out of the room and down the hall slightly to the bathroom.
Everyone is in the living room and I give those who see me a wave and smile before turning into the bathroom. I open the cupboard and pull one of the black towels off of the shelf that Roxas and I have claimed as our own for his sky blue towels and my black ones. I hang the towel and turn towards the mirror to see if I need to wash my face or not when I see it.
My eyes go wide as I first catch the red on my left forearm, overtop and beside my tattoo. I hold my hand out so I can read the tattoo and my eyes go wide as I look at it, seeing right away that it's been changed with red paint.
The first change that was made is in the first part of the phrase where it said: 'I'm a lost Cause' there was a 'not' put in place between 'I'm' and 'a', making it 'I'm not a lost Cause'. and in the second half 'Not' was crossed out and 'I'm a' was put in it's place, making it 'I'm a Hero'.
I lower my eyes from my arm to the mirror where I see more red pain on the left side of my chest, just over my heart. 'Axel, I'm sorry I doubted you. I love you.' the words are encircled with a heart and I think I'm going to cry. He knows, he knows I'm really me. Roxas knows I'm not a hallucination, this might be it… is he no longer under the influence? I know he hasn't been in pain for a long time, god, he knows.
I catch a movement by the door through the mirror and I turn to the side, seeing Roxas leaning against the bathroom doorframe, his towel still around his waist, his arms crossed over his chest and a smile on his face that is so bright that I don't think I'll ever doubt his love again. "R-Roxas… you-"
"Yeah. It ugh, finally sunk in last night. I'm sorry it took me so long to figure it out. Forgive me?" I walk over to him and wrap my arms around him, lifting him off the ground slightly and pushing him against the wall across from the bathroom door for extra support. I push my face into his neck and press a kiss there.
"Oh god Roxas… I'm so happy. There is nothing to forgive. You know I'm real. Thank you. Thank you so much."
"I'm sorry Axel. I should have figured it out sooner. I'm so stupi-" I don't let him finish the word as I press a kiss to his lips, I don't want to hear that kind of talk coming out of him.
I break the kiss and put my face back in the crook of his neck. "God Roxas… I'm just so happy your back. I love you so much." I'm crying I'm so happy, god… I shouldn't be crying, but I cant help it. I don't know what emotions these are that are going through my body right now.
Roxas reaches his arms around my head and he's hugging me back now, I don't know what the hell I'm going to do, I don't want to let him go again, now that he's here and he's mine again… I don't ever want to let him go for a second.
Roxas lets out a moan and it's not until now that I realize that I've been sucking and nipping at his neck. I feel his hips gyrate into my stomach and let out a groan of my own when I remember that he's only in his towel.
"Get a room ya love-birds!" I slowly pull my face away from Roxas's neck and glare into the living room, seeing right away that it was Cid who yelled it, though everyone else is laughing at the comment. I allow my eyes to travel up to Roxas' and I can see it in his eyes that he wants what I do, so why not oblige Cid's request… by taking every room in the house for Roxas to choose? It's all mine after all.
I turn back to the living room with my smirk in place, Roxas still held up to the wall by my hips as I take a breath to speak. "Alright then everyone. I'm not too sure which room we're going to take though, so since this is my house, you should all probably leave for a while. I'd say tomorrow would be the best time to come back." their faces drop and my smirk just grows wider. I want to know if they think it's a bluff or not, I dare them to think it's a bluff and stay, because the only room I'm not going to let us go into is my parents and the storage room with my families old couches.
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The house cleared out pretty quickly when I made Roxas moan again, and then we continued on into the bathroom and several other rooms in the house that Roxas insist I clean the sheets of- something I wanted to wait until after the sex-high went away, but of course not, he has to go and give me puppy-dog eyes while saying 'But Axel… if you don't do it now you'll fall asleep and they'll come back to a mess.' he was too fucking cute that I didn't have the heart to tell him that falling asleep was part of the point to five rounds. So I'd basically been sweet-talked into cleaning every sheet in the house.
