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Chapter 21

I've been home for two weeks, and today I've reached the end of my limit, the war that has been brewing inside me has paralyzed my senses, save for my dying heart, the amount of conflict I've been having was slowly and painfully pushing me off the edge, every day I would wakeup sweaty and gasping for air , after spending most of the night thinking about what happened and what should be my final decision , enough is enough , and finally after all this time , the tug of war between my heart and my stupid brain ended in me deciding to tell my brain to fucking shut up and follow my heart , today I came up with the perfect plan to unite with the man of my dreams , and let go of the past, today is the day I take a step forward towards my future.

I spent most of the day just smiling and staring across the street to see when Edward gets home, he has been avoiding me pretty much since that day and I wasn't having that anymore, so when I saw his car approaching I hurriedly ran outside as if I was on my way to go out back and suddenly I twisted my leg and fell with a loud scream , I took a couple of breaths and when I heard footsteps approaching in a hurry the tears came freely, I clutched my left ankle in my hands and started inspecting it while groaning from the pain.

"Bella, are you okay? " came Edwards frantic voice while he crouched down in front of me , I couldn't look up at him so I just shook m head no and groaned again.

"It's okay , just let me see you ankle I won't hurt you, I'm just going to check if its broken, can you let go for me ?" he said in a soothing voice that I almost swooned , but thank god I didn't , I just let go of my ankle, he took it in his gentle hands and starting inspecting it, his touch was so feather like that if I wasn't watching I might have thought my leg was being held by angels, but this was much better.

"well nothing is wrong with your ankle, I'm just going to massage it so the pain will go away , you must have twisted it in your fall, so it might take a day or so to get better but if it hurts too much I can give you something to help , ok sweetheart?" he said after a while and started massaging my leg and ankle, I looked up at him and so the most tender look in his eyes while he took care of me, like I was the most precious thing on earth, how did I get so lucky I had no idea, after about ten minutes of total concentration; his on massaging and me on staring at his beautiful face I had to make him stop.

"ok, I feel better now thank you" I said softly, he stood up suddenly and I felt a tug in my heart when I know my time with him was at its end, he stretched his hand out to me waiting to help me up, I gave him my hand and when I was almost up on my too feet I groaned in pain, he looked concerned, then a look of determination crossed his face and he leaned in and swooped me up in his arms, while I squeaked from the sudden movement, his scent wafted over me and I just inhaled it like oxygen to my soul. He got me inside the library and went up the stairs to my apartment and sat me on the coach slowly, gave me a kiss on the forehead and stood up.

"I'm going to lock up for you, is there anything that you need from down stairs?" he said while looking intently into my eyes.

"No thank you Edward" I replied and saw something flash in his eyes when I said his name , but he turned around abruptly and left to lock up before I had time to register what It was.

Not five minutes later he was back through my apartment door, he wiggled the keys to show me he had them and pit them on the table next to the door, then he took a long breath and looked uncomfortable, and yet all I could do was stare at his beauty.

"Will you stay with me for a while?, just let me make us something to eat as a thank you, you must be starving", he looked up at me and after seeing the need for him to not leave me he nodded and came to sit next to me, I hesitantly reached over and squeezed his had as a thank you and got up carefully, I saw him about to protest but I smiled at him showing him I was fine and wobbled into the kitchen, when I got inside I started looking frantically for something good to make, and I came up with the perfect meal, Mac and Cheese, one of is favorite if I heard Alice correctly one of the times she was rambling.
And so I want on my way on preparing the meal and humming to myself while doing so, finally after two weeks of avoidance on both our parts he was here, in my apartment, sitting on my coach, I just couldn't believe it , and I hope I don't screw this up, because its time I took what has always been mine, I was so Immersed in my thoughts and in making the meal that I didn't hear Edward approach, until I heard a chuckle and turned around to find an amused Edward looking at me with eyes filled with mischief.

"Come on woman I might eat you if this takes any longer "he said teasingly but with a hint of seriousness.

"well I'm at your service master eat away " I said looking at him innocently, his rye turned black and he looked at me heatedly, every nerve ending in my body was on alert, he took a step closer and was just about to take me up on my offer when his stupid damn phone started ringing, he paused while we stared at each other for a couple of seconds then he closed his eyes, took a couple of deep breaths and when he opened them they lost the heated look, he looked agitatedly at his phone and went to answer it in the living room.

