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Jacob's POV
I watched Jaelyn's back as she walked across the room to go to the bathroom. When she closed the door and turned on the faucet I made my way to the other bathroom down the hall. Ten minutes later I was back and she was still in there. I had refrained from thinking of the night so far, I wasn't too good of a morning person.
I knocked on the door. "Jay, are you okay?" I waited impatiently for an answer and a moment later I heard her squeak, "Yes."
Did she just squeak? Something must be wrong with her. "Jaelyn, if you aren't out in two minutes I'm breaking down the door."
I heard her puff out angrily and smirked. "You break down my door Jacob Black and I will make you regret it."
I tried thinking of the different things she could do and decided to go against it even though some of the ideas were entertaining.
The door swung open and she stood there both her eyebrows raised at me just begging for a challenge. I wanted to grab her and throw her on the bed, even if it was just to sleep longer.
All though if it was anything else I wouldn't mind, and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't either.
Ugh. I had to stop.
"So we should talk huh?" I voiced and I watched her nod. How I didn't want to do this and just skip over everything that happened. But I was Jacob Black, I could do anything.
Except this.
We just stood watching each other for a couple minutes before she walked over to her bed and sat down patting the space next to her and I happily obliged.
She reached over and ruffled her hand through my hair, "Such a good puppy." I groaned and rolled my eyes and a grinned splayed across her face and I couldn't help the one that crossed mine.
Another couple moments passed between us. Neither of us was too good at this. "Uhm, so yesterday…."
"Why are you afraid of hurting me?" She asked.
Well, maybe I was the only one bad at this. "Uh, it's complicated."
"Tell me."
I took in a deep breath and fisted my hands against the blankets. If I told her she wouldn't want me, especially since last night.
"I heard Quil and Embry talking about the Cullens, and umm….Some girl who you loved." Her voice had gotten quiet and I looked at her to see her picking at her nails. "They said that once she had a baby you freaked and left."
I couldn't say anything. It wasn't because talking about that still hurt; Jaelyn took all that pain away. I was afraid to tell her.
"Is that why you're afraid of hurting me? You still love her?"
"What? No. No. I don't love her. I love you." The words blurted out of my mouth before I could think twice about them.
I watched as shock crossed her face before it was replaced with a wall I had seen a couple times whenever someone asked about her past.
"Jaelyn, don't shut down on me. I know what you're doing, just please listen to me," I begged. I didn't regret telling her, but I certainly wish I could've kept my trapped shut. "Yes, I loved her. Bella, her name is Bella and it absolutely destroyed me when she married that leech, kicked me in the stomach when she had me and killed me when she became one of them." I took a deep breath and steadied myself. It was strange how I could talk about it so calmly. "When he changed her…I went nuts. I ran off to Canada and for the first month and a half didn't phase from my wolf form but when I did…I don't know. I lost myself. I got into a couple relationships with a few girls and was horrible. I cheated on all of them if it could even be called that, I never felt like they were relationships in the first place. "
"I treated each and every one of them like crap. I kept comparing them to Bella, seeing all their faults and pointing it out to them. Everyone who was around me, I didn't want them to feel good when I wasn't. Then after a couple months, I was sick mentally. I knew I couldn't keep doing what I was, I knew it would destroy me."
The whole time I talked I watched her face and she watched me right back. I couldn't tell what she was feeling, her face was blank. God, this was worse than being a wolf. "I came here and saw you and I im…I knew it would be different. You brought me back."
"You were going to say imprinted. Sam said you imprinted on me. What does that mean?"
She didn't miss a thing did she? "Did Joshua ever tell you about the Third Wife?" I could practically see her wrack her brains for the information and when she did her eyes grew wide and her mouth opened slightly.
"You should really go now Jacob." She said so quietly even I barely heard it.
"No, I'm not leaving. It's not what you think."
"Not what I think?" She jumped up from the bed and stood to face me. "You are forced to love me, you can't help it. And this imprint thing isn't going to save you; it's just making you think that. I can't bring you back."
"Jaelyn…"
"You don't love me, you love the imprint." She wouldn't look at me and just stared out her window.
I stood up and walked over to the other side of the bed and grabbed her lightly by her arms making her look at me. "The imprint does not make me love you; it just points me in your direction. The imprint can't make me love your humor; the imprint can't make me love your strength, your spirit. The imprint can't make me love the crazy relationship you have with everyone else in the pack, it can't make me love how smart you are. You make me love all those things Jaelyn, you."
