A/N: Sorry for the late update! I've been busy doing.. nothing. Sigh, I've been known to be a lazy slacker and I've been focusing my writing on Zig/Maya fanfictions (I have three posted! Check them out!) but now I need to get back to writing Eli/Clare fanficitons seeing as the new episode is out and it's amazing! So anyway! Please enjoy and REVIEW!
Side Note: I do apologize for the lack of Eli/Clare in this, they will happen eventually, but you must wait and deal with the enormous amount of Jake/Clare in this chapter concerning sex..
Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or the concept of Vampires.
"Jake? Have you ever been in love?" Clare asked quietly as she retreated across her silent bedroom, her bare feet padding across the carpet as she wrapped her arms around herself. Clare needed to know of Jake's feeling since he was like a secluded man most of the time, not usually up front about his feelings, but usually left off a ton of hints. But Clare was oblivious to Jake's hints since they were children, and now they were almost adults and these new feelings were confusing her to no end. She needed to know if he was ever in love, because Clare herself knew that she has never loved a boy - but she needed to know if Jake has ever loved a girl.
"Um.. Yes.. Yes I have." Jake said lowly from his place on the opposite end of Clare's room, he leaned over his knees, his elbows digging deep into his knee caps as he looked at Clare's silhouette closely. She was.. tense and nervous and Jake understood her nervousness. She had awoken in her bedroom with no recognition to how she had came here in the first place - only remembering watching a movie whose title she forgotten. Jake had been relieved to know that Eli's compulsion had worked on Clare, he was sure it wouldn't work due to Eli's weak compulsion skills and logic. Eli wasn't as skilled as he was in the art of compulsion since Eli had the nagging mundane sense of hurting others with his skill. But Jake found the skill to be one of power.. to make a person do your bidding's was a gift from God in Jake's eyes. But to Eli it was a curse to carry a evil power that would only bring guilt and sorrow that Jake wasn't mundane enough to feel.
"Was it Sadie?" Clare asked quietly as Jake scratched the back of his neck nervously, what was he suppose to say to her? How was he suppose to admit to using Sadie as a pawn, to actually being in love with her, but having it all go to waste since she will never be his officially. That she was another man's object of affection, she didn't belong to Jake.. she belonged to Eli. But to Jake.. it would be soon that she belonged to him and not to Eli. She'd be better off with a person who is closer to humanity than Eli was. Eli was a bit old fashioned, an outcast at the most whilst Jake was closest person to mundane-ness and had been born a year before Clare. To Jake, it made more sense for him to be Clare's mate - or as the Golds put it.. Savior.
"Why are you asking this, Clare?" Jake asked, swerving around Clare's question of whom he loved. He'd like to dodge that question as best as he could so he could avoid the obvious awkwardness of it all. Clare groaned loudly and turned around to face Jake who now just realize her face was flustered in the dim light in which a sweat broke out across his skin.
"I don't know.. I just.. I was just wondering you know? If its possible to be in love at our age." Clare inquired quietly as she brought her fingernail to her teeth and began gnawing on it nervously. Her feelings confused her completely and she needed a perspective by someone near her age besides Jenna and Alli who would only say they had been in love many times despite not knowing what love really is. Clare trusted Jake.. Clare liked Jake and possibly had stronger feelings for him so she needed his perspective in this madness of her mind.
"It's possible to fall in love at any age, Clare. Anyone can fall in love. Are you asking this because you are in love?" Jake asked tentatively, not wanting to upset her like he had earlier in the night. He wasn't too fond of Eli throwing him onto the ground in a millisecond because he became too hostile with Clare, but the look in Clare's eyes earlier that night had scared both boys - so now Jake was sure to be more gentle when around her.
"I.. I think I am." Clare whispered as she looked up and met her eyes with Jake's. Jake's eyes were absolutely shining with unknown happiness and Clare's couldn't help, but mirror the same happiness. Oddly, Clare began to feel the same she did weeks ago.. she was frozen on the ground once more - she was immobile. Jake came across to Clare in three long strides and placed his hands on her stiff shoulders, his hazel eyes never leaving her blue ones as he said lowly and seductively.
