"thanks for ruining my night " Andre sighed while walking to his room
Jean look at him walking away while lowering his head tiredly
"I'll go see what I can do for our upcoming plans" Jean told Breo as he went upstairs
"I think I'll just go to my room, too then"
Jean POV
Jean was starting at the forest that's in front of their mansion as he thought about how everything had been a mess for them
'Is it even worth trying anymore, being in a place and knowing that you're different from others, more powerful and definitely smarter
'even though I was a human before even though I wanted power but.. but when I got it why has this all brought me nothing but pain?'
Jean have always wanted to become a human again just how he used to..
he always wanted to regain emotions he lost
how to love and be loved?
how to have the desire to protect someone?
Jean's family had been really harsh on him there was nothing so called care or parental love in his life nor a lover
he was just alone all the time specially when all his family was all about was rather you become number one or you're not one of us
not just that but while he was a young boy his family had sent him out to fight a vampire and see his potential, he was young and helpless that he nearly died the only way to save him was for the a vampire to bite him so he can live
he was always scared of the judgment and how everyone saw him, he always wanted to look like the strongest person ever person that can't be easily shaken but he couldn't help but wonder
even though he was surrounded by people who love him..
why did he feel so helpless?
Breo POV
Breo on the other hand, he was laying down on his bed while staring at the ceiling
Breo, he was well raised he got all what he wanted every girl he looked at would fall for him
parental support he had it?, satisfaction of he sexual desires surely had it, being number one in everything he does yeah sure but..
Breo never allowed himself to fall in love
he was scared, he may have had parental support but he would always see how his parent's relationship fell apart each day
how he'd hear them yelling every night or how he'd see his mom crying or his dad drunk..
when he was 21 his mom couldn't take anymore of being with his dad so they got divorced
that day Breo went out for a night walk trying to clear his head and as he was walking in the dark alley he got attacked and turned to a vampire
after his parents got divorced he became the same as Andre at some point he had beliefs that love is a fake concept, he saw how unhappy his parents were even though they were supposed to be in
...love?
it wasn't supposed to hurt, or was it supposed to?
he never knew but he was never attempted to try falling in love..
Andre POV
meanwhile Andre was trying to control his anger from the news he heard from Jean. he stood by the window gazing at the dark clouds while it was raining ,he changed a lot, since Zara's death..
back then Andre had a really cheerful and strong smile,he was really supportive and sweet but after what happened everything changed
he loved her so much, so much that when she died he never wanted to live
so much that all the strength he built through all those years was destroyed like it was nothing
Andre's life haven't been the brightest nor the happiest at least after what happened.
In the beginning his father died while his mom was pregnant he never saw his dad but he always heard about him and how great he was
Andre was born with such an amazing and beautiful mother
she was always his escape from everything he always wanted to grow up and get stronger to protect her until..
One day a wealthy, handsome man asked his mom for marriage and his mom well..
...she was young, she was in a beautiful youthful shape with amazing grace
she wanted to fall in love again, she wanted to have someone to fill the gap in her and Andre's life as he didn't have a father figure to look up to..
Andre never liked the man, during him and Andre's mother engagement he never cared for the young boy or his safety
their marriage was the beginning of his pain.
As he found his mom drifting away from his reach, he wasn't allowed to be near her under the excuse of "he's a boy, he can't be overly attached to his mother like thsythat "
his mom's young age and weak personality were what made it hard to confront her husband
she would see her son being abused by his stepfather rather it was physical or mental yet she's too scared to say anything
his abuse started since he was 6 and still continued as he was growing up, he felt as if like his mom was dead, she never defended him, she never showed him any of those caring emotions she used to show
there was that time that vampires would attack houses and kill people who lived there but what was unexpected is that his step dad was a vampire himself
Andre was 13 during that time, he was a scared little boy who was desperately trying to protect his mother
" I don't care for the woman do whatever you want with her as long as you don't hurt the boy" his abuser said as he walked closer to him and tightly handcuffed the boy as he watched his mother die in front of his eyes..
Andre was soon turned to a vampire and lived with his so called stepfather till he met Breo and Jean then moved out with them
during his life with his two best friends he never showed his pain,he always acted cheerful and perfect so he gets to be looked at as a stronger figure than the others
until Zara was sent to live with them,he never attempted to fall for her but she..
she was always supporting him, showing him appreciation, doing her best to get stronger for him.
she wasn't even hiding the fact that she liked him, until he eventually fell for her and started recovering from the past it felt like home with her, he would always talk to her about everything, she was his escape from his pains.. with her he felt like he had a reason to live.
he always wanted to have a good new life with the person he loved the most, her..
