AN: Finally! Glee is back! Woot!

Disclaimer: If I owned this, Blaine's 'dreamy mouth' would be all over Kurt's 'warblers' in a McKinley janitor's closet by now if you know what I mean…

EDIT: This chapter is now revised, but I did it myself with no beta, so if there are still typos and such, I'm sorry

Chapter 3: Pot of Gold

Kurt didn't know when the thought had crept into his mind.

It was just sitting there, almost mockingly, waiting for him to acknowledge it. He would do anything in the world to pretend it didn't exist, but no matter how hard it tried, it was still there.

The thought had been eating him alive for weeks now. It terrified him.

Was it normal, to depend on someone so heavily, to want them so much? Was he taking advantage of Blaine?

They were both young, both in their first relationship; he had no idea if he was screwing up or not, but he couldn't help but feel that as soon as Blaine worked through all his self-esteem and family issues, he'd leave.

Not that Blaine had that many problems, just the normal one's most bullied teenagers did. The difference was Blaine's only support system was Kurt, and Kurt often wondered if that was the only reason they were still together.

Sure, he loved Blaine wholeheartedly, but Kurt was worried Blaine didn't feel the same level of intensity as he did.

Kurt sighed, bringing his knees up to his chest and setting his chin atop them.

Blaine had a voice like sex, was sexy himself, smarter than most kids older than him, adorable, sweet, kind, generous… what did Kurt have in measure to that?

He sighed, resting his head back against his bedpost with a resounding 'THUNK' which seemed to echo in the silence.

He felt so selfish, keeping Blaine all to himself when he was just an awkward, spoiled, baby penguin.

That was why Kurt had said he wasn't ready when Blaine wanted to take things all the way shortly after his transfer to McKinley. He was ready, really. He wanted to give himself completely to Blaine and have Blaine be completely his; he wanted to show how much he loved Blaine and be that close to him but…

He didn't want to take that away from someone who Blaine would really fall in love with once he had been put back together. No, that was a lie; he didn't want that taken away from Blaine before he had a chance to really be in love.

Like his dad had said, being that close with someone affects you emotionally, and he didn't know if either one of them could take it if this was just about being close to someone in this shit hole of a town, especially if Blaine wasn't truly in love.

He had been pushing Blaine away all week. He would like to say if was for both of their own good, but he was selfish and was really just kind of… testing the boundaries.

He sighed again. He really was an awful person.

XxXxX

Blaine had never been happier in his life.

He had the most loving boyfriend ever, friends in New Directions, and a school where he wasn't pushed around for being who he was while still dealing with the outside world.

He was humming to himself as he walked up the Hummel's form driveway. He couldn't help it. He and Kurt hadn't been able to talk much this week, but they'd danced together during Glee when he sang 'Last Friday Night' so he was pretty sure they were okay.

He knocked on the front door, hoping to surprise Kurt (he was trying this whole 'being spontaneous' thing, and this was really the only thing he could think of doing) but was disappointed when Burt answered.

"Hey Blaine" the bald man said kindly, jerking his thumb behind him. "Kurt's in his room."

Blaine smiled, thanking him as he took his shoes off and padded silently up to Kurt's room.

When he flung open Kurt's door, he expected a surprised laugh and to be pulled into a hug, but instead he saw something almost better.

Kurt was lying curled up on his side, sleeping soundly on his bed.

Blaine felt like his heart would burst at the very sight. Kurt's normally immaculate hair was mushed up adorably, his mouth open slightly as he breathed gently, causing his whole body to rise and fall slightly in a beautiful arc.

Before he could fully process what he was doing, Blaine was across the room running his fingers through the messy brown tresses.

He bent down to press a light kiss to Kurt's hairline, smiling when Kurt shifted closer in his sleep, almost falling off the bed in the act.

How could someone be so strong and talented and still be this breathtaking?

Blaine knew he wasn't completely healed yet from all that had happened, but with Kurt he felt like he was; he felt like everything he wanted to be.

"I love you." He whispered, moving his hand down to rest on Kurt's shoulder.

This boy was his forever, and if Kurt wasn't ready to have him fully then Blaine was willing to wait.

'He doesn't want to have sex with you because he doesn't really love you' a voice in Blaine's head whispered viciously.

Blaine shuddered, maneuvering himself onto the bed so he was lying down next to Kurt. He'd just wait here until Kurt woke up. 'He's been ignoring you because he knows he's better then you' the voice continued.

Blaine wrapped his arms around himself, taking a deep breath.

Almost like he sensed Blaine's distress, Kurt turned over and wound his arms around Blaine's waist, pulling him flush against him and burring his nose in the curly hair.

Blaine turned so their bodies were aligned, snuggling his face into Kurt's collarbone. He could tell by the even breathing and the fact that Kurt hadn't said anything that his boyfriend was still asleep.

He felt so safe and warm, so perfect. He wanted to take this feeling and save it so that he could take it out whenever he was feeling depressed.

He wanted to stay wrapped in Kurt's arms forever.

The demonic thoughts didn't pester him, even after he fell asleep.