Chapter 5
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Authors Note: Okay well was going to do Jade's POV but I changed my mind. I'm just going to stick with Tori for now, maybe. I don't know it all depends on where the story leads to. This chapter gave me hell. I deleted and rewrote so many times it's not even funny. I also want to thank you all for making this your favorite story and for making me your favorite author. I am really grateful. I worked really hard I hope you like it.
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I swear the bags under my eyes are going to take some hours of sleep to fix. Shit I'm tired. Jade and I has been up and down every two hours taking care of Liz. The first time Liz cried in the middle of the night Jade jumped out of the bed and was in Liz's room before I could even get the covers off of me. And when I did get up Jade was in the kitchen holding Liz and making a bottle with one hand like Hannah did. She was also managing to keep Liz from crying. When I asked if she needed help she would just tell me to go back to sleep and that she got it. I would ask if she was sure and she'd just nod and I would go back to sleep. Do you understand how that made me feel seeing Jade like that? There are no words to describe the feelings I had at the time and still do have. Seeing Jade like that makes me want her more and the urge to get her to open up to me again and even more then before.
We took turns with taking care of her, but it got to the point where we were so tired that we forgot who turn it was so we just went in together. One making the bottle and the other keeping Liz from doing that scream cry that makes your ears want to bleed, she did that the last time Jade and I took too long getting out of bed because we were so tired. After she did that we were out of that bed in a heartbeat the next time she cried no matter how tired we were. Also she wasn't hungry every time she woke up she would either need her diaper changed or wanted somebody to sing her to sleep. I figured out that she wanted somebody to sing her to sleep when she woke refusing to take the bottle and she didn't need her diaper changed so I started to sing and rock her like I did before and she was sleep. I loved it when she wanted somebody to sing her to sleep because I love to hear Jade's singing voice. I like her voice when she's not singing to but that's beside the point right now. I'm guessing Sikowitz use to sing to her too.
Right now I'm trying to keep my face out my 'Cocoa Puffs'. T.G.I.F big time.
"Tori can you make me some coffee?" I hear Jade yell from upstairs. Who the hell does she think I am her wife? Wait I technically am her wife. Well don't I feel dumb. I groan standing up from her island walking over to the coffee maker and pouring some coffee that Jade had put on while she was singing to Liz. I smile at the thought, she was singing 'Hush Little Baby'. She wasn't singing the lyrics right but she was saying some pretty sweet stuff to her.
"Okay I just got off the phone with Sikowitz and he said Hannah is on her way." Jade says coming down the stairs with Liz in her arms. I smile as I finish making her coffee. Two sugars no cream. Don't judge me it's not my fault I do my homework. I sit her coffee on the island and sliding it slowly toward her and she hands me Liz. I smile when I look down at her shirt and see it says 'I'm cute and you know it.'
"Already making her cocky I see." I say looking back up at Jade and she gets a big smile on her face.
"No not cocky, self-confidents. There's a differences."
"Yes there is but this shirt says 'I'm cute and you know it'. Self-confident people don't boast on them-selves." I say pointing to her shirt.
"Yea well it's just stating the facts." She says sipping her coffee. I nod my head in agreement.
"Well I can't argue with that. Now can I?" I say looking down at Liz and she's looking at me with those beautiful hazel eyes saying 'Hell Naw.' I smile looking back at Jade as she sips her coffee and read something off her phone. While she isn't looking I might as well admire what she has on. She as on a black short sleeve with a white long sleeve undershirt, black skinny jeans and I'm guessing her famous red combat boots.
"Either you have a staring problem or you really like what you see." Jade says with a smirk. Damn it caught again.
"I do not have a staring problem," I scoff "I was just admiring your chose of clothing." It wasn't a lie.
"Well thank you Misses." She says with a man voice and walking out with her coffee. "I'm going to go get out bags." Did Jade West just say 'thank you'? Did pigs start to fly? Or they finally sent a monkey to the moon? I Know I'm sounding crazy but Jade never says 'thank you.'
"Do you think pigs started to fly?" I ask Liz knowing she's not going to understand me. She makes a weird type of grunt noise and her eyebrows frown together like she's saying 'Hell if I know.' I laugh leaning down kissing her forehead and leaving the kitchen.
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"Hey Tori!" I hear a loud sweet kiddy like voice call to me and I know it's Cat. I turn from my locker and smile at the redhead.
"Hey Cat." I say with a big smile even through I'm super tired.
"You didn't look like you slept well. Are you okay?" she asks sweetly. Cat is so nice you got to love her.
