Chapter 102

He had been protecting her! By lying about their wedding date, he was saving her from the shame of what they…no, she had done! She knew AJ too well to even doubt that this had been her fault! He was too honorable to do something like that. She must have seduced him! But she had kept her feelings hidden for all these years, what could have gotten her to break down and do something like that? Oh, my god! She must have fallen off the wagon and gotten drunk! That was the only explanation. She had seduced him when she was drunk. It had probably only happened that once, and then they would have promised never to talk about it and forget it ever happened.

She knew that they were not yet married on September third, and that meant that she would have been about seven weeks pregnant with Angela at that time. Most women discover they were pregnant between eight and ten weeks along. AJ married her because she had been pregnant! Honorable man that he was, he had married her-facing prison time even to do so. She wondered how he had managed to work that one out with the SECNAV. My god, what a mess!

Her gaze flew to AJ, wondering if he had noticed she had been quiet for so long, but he was bent over Angela's carrier putting her pacifier back into her mouth. She had a habit of spitting it out in her sleep. Mac had to get out of there before she broke down. She had just realized that AJ…her husband…the man she loved more than life itself…the father of her child…probably didn't even love her!

"AJ, I just remembered that I need diapers for Angela. I'm going to run out and get them. Can I bring you back anything since you missed lunch?"

He looked up at Sarah, startled at her sudden comment. She was moving quickly in his direction. She picked up Angel's carrier and paused at the door before opening it. Something was wrong, he could tell from her body language, even though her face revealed nothing. But he could also tell from how she was acting, that he would get nothing out of her about it now. He would just have to wait and trust that she would tell him when she was ready. "Sure, just a sandwich from anywhere is fine. I can get coffee here." He walked over to her at the door and bent his head to kiss her good bye. He could swear that she had flinched before making a quick escape.

It wasn't until after he saw her leave the building and watched her securing Angel into her car seat in the Escalade, that AJ noticed that Sarah was crying. He was going to race down there and find out what was wrong when he saw Harm come out of the building as well, and Mac throwing herself into his arms!

Seeing Harm come out of the building, she turned to her friend, forgetting how cold he had been to her lately, running to him, she threw herself into Harm's arms, not knowing that AJ was watching from his window.

The sight of her in Harm's arms almost killed him. AJ turned away from his window and slumped down in his chair. He was going to lose her after all. God, he almost wished that they hadn't made love just now, that way he would never have known what he was missing. Nonetheless, his heart was still breaking. He only hoped she would not fight him on visitations with Angel.

Pulling himself free of Mac, Harm stepped back, "What has gotten into you, Mac? Do you want the Admiral to look out and see us standing in each other's arms?"

"It doesn't matter, Harm! He doesn't love me! He only married me because I was pregnant…"

"What the hell? Who told you that?" asked Harm, looking around. "Listen, you don't know what you're talking about. Go talk to the Admiral, he'll settle this once and for all."

"I can't! He doesn't know that I know...Oh, Harm, we were breaking regulations while I was still under his command...God! I can't forgive myself for seducing him like that!"

To be continued….