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We were having fun, even with children's music and lullabies it was still fun and we were enjoying our time, the inner child inside all of us was out full force , dancing , playing childhood games ,singing and eating candy, that was pretty much it, right now I was dancing with Emmet on Barbie girl, we were making absolute fools out of ourselves but it was really fun, and neither of us cared, everyone was acting crazy today, Emmet was trying to play the guy and I was trying to play the girl, by the end of the song we were both lying on the floor laughing so hard that we were gasping for air and tears were streaming down our faces, it was hilarious, and evil Alice had it all on tape.

Edward was quiet most of the night but he looked happy, every now and then he would laugh at a joke or at something stupid one of us did or said, but a couple of times I would glance his way and see him looking at the floor with a frown on his face, he was feeling out of place and it made me feel guilty, but I couldn't do anything about it, it was too soon and I didn't know him that well to engage him in anything, so I just looked up at Jasper who was watching me watch Edward, which was weird , I pointed my head in Edward's direction and smiled, he would handle it .

I was making coffee for everyone when Edward came into the kitchen and jumped on one of the counters, he looked more relaxed now, jasper had him sing a cartoon song with Alice, it was adorable how these two worked ,and it seemed to be the push that Edward needed to stop feeling like he doesn't belong, he sat playing with an apple for a couple of moments then he looked up at me with a smirk.

" did you know that I used to love to read children's books till I was fourteen, ya I used to spend hours and hours reading about fairytales and love stories, and as I grew up and still enjoyed reading stuff like that they thought I was gay, but I didn't care, I used to wonder how these princesses always waited for their knight In shining armor, how they knew right away when they saw them that they were their destiny, and always they would find a way to live happily ever after, no matter what happens they always got through it because they loved each other unconditionally ." he said thoughtfully

I chuckled "I still read romantic novels and love stories, but what I wonder about all the time is how can a girl put her whole trust, her body and soul, her feelings and heart in the hands of a man she thinks she loves, I always wondered how can they do that, but the answer always comes back to love, like that solves anything, but I don't believe it, I don't think its love, but I still haven't found the answer to my question, how can u trust someone so fully and know that that person will guard that trust more than that person's life because they would know how vulnerable it makes you to give it in the first place, I guess it's just the way life is, not everything has an explanation, but not everyone can do it so ya."I replied lost in thoughts.

"I found the answer to that not long ago" he said looking deep onto my eyes. "it wasn't easy and I might never get a chance to actually live it, but I believe it is simply love, I regret not knowing it sooner but I won't give up easily, I have nothing and everything to lose but I believe in the end it will be more than worth it " he said softy with that heated look again. I didn't understand why he gave me that look but I still blushed, then my mind wandered to what he was talking about, did he really find that girl he's meant to be with, I suddenly felt both relieved and sad, relieved because that might make our friendship easier, but I didn't know why I felt sad, and I didn't want to think about it anymore than necessary so I just looked up at him.

"well I'm glad you found that person, take good care of her and her feelings and I'm sure she won't let you down, maybe tell her what you told me one day, she might need to hear it" I smiled reassuringly at him and got back to the party with the coffee tray in my shaking hands, why they were shaking I had no idea.

At the end we watched tangled before calling it a night and going each our separate way home, when I reached home I saw Edward sitting on my front steps, I stopped at first not knowing what to do, but then I decided to act normal, there is nothing to worry about.

"Did you miss me?" I joked

"I just came to say thank you for inviting me, I had fun and I appreciate it" he replied smiling.

"You welcome, I'm glad you had fun, have a good night" I said gently and started heading up the steps to my apartment when he grabbed my hand to stop me.

"Can I give you a kiss goodnight?" he said softly, I blushed and looked skeptical so he continued.

"It's just a friendly kiss I swear".

So I nodded, and he leaned in till his scent enveloped me, my eyes closed on their own accord , and I waited with butterflies in my stomach till I felt his lips on my cheek, his full lips where caressing my cheek tenderly and I thanked god I was holding the railing, because if I hadn't been I would have fallen from the impact of that kiss .he kissed me once but didn't remove his lips from my cheek right away, I could feel him inhale, like he was breathing me in like i did him, then he slowly leaned in more till his lips where right next to my ear and whispered a good night and disappeared from in front of me before I had time to register anything.

