Summary: Matt is a powerful angel; Tai is a human. Matt has kidnapped Tai from Earth and taken him to the angel-kingdom; but Matt first felt too guilty to rape Tai. But once Tai developed a friendship with another male-Angel, Matt was angered and raped Tai. This chapter explores Tai's feelings after the rape…
Hi guys! Here's another installment of Wouldn't It be Nice to Choose. I still haven't told Sierra that this RP is up as a fic on – I've got nothing to say except I'm ashamed but I can't stop! I won't stop! AHHH!
But she still gets due credit because she wrote the uke character (Tai).
So Sierra wrote as Tai. Flame (me) wrote as Matt.
Matt woke up feeling more rested than he had in weeks. He was laying on his front now, having finally pulled out of the brunette after their last joining in the wee hours of the morning – he had taken Tai many times the night before and the smell of sex still hung in the air.
Tai lay curled on his side, faced away from him – Matt was not sure if he was awake yet or not; but rays of sunlight streamed in through his curtains, turning the dark skin on the brunette's back into perfect bronze. His skin was littered with marks of Matt's possession on him & though his legs were tightly closed, Matt's cum still leaked out from inside him and streaked the back of those slender thighs. Unable to resist, he leaned across and pressed a soft kiss to the nape of that long neck and then trailing his mouth down to nip at his shoulder blade.
"Wake up, love," He murmured, voice still gruff from just having just woken up himself. "I think it's time we took a trip down to the lake – you want to bathe right?" He asked.
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Tai had been woken up more times than he would like to remember that night. Every time he was forced to wake up, Matt had taken him and taken him until he was so filled with cum that it leaked out of him with nearly every thrust. Tai had lost track of what number that was once the cum started to leak out of him. The back of his thighs were covered in fresh and dry cum and his body covered in marks. There was no mistaking what had happened to him that night.
The human was slowly falling asleep once the kiss pressed against the back of his neck. He flinched away from the kisses and nips, listening to the voice and realizing that he could wash away all of the angel's release from his skin. "Bathe, yes," it was one of the few things he had said to him in the last twenty-four hours. He was going to keep all contact to a minimum. The angel took away his only chance he had of changing their relationship now that he had spent the night raping him-Tai just couldn't forgive that..Not for a long time.
He wiggled away. Wanting only to put distance between himself and the angel. The human grimaced once he moved, pain shot up his spine, making him moan out. He whimpered, shaking and biting his swollen bottom lip to fight off the tears. He could feel fresh cum leaking from his stretched passage and staining his thighs ever more. With his eyes now clenched shut and lips nearly bleeding from how hard he bit them..he realized that he would have to ask for help to even stand. The angel had done more damage than Tai had realized.
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Matt barely caught the soft pained moan escaping Tai's lips… perhaps he had been a little too enthusiastic the night before. But he could not bring himself to feel too guilty about it anymore – after all, the human had proved last night that he did not care for the angel's emotions. Still, it had not been his intention to hurt Tai physically.
So he was careful as he wrapped his arms around the brunette and turned him around to face him – "I'm sorry – it was your first time and I should have been gentler with you," he murmured, running a thumb across a high cheekbone and leaning across to kiss him softly. "I can't promise things are going to be different. But I can promise that you will become accustomed to this," he said honestly, looking into eyes that turned molten brown from the sunlight.
With that, he gave Tai a few minutes of peace to himself. He lifted himself out of the bed and put on the soiled clothes from the night before. Then he went to his trunk and pulled out sets of fresh clothes for himself and Tai & packed them into a satchel – he also grabbed a large shawl before making his way back to the bed.
Silently, he helped the brunette sit up and wrapped him in the shawl. He tried to jostle Tai as little as possible – but even tiny movements obviously caused Tai a lot of pain. "You're not going to be able to walk," Matt assessed quickly and then lifted his captive into his arms bridal-style. The brunette's legs were mostly exposed but it would be a quick 15 minute dive to the lake.
Slinging the satchel around his shoulder, he walked out the door with his precious cargo in his arms.
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Still, he refused to meet the angel's eyes. He was unresponsive to the kiss and only moved when he needed to as he was carefully handled by his blue-eyed captor. The time he took for himself was filled with memory of the night before that he would never be able to forget no matter what he did. He was thankful for the shawl wrapping around him..even if his legs did show.
