It is finally done. Not the story silly, this chapter.

Staci spun my hair around the curling iron she was holding. I had less than two hours to get ready to perform in the Macy's parade with the guys. Just long enough for Staci to finish my hair. From the window I could see the hundreds of people lining the streets of New York. It was crazy to think they would stand out in the cold for a parade. Just as Staci was setting the last curl for the bottom layer of my hair there was a knock at the door.

"Don't you dare come in I'm not even pretty yet," I shouted as Staci opened the door.

"Please I've seen you much worse. You are too pretty right now," Carlos said walking toward the window with James trailing behind.

"Where are the other guys?" Staci asked pulling down a thin layer of hair.

"Still getting ready kind of like you are," James said sitting on the floor across from Carlos.

"Kind of?" Staci said shooting James the death glare. "Just because Arianna is female doesn't make her much different than you. She just needs more attention to make her turn from amazing to drop dead gorgeous."

"Aw thank you Staci," I said giving the girl a hug. "No wonder why Logan loves you with his entire heart. Because you're like the best cousin in the world."

I started humming "Winter Wonderland" as Staci set another curl. James and Carlos were singing "Let It Snow". It was like we would forget the words to holiday songs we've been singing since we were three. I closed my eyes as Staci sprayed my hair with hairspray to hold the curls. I listened to the boys singing in the corner and concentrated on determining when I was to sing for the performance. Just as Carlos finished singing the last part of the song the door opened.

"There's my beautiful big sister Arianna," Philip said walking into the room with a handsome dark haired boy. "This is my boyfriend Ben. I really wanted to introduce you to him."

"It's nice to finally meet you Ben. Phil has told me so much about you over the phone. I'm happy for the two of you," I said getting up from the chair to shake the boy's hand.

"That is Staci my cousin, Carlos, and James my sisters coworkers on Big Time Rush. That show my son of a bitch dad works on," Philip said pointing out the rest of the people in the room. "And they are Kendall and Logan who is marrying Staci Christmas Eve."

"I hope you can make it, Ben. I've already told Phil he can bring you to the wedding," Staci said as Logan wrapped his arms around her.

I didn't catch the rest of the conversation going on in the group I just kept my eyes on Kendall. He was preoccupied with the snow falling and his cell phone. It was like I wasn't in the room at all. Staci and Logan looked like nothing could tear them apart as well as Ben and Phil. Carlos shot me a quick smile and motioned me to join him out in the hall way.

"What's going on between you and Kendall?" he asked after the door was closed.

"I've been wondering the same exact thing. It's as if I'm invisible to him, like he can see right through me. I don't think I matter much to him anymore. He doesn't even answer when I call him, Carlos," I sighed.

"I wish I could tell you that he was telling the truth about everything, but I can't lie to you Arianna. You're like a little sister to me. We all hate seeing you like this. For the exception of Kendall, who enjoys running you around in circles? You should really take him to Tool Academy. But I don't think they'll take celebrities. Maybe they'll take him when they see how big of an asshole he is."

"Or maybe we'll take a break. Publically humiliating him will just not work. He'd probably like all the attention. God I'm being so vicious right now. I don't like being mean and I really don't want to take a break from Kendall but that's all I really can do. Can we just go sing little kid holiday songs now?"

"You still have feelings for James don't you? That's why you fought for songs that had no religious base? You didn't want him to feel uncomfortable. That's why you hated seeing him with Aly in England? You still deep down in your heart love James?"

"You would have done the same thing for him. I know you would, you care for James just as much as I do," I sighed defending myself. "I believe we should all get ready to go find our float."

I walked down the hallway and to the elevator to join everyone else who was in the room. Philip wrapped his arm around my shoulder. My brother could read me like a book better than anyone else. I knew he could tell something was bothering me. I leaned closer into the only immediate family I had left or hadn't disowned. There was something about being around my little brother that could make even the worst situation ten times better. I watched Kendall who was more interested texting whoever he was on his phone. I felt Staci's hand grasp mine and she gave me a weak smile. I guess they were throwing a pity party and forgot to tell the guest of honor.

"Big Time Rush, Arianna Walker you're on the third float," a woman said to us.

"The name is Arianna like Air-ianna not Are-ianna. Thanks," I explained. How hard was my name to pronounce? She should have heard it over a million times in the past week.

"Let me help you up Are-ianna," Carlos said reaching his hand down to help me up the ladder.

"You're such a dick," I said swatting Carlos's hand away and climbing up the ladder onto the float. "You wouldn't appreciate someone pronouncing your name incorrectly?"

"She's right Carlos, you get angry when people pronounce your name wrong," James teased.

"I need to talk to you later," I said to Kendall after I walked by. "Meaning, I really need to talk to you, so don't blow it off."

I hated playing the bitch, but if that's what I needed to do to talk to my so called boyfriend, then what the hell I'll be the bitch. I could tell took him off guard demanding to speak to him after the parade. I took everyone off guard talking to Kendall like that. The queen bitch was back and here to stay temporarily, until she needed to go back into hiding.

"What the hell is your problem," Kendall confronted me after I stepped down from the float.

"I'd like to ask you the same question. You're the one who's been avoiding me and acting like you don't even know me. Last I recall you were my boyfriend," I shouted as Carlos tried pulling me away. "This is the first time I've spoken to you in days. What happened to the old us?"

"They're still in London." Kendall snapped back. "I heard they're happy together sharing the suite spending days off walking the streets together."

"I don't think SHE is all that happy," I snarled. "SHE used to be very happy with him. She used to love him. But he's a stranger now. Someone told me she doesn't like it that way but thinks it may be better if they go their separate ways and pretend none of this ever happened."

"I think she needs to calm down," Carlos whispered in my ear. "You're attracting all the wrong kinds of attention to the both of you."

"Well HE agrees with that. Maybe HE should have left her alone on the floor crying," Kendall spat before walking away.

"Well that was uncalled for. But it felt good," I sighed smiling at everyone around me like nothing had happened. "Now to call Alex to have him meet me for dinner to talk about tomorrow's movie promotion activities. You all are welcome to join us."

Oh yes the Queen Bitch is definitely back. I haven't had to play the bitch since homecoming my senior year. Of course then I was defending my baby brother after he had come out of the closet and trying to win the crown. In all you don't want to be on this Pennsylvanian's bad side. Because, well she can destroy you faster than you realize what is going on.

Yes I know this chapter was sweet and harsh. But Arianna and Kendall can't be together or it ruins my whole train of thought to end this little story. I also wanted to unleash my nasty side in this chapter, Arianna has been too sweet. Do me a favor and review. It will really make me happy and could possibly end this little nasty streak.