That night I stayed up in my bed thinking, being close to Edward was going to be harder than I thought, and I can't have him play with my emotions like that, I have to control myself from now on before I fell for him again, that can never happen, besides he's in love with someone so I should use that as an advantage, this way I won't feel what I shouldn't, I just needed to keep him at a certain distance, and maybe in time I'll get used to him being around me and not be affected by it, but until then I had to keep check on my emotions, and that won't be easy.

I was sitting in Sue's bakery when I looked outside and saw Edward walking down the street with a beautiful woman, she had gorgeous flowing long black hair, big almond shape eyes and she was just a little shorter than him, and they were laughing together, 'this might be the girl he was talking about ' I thought to myself, well this will make it easier to talk to him after last night's kiss, so I waved at him when he looked up at me and gave him a big toothy smile, he looked nervous when they came inside the shop which I didn't understand why, he did the greetings, apparently this was Emily , they worked together, I guess it makes sense that he would love her, she sat next to me and we started talking, she loved the idea that I had a library and promised that she will come visit one day when she has the chance, she loved to read and was excited to see my library, which I was damn proud of, then she stood up to order and I Edward stayed at the table, he was looking uncomfortable, so I tried to ease his nerves.

" I like her and she's gorgeous, now I understand what you where talking about last night, but don't be nervous and just tell her, she might feel the same way and your concern will be for nothing, and calm down it can't be that hard" I said smiling at him while he looked lost , like he didn't understand what I was talking about, then just when I saw recognition flash in his eyes Emily came back, and Edward looked at me in horror, which made my smile disappear, I couldn't understand him at all, so I just excused myself smiled at Emily and gave Edward a concerned look and left to go back to the library.

I took Doggy for a walk in the park that evening, he was growing up so fast, I cant believe its been a little over six months since I got him, he always makes me feel safe, he knows when someone is bad and takes a protective stand in front of me, and knows when someone is nice and good and he goes to that person so he or she can pet him and play with him, and that's why when we were on our way home and Doggy took a protective stand in front of me I was on alert, it was dark but I looked up and saw two guys staggering towards me.

" hey sugar, I'll call you candy if you give me some" one of them said unsteadily while the other laughed and came closer "look at those beautiful brown eyes, are you scared baby" the other one taunted , at that point Doggy was barking non-stop and my heart stopped beating , I thought I could run , but that wouldn't be easy, I could hit one of them with my bag, but that was silly and won't help, they cornered me against the wall and there was nowhere to go ,Doggy jumped on one of them and held him down while the other one was right in front of me and was just going to lean in and kiss me when I lifted up my knee and hit him as hard as I could right between his legs, he howled in pain and fell to the floor while calling me a bitch, just then the other one shoved Doggy away by hitting him with his elbow, stood up and advanced towards me with fire in his eyes, he was mad ,I stuck my body to the wall and tried to think of anything else to do when out of nowhere a body collided with the man and he started screaming in pain, the guy kept on breathing heavily and punching the asshole over and over again tell he was unconscious , then he turned around and started beating the other one while saying stuff I couldn't make out, after he beat him a couple of times till he stopped moving he looked up and the look in his eyes was murderous then when his eyes focused on me they softened and that's when I let everything go and started sobbing uncontrollably , it was Edward and I was safe.

Doggy came and stood next to me while moaning from the pain of the hit he got , I put my arms around him and continued crying, I heard Edward talking to someone but I couldn't hear what he said , after a couple of seconds I I felt hands encircle me and a body holding me close , I threw my hands around his neck and let all my tears go freely, he kept on saying soothing words and rubbing my arms, after a couple of minutes I calmed down but didn't lift my head up from Edward's chest .

"Are you okay sweetheart? Did they hurt you?" he said softly

"i-m o-k-a-y , I don't e-even know wh-y in crying, " I whispered.

"It's okay now, they won't hurt you anymore, you're safe, are you okay to walk?" he said gently.

I tried to stand but I fell right down, my legs felt like jello, so Edward put his arms around me and lifted me up without effort, I kept my hands around his neck and my head on his shoulder while he carried me home with Doggy following us and police sirens ringing around us, I guess Edward called the cops.

Edward got me home, and into bed, he took my shoes and jacket off and tucked me in, then sat next to me for a couple of minutes while I stared into space, he was just about to get up when I grabbed his hand to stop him.

"Will you stay with me please, I don't want to be alone tonight" I whispered. he stared at me for a couple of seconds then stood up, I panicked thinking he was going to leave me but then he took his shoes and sweater off and laid down next to me and opened his arms for me, I didn't hesitate to lay my head on his chest, with his scent and his warm embrace I was out like a light within seconds, tomorrow was going to be interesting.

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