Now I'm just kinda laying with Roxas, back in his bed and enjoying the Peter Pan movie for the millionth time. He's so warm right now that I'm pretty sure I could fall asleep right now if it wasn't for the loud bang of the front door being burst open and Cid starting to shout through the house that they were all back.
Roxas mumbles and curls into a smaller ball, trying to hide his face further into my chest.
I grind my teeth and curl Roxas up in the blanket as I get up and grab my jeans, pulling them on and stomping out to the top of the stairs.
"Will the lot of you shut the fuck up! I'm kinda trying to sleep after being forced into doing laundry and sleep is pretty fucking high on my list of things to do. So if any of you want to keep yelling please, go right back out that fucking door or I'll shut your traps for you." eyes are wide and I just smile in the bliss of the silence once again before heading back into Roxas' room so I can go back to sleep.
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Three days and Roxas has barely left my side, god it feels so good. We've gone out and plotted the plan against Saïx, we've gotten groceries, we've just been out. And now we're in my car on our way. We've just gotten back from setting up several traps that will catch Saïx the moment he tries to chase either me or Roxas into the forest.
The plan is for him to chase me, but Roxas knows the path just to be safe. Cloud, Leon, Sephiroth, and Yuffie are waiting along the path with guns in case he misses the traps. Arieth is standing by with medical attention for us. I've got both my guns prepared in easy locations to grab them, and both Roxas and I have our running shoes on as we drive towards the house where we know Saïx is.
Sora, Riku, Luxord and a few of Yuffie's runners are waiting in a meadow with a whole artillery of weapons to use against Saïx if it gets that far- though I doubt he will. I take another deep breath, I don't want Roxas to be in the plan, I don't want him to be a target- but he's refused it. I want him to be in the meadow with Sora, Riku and Luxord, but he's kicked down every attempt I've made to have him there.
"Roxas… I know you don't want to hear it again, but will you please listen to me and get out of the car now? I don't want there to be a possibility of you being in danger." my eyes are stuck on him and all I get out of it is a smile and a shake of his head.
"Axel, I want to be with you."
"I don't want you to be with me, not now. This is too dangerous and I don't trust myself to take the shot if there is a possibility of hitting you."
"Well, if I were you, I'd take the shot. Because if you don't take the shot on him anyways, you wont have me."
"Your kidding me, right? I'm not going to shoot at him if your remotely close to the bastard Roxas! This isn't even your fight! This is me versus Saïx! It has nothing to do with you!"
"It has everything to do with me Axel! Because if you don't come back then neither do I!" that's not true, he lived without me before. It was horrible and I have no doubt that he'd try and slip back into that, but can I really let that happen? Of course not, that's why I have to come back.
"Roxas, have I ever broken a promise to you?"
"No, not that I remember but-"
"No buts Roxas. I'll come back, I promise. With all my heart I promise I'll come back to you. It wont be in a body bag, it wont be dead. I'll come back to you, living, breathing, and ready to give you a kiss. Just please, please don't scare me to death by coming."
He opens his mouth to protest but he lets it out in a sigh of defeat and nods his head. "Fine, I'll go to the meadow. I'll wait for you there." I nod my head and pull my car over to let him out at the side of the road.
"You know where it is, right?" he nods his head and opens his door. I pull out one of my guns and set it in his palm. "If you need to shoot, try not to miss, alright?" Roxas nods his head and leans further into the car and presses a kiss to my lips that I return with fever. I don't want to let him go but it's safer this way, for him to be with others that aren't planning on being chased through a forest that he's only seen through Nightmare hazed eyes.
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Cloud and Leon are in their positions and it's just me and Cid driving up to Saïx's place in our cars, filled with a few kids from around town that wanted to hold guns and promised they wouldn't shoot us. It was enough for Yuffie to trust them apparently. My nerves are on end and this is the last deciding moment really. I'm going to burst through the main floor and I'm going to start shooting as soon as the car stops.