Arms now wrapped around the angel's neck, he kept his eyes closed as he was carried. It was humiliating now that he couldn't walk without pain..Now that he had been claimed so deeply that he would feel it for a while to come. Anyone who saw them would know what went on and he knew..he just knew that the other angels would leer and laugh at him. That was something that he just didn't want at all.
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They reached the lake about twenty minutes later – this was not the pond in the army barracks. It was a real lake on Earth – the closest one to Matt's house. It was part of a lush green forest. The water was clear blue – a light breeze was blowing, rustling the bushes and trees that surrounded the lake. Matt set Tai down on a large rock near the embankment – he removed the shawl from the brunette's tired frame, doing his best to ignore his erection at the sight of that beautiful naked body. Even prettier now that it was so thoroughly marked by him.
He dropped the satchel and stripped off his own clothes – then he was carrying Tai into the lake down the gently sloped embankment. The water was perfect– lukewarm and flowing gently. "You don't want me touching you," he said simply, noting the subtle way Tai flinched whenever their bodies came in contact. "I'll let you wash yourself but can you stand on your own?" He asked as he experimentally set Tai against a sloped rock at the edge.
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Once he was set down in the beautiful lake, he leaned against the rock and decided it wasn't so bad standing without help. Still, every little movement hurt more than it should. He closed his eyes for a long moment and let the warm water lap at his skin and sighed as the first few laps of water unsettled the dried cum on his thighs. IT felt good to know that he was going to be clean again.
"Fine by myself," he said, opening his eyes and sending a warning glare towards the angel. He didn't want the angel touching him any more than needed. Slowly, he turned and placed his hands on the wall, slinking down further into the water with the help of the rock. His legs were slightly shaking and his limbs were tired from not being used. Yet, this still felt better without the angel's help. He had no plans for asking for something that he didn't want.
One hand continued to press against the rock and the other he ran up and down his thighs, frowning when he felt just how much cum lined his skin. What worried him..was cleaning out his passage, sure some of it dribbled out of him..but to get all of it he would most likely have to fish it out..That was something that he really didn't want to do. The anger that he would feel might cause him to attack the angel-if he could.
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Matt had moved further away from Tai, putting a good 10 feet between them – close enough to be able to react if something happened, but far enough to give some semblance of space. He was already hard again. He had expected to feel less desire for Tai, now that he had already had him – but he was quickly finding out the opposite was true. Still, he knew that Tai must be incredibly sore and tender inside – he noticed the stiff movements as Tai ran his hands over his body, washing away the evidence from the night before.
"I'll take you to see Sora after this," Matt told him. "She's got medication that will help you," he added as an explanation. Then he swam further out into the lake, giving Tai a little more privacy so that he could wash himself properly. He may not care as much about the brunette's feelings anymore but it was certainly not Matt's wish to torture him just for pleasure.
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Over his shoulder, Tai watched the angel swim away from him and took in a deep breath. He closed his eyes and pressed a finger inside of him, wincing as his passage clenched around his finger. Had he really gotten used to having the angel inside of him? Taking a deeper breath and pushing his finger in deeper, pushing out the cum and shuddering as he did so.
He took several minutes to fish out the cum and clean out his passage before he was satisfied. He took a chance and dipped into the water up to his neck, still using his hand to clean off his body. With every brush of his hand over his body, he found more and more marks left by the angel and growled. He refused to look down at himself and see all of the marks now on him by the damned angel. He needed to get away from him and spend the day with Sora.
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Tai was angry - Matt was actually rather relieved when he realized this. It meant he had not broken the brunette's spirt. Not that it should matter to you even if he was broken... the harsher part of him decided. But somehow it did matter. He would hate to see those beautiful spirited eyes give up. Ofcourse he wasn't going to stop fucking the human - even guilt could not stop him now that he had fully claimed Tai.
But I could be gentler with him... I will let him some semblance of control... Matt decided as he pulled himself out of the water. He knew how to start - he wasn't going to force the brunette into anything right now. He was careful to keep his hands from wandering to more private territories as he lifted Tai out of the water and helped him dressed.
The silence prevailed as they made their way back to the angel army office. Matt set Tai onto his feet in front of Sora's desk. The woman took one look at them both and immediately understanding flickered in her eyes.
