Reading of dispair

Chapter fifteen: Tower

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Piccolo and Gohan had flown at speeds faster that lightening to get to Jasmine's house. For some odd reason, Gohan sensed his father's energy was incredibly low. He couldn't help but notice that something wasn't right. Another thing that bugged him was why it was at Aunt Jaz's house. He looked over at Piccolo and decided to break the ice.

"What in the world happened?" He asked a little confused, worry evident in his voice.

Piccolo glanced at Gohan and answered," I don't know, but whatever it is, it can't be good if Jasmine called your mother telling her to get me to pick you up as soon as posible."

"Did she even tell you what it was?" Gohan questioned.

"She only told me it was about your father and told me to bring you there. Your mother is waiting for you there too." Piccolo informed with a bit of urgency.

"Then it can't be good. What could've happened?" Gohan wondered as Jasmine's house came into view.

They seen the small condo and landed in the front door step. Gohan knocked on the door and immediatly Jasmine anwered it. She said nothing as she let them in motioning that they sit on the couch. Chichi was there silently crying and completely in the dark about what happened only a few hours ago. When everyone was seated Jasmine took her seat in the chair on the left side of the living room. She sat there for a moment and took a deep breath to calm and compose herself.

"I'm so pissed off right now it isn't even funny." She stated in a bland and irritated voice with her hands clasped over her knee.

"What happened Aunt Jaz?" Gohan asked nervously.

Gohan knew out of all the years he's been around Jasmine that when she uses the line she had just used then the news was'n't very good at all. Jasmine took another moment to compose herself. She sat up with a sigh and decided to speak once again. The room was full of tension. Piccolo and Chichi knew that it hadn't been this intense sense they all found out that Gohan had cancer.

"I talked to your father about what happened during his visit with you in the mental ward the day he came back. He didn't want to go home just yet because he was pissed. I didn't know what about so we sat down and talked about it before he went home to your mother." Jasmine explained.

"I'm sorry I acted the way I did Aunt Jaz. I was just so angry with him." Gohan apologized remoresfully.

"I agree with you on that but, I knew it would happen. He seen me the day before he decided to visit you. I warned him that you were not mentally or emotionally stable yet and could become hostile. But he didn't listen and went the day after. When he came over after his visit he told me what happened. I told him to let you recover for now and talk to you when you returned home when you're more stable." Jasmine explained.

"But what happened just now?" Chichi asked feeling the anticipation.

"I was getting to that." Jasmine noted calmly.

Jasmine continued," Well I did give him one of my "act like you have some damn sense" speeches. But that was after he told me he slapped you. He got upset and started crying. After he calmed down, he went home to tell your mother about it."

"He did? Mom, you must be mad at me." Gohan stated with a shaky voice.

"Well, I'm not happy with you for disrespecting your father but I told him about the cancer and how fragile you've become. I was more upset that he hit you when you were emotionally unstable. He should've been the adult about it and left." Chichi clarified.

"I know mom, but I wasn't myself. I just don't condone what he did that's all. Something like this doesn't go away over night." Gohan informed.

"He's right about that Chichi. This is gonna take a lot of work to clear up. Plus I need to finish the story on what just recently happened." Jasmine agreed.

Flashback

It was a tuesday morning and Jasmine just had a girls night with Chichi to help her take her mind off her worries. But what they didn't know was Goku had went to see Gohan again to see if he could talk to him again. However, the next visit was just the same as the last as he left this time instead of being rash like last time at the last visit. Goku felt heart broken that Gohan didn't seem to want to patch things up with him. But then that's when he begain to feel guilty about everything in his life. Then his thoughts went back to the Cell games.

He knew he shouldn't have put Gohan in that kind of danger. Goku let a few stray tears fall from his eyes as he remembered Gohan at the mental ward. Gohan spilled everything about how he felt and what he really thought of Goku and him placing him in that situation. Goku cried the whole way there to Jasmine's place and walked in. He had a key to the condo that Jasmine gave him. She was planing on giving Gohan one when he got out of the hospital.

