After Christmas, time seemed to fly. Before I even knew it, it was nearing March. Jack and I had gotten so much closer; he was always the first person I went to, always the first person I wanted to see when I woke up and the last person before I fell asleep. I had also gotten closer with his friends, especially Alex and Rian. It was a Sunday and we were currently on our way to go to the doctor's and Jack was excited because FINALLY we could find out whether the baby was a boy or girl.
"Jack, what if I didn't want to know what is was?" I asked while drawing shapes with my fingers over my belly. I was pretty sure the feeling that was going on were little kicks but I could be wrong.
"Then…I don't know…I guess we would have to wait." Jack said but I could tell from the look he gave me when he turned away from the road for a moment was one of pleading, begging me to say yes we could find out the baby's gender.
"Okay, I was just wondering but I do want to know. It'll make picking out names so much easier."
"Oh good, I was so worried you were gonna say no." he said while letting out a breath of relief.
"Do you want a boy or a girl?"
"I want it to be healthy."
"Jack!" I whined and he sighed.
"I guess I want a little girl, it would be nice to come home from tour to a little girl with fiery red hair and my brown eyes screaming daddy."
I smile at him; he could be so adorable when he wasn't being obnoxious. "It's funny you say that because every time I picture our baby she has your eyes and my hair." I said and Jack smiled.
"I just hope she isn't cursed with this nose." he said as he tapped his finger against his nose.
"I love your nose."
"Why? It's so big!"
"Well something on you has to be." I teased and Jack glared at me for a moment before turning into the parking lot of my doctor's office.
After Jack parked we both climbed out and he came around to my side of the car to grab my hand. "We have to start thinking of names." he told me and I sighed.
"I don't know; let's just find out if it's a boy or girl first."
"It's gonna be a girl." Jack said surely and I chuckled.
"Whatever you say Jacky."
Almost a half hour later I was lying back on the table with the cool goo on my stomach and the wand pressed against it. "So do you want to know the sex of the baby?" the doctor asked and both Jack and I nodded.
"Yes." I said and the doctor smiled. She fiddled with the wand, moving it across my stomach for a couple minutes before she cleared her throat.
"See that right there?" she asked as she pointed to the screen. Jack and I looked where she was pointing but I didn't see anything that told me what it was. "That right there is your baby's penis, you have a boy." she said and I beamed before looking over at Jack. He looked happy but not as pleased as I was.
Once the doctor walked out I sat up and looked at Jack. "Aren't you excited?"
"Of course Josie, why do you say that?"
"Because you don't seem excited."
"I am, I just wanted it to be a girl."
"Jack, you're gonna love having a son. You'll have someone to watch football with you, a little you to teach how to play guitar and just think, if we ever decided to have another one MANY MANY years from now it could be a girl and she would have a big brother to keep her safe."
Jack's face broke into a smile and I knew I had won him over. "You're right baby." he said while leaning his head against mine.
"I know, I always am." I said and Jack rolled his eyes.
"Come on, we gotta tell the guys the wonderful news." Jack said while tugging on my hand gently. I laughed and climbed off of the table. We walked out of the doctor's office hand in hand. The drive to Alex and Rian's house was a short one and Jack was practically bursting with excitement as we stepped out of the car.
"Jack, calm down." I instructed but it didn't stop him from bouncing with every step he took.
"I'm just so excited; it feels like I've waited forever to find out!"
"Just simmer down a bit." I said before we entered the house.
"ALEX! RIAN!" Jack screamed making me flinch. He gave me apologetic look before going to shout again but I slapped my hand over his mouth.
"JACK! STOP YELLING IN MY HOUSE!" Alex screeched back and I began to massage my temples as my headache came on.
"SHUT UP ASSHOLE! I HAVE GOOD NEWS!"
"Oh my god, please, I'm begging you, stop yelling." I whined.
"What's the good news?" Rian questioned as he came down the stairs.
"Thank you for not yelling." I said and Rian smiled at me.
"No problem, now what's the news?"
"I wanna tell you all at the same time." Jack said while grabbing Rian's hand and tugging him into the kitchen where Alex was.
"You're missing one smart guy." I said as I followed them into the kitchen and leaned up against the counter beside Alex.
"I know, Rian can you call Zack please?" Jack whined and I rolled my eyes. I reached for one of Alex's chips and he smacked my hand away. "Hey! Let my woman eat!" Jack barked and I giggled.
"Yeah, let his woman eat." I said and reached for a chip again. This time Alex let me have one but he pulled away the rest of the bowl before I could have any more. I was pouting about my lack of chips when Rian tapped Jack's arm before placing the phone in the middle of the counter.
"Okay Zack, can you hear us?" Rian inquired.
"Yeah, what is it that you need to tell me?" Zack's voice came through the phone loud and clear.
"Besides the fact that you need to beat up Alex when you get back?" I asked and Alex glared at me.
"Why? What is Alex doing?"
"He won't let me eat any chips." I whined.