''yet I wasn't strong enough to protect you that day.." he mumbled under his breath as he slightly punched the wall
"um hi.. my name is Rose Fudo, nice to meet you " her voice rang through his head as closed his eyes while taking a deep breath
'I need to forget about her, not for me but for her. if she kept being around she'll get hurt and if I told her she won't leave me alone, I guess it's just over '
ONE WEEK LATER
Rose POV
Rose was standing by her locker searching for her notebook and while she was searching a piece of paper cut her finger
she withdrew her hand quickly and looked at her finger that was slightly bleeding as she thought about what if Andre was around
' I wonder where's he?' she thought as she grabbed her notebook then closed her lockers door while sighing
no phone number, no addres.. pretty much nothing at all
it has been a week, a whole damned week, he haven't even explained why he kissed her that day but she kinda felt.. used to fulfill a certain desire of his you can say
she sat in her place and looked at the empty seat beside her which was Andre's seat
'but he looked desperate to have someone,look on his eyes says it all'
'he said he loved Zara and his heart belongs to her so what was the reason for that? he probably needs something so he did it but why me?? '
"ROSE FUDO" her thoughts were interpreted by her teacher's voice
'ughhh this is gonna be a long day's she thought
Andre POV
Jean was explaining to Andre and Breo their plan for how their attacks and defenses are gonna go
even though Andre was confident he won't mess up like the last time but he couldn't help but feel.. scared
he wasn't really scared of his enemies, he was more scared of the loss of fighting them, the people whom he cared for
he felt trapped, and too wrapped up in his past but he just couldn't move on
everytime he tries to ,he ends up being even more hurt
" I need a break from this, Jean give me the rest of the papers I'll read them later"he stood up from his seat took a pile of papers then walked out
Jean sensed Andre's tension about this, he knew exactly how he felt but who can blame Andre for feeling like this after everything
"what just happened? " Breo asked as he scratched the back of his neck
"I'll talk to him" Jean said as he walked out as well
"and here I am being left out again..ha niceee"Breo mumbled as he shook his head
Andre laid down as he thought about Jean's plan..at least tried to think about it other than random flashbacks that he didn't even know why he was having them
[flashback]
"Andre baby boy I've got something for you angel" his mom called out for him to come
it was his birthday as he was turning 3, the young boy ran to his mom with a wide smile and flushing red cheeks that we're full of happiness
his mom looked at him with the softest gaze as she hugged him tightly
"awww my angel is growing up so quickly, my adorable baby boy " she said as she kissed his cheek while his golden yellow eyes lit up even more
" this gift is really special since you're father has left it here only for you to have it" she said as she handed her son his father's old deck
when Andre held the cards in his hands he had a very warm feeling, then his eyes widened a bit when he saw their spirits
"MOM MOM MOM!! I CAN SEE THEM!! THE SPIRITS YOU TOLD ME ABOUT!! " his happiness with how special this made him feel was so heartwarming for his mom to see
she chuckled and patted her son's hair while he kept trying to read each cards' name as he jumped up and down from excitement
[end]
he stood up from his bed and walked over to his desk rubbing his eyes with a slight smile that soon faded buy the next one
[flashback]
he was looked up in a cold , dark room as he was laying down and helplessly bleeding remembering how his mom was killed in front of his eyes yet he couldn't do anything
he was feeling dizzy and numb as he saw a dark shadowy figure getting closer to him-
his thoughts were interpreted by his best friend's voice
"so you're going to act like that all the time" Andre opened his eyes as he heard Jean's voice
as they made eye contact
"like what? " Andre replied acting like he doesn't know what Jean is talking about and trying to hide the fact that his hands were shaking
"you know what I'm saying, listen I understand how you feel but..you're only getting yourself hurt more each time by not telling us, I wanna help yo-"
"it's fine Jean you worry too mu-"
"can you stop lying?! you know I can tell whenever you lie! "
Andre stayed silent as he looked down breaking eye contact with Jean
"I know you're strong enough to pull through this, I believe in you cause I know how amazing you are, and if you ever need anyone I'm here for you"
Andre had a slight smile on his lips
"I figured you'd like to say a small goodbye to Rose, so I made sure everything is secured for you to go "
"I'm- thank you Jean" Andre said as he grabbed his jacket and ran out of the room
I'm really embarrassed of how inconsistent my uploading schedule is but I actually tried with this chapter I looked through the old chapters and uhhh yo gurl haven't mentioned anything about back stories so this chapter was more info about them.