"You love me and I love you. You know this and you don't like anyone else." Jake said sternly, but then paused as a smirk came across his lips, "Especially Eli Goldsworthy." Jake finished as he continued to keep eye contact with Clare, she nodded slowly at his words and began to repeat what he had just said,
"I love you and you love me. I know this and I don't like anyone else. Especially Eli Goldsworthy." Clare repeated in a monotone voice, her stance still frozen and stiff from Jake's compulsion spell in the works. Jake, now satisfied with his progression, broke off the eye contact and Clare was now able to move once more. However, Clare's blue orbs met Jake's hazel orbs and before she could even stop herself, she grabbed onto the side of his angular cheeks and pulled him down for a deep and sloppy kiss. Jake responded back to the kiss enthusiastically as his hands cupped Clare's bottom and without any hesitation, he aggressively pushed her onto her messy bed.
Clare's legs wrapped around Jake's back, as he continued to give her sweet kisses along the side of her neck and down to her sweaty and beating heart that was pumping on pure adrenaline. Jake's free hand trailed down the side of her stomach and was soon hovering above her pants. Clare was too busy nibbling on Jake's ear and sucking on the side of his musky scented neck to even realize he was unzipping her pants and had thrusted his hand deep into her pants.
Only then did Clare realize Jake's doings and if she wasn't under a major compulsion spell, she would have thrown Jake off of her aroused body and told him to go take a long hike. But she was filled with lust and her hormones were going crazy inside of her enclosed body. Clare laid on her bed as Jake who was still hovering over her, gave her a sweet smirk before giving her a pleasant surprise with his quick fingers that caused the biggest scream to emerge from her lips.
(...)
Sex. She had sex with Jake Martin. Clare had never thought of having sex before, her parents were Christan's they have always wanted her to wait for the right guy to come along and sweep her off her feet. For the "one" to take her hand in marriage and eventually take the thing that meant the most to her - her virginity.
But last night, when Clare had unexpectedly awoken in the night, to find Jake there in her room to make sure she was safe and sound through the night.. Clare had felt even stronger feelings for Jake than she had before. She realized she was falling in deep love with Jake, or perhaps she had been in love with him for years now and only realized it at that moment. So after another one of her odd stiff moments she had happening to her more frequently when around Jake .. she just grabbed him and simply had a heated make out with him on her bed. That was all Clare thought would happen, but Jake had pushed it farther and Clare didn't feel uncomfortable as she thought she would. There was a nagging sense in her brain that told her to make Jake's wandering hands stop, to make his sloppy kisses stop.. but she ignored the senses and just went along with Jake's heavy and rough lead.
Clare wasn't sure where her and Jake stood now after their rambunctious night last night, when Clare had awoken Jake was no where in sight - no note, no text, no voicemail. It was like Jake was never in her room to begin with, but the aching between her milky white thighs proved Clare wrong, she did make love last night and it hurt like hell the next morning.
Clare made a mental note to ask Jake the next time she saw him if they were a couple, or if he was leaning towards a beneficial act with her, because Clare was strangely fine with either of them. The old Clare would have been full of anger and swear words, thriving to find Jake and cut his throat for using her last night. But this Clare.. the new one that has blossomed overnight was perfectly fine with going along with whatever Jake said since she was head over heels in deep love with him.
But now Clare was sitting in her English class with the hugest grin on her face , she lightly drummed her fingers against the desk. The thump her fingers making giving her a beat to bop her head to as she glanced out the window to see a the sun beating against the window. Today was turning out to be perfect for Clare, she woke up this morning with a happy smile on her face, her classes before this one had been excellent and not give her something to gripe or mope about. It had been months since Clare had a perfect day and here it was and it was all the more best that her perfect day was after she had given her most precious gift to Jake the night before. The precious gift she kept remember as the aching between her legs still lingered as the day proceeded, but despite the slight pain.. she was absolutely glowing. She felt so cheerful that this morning she kept her hair natural, as it was in its curly springs around her head and she wore lighter makeup - even putting on a floral dress which was the type of attire she use to gown in before things began to go sour for her taste.
But Clare was returning to a happier place, so a happier place meant to ditch all means of the horrendous black attire she had contributed and pick out the pretty vintage clothes she loved oh so much.
As Clare started to get lost in her thoughts, Alli was observing her from the back of the classroom. Alli had never seen Clare this happy and cheerful in months since she had turned sour and gray due to her home life. But Clare's bouncy curls and floral print dress told Alli else wise as she studied her best friend, trying to pick something odd out about her. But all Clare did was.. grin. Grin and bounce happily in her seat that her curls bounced along. The scene was so odd that even Ms. Dawes would give her second glances throughout class.
