Part three : "Because sometimes things happen to people and they're not equipped to deal with them."
They spent two days together two days pretending everything was right and it would last forever. But Remus put an end to it. « I just don't see us working out with other people arround us. I just can''t. I'm sorry. », he said. Sirius didn't answer. What should he answer ? He had not even thought about it. At least, avoiding each other was quite easy during the last few days of holidays. But when James and Peter and everyone came back, it was not as easy. They kept suspecting something weird had happened between them, the other two kept denying, but no one believed it. Seeing it didn't work, Remus started to avoid James and Peter as well, even though it hurt. It felt harsh, but he had to do it, for Sirius. It should be easier if he wasn't here, right ? But it was so hard to be alone again. He cried at night, in silence not to wake the others up. Feeling lonely again when you had more thant 5 years long of your friends' constant presence in your head was almost a torture, but he had no right to complain, he had chosen to let them go. This night, like evry night for a week now, he couldn't sleep, neither could Sirius, even though Remus didn't know that. So, they were both awaken, in their own bed, so close from each other but already so far, thinking back of what had happened. Why did Remus ended it so apruptly ? Was Sirius truly sincere when he had kissed him ? How could he know for sure it wasn't just another game ? But the silent night nor the moon could answer their questions, they were the only ones who could. The problem was they didn't want to, for it would have meant they had to face their feelings, and they were far too scared. It's been like this for a week now, James couldn't bear it any longer, he had to do something to get his two best friends back. But with none of them admitting what had happened, he wasn't very effective. He spent just more time asking the two of them,. Remus and Sirius decided stopping to avoid each other, so James would stop asking questions. And everything grew back to normal, or as close to normal as it could be. Late at night, the four friends were sitting in the common room, talking, and laughing, as if nothing had happenend. When James and Peter went to bed, the two others stayed together, sitting in silence. Sirius quickly followed them, but as he went to the stairs, Remus caught his arm, making him turn back. He blushed, and stammered a bit when he said : « I'm glad we're talking again. I.. »
Sirius nodded, but said nothing. « I .. I couldn't bear the thought of James thinking something weird happened between us, I'm glad it's over ! », he continued, smiling a little.
« What do you mean weird ? », asked Sirius, apparently not smiling.
Remus' smile disappeared immediatly. « I don't know, I'm pretty sure they thought we slept together or something like that.. it. », he stopped when he saw the look on Sirius' face.
His eyes narrowed, a quite disgusted look appeared on his face. « So Rem', that's all it was for you ? », he said. He leaned forward, pushing Remus against the wall. « Is it this that has bothered you the past week, thinking James might think we've done something weird. But we kissed, we did, and you liked it, remember? You're happy that this awkward moments are done ? But that's really egoistic, sweetheart. »
His voice was cold, and he was talking to Remus, speaking every words as if he was spitting. « What if I liked these moments ? What about me ? » Then he leaned forward, and kissed him. It was deep and passionate, and qute violent. At first, Remus didn't react, then he started to struggle against him. Sirius finally stopped. Then he let Remus alone, and quit the room, running to his bed, tears in his eyes.