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In the second part of this chapter it jumps ahead about a month and a half after the day/night when Jay got the letter. Hope you guys like it. :)

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I stood there, staring down into the bowl of the sink my eyes looking for the letter to magically pop back up so I could change my mind and read it.

Yeah, that didn't happen.

I took a deep breath and threw my hair up in a ponytail. "You know Jay," I muttered to myself walking back into my bedroom and throwing the letter back in the drawer, "That was a pretty bad ass thing to do."

Call me crazy.

I changed out of my nice boots and threw on a pair of polka dot rain boots and threw on my black pea coat jacket shoving my iPod into one of the pockets. I left the house and headed straight for the line of trees in the back of my yard.

It was only two o'clock but it felt like I had spent all day staring at the letter. I shook my head trying to clear it of my thoughts and walked deeper into the woods, a dark damp green surrounding me in all directions. I walked for a half hour keeping my eyes trained on the ground, careful not to fall on my face.

I finally chose a spot that looked to be dryer then the rest surrounding it under the canopy of a tree. I plopped down on the ground none to gracefully and plugged my iPod into my ears and turned up the volume as loud as I could without it actually hurting my ears. I closed my eyes and let whatever was playing surround me.

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard

Happiness was never mine to hold

Careful child, light the fuse and get away

'Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you

Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor

So you tell yourself, that's enough for now

Happiness has a violent roar

I heard the crinkle of leaves next to me sat up straight and snapped my eyes open, not that that did much help. It was night time out, everything in front of me a dark blur. I scowled at myself for falling asleep and glanced down at my iPod which must have died during my nap.

I felt my nerves start to get the better of me once I realized I was engulfed in the darkness and had no source of light what so ever.

I crouched back down on the ground and put my head in my hands. I had two options, sit here and hope one of the guys find me before I get eaten by a wild bear or walk around and get eaten by a wild bear. I'd rather sit.

I closed my eyes again and pretended that it was really day light out to try and calm myself down. I hated the dark.

I heard the crinkling of leaves that originally woke me up move closer to me and despite my better judgment I looked up to try and see what it was.

I squinted my eyes and saw a massive outline move closer to me and I took a steady breath when I saw Jacob in his wolf form trot towards me. I jumped up and wrapped my arms around him, breathing in the scent of the forest that clung to his fur. I buried my head into his neck and mumbled, "I'm so glad you're not a bear."

I heard a rumble shake through him that sounded more like a light growl than anything. I pulled away from him and attempted to look at him when his tongue stretched out and licked half of my face.

"Ugh. Gross Jake! Now I have dog slobber everywhere," I groaned wiping my face on the sleeve of my jacket.

This time he really did growl and I flashed him an innocent smile. His brown eyes blinked and he started to back up away from me.

"No no no!" I shouted, "Jacob Black, you are to take me home right now."

I could see the laughter in his eyes as he kept backing up away from me.

I moaned and crossed my arms, "Really Jake?" When he kept backing up I rolled my arms and puffed kicking the ground. "Sorry," I grumbled refusing to look at him.

I didn't look up but heard him pad back to me and nudge me with his snout. I lifted my head and purposely looked up at the trees avoiding him. He rumbled again and from the corner of my eye I saw him shake his head.

I kept looking at the sky when he backed up behind a tree and less than a minute later came back out in a pair what I assumed were a pair of cutoff jeans, I couldn't see too well.

Refusing to still look at him I felt one of his warm arms wrap around my waist and the other hook underneath my knees lifting me up off the ground and against his chest.

"You're not even going to ask me how the interview went?" He asked still chuckling.

Oh fuck, that's right. What a great girlfriend I was for forgetting. But I just played the silent game.

"You're a sore loser," He laughed and I felt his eyes on my face.

"You're a butt," I muttered.

He boomed out a laugh that echoed off the trees. "I'm the butt who just saved you from being eaten by a wild bear."

I felt my eyes get bigger and I finally looked at him. "Are there really bears near here?"

"Well yeah Jaelyn, I had to fight one off just to get to you."

Jacob snickered the whole time he was trying to get the sentence out of his mouth and I lightly smacked him and huffed. "Whatever."

"Do you remember the last time I carried you through the woods like this? It was at the bon fire and I specifically remember you saying you needed to kiss me."

"Jacob, that's not what happened," I smirked shaking my head at him. I could finally see the stars above us through the trees; we were close to my house.

