Chapter 89

"Here, let me take the little doll. She can learn to play with little Jimmy. Who knows, they just might end up married some day," Harriett grinned, taking Angela from Sarah and putting her in the crib with James Kirk.

AJ frowned. Francesca hadn't gotten married yet! He didn't want to think of that day; much less the day baby Angel started to look at boys. Finally, sitting around the table playing cards, men against the women. Everyone was having a wonderful time, except Mac, who was a little upset the men were ahead.

"It's all right, sweetheart, calm down. We're only out to have fun and enjoy ourselves," AJ smiled patting her hand.

"It's a good thing we're not playing for money," Bud laughed. "If we had bet a fifty cent a point bet then we..."

Everything faded away for Sarah. She was alone playing cards with AJ, and had just lost the bet. Then the words came running through her mind…

She was cuddled up next to AJ and he was reading to her. The soothing sound of his voice was wonderful. She was so glad she'd lost the bet. So happy. When you know and respect your Inner Nature, you know where you belong, you also know where you don't belong...

"I don't belong," Sarah mumbled, staring dazed straight ahead.

"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" asked AJ, growing nervous at Sarah's strange behavior.

"A flash of memory, AJ. A strange one. I had lost a game of cards and the bet was you read a story to me. It was so beautiful and then something happened, we were uncomfortable. And I can't get these words out of my head, 'When you know and respect your Inner Nature, you know where you belong, you also know where you don't belong.' AJ, I don't feel like I belong," cried Sarah.

"Now, Darlin', you belong. You belong with me and little Angel, every day for the rest of our lives. We couldn't make it without you, Sarah, we love you," whispered AJ, on his knees, rocking Sarah back and forth. "Why would you think you don't belong, Darlin'?"

"I don't know, AJ. It's more of a feeling attached to the memory," Sarah replied as she raised her head from his shoulder.

"Here, Sarah, drink this water," said Harriett. "It'll help calm you down. I don't understand why you'd feel you didn't belong, honey. It just doesn't make any sense. Right, Buddy?"

"Uh, oh, right, Mac. Believe me, AJ and Little Angela couldn't make it without you. He loves you like I love Harriett and the boys," offered Bud.

"Thanks, Bud, you and Harriett are wonderful. I just wish I could shake this feeling," Sarah said, wiping her eyes.

"I know, Mac. Being a new mother with no help from the men is hard. They never understand what you're feeling," said Harriett shaking her head, glancing at AJ. "Did anyone talk to you about the depression all new mothers suffer?"

"Harriett, I don't think..."

"No, Harriett, they didn't, but with my amnesia, maybe they were afraid to confuse me?" frowned Sarah.

"That's probably it, Darlin'. Now I think I had better get both my angels home and tuck them into bed. Looks like it's been a hard day. Maybe I shouldn't have pushed you to come out," AJ said helping Sarah stand. "You go get Angel while I help Bud and Harriett clean up a little."

"All right, sweetheart. I'm sorry to be a party pooper, everyone. Maybe once my memory comes back I'll feel more like my old self," smiled Sarah, going to get Angela and her diaper bag.

"Harriett, where in the world were you going with the depression talk? The last thing she needs on top of her memory loss, is to think she's depressed!" exclaimed AJ.

"Sorry, Sir, but it was the first thing I thought of," apologized Harriett.

"It's all right, but let's be a little more careful from now on, please," asked AJ, trying to soften the
tone of his voice.

"Here we are, Daddy. Still sound asleep," smiled Sarah.

"Feeling better?" AJ asked.

"Yes, I'm fine. I think maybe Harriett was right. That's why I get so shaky after one of the memory flashes," replied Sarah. "Thanks, Harriett. I should have called you and told you about them. Being a mother yourself you would have picked up on it. Goodnight, all."

"Thanks, Bud, Harriett. Next time we'll try this at our house," said AJ as he helped Sarah and the baby out the door.

To be continued….