Yup I am going to continue. I'm working on this in between all of my projects to settle down a bit. Hopefully I don't get lost between them. So anyways last chapter wasn't as great as I planned it to be for my coming back chapter. I was sort of distracted with watching my sicks sister that I wasn't entirely focusing on my wording and such. I feel like I'm rushing the story...or am I? I confuse myself too much.

Jacobs POV

Still pissed off from the phone call I had received the other night, I had no time to myself. That meant no dirty thoughts time...not that I would be thinking dirty thoughts at all. Eddie would kill me for it, or at least try. I didn't care if I had no time to myself, as long as she was safe, I would be satisfied enough.

I decided to call her, I needed to know if she was alright. The phone rang three times over until who I thought would be Bella, but was Edward, picked up. Without any greeting I asked if Nessie was safe. He gave the short and simple 'Yes'. I had to ask what was up.

"There anything you're not telling me?"

"Jacob, I would like it if you stopped seeing my daughter." I pulled the phone away staring at it not sure if I had heard it right. He wanted me to stop seeing Ness? The one person I loved and devoted myself to protect?

"Let me speak to her! I want he to tell me not to see her, not you!" Again, I was confused and angry. I was almost about ready to shift.

The line was quiet and I could hear the background noise, Edward was giving the phone to Nessie."Jake?"

"Ness? Whats going on? Please tell me?" I was shaking now.

"I don't want to see you anymore. Please, don't ever come near me ever again." My world was crashing down.

"Is Edward telling you to say this? What is he doing to make you-"

"No Jacob...it was my decision. I..." She sounded like she was crying, choking up on the last word. "I could never love you."

My heart dropped into the pit of my stomach as she lingered on the word 'you'. What the hell was going?! Was this actually happening? Just the other day, we both seemed fine and happy with each other. I couldn't piece it together.

"Ness please...just please, tell me whats going on?" I think she could tell how hurt I was by the sound of my cracking voice. She let out a deep breath which buzzed through the phone.

"Goodbye forever...Jacob Black." And she was gone, and I was dying. Still, I had to see her.

Renesmee's POV

My whole body shook as I couldn't believe what I was saying. I knew how he was feeling about now. My Dad motioned me on, and I gave a nod. Letting out a deep breath I prepared for the last words I would speak to him.

"Goodbye forever...Jacob Black." As I clicked the End button, I knew what exactly I had ended. The bond we had, a friendship, and any possibility of something much more. It was all gone by my very own words. I looked to my Mom who I knew sympathized what was done. She had originally protested what I had just done, but now knew it was for mine and his safety.

"I'm going to bed now. Please don't disturb me." I had dealt a crushing blow to the one I had cared for, the one who had loved me. I wanted to bury myself alive or at least find any form of repenting for what I had done. I was bleeding inside, bleeding silver. Now I wish I hadn't of done so, even if it were for a good reason.

In my room, I kept my door locked as if it had made a difference. I laid on my bed staring at my ceiling, covers pulled up to my chest. I wanted Jacob to be there, holding me in the dark, letting me know I was safer in his arms rather than my own family. I thought about the word love and how it was defined in my tiny spark of a life.

The other day, I felt something in me that made me forget about all of the drama your typical vampire family would endure. Some kind of connection between Jacob and I. Not the imprinting but something much more, but I wanted proof that it was true. Was Jacob actually in love with me as he claimed? In these times I wish I were a normal human.

What I was told when I got home the other day was that there was a possibility that Jacob and I were going to be targets for some type of experiment. I told Grandpa Carlisle about the female vampire I met at school. I thought maybe it had something to do with what I was told. He looked pretty surprised when I mentioned the name Amelia. Dad had no clue who this Amelia was, in fact nobody else but Grandpa knew. Grandpa actually originally suggested that I break ties with Jacob. My Dad followed this agreement after he spoke to Gramps about it, but both wished that I could see why they were so concerned. They had actually wanted to give me a chance to decide. They explained the situation more to me and after rebelling, I complied.