I was breathing heavy, afraid of what she was going to do. I wanted her to accept me, to love me back but hell, if I was an outsider and someone tried telling me I'd probably laugh and call the mental ward.
I didn't want her to do that.
I looked at her eyes carefully and saw a range of emotions inside of them that I couldn't decipher.
Her eyes darted behind me and she sighed. "I have work in an hour."
That was not was I was expecting to say the least. I stepped away from her and letting go of her arms felt like letting go a piece of myself. I just nodded, not knowing what else to say. I just laid out my heart and she had to go to work. I turned around and walked out into the hallway knowing she had to be the one to make the next move.
"Jacob!" She shouted and ran out into the hall. I didn't turn around to face her just stopped and stood there.
The smile in her voice gave me hope, "I get out at seven. Hint hint."
Jay's POV
As soon as Jacob left I was debating between two things. Either Jacob was telling the truth when he said he loved me or he sure knew how to lay it on thick. Me being the girl I am wanted to believe the first one.
I numbly got my work uniform out of the dryer so I could change into it after my shower. My uniform, thank god, just consisted of wearing a white shirt and black pants. I once worked at a restaurant that made us wear these neon yellow shirts that made us look like chickens. Not fun.
Jumping into the shower I thought over what just happened. Jacob said he loved me. My whole shower consisted of me saying that one sentence over and over in my head, pathetic. Yeah, I know but could you blame me?
I got dressed, throwing my hair up into a messy bun and throwing on some eyeliner and mascara. My skin for some reason had decided to have a good today. Fuck yeah.
I was just grabbing my keys off the kitchen table when someone pounded on my front door. I rolled my eyes, that poor thing got way more abuse than it deserved. "Who is it?"
"If I tell you who it is you won't let me in," I heard a whiny voice say.
I chuckled and opened the door. "You know Quil, the whine doesn't make you sound any manlier."
He lopped a smile at me and leaned against the door frame crossing his arms. "You know you're attracted to it."
"Maybe," I said patting his cheek trying to push past him but he wouldn't let me go. "I'm going to be late for work."
"See, that's why I'm here. I was wondering if I drove you to work if I could get a free coffee and a couple muffins."
"Quil! You don't even have a car!" I exclaimed. This kid had to be one of the most ridiculous people I knew.
"So, I can just use yours," he said looking at me like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Duh Jay."
"If you need to borrow my car just ask you dim wit."
"Jay, can I borrow your car?" He asked smiling at me.
"No," I said pushing past him and climbing into the driver's seat.
"Why not? I asked like you told me to." Before I could lean over to lock the passenger's door he had already planted himself into the seat.
"Quil, get out." I hissed starting up the car.
He pointed to the clock, "You're going to be late."
"And you will lose your manhood in about two seconds if you don't get out of my car," I scowled knowing he wasn't going to get out. I pulled out of my driveway and he sat with a satisfied smirk.
"You're big on the whole threat thing aren't you?"
"You're big on the whole annoying the shit out of me aren't you? Don't smirk like that either. I know what you're thinking. You think since I've started driving to work and you're in the car with me I'll have no choice but to let you use the car." I sneaked a look out of the corner of my eye and laughed as his smile dropped from his face. "Sucker."
"You're not going to make me walk back," he challenged.
"Quil, you're a healthy young boy. You have four legs, use them." The growl he let out made me smile hugely.
He was silent the rest of the ride, probably in disbelief. I pulled into the parking lot of my work and yanked the keys out of the ignition. "Quil, I really need to hear how much I am loved."
He barked out a laugh. "Are you going to let me borrow the car or not?"
I glared at him and he laughed louder. "You have to put gas in it when you're done."
"Deal."
I threw the keys at his stomach and he caught them before they even stood a chance, figures. "Someone better be here to pick me up when my shift's over." I opened my door and climbed out of the car and just before I walked into the café, I heard Quil call out from behind me, "I love you Jay!"
"You better," I said smiling knowing he would hear me.
His chuckle told me he did.
XXXXXXX
Six hours later I was eternally grateful it was required to wear an apron while working. Oliver, the nasty one eyebrow creep he was, decided today would be the day he came to pick up his last paycheck and 'accidentally' spill his drink on me.
It took all my self-control, and I have a lot mind you, to not pop him in the face. After a moment of tossing the idea around in my head I had come to the conclusion that no matter how big of a prick he was, the boss wouldn't like it too much.
Oliver got to walk away a lucky man.