"We'll see you later, Matt," Sora dismissed him, turning her attention to Tai immediately. Normally Matt would have not stood for this - but this was Sora and he knew her intentions were good so he followed her orders.
Sora turned her attentions to Tai - the boy was wincing with every move and seemed barely capable of standing on his own. She came out from behind the desk and offered him her shoulder. "Do you think you can make it to the back room?"
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Tai nodded and placed a hand on her shoulder, limping as she lead them into the back room. "Was he gentle?" She whispered in his ear which promptly made him freeze in his slow steps and look up at her. Roughly, he swallowed his anger and sucked in a breath. "I suppose..even when I told him no...I don't know how many times he had his way with me."
Her arm wrapped around his waist as she gently nudged him to begin walking again. There was sorrow in her eyes and a soft smile. "I'll help you get through this. I know what it's like the first few times. Just..just don't ever fight him. Fighting will only every make it worse. I'll send cream home with you, it will help you heal." She paused in her speech and caught his eyes as they eased him down onto a chair in the backroom. "He didn't...cause you to bleed..did he?"
Tai shook his head no. She smiled then, "you're lucky he cared enough for that." She left his side and walked over to a small cabinet and opened the door to reveal numerous small containers, jars, and bottles in different sizes and colors. She picked out a blue jar and closed the door, walking back to Tai and handing him the jar. "This cream," she said, still speaking a language that only they would understand. "You'll have to use it twice a day...and after you've cleaned yourself when he's done with you..You may not want to ask..but it would easier if he helped you apply the cream."
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She took a seat opposite from him. "Honestly Tai, I came to work this morning dreading to see you today," She picked up his hands and studied his wrists for bruising. "Looks like he tied you up - but with cloth?" She guessed - the bruises didn't look too bad. "I'll get you some topical medication." She went back to the cupboard and picked up an ointment to help sooth the cloth burns.
"He saw the necklace, didn't he?" She asked - although she already knew the answer. "You looked so happy about it - I knew you wouldn't be able to hide how excited you are about Raeson." She rubbed the ointment into his wrists as she spoke. "And Matt... well, you really are lucky it was him - if I had tried something like that with Arjun at the beginning of our relationship, I probably wouldn't have lived to see the next morning. There were rumors going around last week that he even bought you your own bed. I've never heard of an angel doing that for his captive. I guess he was really trying... atleast as hard as he could try...," she explained.
"But you know we'll never be equal to them in their eyes, don't you?" She asked. "Matt will always see you as just a human...," She smiled at him sadly. "Well who knows - now that he's had you, he may tire of you soon. I told you - most angels return their captives back to their homes after a few months. The odds are in your favor."
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"I don't feel that way," he admitted. There was a deep frown on his face as he watched her work the ointment into his slightly bruised wrists. For a long moment he thought about her words. The angel...had really been trying to be peaceful with him? He could understand that..but wouldn't the angels want all of their captives fully rested and well? Why was it such a big thing that he had his own bed? Was it...really that unheard of?
"The reason he raped me..was because I was happy about Raeson's gift?" His chest tightened with the thought. Was it jealously that pushed the angel over? Was he...really that jealous over his happiness over a simple gift? He sighed, 'then it's a good thing he doesn't know about anything else Raeson has given me.'
Sora shook her head and patted his hand gently. "It happens more than you may think. And after Matt waited so long for you I would think that he'd tire of you faster than usual. Just try not to worry too much. Things will get better for you..You just have to..get used to it."
He could tell that she was uncomfortable saying that. "Is that what you had to do?" With her nod he shook his head. "We shouldn't have to get used to this. We're not toys!" His anger was growing again. Why the hell did he have to sit through being treated like this? He just couldn't let himself become a toy. He couldn't!
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"I really am surprised though Tai – have you learned nothing about how the angel-world works since you got here?" She asked.
"How did you expect him to react when he saw you so happy about another angel's gift when he has been trying to respect you?" She shook her head. "Did you not realizethat he was trying? Did you forget how surprised I was that he hadn't raped you the first night? I keep telling you that angels don't see us as worthy of them – any other angel would have raped you the minute he got you in his house. Matt held out for a LONG time and …," This boy was obviously incredibly naïve.