Cid honks his car horn twice and I hit the gas so I can break through the wall and into the main room of the house. The guys that are in my car shout a bit and I just roll my eyes as the caged bumper of my car breaks through the thick wall of the house I'd ran passed many times as a child to get into the forest so I could get to my meadow.
Gunfire meets us and I pull my one remaining gun out, shooting out the window at one man who's running forward dressed completely in black. My eyes scan the room for Saïx, looking as hard as I can for blue hair and seeing none is pissing me off already.
I kick my door open as Cid bursts his car through the wall beside mine and takes my door off in the process. I crawl out of my seat and over the hood of Cids car, shooting at a few people who're raising guns to me. It pains me that I'm killing people, but it's kill or be killed right now and I can think of- blue hair! Shit, he's going out he back!
My feet take off and I rush forward, ignoring all the yells and the sounds of gunshots as I rush after Saïx. My feet are pounding against the ground as hard and as fast as I can make them. He's running through the woods but he's not going in the right direction- fuck! He's supposed to be chasing me, not me chasing him! What the hell is wrong with this! Why is he running?
Leaves are cutting against my face and I'm about ready to jump over a fallen tree when I notice where he's going; he's going to MY meadow, Lilly's meadow… a place his filthy eyes should have never set sight upon!
I'm running faster then I thought I could now, as fast as I did when I heard Roxas scream in the meadow because he was being carried away by Saïx, faster then I've ever run with Lumier and Cerberus on my heels for their workout. Saïx cant get there, I cant let him step foot onto that soil.
This is my last moment, I can feel that this is a bad moment, something is horribly wrong and I have that feeling that Roxas is in trouble again. It's nagging in the back of my mind, it has been since he got in the car with me this morning, but it's coming closer to the forefront of my mind now and I feel like he's about ready to slip out of my grasp, those moments when I thought it was going to happen.
There were those moments when I thought that I was going to loose him completely, and in those moments this is the feeling I felt before hopping on the first plane or train home.
Saïx isn't too far away from me, I can still see him clearly, but as I'm running I'm starting to feel tears running down my cheeks as we get closer and closer to the meadow. I don't know why this is so hard, I should just pull my gun out, shoot and kill him. But I cant, if I stop I'll loose sight of him, and if I shoot I could very possibly miss because my arms are shaking.
"Saïx! Get back here and face me you coward!" we're getting closer to the meadow and I stoop down and grab a rock as I run, chucking it at him, hard enough to hit his shoulder.
Saïx stops and I decide to yell some more since it might work. "Common! That's what you want, isn't it? To finally break me! Well here's your chance you coward! There is no chance of you loosing me in these woods, on this island, and you know it! So common, finish it!" he turns towards me slowly and he has the most sadistic smirk on his face, one that makes me want to once again shutter in fear.
"Axel… why do you think I want you dead? Why is it, that I've wanted you broken for so many years and never really took into account to finish it? Why haven't I ever finished you off?"
"Because I was broken and you know it! I've always been broken and you've taken pleasure of my struggle! As long as I'm struggling, you have something to cling to!" I'm right, I know I am.
"You're wrong Axel, I don't take pleasure out of watching you struggle, I take pleasure out of watching you fight. Never once, have you not fought against me. And I'm finally just so fucking tired of it."
"Go ahead Saïx, shoot me. I fucking dare you! Should I tell you how I did it… how I killed your precious Xemnas? Should I tell you every grimy detail of how I wrapped my hands around his neck, and squeezed the air out of-" a shot goes off and it misses my head by a foot, hitting a tree. Saïx's hand is shaking so much, he'd probably been aiming for right between my eyes. "-his body? How I watched the lights leave his eyes and I watched HIM break? It was hilarious really, the bastard cried. Asking me not to kill him. And where were you? Downstairs entertaining guests when he was calling for you, calling with the voice-box that I was crushing beyond repair. How does it feel Saïx, to have everything taken-" I'm cut off again by another gunshot and I grip my gun slightly tighter as I keep going "-away from you? Because it's not pleasurable for me to watch like it was for you. I hated the idea I killed people, I hated it until him. Once I got my hands around his throat… it was like my life was finally opening up and I was free."
