Reading of dispair

Chapter eleven: Three of wands

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Everyone was in the living room of the Son house. Crystal and Robby were even there. Jasmine motioned for Gohan to sit between her and Sky on the couch. In all honesty Gohan felt nervous, he didn't know what to expect. He sat on the couch in the errey silence that hung in the room like a thick four hundred count blanket. His insides quivered with uneasiness as he sat, nervousness ratiating from his body. After his little chat with Jasmine, Sky, and Chichi in the canoe and later with Piccolo, it lead him to believe that someone might have ratted him out to everyone else. His mind begain to race as his body begain to ache from the stress of the situation.

He couldn't be under any stress at all. For it caused more bleeding in his stomach. Usualy he'd throw up every day in the wee hours of the morning. And it was not an uncommon occurance to see blood in the vomit. There were times when he'd unrinate blood or have a bowel movement that had blood in the stool. He had brought this up to Doctor Reich and he'd always do a weekly blood test on him to check his statis with the kemo and his blood count. Truth was, Gohan had more blood transfusions that he could count because of his continious bleeding. He wasn't hemoraging or bleeding at a dangerous speed but Doctor Reich would always have a blood transfusion ready for Gohan to make sure he didn't lose to much blood.

Sometimes Gohan expierianced loss of appitite, wight loss, and mood swings. Everyone would sometimes walk on thin ice around him because his mood swings were so unpredictable. There had been a time were Krillin teased him about Sky again at a cook out Jasmine invited everyone to. He blew up and cussed him out. Chichi did give him a scolding for it, nothing too bad as he was use to. But later on after he went in the bathroom to calm down he was quick to find Krillin and apologize to him for being as Gohan put it "a real asshole." Krillin smiled and hugged him exepting his apology and that was the end of that. However Gohan couldn't help but feel like something was wrong.

Everyone looked at him so intensely that he felt really small. It wasn't hateful or disapointing looks he was recieving but he still felt small. Kinda like that black speck he tried to clean off the window when he was helping his mother clean the house. Gohan often pitched in on cleaning the house with her so she wouldn't have to do so much while she was pregnant. He also learned to give himself his medicine to help her out. Even though she wanted to take care of her "baby" he still wanted to help. After he took his meds and ate breakfast he'd help with dishes, laundary, and other chores around the house. He kept his lap top with him to work on his novels while folding laundary.

He had always wrote books when he was younger. Noveling was something he enjoyed on the side. Gohan had at least twelve novels on his book shelf that he wrote when he was ages seven through ten and when he graduated earily he started looking at careers. Chichi was happy about the idea that Gohan was getting off to a great start in his young life but also wanted him to be a kid too. But he spent his time looking and realized he had restrictions. He didn't want to leave home to go to collage because of his mother's pregnancy and his cancer kept him from doing certant things. So he looked for a stay at home job, plus Goku's tournament money ran out so they needed financal security.

Then that's when the idea came to him. He found a publishing company and mailed his novel "Blasts that last" in. Three weeks later they called him telling him they would like to publish it. Gohan and Chichi was extatic and they called Jasmine to tell her the news. Then later people begain to read it and wanted more of his work. He was superized to hear this, he didn't think too many people would read it but he was wrong. Money came pouring in the mail so he got a bank account to better manage his money. But that wasn't all, people started reconizing him in public and he had already published "Sing a song of war." He was also at a book store at an autograph booth.

He was succsesful, and it made Chichi proud. Gohan became proud of the fact that he could still do so much even if cancer took a few things from him. But right now, the current situation he was dealing with puzzled him dramaticly. He wanted to say something but was so nervous the words wouldn't come out. Jasmine and Sky felt him trembling between them. Gohan thought to himself as his brain suddenly became a busy high way full of racing thoughts.

"What's going on here? Why's everyone staring at me? Did I do something wrong? What if Mom heard me last night?" Gohan thought spazticly.