"Why is Clare so happy?" Alli whispered to Jenna who was doodling flowers on the edge of her blank white paper which should have been filled with notes about Night but was filled with semi decent pictures of the same five petaled flower. Jenna looked up from her drawing and glanced at Clare with a studying stare, but soon a smile broke out across her face as she turned to Alli and said,
"She looks like she got laid. It'd explain the happiness. I know I'm happy when I get fucked." Jenna said in a hushed whisper which caused Alli to roll her eyes and return her attention to Clare. Clare was a virgin, a committed virgin to made a vow to wait until marriage. It wouldn't be in character for her to give away her virginity to someone. Plus Clare wasn't even in a relationship with anyone! She wasn't the type to search for one night stands either, so Alli completely excluded the fact of Clare losing her virginity. Despite that losing your virginity can make you extremely bubbly and happy, Clare was not the type to make such a horrible decision.
At least that's what Alli had hoped.
(...)
The final bell had shrilled in the musky air and students fled from their last period classes. Numerous students ushered out the front door and to different waiting spots or to their cars to leave the property. Clare had been the last to leave through the double doors, she planned on waiting for Jake by the bushes since he was always lagging around after the final bell rang. Usually talking with Drew and Bianca before leaving the school and Clare had hoped to catch him before walking home. She hadn't seen him all day - not even at lunch and usually he sat at lunch with her, Jenna, Alli and at times had Drew and Bianca in tow with him. But today Clare had not seen him at all which had her slightly upset, but she wasn't about to lose hope on finding him. The day was still sunny and she still felt bouncy throughout the day.
Clare pulled the strap of her bag higher up on her shoulder and began to descend the front steps of Degrassi and towards the bushes where she'd wait for Jake. But Clare was about to pass by a group of three people who needed to speak with her and luckily they were able to catch her oblivious attention.
"Clare?" Eli called out as Clare was about to walk past him, Fiona and Imogen. Clare spun around and face Eli with a small smile on her face despite feeling the look of daggers from Fiona who was sitting behind Eli on a bench, Imogen sitting next to her as she had her face pressed into a book by an author Clare had never heard of.
"Yes?" Clare replied as she pushed the strap of her bag higher up her shoulder and kept the same smile on her face as she faced Eli. She was a bit surprised to see him so hesitant in front of her, his stance was as nervous as the features on his face and he kept looking down at his ratty black converse, rubbing the back of his neck continuously.
"Do you remember anything.. peculiar happening last night?" Eli asked in a low voice and Clare's breath caught in her throat. Did Eli know of her and Jake having sex? He possibly couldn't.. he wasn't friends with Jake and Clare hadn't heard any rumors about her losing it to Jake. Clare watched as Eli rose a brow at Clare's contorted face as she bit her lip nervously, he was about to ask her if she was feeling alright before she grabbed his hand and dragged him farther away from Fiona and Imogen. Both of whom were watching with curious eyes.
"Are you alright, Clare?" Eli asked with worry laced in his voice as she studied Clare's features intently. She seemed incredibly nervous and somewhat scared which made Eli believe that his compulsion had failed last night like Jake had predicted. She did remember all that happened last night and was afraid of him. He wouldn't blame her - he was afraid of himself sometimes too.
"You can't tell anyone okay?" Clare blurted out as she gnawed on her bottom lip with worried blue eyes. Eli opened his mouth to ask what she was speaking about, but then a tall looming figure had approached the two - Jake. He had a forced grin on his face as he placed his hand on Clare's lower back and murmured,
"Wanna get out of here?" His voice was low and full of lust that a goofy smirk came across Clare's lips as she pressed a hand to Jake's stomach and nodded happily. Jake smirked at the girl leaning onto him and pressed a quick kiss to the top of her curls and slowly rubbed her lower back. Eli stood slack as he watched the two be so.. intimate with eachother. He wasn't sure how to think.. how to feel when he saw the two of them embracing in a way that made him steam up with such green jealousy. This wasn't like him - he was never a jealous man. He never had anything to be jealous of! But now he did, he was jealous of the boy holding the girl standing merely a foot away from him.