After I clocked out I threw my apron in the company washer machine and walked out into the parking lot searching for Quil but when I found Jacob my heart skipped a beat. I was tempted to walk back into the café and ask Steve, my manager, if he would take me on for another five hour shift but I knew I had to face him at some point.
Once Jake saw me he got out of the car and leaned against the hood, that cocky smile planted on his face. I shook my head and walked over to him. "So did you ask Quil if he would borrow your car just so I could pick you up?"
I scoffed at him and walked over to the passenger seat of the rabbit. "I thought you asked him if he would because you wanted to pick me up. Don't try to turn this around on me Jacob."
If I hadn't been paying attention I wouldn't have noticed the half a second that shock flew across his face before he settled it into a cocky grin. I gasped. "You fuck! You did ask him to borrow my car didn't you?"
His smirk only grew. "I thought the romanticism of it would sweep you off your feet."
I rolled my eyes sitting in the car. "Don't tell me you got that one from Quil too."
He coughed and said something about Embry. I was going to kill all three of them.
"I need to start hanging around Seth or the twins more," I muttered. He just laughed.
"Do you want to go to the bonfire tonight? Everyone's going; Sam, Emily, Kim, Jared, Brady and Collin, Leah…"
"You mean I get to meet Leah?" I asked excitedly. I had heard about her from the other guys and Jacob, some stuff nice and a lot of other stuff not. Regardless if she was a bitch like they said, she sounded like a character and she was one person closer to learning more about Sam.
"Does that mean you'll go with me?" He asked drumming his fingers against the steering wheel.
"Did Sam imprint on Emily? And Jared on Kim?" I asked staring out into the forest.
"That didn't answer my question." He said burrowing his forehead. I just watched him and he kept stealing glances at me and a couple minutes later he sighed caving in. "Yes, they both imprinted on them."
I took a moment to process the new information. I knew I was going to have a talk with Quil later to get even more. "Yes, I'll go to the bonfire with you." He smiled rather goofily and pulled into my driveway.
"Sam's going to freak when we walk up together."
That wiped his smile away pretty fast. We walked into the house in silence. "I just have to go get changed and I'll be ready to go."
He pulled me into a hug and without even thinking I melted into him. I felt him breathe into my hair for a couple moments before he let me go and pushed me away. "Hurry," He said smirking.
I rolled my eyes, "Only for you Jake."
His smirk grew way too comfortable on his face. I guess cocky came with the Alpha thing. I ran into my room and quickly pulled on a pair of jeans, black boots that went half way up my calves, a black tank top and grey off the shoulder sweater. I took my hair down from the bun it was in from work and sighed. It was still a little damp from being up all day and I didn't have enough time to blow dry it and straighten it. Reluctantly I shook it out and threw a little de-frizzer in it to help the curls stay smooth. If my curls were looser and not so hay wire I might like them a little more. I sighed, oh well. Nothing I could do about it now.
I mentally made myself a promise saying if Quil made one comment about it that wasn't nice I was going to bend one of his fingers back as hard as I could.
I walked back into the living room and saw Jacob lounging on the couch flipping through the channels on the TV. When I came in he looked me over and smiled.
"What?" I asked thinking he was going to say some smart ass comment.
"Nothing. You look good," he said rubbing the back of his neck looking me over again.
I laughed. "I'd never be able to tell that you're a wolf boy."
He laughed and raised an eyebrow at me. "Is that a good thing?"
I winked at him. "Very." This time it was his turn to roll his eyes.
We walked back outside to see Quil pulling up with my car. "Asswipe!" I yelled out at him and Jacob erupted into laughter. Getting out of the car he flipped me off and Jacob's laughter turned into a soft growl. I elbowed Jacob softly in the ribs.
Quil's eyes flashed in between me and Jacob and he grinned evilly. "You know Jay I really do like your hair. It's cute." He ruffled his hand in my hair and I forcefully swatted his hand away.
"You annoy me," I said picking up on Jacob's growl.
"I'm just returning the favor babe." He said winking at me. This time Jacob's growl was louder and Quil laughed at him and punched him in the arm. "Nothing wrong with a little friendly competition is there Jake?"
I looked up at Jacob's face and watched as he glared at Quil and Quil just stare at him right back with the annoying grin on his face. I smirked and walked off the porch and towards the trail that cut through the back woods to the beach. I heard both of the boys jog up behind me and Jacob slipped his arm around me. I didn't question it for the time being, just relaxed into his side as we walked.
These boys were whipped.
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