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Damn those birds! They won't shut up! Just one morning I'd like to wake up in peace, but those damn birds won't let me ,,i think they hate me.
"Shut up! We know its morning."
Yup I'm crazy, what's new! Anyway back to my story, my name is Bella Swan and I am shy ,, ya ya you're thinking that's not like a syndrome or actually a problem, but you only have to wait and see, for me it's a huge problem, I'm an average looking girl, brown hair, brown eyes, some might say I have a hot body since I'm naturally curvy but I wish they wouldn't, you see I'm not good with compliments, I would blush like crazy if someone looked at me just a little longer than normal so you can imagine how tomato like i would get if they complimented me!
Today just like everyday I'm going to wash up in my lovely shower, whip up a quick breakfast, sigh and look around my apartment and admire its beauty, I still can't believe how fortunate I was to get it in a good price and decorate all on my own, it's so homey, makes me never wanna leave, then I remember that I should stop doing that, next I get dressed in one of my mother's many famous friends clothes which I confess I've grown fond of, go down a couple of steps which is where my library is and enjoy helping people know more. I'm blessed with money, loving parents and this library that I was given by Mr. Weber my former employer in his will two years ago, who was also like a second father to me, and his daughter is my best friend. The library is big enough and quite lovely if i might say , all mahogany shelves and oak floors in dark brown which gives it an antiqy look, but that's just my opinion and I might be prejudiced, but I have worked here every day since I was sixteen, I left work while I went to college to get my degree in English Literature but whenever i visited home i would spend most of my time here, between these shelves and immersed In the smell of books.
Just like everyday I would look outside the front window from where I sit at the register and see a new girl coming out of the building across from the library trying to hold her clothes to her body after a night of what I can only imagine was wild animal sex, I saw this one go in last night with the oh so lovely gorgeous neighbour, the flavour of the day or night I should say, she looked like a plastic Barbie, blond, tall, barely there clothes, and extremely wasted that he had to half carry her inside. Oh well, I've been seeing the same scene everyday that I stopped blushing to thoughts of what might have been going on inside that apartment or what caused her clothes to get ripped like that, and so my day began...
A few minutes after twelve I heard the door chime tinkling so I looked up from my book to find my crazy pixie friend skipping to where I sat, I smiled at her enthusiasm like always, she's contagious.
"Bellaaa, guess what happened yesterday, Rosalie came home, and well we were out having dinner and we got talking about wanting a night out to unwind and so we decided to go out clubbing tonight, so please say yes pleasepleasepleaseplease we'll have so much fun, please!" Allie blurted without taking a breath.
"Calm down pixie !" I chuckled. "I can hardly understand you, and you know I can't go out! I have to work and i have stuff to do at home. But you go and have fun."
"Oh no u don't, you always play that card, but not this time, you're coming with us and that's final, we'll go late and you can afford to close the library a little early, plus u have nothing to do at home so don't lie, come on Bells I always let you do what u want, but you have to come this time for me!"
She gave me "the look" which she knew I couldn't resist or look away from, she could sense my wavering so the next thing I know she had that triumphant smile on her face and she squeals so loud I have to cover my ears.
"Wait wait wait, who's going?"
"Oh you know the usual and I will warn Emmet not to embarrass you and be on his best behaviour so don't worry, I'm so excited, I'll be here at 6:30 to help u get dressed, bye now." And she skipped away before i had a chance to say anything, I guess I'm going clubbing, yay me!
So on to my friends, let's see, starting with Angela Webber, my best-friend since childhood, she's Mr. Webber's daughter and has been like a sister to me through the years, she is the most caring person you could ever meet, small, dark skinned, wavy black hair, and used to be just as shy as me, but she fell in love with Ben, and now it's like she's cured! They make a beautiful couple, they literally complete each other, Ben is a little taller than Ange, with short black hair and a confidence that shined while being with Angela.
Then we have the Cullens , first there is Alice Cullen, the pixie, with spiky black hair that she pulls of well, beautiful blue eyes and a tiny little form, and right next to her you would find the amazing Jasper Whitlock, the pride of Texas, a tall, sandy haired, well built man, with warm black eyes, Jasper is Alice's Valium, literally, he calms her down with his presence so she can be hyper but still be human, Jasper worships Alice ,then we have the big hulk Emmet Cullen, opposite to his little sister, he has a huge well built body, boisterous laugh, cute little dimples, and dark blond hair, and is engaged to the beautiful model like green-eyed Rosalie Hale, she is the personification of perfection, a walking jealousy magnet, but a strangely lovely person if not provoked.
