13) You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This

I Just Wanted You To Know

Kurt was with Blaine, studying (which was code for slacking off) in the choir room when Kurt's phone began to buzz. He pulled it out of his pocket and unlocked it. The caller iD read Santana Lopez. Kurt furrowed his eyebrows. What could she possibly want?

"What do you want, Satan?" he greeted her as he put the phone on speaker.

From the other end, she rolled her eyes. "Well, hello to you too, porcelain. Hey there Frodo." she added.

"How do you know if Blaine's here or not?" asked Kurt.

Santana rolled her eyes once more. "Because wherever you are, he's sure to follow... Anyways, ManHands is throwing a party tomorrow, and I know it won't have the decency to invite you because she'll go on some rant about you being a spy, which is ridiculous because well... Look what happened last time you tried to spy." Blaine let out a laugh and Kurt playfully swatted his shoulder. "Look, just be at Berry's by seven, Kay? And a fair warning, there absolutely WILL be alcohol present, because really, we can barley stand her when we're sober. And bring along Anderson if you want which we all know you do. Bye wonder twins!"

"Bye Satan." They replied. "See you tomorrow," added Kurt. He hung up and put his phone back in his pocket.

"Well," said Blaine as he looked at Kurt mischievously. "This sounds like fun."

"What sounds like fun?"

Klaine turned towards the door to see Niff walking in the room. Kurt brightened as he saw Nick. Blaine frowned and scooted closer to Kurt. Nick and Kurt had been hanging out a lot recently, and Blaine was... Frankly, feeling a little left out. Whenever he was around, they'd sneak knowing glances towards each other and giggle as they looked at Blaine. What sort of inside joke were these two giggling about?

"Rachel's having a party and Santana invited us." said Kurt.

"Yeah," Blaine added. "JUST us..." He gave a sort of pointed look at Nick.

At first Nick looks confused and taken aback by Blaine's remark. But a smirk of realization came across his face as he realized what was going on. Blaine was jealous.

Kurt suddenly clapped his hands together as he gasped with a smile on his face. "You two should come with us! I'm sure Rach won't mind!" Much to Blaine's dismay, both Nick and Jeff agreed to go.

"So much for quality time with Kurt and his friends alone," thought Blaine.

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Nick, Blaine, Jeff, and Kurt were led down the stairs to Rachel Berry's basement by the woman herself. She was wearing some ridiculous green dress. "Blaine, Kurt... Um, other Warblers. Wasn't expecting you guys..."

Santana stepped in. "I invited them, ManHands."

"Look, Rachel," said Blaine. "We promise that we're not here to spy, we're not even in our Warblers outfit." Rachel huffed, but accepted that the Warblers were there to stay.

About an hour and a half through the party, Blaine and Jeff were drunk, while Kurt and Nick decided to stay sober.

Blaine had thrown himself on Finn, "It is SO cool that, you and Kurt... Are brothers! Like BROTHERS! Wow... And you're so tall! He-hey Finn? Finn? You know how Kurt used to have a crush on you?" Finn, who had also decided to stay sober, nodded. "Well, that's AWESOME! That you're all cool and stuff now!"

Just then, out of nowhere, Rachel jumped up and yelled. "SPIN THE BOTTLE! WHO WANTS TO PLAY SPIN THE BOTTLE!"

Everyone cheered in agreement as they sat in the middle of the floor I'm a circle. Blaine sat next to Kurt, and across from them, Nick and Jeff sat side-by-side.

After a few minutes, Nick had kissed Brittany, Finn kissed Santana, Artie kissed Quinn, Blaine had kissed Tina, and Mercedes kissed Sam. The only ones who hadn't gone were Lauren, Puck, Rachel, Kurt, Mike, and Jeff.

Rachel grabbed the bottle in the middle and spun it as she yelled "MY TURN!" The bottle ended up landing on Jeff. Before he could even say anything, she grabbed the unsuspecting Warbler's face and kissed him.

He fought her every second of the kiss. When he finally managed to get away, he said, "Oh my GOD! Rachel! I think you may have actually turned me..."

Everyone stared at him incredulously. Nick looked especially freaked out.

"Gayer." he added with a smirk.

Everyone let out a relieved sigh and laughed as Kurt took his turn. He spun the bottle and watches it go round and round until it landed smack in the middle pointing towards Blaine.

Blaine looked at the bottle, then at who spun it. Kurt looked as if he were about to protest or something (he really didn't want things to get awkward between them, especially after Valentines day), but before he could, Blaine grabbed his shirt, pulled Kurt towards him, and kissed him.

The kiss got very intense, very quickly. Blaine pulled Kurt closer, eventually wrapping his arms around him. Kurt was tense at first, but he immediately relaxed the second that Blaine put his lips on his.

They pulled away and looked into each others eyes. Blaine's mind was too drunk to comprehend that Kurt was supposed to be just a friend. He looked into those glasz eyes and lost any self control he had left. He threw his face right back onto Kurt's. Kurt let himself fall into the second kiss until he tasted something that reminded him that this wasn't a real kiss.

Alcohol.

Kurt pulled away as he realized that Blaine was still drunk. He hadn't wanted to kiss Kurt. It was spin the bottle...

He got up from his spot and ran up the stairs, Nick chasing after him. "Kurt!"

He just kept on running and climbed into his car as tears welled up in his eyes. He turned the ignition and drove off. He drove for about thirty minutes until he pulled over and just cried with his head down in the steering wheel. He'd just kissed the boy he was in love with for a few months now... And he felt like crap, because the only reason he'd kissed back was because his blood-alcohol level was close to unstable.