"Yea I'm fine. I was ju-"
"Tori Sikowitz needs us." Jade cuts me off as she comes from behind me and grabs my wrist dragging me toward Sikowitz's class.
"You couldn't have waited till I was done talking to Cat?" I ask as I try and keep up with Jade.
"Nope." She says popping her 'p'. I groan rolling my eyes as we walking into Sikowitz class.
"Hello girls. How is the baby and did you come up with a name?" He asks sipping out of a coconut. Weirdo
"She's fine and yes we….well Jade came up with a name. It's Elizabeth Liz for short Violet West." I say and he nods his head.
"Very nice."
"Is that it?" Jade says sounding annoyed.
"Oh no sorry. I have some more stuff to add about you guys being married." We both groan. What more can he add? "Since you two are married you can't see other people."
"Ahh come on really!" Jade exclaims angrily.
"Yes really and if you do that's cheating and 'happy married couples' don't cheat on each other. If you cheat you fail. Do you remember when I said you two will be doing married coupled things?" He asks making us both nod slowly. "Good so that means you two have to learn how to communicate. Sit down and talk about your lives. Like the past and what you want in the future. Ask about each other's day, communicate. Oh and Happy Married Couples hold hands."
We are both are just standing here looking at him like he lost his mind. But he can't lose something he already lost. Okay I understand the communicating but the holding hands in public, I don't think Jade would react lightly to that. The communicating thing can't be so bad. It's a way to get her to open up to me.
"Holding hands really?" Jade finally speaks sounding like she can't believe it. Told you. He nods his head and drinks from his coconut.
"Grade." Here he goes with this damn grade thing again. We groan again and the bell rings. Shit I don't even have all my books yet. "Go to class." And with that we both leave out without another word. I go right to my locker and so do Jade. After I finish getting my books the warning bell rings. I look at Jade and see she's done too.
"Have a good day." I say with a smile. Might as well start the communicating thing.
"Yea you too." she says giving a half a smile and gone. Ugh Sikowitz your starting something and now it's going to be ten times harder to hide my feelings.
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"Okay," Sikowitz says clapping his hands together. "Today is a free period but you can't talk to anybody else other then the person sitting next to you." he say that and everybody looks to the person next to them. Some groan and others start talking right away.
"So how's your day so far?" I ask Jade as I turn in my seat to look at her.
"Pretty good so far." She says with a smile. "What about yours?" Okay this is going well.
"Good. Can't wait till lunch." I say and we both laugh a little.
"I know right. What are you having?" This communicating thing is easy.
"I don't know yet. Maybe a slice of pizza. You."
"Salad. Got to watch my figure." She says patting her stomach. We both laugh. Yes please keep that body up. Have you guys seen Jade in a bikini?
"Okay you do that. How do you think Liz is doing?" I ask missing her already even if the little time we spend with each other was her crying but we had some pretty good times. Like this morning before we left for school. I was talking to her and she was responding back with little weird noises. It was like we were having a little conversation.
"I'm sure she's fine. You miss her too?" She says smiling.
"Yea I see you said 'too'." I say noticing that.
"Yea. You better not tell anybody about my caring side." She says with a serious face but playful at the same time.
"Don't worry I won't say a word. I don't wanna risk getting my hair cut off in the middle of the night." I say making her laugh and roll her eyes. "You know you don't have to be ashamed of your caring side." I say and she nods her head.
"Yea I know but when you show people that side they think of you as an easy target." she says her voice getting low at the last part. Okay we're getting somewhere.
"Not all people." I say. She looks down at her lap then at me. Her blue eyes looking into mine flashing different type of emotions.
"Yeah not all people but most of the people I use to know." She says her eyes gets this hard look and her tone of voice changes and it makes me shiver a little.
"Oh. Well I'm not going to push if you don't want to talk about it." I say not wanting her to shut me out even more.
"Naw it's okay. I use to get bullied at my old school," my jaw just dropped into my lap. "I still dressed like I dressed now so don't think that's why. It was because I use to be a 'Nice Goth' they use to call me. Sounds weird right? People think Goths are supposed to be all cold hearted and evil and all that stuff but all of them are not. I'm not a Goth I just like to dress like this. I like the color black so I wear it. Anyway they use to call me a 'Nice Goth' and they use to take advantage of my niceness. They said they were my real friends but they were just using me. I didn't know how to say 'no' so I did everything they told and asked me to. When I found out they didn't really care I started to keep my walls up and bring them down when I felt safe." Wow. Who would have thought Jade West would be the one to get bullied?