Lastly, the manwhore Edward Cullen, the reason to all my insecurities, and the guilty party of my broken heart years ago. Edward Cullen, the gorgeous Adonis, with the perfect teeth, the perfect crooked grin, and the perfect chiseled jaw, the perfect voice, and the blackest heart of all mankind, oh and the guy i refuse to go out with the gang when around. The reason for that is that he broke my heart two years ago in the worst way imaginable i was so in love with him that I couldn't remember my own name when I heard his voice, his sensual velvety voice. The worst part is he never apologized, he was too much of a coward to apologize to my face. Oh and he's my across the street neighbor!
Like I said I'm a shy girl, I like to read, love my friends, hate attention, so two years ago I was cleaning the outside window of the library when the reason to my daydreams or any dreams pulled up in his car, he crossed the street took a newspaper and went inside to buy it, while I was frozen in my spot with my hand in the air mid-wipe and no clue what to do, but he was waiting inside so I had to snap out if it, I took a couple of breaths and moved slowly to the cash register inside hoping he won't say a word so I won't blush like crazy, and keeping my head down so I won't look at his gorgeous face and also blush like crazy, so when I reached the register I took the newspaper, rang it up and told him in the most audible voice I can manage the price.
"Bella, are you okay?"
And queue the blush! Which only deepened when I couldn't utter a single word so I just looked up without looking at his face, smiled a little which I'm sure came out as a grimace and nodded my head. Damn I hate my blush.
" Hey, am I that ugly that you can't even look at me?" He chuckled.
" NO! You're gorgeous." I blurted out quickly which intensified my blush, I closed my eyes and started praying for the floor to open up and swallow me right there.
"Bella, sweetheart look at me, I wanna ask you something."
And that was my death! Sweetheart! Really! Is he trying to make me melt. A couple of seconds passed until I had the courage to raise my head and look at him, and I was shocked at the tender look he had in his eyes, and the triumphant smile he wore.
"there are those beautiful eyes, hello lovely".
I don't think it was possible that I could have blushed more but I did.
"hi" i squeaked.
His smile grew more."Will u go out with me?"
And that is when my heart stopped beating and all the blood drained out of my face and i just turned around and ran into the storage room.
When I came out like I was hoping he was gone but on the counter was the
money for the newspaper and a note that said: "I want an answer gorgeous, and I'll be back for it". Ya so you can imagine how nervous I was and how I hoped he won't talk to me again, it's easier this way I thought, he won't be interested in me, I can't even talk when I'm with him let alone go out on a date, at least two hours of trying to make a conversation? Ya I'll pass. And so for the rest of the week I tried to avoid him, but he was persistent, everyday he would come in, buy a newspaper, make me look at him and compliment me, and ask about that date, my answer to my great luck would always get interrupted by another customer but I think he understood I was turning him down, by the end of the week I was getting used to this routine that I stopped looking down when he came and started saying hello like a normal person, but the blush had no cure, on Friday, after buying the newspaper he asked me again.
" I-II no, I cant, I'm sorry, I have a thing."
"Bella I know you're lying, you can't lie for your life, I'm only asking for one date, won't you please let me take you out."
That voice again, it made me lose my inhibitions, after a couple of minutes of him trying to convince me I said yes, and he was strangely happy, like he really wanted to go on a date with me, and so he said he'd pick me up tomorrow at 7, and then left after giving me a small peck on the cheek and chuckling at me blush.
And so at seven the next day I was so nervous that I wanted to call and cancel , but I didn't have his number, and I think I actually wanted to get to know him, I wanted to spend time with him and so I just tried to calm my nerves and waited.
I kept on waiting till 8 and he was a no show, I got worried, maybe something happened to him, maybe he's hurt, I looked down from my window and saw his car across the street so I thought I might as well just go check on him, and so I went across the street, took the elevator to the second floor where his name was and knocked on the door, but there was no answer, so i waited a little then I heard a groan, I acted without thinking and opened the door, but to this day I wish I hadn't, there on the wall next to the door was Edward naked from the waist up, with his pants around his ankles and his boxers pulled down, thrusting into a strawberry blond who was without a stitch of clothing covering her body, and they were both moaning and groaning, all I could do was gasp which turned their attention to me, I was so shocked and hurt that I could only stare at my beautiful stranger and the hand- caught-in- the –cookie-jar look he wore, something flashed in his eyes that looked close to guilt but then it quickly went away before I could interpret it , and a cocky smirk was plastered on his face.
"Hey" thrust " Bella" , what are u "thrust "doing here , wanna join?" and that's when the bitch laughed and agreed with him, and all the while they were still going at it, tears were streaming down my face and my vision was blurry but I managed to run away from the most humiliating scene of my existence and reach my home, get inside my bed to cry the rest of the night. So ya that was my changing point from an innocent girl to a hateful, distrustful woman.
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