"I'm going to kill you!" Saïx throws his gun to the side and he rushes at me, I'm not suspecting it and just raise my gun slightly as we collide. He's scratching at me and I feel his nails digging into the same places that Xemnas' nails dug into that night, re-opening the scars that have been closed for so long. This is perfect, fighting him like I did Xemnas.
He doesn't deserve to die like my friends, they all killed themselves because they couldn't take it, or they were trying to protect the one they loved, of because they missed their love so much that they couldn't take it.
Xion, Zexion, Demyx… to anyone else who Saïx and Xemnas killed by ripping them apart inside; this is for you. I roll again a few times and we're just in the mouth of the meadow now, but Saïx is on top of me, and I'm having a hard time keeping his nails from my eyes and pointing my gun at him at the same time.
There is no help here, I know that. No one is going to shoot him off of me out of a tree, this is how it's always been meant to end, a final showdown between the two of us. He is the last one I want to kill, once he's dead, I'll never have to do it again. I can go back to being Axel… I can find Lea again… I can search these woods for myself to my hearts content until I find that part in me that I've lost and haven't gotten back.
"How dare you speak of the superior like that! He saved you!"
"He killed my soul! He deserved what he got and so do you!" Saïx snarls and for a moment I don't think he's going to bite me, but the next instant stops that thought as he lowers his head and changes the hold on the gun so it's in his hand.
"He should have killed your body too, because it's the problem!"
"Try you bastard! I'll never give up life!" he snarls a bit more and I grab his wrist with the gun, pushing it upwards so it'll be a much harder angle for him to shoot me at.
My heart is beating so rapidly as I know I'm loosing, he's stronger then me, and he's using leverage I don't have to buckle my arm so he'll be able to shoot me. It's over, the gun's almost at an angle that'll kill me instantly with a headshot, and knowing Saïx he'll shoot me more then once to make sure the job is done right- waiting until I bleed out as a final measure.
Maybe this is right, dying in the same place that I've buried my sister, in the same forest that has been my saving grace in dreams and memories, the place that I saw Lilly in that dream, that wonderful dream where I got to talk with her. Who knows, maybe I'll-
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BANG!
The sound reverberates through the forest a hundred times over for all those who can hear it. Lea's eyes are wide, Saïx with a smirk on his face as blood starts to pool around the crumpled teen on the ground under him, mixing with his flaming red hair and soaking into his clothes.
Lea is completely shocked, is-is he alive? I-I don't know that for sure, but the blood isn't his- I don't think so at least. He can still breathe, and that's good enough, he was still blinking too- bonus!
"Wh-what j-just-"
"Axel! Are you alright?" Lea looks over to the side into the meadow, seeing Roxas in the top of the tree, both hands wrapped around the gun and it pointing to the ground with just a bit of smoke curling out the end of the barrel. With wide, shocked green eyes Lea turns forward again, looking up at the man who is above him, face still smirking as Lea fights to think of who's blood it is.
"Well Axel… it looks like I've finally lost this game. I never thought… it'd be Roxas who was the winner though. Heh, I guess I shouldn't judge an addicted, grimy book by it's cover." Lea glares a little and pushes Saïx off of him, feeling that there is no pain whatsoever as the shot through Saïx's heart makes him slowly bleed out into his own body.
"Axel! Are you alright?"
"Ugh… yeah! I'm fine!" Lea is shocked really, he's in shock actually, Roxas had just shot Saïx, off of him. That could have been such a close call, and the blondes hands are still shaking. I watch as Lea rolls to the side and gets up slowly, his muscles protesting slightly because of the open wounds on his back filled with dirt and mud. "Are you going to come down from there?" Lea looks up the tree at Roxas and notices right away that the blonde has switched positions so he is hugging the trunk.
"I-I cant! I'm stuck Axel." with a sigh and running his hands through his hair Lea tested his back by rolling his shoulders, it is excruciating and he stops right away.