His thoughts took him back to last night when he was in the shower. Apparently he was in rut again and needed to rub one out. He didn't think he was being too loud but he was afraid someone would come in and see him masturbating against the shower wall. Finally the silence broke as Chichi made an anouncement.

"Gohan, I'll bet you're wondering why we're all here."

Gohan nervoiusly answered,"Yes, did I offend anyone. Because if I did, I'm sorry."

"No, that's not it Gohan. I called this meeting for another reason. It has come to our attention that you need more medical attetion." Jasmine replied.

"What do you mean? Did Doctoer Reich call back with bad test results?" He aked.

"No, Gohan. Jasmine noticed that you have another issue that needs worked out to keep you from stressing out anymore than you already are." Chichi answered.

At first Gohan didn't know how to answer to that. After all he already had cancer, what else could posibly be wrong? Then the thought hit him.

"This wouldn't happen to be the problem I have with dad would it?" Goham asked suddenly.

"No, I'm sending you to a phyciarist."Chichi informed.

"Yes, I brought up the idea. All we want to do is unload some of the stress you're feeling. And I know you're feeling a lot of it too." Jasmine answered.

"We don't think you're crazy Gohan, we just want to help anyway we can." Sky stated.

"Yeah, this isn't healthy for someone your age." Krillin added.

"Well, I haven't felt healthy in a long long time. And I don't think it'll change any time soon." Gohan muttered a little irritated.

"We know, That's why I thought this would be good for you." Chichi stated trying to keep him calm.

"Mom we aren't exactly "normal" people. As soon as I talk to a phycaiatrist they'll send me to a nut house." Gohan pointed out.

"Not with the one I got for you. She's my phycaiatrist, Doctor Rose Jets. She's a lycian one, so she's not exactly ignorant of people like us." Jasmine stated.

"So, what do ya say kid? Will you exept the help?" Yamcha asked hoping he would.

"Well, it couldn't hurt."Gohan sighed in defeat.

"She'll be in when you take you're kemotherapy so you'll be able to see her afterwards." Jasmine informed.

"Okay, I'll tr...

Just then Gohan's hand flew to his mouth as his cheeks begain to bulgde. He dashed into the kitchen so fast no one could see it. He grabbed onto the trash can and spewed. Blood was present in he vomit. Chichi and Sky raced to his side as Jasmine pulled out her medic bag reaching for a blood drawing kit. Chichi grabbed a kitchen towel to clean Gohan up as Sky rubbed his back. Everyone else was in a state of shock as they seen him rise up and sit on a chair with blood all over his lips. Jasmine rushed to his side to draw blood and test the sample.

"How often has he vomited today?" Jasmine asked.

"Twice! My poor child!" Chichi cried while Jasmine drew his blood.

Once that was finished it took two hours to get the blood test results. Jasmine came back in the living room with the results.

"He isn't bleeding too badly but, I would say give him another dose of his shake medicine." She advised.

Gohan just sat on the chair with his eyes sqeezed closed in pain while Chichi grabbed his medicine. He downed it in one big gulp cringing at the nasty taste and grabbed his vile that was on the table. He opened a clean needle and drew the recomended dose of syrium from the vile. Then he pulled up his shirt and inserted the needle in the tube in his stomach. Once the pain medicine was administered he tossed the needle in the red ben and Chichi put the vile back in the fridge. He sat there taking deep breaths as everyone watched with painstrickened expressions on their faces. They witnessed how painful it was for him to stick the needle in the tube in his stomach.

The tube was there to giude the needle to his stomach so he was injecting it in the right place. He couldn't get the tube wet unless he had one of those protecting latex bandages over it. He had to ware those in the shower and couln't swim in the lake anymore. If he chose to swim he would have to go in an indoor pool. Gohan felt weak as the medicine was begining to make him drowsy. Jasmine picked him up and placed him in his bed while Sky tucked him in so he could rest. They left the door open so they could hear him. Chichi was crying in the kitchen upset from Gohan's earlier episode. Jasmine ans Sky comforted her as everyone else was in conversation amoungst themselves about the situation.

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