"Well, just so you know if you feel the sudden urge to kiss me again I totally understand. I mean, if I was a girl and I had a super-hot stud like me carrying me home, I'd be questioning what I wanted to do," He said and I could hear the smugness in his voice.

"I think I can walk," I said slyly and I felt the slight waver in his step and grinned.

"That wasn't what I was expecting," He said a light pout to his lips.

I laughed and snuggled into his chest. It was quiet the rest of the walk and I found myself starting to doze off against Jacob despite my long nap. We got through the door and he set me down so I could take off my boots and jacket. I walked into the bedroom and pulled out a white tee and Spiderman shorts for my pajamas.

I glanced at Jacob and he raised an eyebrow at me and I clutched my clothes to my chest. "Don't be jealous," I said sticking my tongue out at him. "I think you have some clothes in the dryer down stairs."

"Does this mean I'm staying?" He asked a cocky smirk finding its place on his face.

I rolled my eyes, "Only until Quil gets here."

I heard him growl and walk down the basement stairs to get his clothes and I smiled walking into the bathroom to get changed and brush my teeth. I stole a look at the clock and was shocked when it was only ten at night. I was expecting it to be one or something.

When I walked back into my bedroom Jacob was already there in his blue plaid pajama bottoms he left last time.

"Jacob, I do believe you had a shirt in the dryer too," I scowled walking over to him and wrapping my arms around his shoulders instantly warm.

"I know," he replied laughing as he bent down and pecked a kiss on my lips. I shook my head and chuckled.

"Did you get the job?"

"I don't know. He's having me come back for a second interview," He said pecking another kiss on my cheek.

I smiled, "That's awesome Jake. He wouldn't do that unless he thought you'd be good for the position."

"He's just hiring for an assistant at the moment," He mumbled this time kissing my forehead.

"Eh. You gotta start somewhere," I said getting more and more distracted with each of his kisses.

"I start at awesome," He whispered kissing my jaw bone.

I pushed away from him laughing, "You are absolutely ridiculous."

"So aren't your shorts," He chuckled finger the hem of one of the legs.

"Like I said earlier," I said with narrowed eyes. "Jealousy isn't good for the soul."

This time he rolled his eyes.

XXXX

Winter was officially here and what do you get when you mix La Push with snow?

You get slush.

Everywhere.

Call me a girl but I hate slush.

Hate it.

I stomped through the slush and sleet and practically jogged into my house shivering. Stripping off my gloves, jacket and boots I padded into the kitchen and measured out some coffee to put into the pot.

I had dropped Jacob off at work right after school and had another two hours before I had to be at work which left me just enough time to try and tackle some homework.

After the coffee brewed a filled a mug and added a little bit of sugar before I sat down at the kitchen table and opened up my text book when I heard the front door open and felt the cold air assault my back. I spun around in the chair and saw Sam shaking his hair out.

"Really Sam?" I hissed at him as he shut the door. "Is that necessary?"

"What's this?" He demanded walking over to me holding something white in his hands.

I stood up and raised an eyebrow at him as he threw the object on the table. I scowled and picked it up and felt my stomach drop as I realized it was an envelope.

Fuck fuck fuck.

I flipped it over and saw the return address, Joshua Uley.

"I'm pretty sure you can read so I know you already know what this is," I said bitterly tossing the letter back onto the table.

"Don't play games with me Jay, why did he send you a letter?"

"I don't know," I snarled turning away from him so I didn't have to look at him.

"I know that's not the first one he's sent you. I heard Emily talking about it to my Mom," He shouted.

I grabbed the envelope off the table and walked over to the trash can but before I could throw it away Sam snatched it away from me.

"Why are you talking to him and not telling me?"

"I'm not talking to him Sam!" I yelled at him.

"Bull shit," He spat out.

"Excuse fucking me," I shouted ripping the envelope out of his hand. "I've gotten one letter from him before Sam and I burned it, I never opened it."

I saw his eyes go big and whatever he was about to say was lost. It was quiet for a minute before he said anything. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"It was MY mail," I said crossing my arms.

The silence continued and we stood there like that in the kitchen for a good ten minutes. "Well," he said rubbing his neck. "You going to open it or not?"

A/N: The song Jaelyn was listening to was "Happiness" by The Fray. Whenever I listen to that song I feel so sober.

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