By the time he was off the phone dinner was ready, we ate in silence while watching TV in the living room, though Edward's groans of appreciation weren't silent at all, it's like he was purposefully torturing me. After dinner I fixed two balls of ice-cream and got back to the living room while wobbling a little, Edward was smirking like he knew a secret but I let it go, I gave him his bowl and thought this might be the best time to get back at him, ice cream was the best weapon for that, I dipped the spoon in the cup and slowly it went inside my waiting mouth, I made sure to act like I was distracted by the TV and in my periphery I could see Edward with his head turned And Watching my every move, I tasted the strawberry ice-cream , swirled my tongue around trying to catch a drop and moaned just for extra torture, I kept doing the same for a couple of minutes and then a drop spilled from the spoon on the side of my mouth and was dripping along my neck I was just about to reach and wipe it when I felt Edward's hand around my arm stopping me, I looked up and there he was, with coal black eyes and hunger blazing out, he kneeled in front of me while keeping eye contact and turning my insides into mush , my breathing was labored just like his, slowly he leaned in and his mouthwatering scent enveloped me, And then to add fuel to the raging fire inside me his torturous tongue licked me once from the side of my neck to the corner of my mouth and a shudder ripped through my body, he growled and started kissing along the same path , and when he started sucking I was done for, I started moaning, dropped the ice-cream cup and didn't even register the sound of it hitting the floor and slid my hands through his magnificent soft hair and pulled his head up, I looked into his eyes trying to show my need and suddenly I was on by back with a wild Edward lying on top of me kissing me like there was no tomorrow, and I was giving as good as I got, we were making out like horny teenagers and whenever we came out for air He would start kissing me all over my face, my cheeks my eyelids my nose under my ears along my neck and then come back up to my mouth, while muttering how fucking delicious I tasted an how fucking good I felt under him, and how he can't fucking Stop, and we stayed like that for god know how long then our misses started to slow down till our lips where just moving along each other as if whispering secrets that the world shouldn't hear, and finally we were just breathing each other in and enjoying being in each other's arms.

This was time to talk so with a sigh I tried to move from under Edward, and he gently untangled himself from around me and sat up on the coach and waited patiently for me to talk, I couldn't look at him yet because I was feeling too much guilt and I wanted to get what I had to say off my chest without anything stopping me.

"I'm sorry Edward, for everything" I said shakily and raised my eyes up to meet his trying to show how truthful I was, but he looked wounded so I amended.

"no wait, I'm not sorry about what we did just now, I meant I am sorry about hurting you, i-I didn't mean to , I'm just so scared that I keep questioning myself and doubting you and us all the time, I know that you hurt me in the past but I also know that you have changed, these past few weeks have been hell, one minute I ached for you to hold me, to kiss me, to love me, but the next I would be so scared that the hurt and doubt that I felt before would start eating me alive, but I can't take it anymore, I can't fucking take it ! I need you Edward, I need you so much, but I need you to understand that it won't be easy, I can't just let go of the past, I need you to help me move on, I need you to be patient with me, I understand if you don't want to, or if it's too late, but I have to tell you Edward that I just..I need you" I whispered brokenly while a single tear ran down my cheek, and before I could reach out and wipe it Edward's gentle fingers beat me to it.

"Don't cry sweetheart, we can do this together, you just can't shut me out, we need o communicate for this to work, just give it time and trust me, I will do all I can to ease your fears, I need you more than you can imagine, thank god you finally decided to give in, I was starting to think of evil plans to make you see the light." He said gently while placing a soft kiss on my nose and smiling gently down at me.

"Hmmm, like what?" I said without thinking.

"Well I might have kidnapped you next, and taken you to a place where there is only you and me. Where I can have you all to myself without distractions, and then I would convince you with my special ways to give in, I might have had spanking and ropes in mind, be careful I might use them again if you give me a hard time ". He said smirking at me.

I leaned in till my lips where right next to his ears and whispered seductively "that wouldn't have been so bad, don't tempt me". His growl vibrated my whole body with a distinct 'fuck' and his hold on my body tightened while he buried his head in my neck and inhaled.

I felt serenity at the exact moment he held me in his embrace, calmness washed over me and i lost myself in the world of Edward, neither of us said a word, he just gave me what I needed, to be held by him, showing me that he hasn't given up on me, that even though I keep blocking his advances, he hasn't lost hope yet, and as if like magic, all the worry , all the anxiety, all the heartache disappeared from inside of me, and where replaced with hope.

"We needed this, if you hadn't reached this place on your own we would have been doomed from the start, are you ready to give me a chance darling?" he said gently while running his fingers across my cheek.

