Chapter 98

"Actually, it's personal, Harriett, could we use the conference room a minute?" Both of them headed that way and finding it empty, Mac asked Harriett her question. "Harriett, this morning AJ told me that he had made an appointment of my six-week check up for me. I am taking that to mean that he is as anxious to resume marital relations as I am. What I wanted to know, since you have been through this, is, is it really necessary to wait another week!" Mac asked. There was a pleading look in her eyes.

Harriett blushed just a bit at the idea of talking about her CO's love life, but then seeing the look in her friend's eyes, she answered her honestly. "Mac, as long as you're healed from the surgery, and use protection, its fine. The main reason they want you to wait is so you won't get pregnant again right away, and in your case it would be in case the incision was still tender. If you are careful and not in pain, I doubt it would be a problem."

"Thanks, Harriett!" Mac exclaimed and hugged her friend. She hurried out of the room so she could find AJ and tell him the good news.

After fifteen minutes of listening to Rabb and Turner going back and forth, AJ had, had enough of their arguments and told them, "Take it outside until you have come to a decision, gentlemen. Dismissed."

Sarah, standing in the doorway of his office, had a flash of memory. Everything faded away. She was standing before him in uniform and he was angry with her. Concerned for her. "Mac, you need help, get it! Don't make me put it in the form of an order...order...order…order!" The last work kept echoing through her head. Shaking, she walked into the room and sank down in the first chair she came to, handing the baby to Harm.

"Sarah, are you all right? Did you have another memory flash?" asked AJ, rushing to her side.

Harm looked down at the baby. How truly beautiful she was. This was the first time he'd held her, and he found himself thinking…she could have been his and Mac's.

"Yes, here in your office, with you AJ," she said with tears in her eyes.

AJ looked around, and getting up to take Angel from Harm, he dismissed the two men, again. He closed the door as they went out. Placing Angel in her carrier, he turned his full attention to Sarah. "All right, Darlin', what did you remember?" he asked, afraid she had remembered it all.

"I was in uniform and you were upset with me, AJ. You told me to get help, or you would make it an order," she replied rubbing her temples.

"Yes, that happened, sweetheart, before we were married and while you were under my command," he gently told her, picking up her hand.

"I had killed a man, hadn't I, AJ?" she asked, gripping his hand.

Taking her into his arms, he said, "Yes, Sarah, but it was in self-defense. He had been chasing you since Paraguay. He had become obsessed with you, Darlin'. He was a very dangerous man," explained AJ.

"But I didn't have to kill him, AJ. I had wounded him. He was down, and I could have let the CIA take him alive. Maybe they could have gotten information from him that would have been of help," she sobbed.

Taking her into his arms, he said, "Sarah, my love this is why I had you go for help. These questions were eating you alive. You did what you had to do to protect yourself, no more, no less. You didn't murder Sadik…you killed him in self-defense. The psychologist helped you see that. I can give you her name and you can see her again if you'd like."

"Really…AJ? That's truly what happened?" she asked, looking deeply into his eyes for the answer.

"Yes, Sarah, that's what happened, on my word of honor. I love you, my darling, and while our time together has not all been wine and roses, you can always count on my love. Always remember that, Sarah. I love you and little Angel above all else. When all the world is crumbling down, then know that I love you, with all my heart," he said just before their lips met.

To be continued….