Oh yes it's another update for Arianna. The guys from BTR do not belong to me.

"You look like you just rolled out of bed," Kendall said when I rolled out of my dad's truck. Staci's been taking my car to classes so my dad drove me to set.

"I did. I didn't sleep at all last night. I kept having nightmares. Please don't make me bring them up again," I sighed. I was so exhausted from being up all night. I had nightmares of the last time I saw my mother. I hated it. Only in my dream my mom was saying 'Save me Arianna. Only you can help me.' I cried the whole night. It was weird that they just started happening and not the night her death occurred.

"Let me help you inside at least," Kendall said.

"Thanks Kendall, I was going to take her in but you can. I need to meet with the other writers," my dad said locking his truck.

Kendall wrapped his arm around my waist and walked me inside. I could feel his grip tighten every time I would stumble. His body was warm against mine and I hoped that James wouldn't see us.

"Thanks Kendall," I said once he sat me down. "I'm so glad I'm not in any of the scenes today. I have a feeling they would have had to run them a billion times."

"I'm going to find you somewhere quiet where you can get some rest. You look exhausted," he pat my shoulder and walked down the hall.

"Hey are you ok," James asked when he saw me sitting on the floor.

"I didn't sleep last night. Kendall's looking for a place for me to rest," I sighed resting my head on his shoulder. "I kept having nightmares about my mom."

"I'm so sorry Arianna. I'll come check on you whenever I get the chance today. You just get some rest," James said looking at me with big sad eyes.

It wasn't long before I was asleep on his shoulder. I felt comfortable there like nothing bad could come and get me. Of course all the bad things were in my mind. Moments later his weight shifted and I felt him lift me off the ground and carry me into my dressing room.

"Everything will be ok," James said before kissing my forehead and walking out of the little room.

I slept there, until lunch time, on the couch. Only this time the nightmares where much different. This time my mother was dying but it wasn't James who comforted me it was Kendall. He was in the hospital with me and my mom was saying what a lovely couple we made. Then Kendall kissed me and my mom died. She was with me in every dream starting off great but slowly turning into something awful. I guess I was taking her death harder than I was showing.

"Hey sleepy head," James said peeking in the door. "I brought you some lunch."

I ran to him nearly knocking him flat onto the ground. "Oh James it was awful. I kept having the dreams. I kissed Kendall in the dream and my mom said he and I made a cute couple. Then she died all over again. I'm so sorry James," I said bursting into tears.

"Shh, it's ok Arianna. Nothing bad happened. Take a deep breath," he whispered into my hair.

"I'm so sorry," I repeated through my tears that now stained his shirt.

"It was just a dream," he reassured leading me to the couch to sit down.

"It was so real though James. I just wish it would all just disappear. I'm sick of feeling so depressed about my mom's death even after she told me not to cry over it. I'm a terrible person James."

"Now you're just overreacting. You're still getting over it. In time everything will be ok. I'm sure your mom is just fine with you being upset about this. And Arianna you are not a terrible person, you're far from it. You moved your best friend out to LA with you. That's pretty amazing. Trust me you will never be terrible in your life. Your heart is too good to be terrible," he said wiping the tears away and kissing my forehead lightly.

"Stop trying to make me feel better. Nothing will ever bring my mom back and these dreams they're just letting me know she won't," I said pushing him away. "I'm sorry James so much is happening to me right now. The best you could do for me is leave me alone for awhile. I'm sorry."

I could tell I hurt him when he turned around in the doorway. But I really did need to be alone. Him being there just made me feel ten times guiltier about kissing Kendall in my dream. Even though it was just a dream, I felt like I betrayed James somehow and my mom for dwelling on her death. I shouldn't have lashed at him the way I did.

"James just give me a few minutes to just think. Please. I still love you if that's what you're worried about. But I just need time alone," I said looking at his sad face.

"If that's what you want, then fine I'll leave. But Arianna I'm here for you, I love you," he said before walking out the door.

So I didn't blow it will James. I have a feeling he will never give up. For the second time that day I fell asleep on the couch. This time my dream was different. I was wearing a wedding dress walking down the isle with my dad. I couldn't tell who was at the end of it at first but then he turned around and there was James smiling at me. This dream was far from a nightmare it was perfect. I woke up to see james sitting with my head on his lap. He was back making sure nothing happened to me.

"any bad dreams?" he asked.

"Only if you call us getting married bad? The only bad part was my mom not being there to watch. But I was ok with her not beign there because I knew she was in spirit. I liked that dream," I said looking up into his light brown eyes.

"It sounds like a good dream."

"James I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm just a mess anymore," I kept my eyes locked on his. They were pretty. I was supprised I never noticed them before. "You've got pretty eyes."

"Well that came out of nowhere," he laughed. "And I forgive you for yelling at me."

"What? you do!"

"Well thank you Arianna, you have a very cute nose," he said tapping it with his finger. His big hands startled me and I sprung up from the couch. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you."

"How would you like a hand coming at your face without warning?"

"yeah I wouldn't like that too much. I'm sorry."

"I forgive you James," I said laying back down on the couch.

"I don't think your dad would like this very much," james said.

"I don't really care about that right now. I'm happy right here with you. I don't want to move. So what if it's time to go home."

"Well it is time to leave for the day, you and I both know that well. Let's go. I'll walk you out. I still can't believe you came here when you knew we weren't rehearsing scenes with you in them."

"Yeah, well you never know. So you come just in case they need you. Plus I got great sleep while I was here."

"I'll see you here tomorrow, Arianna. Try not to worry about anything tonight," James said once I was in the truck.

I waved goodbye from the window as my dad drove away.

"He was really worried about you today," My dad said.

"I know. He kept checking on me numerous times."

"you seem rested now. Try to get some extra sleep tonight. I'm taking Staci to look for a car tomorrow so you're on your going yourself to the set tomorrow."

"as long as I get my car back. I'm fine with that."

I walked into the house and up to my room. For as much sleep as I got, I was still tired. Only tonight I wouldn't worry about my mom or any other nonsense. My phone lit up and I read the message from James "Sweet dreams."

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