He sat on her couch and cried with his face in his hands. Truth was, he felt like a bad father and he also felt even worse hitting Gohan at the first visit knowing he was too fragile to defend himself. Then a horrible idea snuck it's way into his mind. So he decided to go with it, even if he knew it was wrong. He came to a choice as he got up from the couch and walked into the bathroom. Goku knew what he wanted to do but he would need a little something less painful to do the job.

Once he was in the bathroom he opened the medicine cabanent to reveal the many medicines inside. Some were over the counter and the three orange bottles were Jasmine's perscriptions. He knew Jasmine was on perscription pills for her medical issues. As he pondered a thought on should he really do this he shoved it aside and pulled out the bottles of pills. After setting them on the sink he checked the miligrams on each medicine to see which was stronger. He placed the other two back and closed the medicine cabanant and then sat on the floor.

Goku leaned his head against the tile wall and sighed holding a bottle of Jasmine's heart medicine.

"I hurt Gohan so much. I knew I shouldn't of put him through so much as a child. I dumped way too much responsibility on him and it gave him cancer and killed his unborn sibling. I'm the worst father I can think of. Gohan could've been killed that day and he could've died from that cancer too. I should've been there, and now he hates me. I guess it's time for me to go. I don't want to hang around and hurt him or Chichi anymore." He thought sorrowfully as he uncapped the bottle swallowing all thirty pills.

He sat there waiting for the over dose to kill him when suddenly the bathroom door opened. Jasmine had came home and went to put her new things she bought away when she seen Goku on the floor. She placed her things on the bathroom sink and kneeled down.

"Goku, what're you doing on my bathroom floor?" Jasmine asked a little suspisious.

Goku looked up at her with hazy eyes,"I'm ending it." He replied in a tired pain strickened voice.

"What're you talking about? Ending what, what did you do?" Jasmine aksed in a desperate tone.

Then that was when Goku tossed her the new perscription pill bottle for her heart medicine and it was empty. Jasmne picked it up and gasped.

"Please tell me YOU didn't take all these! Goku?" Jasmine yelled.

Goku didn't answer as he slumped to the side now feeling the efects of the pills. Jasmine freaked as she dropped to the floor to check him. His eyes were glazed over and the pupils were dialated, his heart beat was slowing down, and his breathing was becoming shorter. She cursed as she took him down stairs to her basement where she set up her home med wing two days ago to pump his stomach.

End of flashback

After Jasmine told the horrible tale of Goku's almost succseful suicide everyone was in complete shock and denial. Gohan couldn't believe it, he made Goku feel so guilty the second time he visited him in the hospital that he actually tried to kill himself.

"After I pumped his stomach and stablized him I talked to him when he regained consciousness. I couldn't believe he would do something so reckless like this. Luckily he understood what he did was just plain stupid and he broke down. He cried himself to sleep." Jasmine explained in a saddened tone.

Just then Chichi passed out and Gohan started crying himself.
"It's all my fault! I shouldn't have made him feel so bad. I thought he would understand. But it just made him try to commit suicide!" Gohan sobbed.

"No, Gohan this isn't your fault. You told me you didn't explode the last time you talked to him and you explained why you felt the way you did. He should've waited untill everything calmed down first." Jasmine consoled.

"Where is he now?" Gohan asked quicky as his puls picked up.

"He's in the guest room to your right. The first one you come to."

"Thank you, I'm going to see him. I didn't want him to kill himself. I just wanted him to know the damage he's done." Gohan stated as he ran to that room.

Once he came in he saw him. Goku was laying on the bed with an IV in his arm and a breathing mask over his face. Gohan slowly walked over to his father and sat on the chair next to him. Gohan cried as he sat there wondering what he did to desurve all this.

Damn! Didn't expect that now did ya?

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The tower means conflict.