Clare closed her eyes as she leaned into Jake's embrace, happy to see that Jake had found her and coddled to her right away. She was sure she wouldn't have found him this afternoon, but he had found her and nothing but happiness was coursing through Clare's veins as she took a moment to close her eyes and lean onto Jake. Jake who locked eyes with Eli, smirked as he saw the full blood's obvious pain. The pain meant nothing to Jake whatsoever, he didn't feel the slightest bit of guilt to the quivering full blood for having stolen a girl that didn't belong to him. Jake was sure he had won the war, he had won the small and effortless war with Clare, so he gave off a larger smirk and thought,
"I win."
Two words had never hit Eli has hard as they did in that moment. Two vague and meaningless words suddenly had so much meaning behind them. No words could describe the mess of emotions Eli was currently experiencing seeing as he had never felt this way before - especially about a mundane as plain as Clare. But Clare wasn't plain, she was beautiful, she was radiant, she was perfect in Eli's eyes and it confused him to think words he had never thought of before. To feel certain feelings he had never felt before. He felt as if he was going to hurl the blood he had consumed at lunch, so in a quick motion he spun around on his heel and headed in the opposite direction of Jake and Clare.
As he walked quicker down the congested sidewalk, he felt Fiona and Imogen take his flanks, asking him what had happened back there with the "half blood" and "mundane." But Eli merely ignored his sisters as they continued to rush down the sidewalk until they had reached farther than most students had reached that Eli grabbed his black backpack from Imogen's hands and in a quick motion was gone from their eyes.
His departure leaving a huge gush of wind to sprint past their faces.
(...)
"J-Jake." Clare quivered under Jake's touch as she laid on her bed, her back arched as she Jake grabbed her milky white thighs and thrusted himself deeper inside of her. A scream erupted from Clare's lips which Jake quickly silenced with a harsh kiss that tasted like metal. Jake removed his lips from Clare's to slowly pull himself out of Clare, only to thrust himself inside deeper until he was sure she would get the ultimate pleasure from his deeds.
Clare moaned loudly and grabbed a fist of Jake's hair in her palm as she arched her back further into his erected cock which pleased him immensely as he leaned down to attach his lips to hers once more. The kiss was extremely forced - too forced for Clare's taste, but it was a kiss with Jake, a kiss that Clare savored as he panted heavily and hung his head low from their broken kiss.
Clare released her grip on Jake's hair and then proceeded to rub his back with soothing circles which didn't seem to do much for his panting that only increased much to Clare's displeasure. Jake quickly jerked his head back up and attached his lips to Clare's sweaty neck, he immediately began to suck deeply on her neck causing uncomfortable moans to leave Clare's lips.
"Jake.. Uh.. Jake please stop. Please.." Clare moaned, she tried her best to shift from underneath Jake's body, but he had her body in a strong vice that Clare was sure to leave bruises in the morning. He had told her he'd be gentle with her tonight and he was being anything gentle at the moment. She felt sore and horrible between her thighs and wanted nothing more than to apply some Icy Hot to her thighs and fall asleep. But Jake was having none of that as he re entered inside of her and pressed deeply, but Clare was too exhausted to lean into his pressure or to even make a single moan to show she enjoyed a bit of this.
"Goddammit, Clare. Moan, groan - something!" Jake growled as he sucked lightly on Clare's neck, but she only shook her head roughly as she wiggled underneath Jake and managed to be freed by his strong grasp. She sat up, feeling aching shoot down her spine and on her thighs, she hissed in pain as she swung her legs over the edge of her bed and rubbed her neck where Jake had began sucking to give her a disgusting hickey she did not want.
"I'm tired, Jake. Just.. Get dressed and go home please. Tomorrow we can pick up where we left off, but I'm tired and in pain." Clare whined as she proceeded to pick up her discarded underwear on the floor, feeling quite odd without the garments on. But then she felt Jake's strong hands grasp onto her forearms which caused a squeak to escape her throat. But before she could even ask Jake what was happening, or even scream for that matter she felt deja vu sweep over her as sharp teeth pierced through her soft swollen neck.
A/N: This isn't much.. I realize its rather a bore and in a way as minimal Eclare, but more Cake. But Cake is a main vocal point in this fanfiction and will need to happen before Eclare. So I apologize for the Cake sex, it was quite awkward to write to be honest, since I can never see Clare actually having sex.. ever. But please, anyway review!