Sora had been around a long time in the angel-world and she knew how things worked over here. She understood where this boy was coming from but at the same time, he needed to learn. "You had more of a chance than any of the rest of us human captives – Matt showed you more respect than any captive has ever seen from an Angel. And you threw that respect right back in his face – I don't blame you for falling for Raeson. After all he understands us a lot better than any angel ever could. But to show those emotions to Matt … well… you saw for yourself what the results are."
"I suggest you learn the customs of this world - THINK Tai," she told him sternly. "This isn't Mireu. The rules are different. You are lucky that Matt is so young - he hasn't hardened yet. Don't keep pushing your luck with him. Believe me - he is an angel and he is capable of causing you real misery."
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Tai glared at her, pulling his hands from her hold and sitting up straight while fighting the pain in his lower half. "I know that he was trying! You don't think it remembered your surprise when you realized that he hadn't raped me that night? I knew I was lucky!" His words were calm and his eyes blazing, hard and yet as cold as eyes as he spoke. "I threw nothingin his face. I was simply happy to have a gift from someone I would love to become friends with..Someone who is on that damn angel's level and still treats me like I'm more than a toy? If he's a jealous child I will take no blame."
In that moment, he thought about Raeson and his happy smile and eyes. The way he seemed to care about what Tai thought and how he felt. The human appreciated the older angel so much and if he was happy to see him, so what? Matt could deal with his emotions without taking it out on Tai.
"I have no luck here, Sora. i have nothing but an angel who wants to cause me to hate myself and no laws to protect me." The human closed his eyes and in that moment he just wanted Raeson to tell him that it was ok. That he wouldn't be hurt again.
At the same time..he knew that seeing the older angel would only cause him more misery.
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Sora realized the problem here. "Do you realize that there is no other angel around like Raeson? Have you noticed that he doesn't even look like the rest of the angels here?" She hoped he had atleast noticed the obvious fact that while the majority of the rest of the angels were blonds with pure white wings, Raeson had brown hair and gold wings.
"His mother was a human – he was raised with humans for the majority of his childhood before his father brought him here. That is why he is so different from the rest of the angels around here. You will bring yourself only misery if you keep expecting Matt to treat you the way Raeson treats you. Matt isn't capable of that – Raeson was raised to see you as a person. Matt was raised to see you as chattel!" She certainly was having a hard time controlling her temper at this point – the boy was setting himself up for a very hard life if he didn't open his eyes soon.
"You've had more luck than any of the rest of us slaves, Tai – you just didn't appreciate it. I knew last night when I saw you smiling so openly about that necklace that this would likely happen. That's why I kept hoping I wouldn't see you today…" she paused, considering her words. "On second thought, it's excellent that I saw you today. There are a lot of angels around who would've fucked you until you bled to death." She stopped.
"I want you to find happiness. If that is with Raeson, I will help you – but while you're with Matt, you have got to hide your feelings for Raeson." She told him quickly. "If you were smart though, you would realize how hard it has been for Matt and you wouldn't push him. Just keep in mind that Matt went against everything in his upbringing to treat you as well as he did. Raeson isn't fighting against ingrained angel-culture when he treats you well."
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Tai stared at her in open shock and quickly schooled his face into a blank expression. "You're right," he simply told her, voice devoid of emotion. "I'll just..not show him what I feel." His eyes narrowed and his mouth was soon set in a firm line. "I won't ask you for help..if anyone finds out about you helping me with more than the language lessons and giving me the creams..It won't end well for you. I won't burden you."
He was shutting down, remembering what his father had told him about the jeers he used to receive every day once his village found out that he wouldn't ever marry a woman. They had been cruel with their teases and even worse with their actions. He had faced bullies before and in his mind Matt was nothing but a bully that he belonged to. He wouldn't give the angel any satisfaction with his emotions. The angel would soon see that he would be raping an empty shell with rage fueled eyes that would never fall on him when it wasn't needed.
"I won't push my blessed angel," he hissed through gritted teeth. "I'll treat him with respect and never let him see what I really feel. That's the only way for property to live in this world." He knew, he just knew that Sora would be further angered with his words but he was beyond the point of caring. To him, it sounded like she was defending the angel's actions. Not once had he pushed Matt-it was jealously and misplaced guilt that pushed him to rape him. Tai had no fault in this at all.