"Okay, I'll beat him up when I get back." Zack said and I grinned evilly at Alex who pushed the bowl of chips toward me.
"Okay, I shared with her. Now what is it that's so important?" Alex said while resting his head on his hand.
Jack beamed and then looked at me as if asking me for permission to tell them. "Go right ahead babe." I said.
"It's a boy!" Jack said excitedly.
"Wait…what?" Alex said stupidly and I couldn't help but giggle.
"The baby," Jack stopped to point at my bulging belly, "it's a boy!"
"Oh my god! Nah uh!" Alex shrieked reminding me very much of a teenage girl.
"Yes!" Jack shrieked back and I looked at Rian, not actually believing that my boyfriend and his best friend were shrieking like girls.
"Oh yes, that happened." Rian said and I sighed before laying my head in my hands, I couldn't take much more of the screaming.
In celebration of it being a boy Alex brought out the alcohol. Rian refused to drink, instead deciding to keep Josie company. Almost two hours later I was trashed and Josie wasn't looking very pleased with me.
"Baby." I mumbled drunkenly as I fell down on the couch beside her.
"Get away from me." she snapped pushing me away but I didn't want to. I wanted to have Josie's arms around me and her lips against mine but she didn't want me near her.
"Josie!" I whined and she scowled.
"I don't care, get away from me." she spat before standing up and going to sit beside Rian.
"Here." Alex said pushing a full cup into my hand and I began to sip from it despite the glares Josie was giving me.
Another hour later I was so drunk my head was spinning and I was pretty positive Josie was going to kill me. "Can you get him into the car for me?" I heard Josie ask.
"Yeah, no problem." I heard Rian say back. It was only moments before I was being lifted from the couch, my arm thrown over Rian's shoulder.
"Where am I going?" I mumbled.
"The car." Rian replied and I mumbled something back even I didn't understand. "You know Josie is pissed with you, right?" he asked and I opened my eyes to look at the two, no three Rians beside me.
"Why?"
"Cause you're wasted you dumbass."
"And?"
"Just shut up." Rian said before pushing me into the passenger's seat. Once he buckled me in, he slammed the door shut and a couple seconds later Josie climbed into the driver's seat.
"Baby." I said as I tried to touch her but she pushed me away.
"Do not touch me Jack."
"Baby!" I said a bit louder and went to rub her arm but she shoved me away.
"I'm serious Jack! I'm pissed at you! I understand having a few drinks with your friends, that's fine but when you get fucking wasted, that's so urgh!" she barked. I flinched at her harsh tone, we hadn't fought in months.
"Josie, I'm sorry." I said but she wouldn't even look at me. "Josie!"
"Jack, shut up." she spat as she began to drive. When we reached my house she helped me out but by the look on her face I knew she didn't want to. We stumbled into my silent house and Josie left me on the stairs.
"Baby, where are you going?" I asked as softly as I could manage.
"My room, don't come in tonight. I don't want you in my bed." she said before stomping up the stairs. She'll get over it tomorrow I thought to myself as I slowly climbed the stairs, went to my room and passed out in my bed.
The next morning I woke up to a horrible hangover and a feeling that something wasn't right. After stripping off my jeans and replacing them with sweatpants I went down the stairs. I found Josie with my mother and sister in the kitchen. At the sound of my footsteps all three of them looked up and glared at me.
"Uh…hi…" I said swallowing nervously.
"Hello Jack." May said and I knew from her tone that I had seriously fucked up.
"So what did you do last night?" my mother asked as she set down a plate full of eggs, bacon and toast in front of Josie, then another plate in front of May.
"Just went to the guys' house." I answered as I sat down beside Josie who didn't even look at me.
"Is that all that happened?" she inquired and I nodded even though I knew it was a lie. "Don't lie to me Jack Bassam."
"Okay, I got drunk."
"And do you think that was fair to Josie?"
"No but I didn't mean to. Josie I'm sorry." I said turning to look at her but she didn't respond, just jumped off of the stool.
"Thanks for the breakfast Mrs. Barakat, I have to go to school." she said before grabbing the bag off of the floor beside the stool. Once I heard the door slam shut I sighed and leaned my head against my hand.
"What did you expect Jack?" May questioned.
"I expected her to accept my apology." I mumbled.
"You're stupid, you're gonna need to do more than apologize." she told me and I let my head drop down against the counter.
"What do I do?"
"I don't know but you better come up with something."
"Thanks for the advice." I said sarcastically.
"Why were you even drinking anyways?"
"Oh, I forgot to tell you. We found out what the baby is." I said, my mood getting better as I thought about my baby boy, my son.
"What is it?" May asked excitedly.
"It's a boy." I said happily.
"Oh my god, that's amazing." my mom said and I nodded in agreement.
"Well we'll be back later." my mom said and both her and May walked out of the kitchen. I sighed and leaned my head back against the counter. I needed to think of something to make up with Josie; I couldn't deal with her being angry with me…..