He couldn't make it, and knew it. But he grabs onto the lowest branch and starts pulling himself up the tree anyhow, working his way towards the blonde boy as quick as he can. "I'm really sorry about this Axel. It's just that, well… I've never been here before."
"You're a twit Roxas… this is where you first found me here in Ireland. This is my meadow." Lea finishes pulling himself up onto the same branch as Roxas and I let out a bit of a sigh, glad to see that they're both smiling at each other.
"What are you talking about? You cant possibly think that I'd meet you in-"
"My meadow? I know, it shocked the hell outta me too. Imagine just how fucking freaked I was. At the base of the tree paying my respects to my sister when you all of a sudden yelled out 'Hey! What're you doing here? I should tear you limb from bloody limb you tosser! How dare you be in my secret meadow and in front of my tree.' god, it was so fucking cute and scary at the same time Roxie." Roxas gives Lea a smile and I cant help but smile at the same time the red head does. It's been so long since I've seen him happy like this, it's the first time I've seen him even remotely joyed.
I watch as Lea starts to talk Roxas out of my tree, both laughing and smiling, Lea helping Roxas place his feet when he needs it. All the fear that was in me a few moments ago for Lea's life is gone and I cant help but smile a bit more as they finally get to the base of the tree and Lea pulls Roxas back a few feet and points at it.
"This, is my little sisters tree now. She's been here for a while. When you caught me here, I was giving her a flower… now that I think about it- I haven't done that in a long time, too long." Lea walks over to the patch of lilies and plucks one from the ground before putting it directly over the spot he knows the body is.
"How did she die, Axel?" I can tell that Roxas is just curious about the facts, he wants to know if this is why Lea is only happy around him, if this is why Lea was scared for him to not have everything he needed in life. If this is why Lea sold himself for Roxas. Lea's face changes drastically and I let out a bit of a sigh as I watch, he's going to tell the story, but maybe he'll tell it all to Roxas, maybe he wont have to be tormented by it anymore and he can give it all up and just relax with the fact that he couldn't change anything.
I wait and listen until the tale is over, laying myself out on the grass, on my back, looking up at the bright skies and seeing shapes in clouds.
"About a month later I burned the guy's house to a crisp."
"What? Why'd you-"
"His family was still inside. I-I feel horrible about it, but I need to just accept the fact that I'm a killer I guess. Even at that age, before I met you I'd killed people. After you I'd killed people. I'm nothing but a monster Roxas. I hurt everything in my path and I cant-"
"No! you're not a monster! You're Axel, you're the guy that I've waited years for! And I'm not letting you go into some kind of stupid… THING, because you think you're bad. You're not. You saved me. And you made this wonderful burial sight for your sister! How can you think you're bad Axel?" Roxas is right, one hundred percent right, god I wish I could tell him. It's be so nice if I could.
"Roxas, I didn't save her, I haven't saved anyone. And I've been lying to you the whole time we've known each other. How can you trust me."
"How have you been lying to me?"
"My real name isn't Axel… it's Lea, I never liked it… and if you till want to talk to me, then I prefer you use Axel… I just I just though… someone needed to know. But I haven't saved anyone, and you cant trust me."
"Really, you've been using a fake name? and as for not saving anyone; what about Sora? And Riku, Luxord too! And what about me? You've saved me the most Axel. I don't care what you say; I wont believe it! You are the one person that I NEED to live on this earth. And your not leaving me again."
"How would you intend to stop me then?" Lea gives a playful smirk and Roxas returns it before getting up on his knees beside Lea's sitting form and the blonde presses a kiss to Lea's lips.
"By any means necessary… understand, Lea?" Lea returns the statement with a coy smirk and remark of his own.
"Well… my definition of that might be a little muffed, you'll have to remind me." they share a more passionate kiss and I let out a sigh as I open my eyes, I'm on a branch in the tree now, my favorite spot, Lea's favorite spot, even Roxas' favorite spot. And I think I know why: it's so comfortable that it's hard to think of anything but nature when right here.