You remember the first time I told you that Jade came to me and opened up to me in ways she said she never did with Beck? Well she much feels safe around me because she did say she never let her walls down unless she felt safe. Around that time she hardly even knew me. So how could she feel safe around somebody she didn't even know? She'd been with Beck for a year and eleven months when she broke up with him for the first time and she never opened up to him like she did me. How is that possible? Maybe it's because I'm always trying to help others and showed her I'm not the girls or boys who used her. That could be it. My brain hurts now. Let me get back to this conversation.
"Wow I'm sorry." I say and she just shakes her head smiling.
"Don't be. You didn't do anything wrong. Those people that used me got want came to them." She says with an evil smile.
"What did you do?" I ask knowing Jade now she could do some pretty messed up stuff.
"What I did to them are rated 'R'." she says laughing.
"Jade please tell me." I beg really wanting to know why. She shakes her head laughing.
"Sorry I don't wanna scar you." she says and I start to pout. "Don't even try it. You're not getting me with that." She says pointing to my bottom lip and before I could even say anything the bell rings. "Time for lunch." She says standing up, grabbing her bag and about to walk away but stops when she sees me not moving. "Come on. I'm hungry." She says grabbing my bag off my lap and my wrist dragging me out the room toward the Café'.
"Ugh this pizza is so good." I moan not taking to anybody in particular.
"I see you got a little sauce at the corner of your mouth." Andre' says from beside me. I lick the sauce away and mutter a thank you before tearing into my pizza again.
"Damn Tori slow down. That's what you get for not finishing your cereal." Jade says from beside me and I could tell she's smiling without even looking at her.
"Shut up. I was trying to stay awake." I say biting into my pizza again.
"Stay awake for what?" I hear Cat asks from across the table. I stop eating looking at Jade and she's just as stuck as me. How do you tell your friends you're 'married' and have a baby? Ha that's funny to say.
"We were taking care of our baby." Jade says making Robbie choke on his own food, Andre' do a spit take, Beck look like a deer stuck in head lights, and Cat laughing and clapping happily.
"Yay you have a baby! What is it a boy or a girl? What's its name?" Cat shrieked excitedly. I can't help but smile at Cat at how happy she is. The boys are still in the state of shock.
"Uhh when…..What? Jade….Tori" Beck stammers after leaving his deer in head lights state. Robbie and Andre' must have the same questions because there looking at Jade and I with questionable eyes.
"Hey where did you guys get those matching rings? And why are they on your-. Oh my gosh your married! How come I wasn't invited to the wedding?" Cat says happily but drops down to a sad voice when she sees that she wasn't invited to a wedding that never happened. The boys are even more shocked because they tense up.
"Okay look Jade and I are married and we have baby. It's because of the play." I say trying to get it straight. I really wish this wasn't because of the play. I wanna be with Jade for real.
"Ok cool." All the boy's says leaving there states of shock. I guess because it's a fake relationship there okay with it. What if it was real how would they take it?
"Girl, boy, name?" Cat says while drawing a picture of baby stuff.
"Girl and her name is Elizabeth Violet West." I say and the smile on Cat's face just gets bigger.
"That's such a pretty name! Can I come over to see her? I love babies!" I look at Jade and she nods. Cat saw her and she jumped up screaming happily. I smile at seeing Cat happy.
"Hey can I come over too? I love kids?" Robbie says with hopeful eyes. I look at Jade once again for approval. She shakes her head because she doesn't really like Robbie.
"What? Why not?" Like I said she doesn't like Robbie like that but because she doesn't like him doesn't mean I don't.
"Because." She says in her usual tone as she eats some of her salad.
"That's not a reason." I say taking her fork out of her hand has she's about to take another bite.
"Its reason enough for me. Now give me my fork back." she says trying snatching her fork back.
"That's not an good enough reason for me." and after I say that we are arguing about letting Robbie come over and her not giving me a good reason why he can't. After a few minutes of arguing I can tell she's about to give up.
"Fine! Robbie you can come." I'm so good "If he breaks anything in my house you're paying for It." she says looking at me with a pointed look.
"Okay honey thank you." I say wanting to see how she reacted. Beck, Andre,' and Robbie try to choke back their laughs and Jade glares at them and they shut up. She looks at me still glaring but I still keep an amused smile on my face.
"Honey really?" she says and I nod my head.
"Yea if we are going to be a happy married couple we are going to have to use pet names." I say and the others choke back there laughs again.
"Okay fine my snuggle bunny." She calls me and I blush and the others just burst out laughing. Honestly I didn't think she would go along with it.
