Jacob's POV

Renesmee worried me now., she was looking a little sad. I didn't know what for, but it got me wondering. As I placed my arm around her waist she looked like she was thinking hard about something. I led her to her seat and let my arm off from around her. When she sat down I thought of something that might cheer her up.

"Hey Nessie."

She turned to look at me. Once she did, I gave a her a quick kiss on the lips and was on my way out. I heard her classmates holler and whistle. She must've been blushing at the time I'm sure. Right now, class was the last thing on my mind. I heard some guy call out 'Hey you' to me. Probably one of those guys patrolling the halls that I was warned about.

When I turned to the voice, there was a man short, slumpy, and with a bad hair day. He wore circular glasses and a sweatervest with a checkered shirt that were tucked into his formal pants. When I started to laugh at how ridiculously weird looking this so called 'Authority Figure' was, he took out a small notepad and asked my name. I replied, Brok Ennail, which was broken nail. He actually believed me and let me go off to class.

Walking down the hall I continued my previous thoughts about Nessie. It had been less than ten minutes and I already missed her. Class wasn't so important to me really. I had learned it all before, but for Nessie's sake we; as in my pack and I; stayed back just for her. My thoughts drifted around to me hugging her, to me kissing her; to me actually doing a hell of a lot more than I ever imagined. The two of us, together, alone and bare. Searching one another without a care of getting caught. Before I could get to the best part, I was interrupted.

You are really sick you know that Jacob Black? It was Leah.

Wow, how can I see her without picturing her naked? Embry.

Same here. Quil.

Jake, for the love of dog. Picture a bar of chocolate or something. Seth

I chuckled a bit, embarassed by how easily I let my imagination run wild. Nessie never thought of me like that at all. At least not that I know of, but I knew I should of stopped. Sorry guys I was a bit...curious.

Well curiosity did kill the cat. Oh wait, we're not cats. Just try not to think of that so as long as we're awake okay? Quil asked. I agreed with the regular, Mhm, but I knew it wouldn't be long before I would have those thoughts.

I wasn't sure what time it was, but I was pretty sure that I was much more late than I expected to be. I was fast, I just wasn't in the same channel as time. Stupid fantasies of mine. Why does she have to be so...stop...cut it out damn you. Get to class! You'll see her soon. Yes that was true, lunch wouldn't be that far away. Just three periods until, right? I could do this. I could go on without thinking of her. I WILL. I MUST. I CAN.

Five minutes later...

I will not do it. I must not do it. I cannot do it! I was sitting in class barely five minutes and already the images of the horrible things that could happen to her without me there flared through my head. How stupid was I to think that I could leave her all alone. I had to think of a way to calm down. Okay Jacob look around. Lalala. Wall, poster, light, girl, boy, girl, Nessie...Nessie's pretty hair...NO! You fail! Damn you Jacob Black! Obviously looking around and naming things was not working.

What was next on my list of things to do to keep me from thinking of her? Hmm...get up and make an excuse to go and see her? No. How about sleep? Yes. Yes that would work. I mean I can control my dreams and she does not have to be in them.

So in desparation of forgetting her for just a moment or two, I closed my eyes and laid my head onto the cold wooden-like desk. It was working. I could do it. This was exactly what I needed. Sleeping was the right choice when it came down to it. After all I was tired and it had been a long night last night.

I was pretty nervous to see Nessie this morning. So I tried to find some clothes to wear that made me look less of a bum. I called Leah for advice and she gladly came over. Last night I had been a model, showing off the clothes that Leah brought and wanted me to try on to see if I looked good in any of them. She had picked about three shirts, shoes, socks, and jeans. Because of my transformation, I had to limit my usage and come up with a plan to not tear any of the clothes or have her kill me. These were clothes that she had gotten for Seth that never fit. They were too big for Seth, and Seth was much smaller than me.

When I had my clothing situation down, I had to do something with my hair apparently. It had gotten long, at least down to my chin and Leah didn't think it was manageable. Next thing I knew I was getting it all cut off. I liked my hair the way it was before, and so did Nessie. Damn, it wasn't working. I wasn't even fully asleep, not even close. I had been thinking about her nonstop and needed some type of way to control my thoughts. This was vital, even when it came to coming over to her house, because whenever I came over, Edward would monitor me. Watch me like a hawk, if you will.

I was bad at keeping my thoughts to myself, but if I tried hard, maybe I could. Maybe I was stressting over keeping her out of my mind. Thinking about her once in a while didn't seem so bad. Now I could do this. I could do this without annoying myself with self control. Yay for Jacob.

I know this took longer than I expected. Been having some trouble at home. Finally I have decided to put up more of Chapter Three, Chapter four will be coming kind of randomly so please be patient. Thank you.

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