Author's Notes Ch 2

Welcome back. I can't believe it: this has only been up for 2 days, and I already have a review AND a follower!? Special Thanks to AND PEGGY for reviewing (PS, there will be shipping and angst, but i am trying to be original) and Trashsytrashbag for following!

Trigger Warnings; Self-depreciating thoughts, self-harm

The morning of Saturday,September 19th, Peggy leapt out of bed in a flurry of excitement. It was her favorite day of the year. The one day she was a separate, independent entity from her sisters. She pulled her wavy, waist length brown hair into a side ponytail and pulled on her favorite sweatshirt-bright yellow with pink and black and turquoise flowers, black lettering spelling out Walking on Sunshine in block letters across the front-along with black jeggings that were splattered with yellow paint. She grabbed her floral-print vans and shoved her socked feet into them as she exited her bedroom, practically skipping in excitement.

"G'mornin!" Peggy sang as she entered the kitchen for breakfast. Her sisters nodded in response, before resuming their hushed conversation. Peggy's face fell for a fraction of a second, then resumed its cheerful expression, albeit a little forced. Did they really...? Nah. Today is too important for them to forget... Right? She thought to herself. A small, nagging voice replied, its not that big of a deal to them. Why would it be? They've never cared before. They forgot. Because you are worthless. Invisible. Nothing.

Peggy shook herself out of it and poured herself a bowl of cereal. She couldn't afford to listen to her today. Today was off limits for the voice in her head. The one she'd named Mariah long ago. She poured milk over her breakfast, grabbed a spoon, and sat next to Eliza.

"How'd you guys sleep last night?" Peggy asked her sisters, trying to make small talk as she began eating. Angelica smirked at her.

"Fine. Peg, we have big plans for today," Angelica began. Peggy's heart soared. They remembered!?

"So we'd appreciate if you tried not to embarrass us," Angelica continued. Peggy's newfound joy shattered.

Eliza leaned towards her little sister conspiratorially, "We are gonna sneak into the city to people watch! Or shop! Or BOTH!" She let out a lighthearted squeal, brown eyes sparkling in excitement.

I told you. The voice of Mariah crooned in Peggy's head. You think you're so special. But you aren't. Nobody cares about your problems Margarita. Because you don't deserve it. Worthless. Invisible. Nothing. Useless. Good-for-nothing. Burden.

Peggy stood abruptly inadvertently cutting off Angelica as she and Eliza planned out today's escapades. The glanced at her as she dumped her uneaten, partially-soggy breakfast down the drain, but said nothing. Peggy heard Eliza whisper, "What's her damage?" as she hurriedly left the room, tears streaming.

Mariah took over Peggy's body, steering her to the bathroom. The young girl fished in the drawer before finding what she wanted-a well hidden pack of exact-o-knives. Mariah ripped open the package and selected a blade. She rolled up her sleeve to reveal silvery scars already crisscrossing across the length of her arm.

N-no, Peggy tried to protest as pain prickled on her arm. You can't...I've been doing so good. Mariah, please.

"You deserve this pain," Mariah whispered to herself. "You forgot, and tried to get people to notice you. But nobody cares."

A/N- That's all for now. If you wish for a dramatic reveal in a later chapter, I'd suggest NOT looking up the significance of the afore mentioned date. *whispers SPOILERS! Ala River Song* PS yes. I know I misspelled Maria's name, but I wanted to make sure people pronounced it correctly in their heads(I sometimes call her Maria in my head, and i annoy even myself)

Remember to be yourself and never give up.

see you next monday

RN