Chapter 50

"I can understand your longing for a child, Sarah. I always wanted more children too. I missed so much of Francesca's childhood."

"Hey, we could have one together!" she joked.

"It would never work, Sarah. We would have to keep it secret and I would lose the opportunity to be a part of his or her life."

"AJ, I would never keep you from our…your child!"

"I know that, Sarah, but unless you were no longer in my chain of command-which would mean that either I would have to retire or you would have to transfer. If it were ever discovered that I was your child's father it could end both our careers."

"It would almost be worth leaving JAG," 'and not seeing you every day,' she added in her thoughts, "to have yo…a child."

"You would really consider having a child and then sharing it, with me?"

"Yes, I would, but I wouldn't want you to retire. I would be willing to transfer as long as it was to a position still in the DC area."

"What about Harm?" He hated to even bring his name up again, but felt he had to. "You don't know how he feels about your deal yet…"

"True, but he does have Mattie now, and I know that if you want a child half as bad as I do, that I would be willing to tell him that our deal was off so that we could enter into a deal of our own."

"You would? Sarah, do you realize what changes this would bring to both of our lives if we did this?" AJ sat forward on the blanket, trying to read what she was feeling in her eyes, but it was so dark, even under the full moon that neither of then had even noticed rising.

"After spending this time together, I feel that I know you so much better. I know that you are and would be a wonderful father. I see how you are with Little AJ and baby James. Yes, I would like to have a child with you, AJ, no matter what changes that would cause."

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

1045 EST

Pensacola, Florida

The next morning both of them were quiet, remembering their dream from the night before and how much they longed to share their love with each other and then to create a child out of that love. Neither said a word to the other about this, though, regulations would not allow it.

They searched their minds for something fun to do that day, both thinking that the other needed cheering up, but the could not think of anything that seemed suitable.

After breakfast, neither of them had yet come with a plan for what they wanted to do. So they decided to just drive around sightseeing, trying to find something to pass the time. Sarah saw a go-cart track.

"Look, AJ! Let's stop and take a ride or two around the track,"

"Really, Sarah! Isn't that for children?" he smiled, passing the track as she frowned.

"Go back! There were adults riding with the children. Come on, please, it'll be fun," begged Sarah.

"You've got something up your sleeve, Darlin'. You like to drive much too fast to want to go play with kiddies riding around a track." AJ glanced skeptical at Sarah.

"No, nothing up my sleeve, I have on a tank top," she laughed.

Shaking his head, he kept on driving.

"Is the SEAL afraid of little cars?" taunted Sarah.

"That one won't work, Darling," winked AJ.

"It's just something I thought you'd enjoy. Excuse me for thinking of you, and what I believed you'd enjoy," sighed Sarah, peeking at AJ out of the corner of her eye.

To be continued….