"Hahahaha snuggle bunny! That f-fucking h-hilarious!" Andre' says in between laughs. I'm never going to live this down.
"I think it's cute. I remember one time I had a bunny and my brother kicked it and it attacked him."I'm sure we are all thinking the same thing with the way we are looking at Cat. The hell is wrong with her brother?
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"Now you own me a new vase and a new glass cup." Jade says coming into the kitchen complaining about how Robbie broke her flower vase when he tripped and bumped into it and dropped her glass cup while he was trying to get some water. I roll my eyes as I clean out Liz's bottles.
"Jade you have like a million glass cups and have you counted the vases you have in this house?" I ask. I looked in Jades cabinets to get a cup and she has so many glass cups its ridiculous and every turn you make in her house there's a glass vase.
"So it's still mine and you own me."
"Okay honey bunches." I say smiling to myself. I can image the look on her face. I can tell she doesn't like the pet names.
"You're having fun with this aren't you?" she asks and the smile on my face gets bigger.
"Yes I am the look on your face is priceless." I say laughing a little.
"Whatever I'm going to have a lot of fun giving you pet names in front of our friends." she says as I finish washing out Liz's bottles turning around seeing her smirking with Liz in her arms. She loves embarrassing me with those pet names. She did it to me in front of Cat and Robbie when they were over she give me like five different ones let me see if I remember. Cupcake, Cinnamon roll, Pound cake, and Sugar foot. God I hate all of those. They are all funny but embarrassing.
"I bet. It's still early we should watch a movie." I suggest not wanting to go to bed yet.
"Okay on one condition." She says making me raise an eyebrow at her.
"Okay." I say slowly.
"I get to pick." She says with a big smile.
"Aww come on. You always pick scary movies and your room is scary enough. Why did you think I didn't want to sleep in there?" I wine. Yesterday I asked her could we sleep in a different room and she said no. I tried begging but it didn't work and I ended up sleeping as close to Jade as possible without touching her. I don't know if she noticed because she didn't move away. It felt good sleeping close to Jade. She smelled good.
"Because you're a big baby and if you get to scared I will let you cuddle up to me like you did last night." she says and I my eyes get big. She noticed and she didn't move away?
"I didn't cuddle into you I was just sleeping really close because I was scared and I think I stopped sleeping so close because I was too tired to care about being scared." She laughs and rolls her eyes.
"You might as well have cuddled into me. And no you didn't stop sleeping close. I'm guessing it was an unconscious move." She says bouncing Liz a little and making shushing noises because she started to give a hungry wine. Don't ask. I just know, like I said I let my motherly instinct kick in. I go to the fridge and grab a bottle out and heating it up.
"It's your fault. If you didn't make me sleep in your creepy room then I wouldn't be scared and sleeping so close to you." I say taking the bottle out testing it on my wrist making sure it isn't too hot and then giving it to Jade.
"Yea, yea, yea whatever makes you feel better. I just think you were trying to get close to me." she says looking up from the eating baby and giving me a teasing smile. In some way yes I was trying to get close.
"Whatever, you just offered to let me cuddle into you. Maybe you want me close." I say trying not to give myself away.
"Hey I'm just trying to keep little Tori safe from the big bad monster on the TV." She says using that Southern-Bell accent she has set for me as she walks out.
"I Don't Talk Like That!" I yell walking after.
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"This is so gross. How can you watch this?" I ask hiding my face into Jade's shoulder. I hear her laugh at the girl getting her limps pulled apart. We're watching one of the 'SAW' movies I don't remember and I don't care. All the movies make me sick to my stomach.
"Easy all I do is look at the TV." She says being sarcastic. I flinch when I hear a wall shaking scream.
"Okay I'm done. I'm just going to go sit in the baby's room and read a book or something." I say finally can't take anymore of this gruesome movie. I'm about to get up but pulled back down fast by Jade.
"Aww come on Tori. It isn't that bad." she says not letting my wrist go.
"Not that bad! This is past bad this is…this is I don't know. It's something I'm not watching anymore." I say about to get up again but Jade holds my wrist tighter and pulls me close putting her arm around shoulder making me lean into her. Oh Shit! Jade West just wrapped her arm around me and pulled me close! OH MY GOD! Okay, Okay Tori calm down. Breathe in and out in and out. I can't believe this! I'm really laying against Jade with her arm around me! Ok learn how to breathe again Tori. Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale.
"You feel better little baby?" she teases. Hell yeah I feel better.
"Yea thanks." I say moving trying to get closer. For the rest of the night we watched scary movies and Jade let me hold onto her every time I got scared and I loved every minute of it.
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