Maybe my compliance showed that I do love Jacob. I wasn't thinking only about myself, but rather Jacob too in that decision. I began to wonder if my Dad realized I had proved him wrong, I wondered if he knew I could love Jacob Black. At the moment though, I had to forget in order to keep him safe. Then again, Jake was strong and could fend off a few puny vamps on his own, so why did I agree to something so stupid? I was pretty sure everyone in my family knew this already, especially Grandpa. So why? Why did he want me to separate from Jake if he knew Jake was strong enough...unless something much stronger was out there.

I soon drifted off into sleep, hoping the days ordeal would pass over. Instead I heard some rather loud taps against my window just a couple of hours later. I woke up to see two eyes peering in. Jake. I got up from my bed opening my window but blocking it myself.

"Go away." I had to be hard on him.

"Geez Ness, do you always say that to people that come to visit?"

He didn't seem as distraught as he was on the phone. "No I only say that to teenage werewolves who decide the best way to visit is through the window." I tried hard to keep the same sort of heartless emotion I expressed on the phone.

"Can you let me in? We need to talk. Also I don't think anyone wants to see a full moon tonight."

He wasn't serious, was he actually naked? I blushed lightly and grabbed a robe out from my closet. I tossed it to him and let him in. I kept my vision away so as not to stare at the nude well-built teenage boy in my room.

"I meant what I said on the phone. I don't want anything to do with you Jacob Black."

I heard some shuffling as I imagined that he was putting on the robe which I knew would barely fit him. I would then turn to find out he wrapped it around his waist, his magnificent chest still exposed. I swallowed hard, trying to remain serious.

"Ness, I know you. You don't mean it. The only reason you'd say something so horrible would be if there was something wrong." He took in a breath, "Look, I got a phone call last night from this creepy old lady asking me if I loved you. Do you know how pissed off I felt? It sounded like...this person was going to do something to you. Something bad. When you called me and said those things..." He paused again and I could tell he was trying to calm himself down. "I love you. I love you so much it hurts, Ness. If I ever lost you, I wouldn't know how to live with myself. You're everything to me. So please tell me what you couldn't say in front of everyone else."

At this point I felt three different ways, I felt guilty, disgusted with myself, and loved. There were many ways to tell him, but I chose the basic straight-to-the-point way.

It didn't take him long to know why I had said those horrible things. In just seconds after concluding what was wrong, I felt his hand over mine. Holding it reassuringly before using his other hand to brush a hair out of my face. The connection was stronger and we both could feel it. I needed Jacob and he needed me. Together, we were strong.

Sudden realization kicked in. Jacob. Naked. Sitting on my bed. Naked only with my robe around him. I blushed lightly and looked away from him for a moment. "Uh Jake...you do realize my parents are just downstairs."

"Actually...only Alice is downstairs. She didn't seem to care."

"No...I mean its kind of an awkward scene right now, Jake." I gestured with my hands, playing it off as if I were stretching. He got the memo and got up.

"I'll go then." I grabbed his arm before he could even take a step. With begging eyes asking him to stay.

"Please Jake just don't go. Stay the night?"

"Ness, if I do Daddy dearest is gonna get mad." I groaned, still determined to make him stay.

"So? I want him to. Its not like I'm gonna be straddling you begging for your ever so sexy nude body to clash with mine." He tightened his grip on my hand he was still holding. I grinned and could tell what he had just imagined. "You perv."

"I can't help it if you're the one describing it." He then pulled me closer to his warm and nicely shaped body, and I did not at all resist.

He fell asleep a lot faster than me. The past two days went by pretty fast. I didn't even get to celebrate my birthday, but that was fine with me. I remained awake the rest of the night, just watching his chest rise and fall in such a rhythmic motion. It was nice being curled up against the sleeping body of Jacob Black. It was nice to know that he could sleep as soundly as he was with me. I seized an opportunity to scoot upward kissing his forehead lightly before laying down and falling asleep myself. I hoped that maybe the next day would be different.