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It's been a few years now, and it's all turning out alright- I don't think it can be better. My meadow is still a great place that Roxas and Lea visit secretly, but recently they've been bringing along a pretty little strawberry blonde girl named Kimberly Lilly O'Riley. A young girl they adopted when she was just a baby so her older brother didn't have to be killed- because the rule was changed to each couple could have one child, thank god (but even that rule is being fought by everyone in Ireland- I don't think it'll last long)! She stills sees her family a lot, but not as much as she should. Her parents don't really mind though because Lea and Roxas saved her life.
She's been with them for about five years now, and that's how old she is, the cutest thing really. Lea hasn't forgotten about setting flowers down whenever he comes here, but I don't think he'll have to for much longer. I'm happy seeing his life from here, he's done good. The number of people he's killed is twenty- even, and most of that was for self protection.
Sora and Riku have apparently adopted a child of their own, I don't know his name though… I think it has something to do with a Demyx- whatever that is -and a key, don't ask me why, I've decided to never understand the male brain- no matter how much time I'll have to study it.
Luxord has even decided to take in a young boy- not baby young like the others, he's taken in a fifteen year old who ran away from home and was trying to break into his house- now separate from Lea and Roxas -and he's given the boy a second chance.
It hurts looking down on the world, seeing it without me. I would have liked to be there for Lea more, to help him through a little of what he's been through and actually be there instead of just beyond his reach.
It's hard, watching my brother grow up, watching my brother change over time and do things that I'll never have the ability to try. I've taken ectoplasm steps and I've grown up through my mind alone. I've changed my own appearance many times, I've met Lea in his dreams on particularly strong nights for me and weak nights for him. But since Roxas has come along, there are fewer and fewer of those nights.
I think it's finally time. I'm scared to go, to no longer watch my brothers story as it unfolds. I'm scared of what might be on the other side, I don't even know if there is another side. I've read books over peoples shoulders, I've watched movies and TV's from people's houses. But I've never been more scared than I am now. That little place at the base of the tree where my body was placed- the spot that hasn't once been touched with anything but a flower in so many years - is glowing and I'm scared to descend.
Can Lea see it? Is that why he's looking over this way? As I push myself off the branch and start to float towards myself. He's looking at me, well it looks like he is. His smile drops a bit and I catch a tear coming from those bright green eyes that I've followed and searched for.
The fear ebbs away at the last moment when only my head is still above ground and I see Lea press a kiss to his fingers and he blows a kiss in the tree's direction. This is something he's never done before and I cant help but smile, as long as he knows I've found peace, his story can continue on without me- it always has. I was just a burden, but being free… it's something we've both needed for a long time. And I can finally give it to him because… I'm no longer scared.
AN:
Me: hello everyone! Thank you so much for putting up with and actually reading 20 whole chapters!
Axel: that was a really sad way to end it… holly shit, I think I'm almost crying. How could you do that to me? She was my sister, and now-
Roxas: breathe Axel… breathe. In and out.
Me: sorry… I thought it was sweet though, if readers really hate it though I'll re-write the last bit of that ( I probably wont, but I'll give the option anyhow, just to me nice and all that jazzy stuff)
Sora: wow… you gave me and Riku a kid! Yay!
Me: yes, and there was no Mpreg, I have nothing against that exactly… but I've been scared about writing about pregnancy in general, so I think doing a pregnant male might kill my mind ^^
Axel: I actually really like it… it's just the ending that killed me. It ripped me apart Elizabeth, how could you?
Me: sorry… but the good news it: it's taken me exactly two months, one hour and fifteen minutes to finish this fiction! XD (I'm really happy about that)
Gaara: we all hope you've enjoyed and that you like it. Please review and Elizabeth and the cast will give you invisible cookies of Magic and love. God… I hate my lines, that's it, I'm finding a new boss… I Quit Elizabeth.
Me: you cant, I own you… and I'm cosplaying you, so you have to give me some credit XP hope you all enjoyed! Thank you again for reading, and hitting that pretty review button would be much appreciated!