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Blaine was awoken the next day by his roommate Wes barging in and opening then slamming the door loudly as he screamed "WAKIE WAKIE BLAINERS! RISE AND SHINE!"

Blaine groaned and stuffed his face under the pillow. "Wes! You ass wipe! Shut UP!" His head was ringing with the most MASSIVE headache he'd ever had.

Wes smirked. Jeff filled him in on watt happened the night before and he couldn't just pass up the opportunity to temporarily torture Blaine. "Aw, does Blainers have a headache?" Wes asked, being intentionally louder than necessary.

Blaine looked up from his pillow at Wes. "Fuck you." he whispered.

Wes just laughed and jumped on the bed with his roommate. "So, you gonna fill me in on the details of your make out session with Hummel?"

Blaine shot up straight, his eyes wide. "Waitwaitwait." he closed his eyes and shook his head. "WHAT?"

"Wow, Anderson, you really need to keep track of who you defile." Wes laughed. Wes's smile faded when he saw the confused look on Blaine's face. "Oh my... You really don't remember?" Blaine shook his head. "Damn! How much did you drink!"

Blaine rubbed his face with the palm of his hands. "Enough to not remember what happened last night... What did you mean by what you said earlier?"

"Well, from what I heard from Jeff, you kissed him. Kurt, I mean, not Jeff. You kissed Kurt." Wes left out the fact that it was a spin-the-bottle kiss, but Blaine didn't need to know that.

Blaine buried his face in his hands. How could he have been so stupid! He'd let the drinking get to him and kissed Kurt! He threw the covers off of himself. "I need to go apologize to him. He probably hates me! I mean, that makes me just as bad as Karofsky..."

Wes held Blaine back. "Oh, just admit it Blaine, you enjoyed that kiss as much as he did. You two are so head over heels for each other that it's not even funny."

Maybe it was his headache, maybe he was tired of the mocking, but something just made Blaine snap. "You know what, Wes! I'm not in the fucking mood so just SHUT UP! I am so sick and tired of everyone telling me that I have feelings for Kurt, which I DON'T! Kurt will never be anything more than a friend, ok? I don't have feelings for him! I never have, and I never will! So just DROP IT." Blaine climbed back into bed and buried his face back into the pillow. He would apologize later.

Wes just looked at him and shook his head. Blaine's stubbornness was going to cost him Kurt, and then he'd be sorry.

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Kurt was in his bed the next day and refused to get out of it, no matter how hard Nick tried. "Kurt, please, just at least eat breakfast or something."

Kurt shook his head into the pillow and mumbled a muffled "No!" to Nick.

"I still don't quite exactly understand WHY you're so upset. You got kissed, quite intensely, I might add, by the guy you're in love with. You should be doing a victory dance!"

Kurt shot his face up from the pillow. "Because the only reason he got so into that kiss was because his blood-alcohol level was near unstable!" He hugged his knees and looked down. "That's the only way anybody's ever going to love me... If their wither drunk or high..."

Nick shook his head. "Don't say that. Blaine may be an idiot, but believe me, he does like you. Anyone would have to be a moron to not see it in his eyes."

Kurt began crying again. "It was supposed to be just a spin-the-bottle kiss." He shook his head. "I just HATE how he can make me feel this way, you know. Every time we kissed... It just hurt to know that I had all these emotions for him, and he didn't feel anything back."

The gears in Nick's head began turning. "Wait a second... You said it was just a spin-the-bottle kiss. If that's true, then why did he kiss you twice?"

Kurt opened his mouth, then closed it. "I-I don't... What do you mean?"

Nick rolled his eyes. "Lord, you're getting just as bad as him. What I mean is that he didn't HAVE to kiss you a second time. He did it because he wanted to. Even if he WAS drunk, somewhere inside him, he wanted to kiss you again. Now... You can tell yourself that he doesn't feel the same and try to get over him, which you probably won't because you're nuts about him. OR you can go up to him, and tell him how you really feel. For reals this time."

Kurt smiled at Nick. "You-you really think that he likes me back?"

Nick smiled back. "I KNOW so... Now go! Find him! And tell him!"

Kurt wrapped him in a hug and thanked him before running out in the hallway. He was going to find Blaine and tell him exactly how he felt about him. He was going to tell him all about the way his heart fluttered when he smiled. How his hands always started shaking around him. He was going to ask him if he felt the same, which judging by what Nick had just told him, he probably did.

He was near Blaine and Wes's dorm when he heard Blaine nearly shouting. He peeked through the door to get a closer look. But his heart wasn't prepared for what he heard right then.

"I am so sick and tired of everyone telling me that I have feelings for Kurt, which I DON'T! Kurt will never be anything more than a friend, ok? I don't have feelings for him! I never have, and I never will! So just DROP IT!"

Kurt backed away from the door, his eyes welling up in tears. He turned away and let the tears fall down his face. He ran back to his room, and thankfully, Nick must've gone to Jeff's room, because he just needed to be alone right now. "How could I have been so stupid?" he asked himself. "I let my hopes be brought up... Of course Blaine doesn't like me."

Kurt laid there in his bed for the rest of the day and just cried. It's not like he had anything to look forward to anymore.

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A/N: I feel so horrible for him! I hated doing that to him... We're only like two or three chapters from THE chapter guys!

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