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Sora nodded her head, approving his decision. "I'm glad you understand now," she said relieved. "I honestly don't know how you could be so naïve about how the Angel-world works. I realize we're humans and our culture is different but you have got to adapt to thisculture if you want to survive here. Then again, I suppose Matt treated you far better than anything we experienced when we first got here. I suppose you can't be blamed for being so naïve and expect that you'd be treated like a person. But I'm glad your eyes opened before something really bad happened," She shuddered, remembering some of the stories of other human captives who had cheated on their captors. Gang-rape and castration were the least violent examples.
"I do want to help you though, Tai," she told him soothingly. Now that she was fairly sure he wouldn't be doing something idiotic and inviting harm onto himself, she was sincere about wanting to see him happy. "There is a very big likelihood that in a few months, Matt will be willing to let you go – if that happens, you can find your happiness with Raeson. Or you might even be able to go home," She stared wistfully out the window, knowing she wouldn't ever have the chance.
"And you'll see... after an angel pairs with a human for a long time, the dynamic changes entirely. Ofcourse that takes years and years - but there are some couples here who've lasted as long. Arjun and I are fortunate to have reached that level now."
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Tai turned dark eyes on her and nodded, smiling hollowly. In all honesty, he did feel betrayed by her words, he had a feeling she would just bale it on how "naive" he was in her eyes. The human didn't believe that he was naive, far from it, he just refused to follow the standards. Now, he would have to play like a doll to survive until he was disposed of and given a real chance at happiness.
Even if he was allowed to go back home, he was sure that it would never be the same by the time he was sent back to Earth. He would be a used toy by then. No human would want to pick up the pieces of his life once Matt was done with him. That was saying that the angel wouldn't be nice to him when he was raped. Knowing him..he would face times when the angel would want to hurt him. He would slip up about Raeson or something else and then he would face rape or possibly even physical abuse-all the doors were now open with how the angel would treat him.
"Let's not talk about this any longer," he offered, "can we continue with my lessons?" There really was nothing else left to say now. He would just have to listen to her words and play his part. His main goal seemed to be keeping the angel happy and letting him spread his legs open when he wanted to. Raeson would have to stay his happy secret and his only link to happiness in this world.
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Sora nodded - she could see she had gotten through to him about what it would take to keep himself safe. That was the most important part. Hopefully, he never showed up in a pile of broken limbs as many other captives had come to her over the years. The fact that he had obviously shut her out now was less important than ensuring his survival. Sora was tired of having to mend broken captives. She had seen that Matt was capable of a lot more kindness than any other angel. But in the end, he was what he was still an angel who believed humans were inferior to him.
When he suggested continuing his lessons, she agreed. "I think that's an excellent idea - we've got a lot of work ahead of us." She went to the cupboard and grabbed a couple of books for him. "Are you finding yourself bored in Matt's house?" She asked in Anglerian, picking a safe topic that he probably wouldn't feel too badly about. "Answer in Anglerian, please," she instructed.
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Bored was a word he easily picked up on along with houseand Matt's name. It wasn't too hard to translate what she was asking him. Was he bored at Matt's house? "Yes, very bored." He answered in Anglerian. He took the books and looked though the first one. Numerous words that he still didn't understand caught his attention. He read the first paragraph and smiled once he translated at least half of the words into his own language and caught the meanings of the sentences.
The faster he learned this language the faster he would be able to possibly talk his way out of worse situations with Matt. It was obvious that he would never be able to save himself from being raped, but at least if he could have a conversation..it wouldn't be too bad. He could learn to defend himself with words if he couldn't use his strength. That was better than not having anything on his side.
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Sora smiled at his progress. He was doing a lot better than even a few days ago. "You have a gift with languages, Tai," she said, nodding approvingly. "I would like for you to be able to practice your conversation skills more," she thought about the situation.
Tai had said he was bored. "I think perhaps you should come work with me at the counter - if you can get Matt to agree to it, ofcourse," she added, not knowing whether Tai would realize that obvious bit. "It will give you lots of practice with customers." She looked away from him as she said the next part. "And looking at you now, it's obvious you have already been claimed - it will thin out the number of alphas interested in you so it will be safer as well."
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Tai blinked at her and slowly smiled. It would be nice to be allowed interaction with others. Even if all of them are angels. He would be able to learn the language a lot faster and possibly see more humans. "I would like that," he let her last few comments slide off of him and forced himself not to think about needing approval from Matt.