It was now June, therefore, I was about 6 months pregnant. My baby bumped started showing at around 4 months.
Of course lately the paparazzi found out that I was pregnant, they've have been following James and I around like fucking dogs! It was seriously starting to piss me off!
Today I had another ultra sound appointment just to check up on the babies.
I was awoken that morning by James' new little dog, Fox. He was laid on my chest licking my face. I swear that dog was like an alarm clock!
"Fox, s-stop it!" I said while letting out a giggle. Suddenly James walked into the bedroom and smiled at the sight before him. "Awww...Good boy Fox! You woke mommy up!" He said in a childish tone, as he picked up the dog and stroked him. I laughed a little before slowly sitting up, being careful because my back was starting to hurt from my pregnancy. "Did you seriously just get the dog to wake me up?" I said still laughing about it a little bit. James nodded his head as he smiled real big. James laid in bed, leaning against the headboard. He pulled me to sit in between his legs, leaning me back so I was laying against his chest. Fox then crawled into my lap. He did a little twirl, before he got himself comfortable and laid down in my lap. We must have laid there for about 30 minutes just relaxing a little bit before we got up and got ready.
Once I had finally stood up and made my way to the bathroom, I stripped myself of my clothing and jumped into the shower. After my well needed shower, I dried off and got dressed.
We eventually were ready and left the house. James helped me outside and very kindly opened the car door for me, helping me into the car. The whole drive to the hospital was filled with some small talk and the silent sound of the radio playing quietly.
We had finally arrived at the hospital and made our way inside. James grabbed my hand and we walked into the ultra sound room. The doctor was already inside waiting for us. "Hello, Summer, hello James. How are you?" She politely asked in a cheerful tone. I smiled and waved as James spoke, "We're doing good, excited, but good." He said. She nodded as I carefully laid back on the bed, lifting my shirt up. She put the cold gel on my stomach and spread it around with the little remote. James held my hand tightly and stared at the monitor. I smiled when I saw the little figures of the twins on the screen. I was really nervous about being a mother at only 18. But I was slowly starting to get really excited about it. The doctor pointed on the screen at one of the babies. "See this one right here, that one's the boy" She said before moving to point at the other baby. "And...that one is your little girl." She finished. I smiled big and squeezed James' hand. I looked at him and he looked so fucking happy. He leaned down quickly and kissed me. "Alright it looks like you are good to go, they are both looking pretty healthy." She said, as she wiped the gel off my belly and pulled my shirt back down for me. We both stood up and thanked the nice women for her service and walked out to the car with huge smiles on our faces.
Once we had got in the car and started to drive back home James reminded me that tonight the boys had a concert and that I was opening for them.
I sat at home trying to think of the 5 songs that I was going to sing tonight, and my outfit. It took me a whole hour to decide what to sing but I eventually came to a decision.
Once it was time to go, James and I drove out to the venue, and made our way backstage to get ready for the concert. The boys and I both got dressed and warmed up for the show.
THE BOYS
SUMMER
Before we knew it...it was time to start the show.
I gave all the boys a big hug, then gave James a big and passionate kiss before running onto the stage to here the crowd roaring with excitement...I would never get used to that. I quickly began to sing a song that I had recently recorded. It was called Who You Are. (by jessie j)
[Verse 1:]
I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf...
"No, no, no, no... "
[Chorus:]
Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(Who you are) [x11]
[Verse 2:]
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeh!
The more I try the less is working
Yeih yeah yeha
'Cause everything aside me screams, "no, no, no, no... "
[Chorus:]
Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!
[Bridge:]
Yes, most egos, fake shows like woah
Just go and leave me alone
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight
With a smile, that's my home
That's my home, no
"No, no, no, no... "
[Chorus:]
Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeih yeha yeah
I finished the song as I was on the brink of tears, but I quickly pulled it together and began my next song. Which was Bad Reputation. (Avril Lavigne)
I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
You're living in the past it's a new generation
A girl can do what she wants to do and that's
What I'm gonna do
An' I don't give a damn ' bout my bad reputation
Oh no not me
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
Never said I wanted to improve my station
An' I'm only doin' good
When I'm havin' fun
An' I don't have to please no one
An' I don't give a damn
'Bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me
Oh no, not me
I don't give a damn
'Bout my reputation
I've never been afraid of any deviation
An' I don't really care
If ya think I'm strange
I ain't gonna change
An' I'm never gonna care
'Bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me
Oh no, not me
Pedal boys!
An' I don't give a damn
'Bout my reputation
The world's in trouble
There's no communication
An' everyone can say
What they want to say
It never gets better anyway
So why should I care
'Bout a bad reputation anyway
Oh no, not me
Oh no, not me
I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation
You're living in the past
It's a new generation
An' I only feel good
When I got no pain
An' that's how I'm gonna stay
An' I don't give a damn
'Bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me
Oh no, not
Not me, not me
The next song was God Is A Dj (p!nk).
I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like mummy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover hey, "Fuck you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky
Chorus:
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it...
Verse 2:
I've been the girl with her middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: i don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go you can't take back what you've done
So find a new lifestyle
A reason to smile
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You whisper to me
There's no reason to cry...
Chorus
Bridge
You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin
If God is a DJ...If God... say If God is a DJ, Then life is a dance floor so
Get your ass on the dance floor now
Chorus x3
Next I quickly went and got behind the piano and got ready for the my next song, which was Gravity (Sara Bareilles)
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone
You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain
Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
{ From: . }
And all my fragile strength is gone
Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me
I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground
But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down
yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah.
You're on to me, on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
What people didn't know was that the boys and I had a little surprise for everyone. We were going to sing our song Courage together. (Orianthi, ft. Lacey) I stood from the piano and walked to the center stage, where 5 microphones were raised up from the floor. "Lights Out!" I screamed into the microphone. Then quickly while it was pitch black the boys went and took there places behind the microphones. The music started to play as I yelled out, "Lights Up!" All the lights were instantly turned on and the crowd went absolutely insane! Thats when we started the song.
(KENDALL)
Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
(CARLOS)
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
(JAMES)
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
(LOGAN)
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath
(ALL)
Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway
(SUMMER)
We all have excuses why
WHEN Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies but the song he sings
(ALL)
Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway
(GUITAR SOLO)
(SUMMER)
It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up
(CARLOS)
Courage is when you've lost your way
But you find your strength anyway
(ALL)
Courage is when your afraid
Courage is a burning thing
Courage is when you make a change
(Summer)
And you keep on living anyway
(kENDALL)
You keep on giving anyway
(lOGAN)
You keep moving anyway
(SUMMER)
You keep on loving anyway
We each took a bow as the song ended and I thanked everyone then walked backstage to the dressing room to change back into my 'after show' clothes that I brought. As I exited the bathroom I saw somebody that I never thought I would see. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!" I practically screamed.