"I am, but can I ask you for two things?" I answered immediately, and he lifted my chin so he can look into my eyes.
"You can ask me for anything" he said with a small smile.

"Don't lose patience with me, and let's keep it to ourselves for now?" I said hesitantly but didn't shy away from his beautiful worried eyes.

"I can do that, but don't let me keep it a secret for too long, I want to show the world that you are mine and mine alone" he growled the last bit while spreading kisses all over my face and tickling my sides making me squeal for him to stop and after a while he did, he sat on the coach with me on his lap and we just enjoyed the rest of the evening with easy banter and funny jokes till we called it a night, i walked Edward to the door and hugged him goodnight, he took a couple of steps forward then turned around and looked back at me with eyes full of mischief .

"I almost forgot, How's your ankle Bella?" he asked and started flexing my right foot to show him that it was fine, the he smiled triumphantly nodded and just when he reached the outside door he turned around and Said " good thing it was your left ankle then " and left laughing his ass off at my shameful crimson busted face, though I couldn't help But laugh, it was a good means to an end in my defense.

The next morning I woke up with a smile on my face I did my usual routine and opened the library to start my day, half an hour later I was greeted with a smiling Edward holding two cups of coffee and looking fresh out of the shower, and lickable if I might add, just his beautiful face made my insides jump up and down with joy.

"Good morning sweetheart" he said in a smooth voice.

"Good morning" I replied cheekily.

"I couldn't start my day without seeing your beautiful face , but I'm pretty late so I have to run" Edward replied smirking at my blush.

"The day looking good so far, oh and I might have had a steamy dream of you doing strange things to my innocent body so that might have helped a little" I said in a sexy voice while running my finger down the opening of his shirt.

"Fuck, stop you evil woman I can't fucking go to work with a hard on, but this isn't over" he groaned and turned to leave in a hurry. I followed him outside and just when he reached his car I called his name.

"Eddie, can you come here for a second?" I said innocently and he looked dubious but came back anyway, when he reached me I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed him with all my might, then I pushed him away.

"I couldn't help myself , have a nice day honey" I said and turned around to go inside , laughing all the way inside after hearing his grumbling about being so hard and so fucking horny and evil sexy women and that is how I started my day.

A couple of hours later I was just hanging around the library with Alice when my phone beeped alerting me that I have just received a text.

- I wish I could see you right now EC

How the hell does he do that I couldn't know , just in simple words.

- What's wrong baby ? B

- Those fucking nurses cant do anything right , im so pissed of right now I could kill them!EC

Then not two seconds later.

- say that again EC

- say what again? B

- call me baby again..EC

- I miss you baby B

- Fuck! Have mercy on me woman EC

- I might do just that B

- What do you have in mind sweetheart? EC

And that was when I decided to let his mind wonder on its own, I looked up and found a smirking Alice staring at me.

"You know you're pretty happy today, it suits you" she said gently and I blushed.

"Yeah I slept well, oh and I have to go I forgot I need to do something" I said trying to distract her and got up.

"Yes a good night's sleep can do wonders" she said knowingly but didn't push me any further; she knew I would talk about it when I was ready.

I locked up after Alice left and drove to the hospital, when I Arrived I wanted to surprise Edward so I didn't ask the nurse to page him, I wanted to know where he was.

- Sorry had a customer, so what are you doing? B

- I'm taking a break in the on-call room so I won't murder anyone today, u didn't answer my question, what did you have in mind? EC.

He replied instantly, now I just needed to find the on-call room, which wasn't hard since I practically live in the hospital with all the injuries I get, I walked around for a couple of minutes then I hit jackpot, I opened the door slowly and switched on the light so he won't see me at first and then I closed the door.

"What the fuck" he yelled, but before he could utter another word I shushed him.

"Bella? Is it really you, fuck come here, I missed you so fucking much" he replied softly and pulled me on top of him , then flipped us over and buried his face in my neck and I had to admit it did wonders to my fluttering heart to see him so happy to see me.

"Hmmm, it's okay baby, I'm right here" I said softly and he groaned

" Fuck it sounds even better when you say it out loud, I think you might me the sexiest woman on earth, and you're all mine" he growled and started sucking on my neck, I brought my hands up t his face and pulled it up so he can look into my eyes when I spoke.

"I am, and will always be, only yours" I whispered gently and the fired that shot out of his eyes was only a small indicator of how much he loved hearing me say those words, let's just say he didn't get back to work when he should have and I enjoyed every minute of it.

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