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Chapter 33
AN: I have to say, I'm really sorry I don't update as much as I really should. But, I also really appreciate every review I receive, but I haven't been getting many, and as sad as it makes me, I know you guys are reading, and I would really love to hear from you all.
Stuck on Repeat
You've got me stuck on repeat
And I just can't seem to break free
You've got me stuck on repeat
I can only move to the beat
And I don't remember how it started
and I don't know how to stop
But every time I reach the bottom
Something pulls me right back to the top 'cause
Every time I try, every time I try
Every time I try to break free
Then something comes along, something comes along
Something comes along to intervene
My heart's skipping, skipping
And I don't know why, I know every part
But every time I try, every time I try
Something comes and pulls me back to the start
I had a feeling that life at Easton was about to change forever. I was hiding out in Lily's room until Noelle's designated pre-party, which I found utterly ridiculous, but there was no getting out of it. That certainly I didn't feel bitter about missing out on spending time with Josh. Lily was a good distraction; she gave me time to unwind before what I was sure was going to be the most awkward, uncomfortable, boring party in all of history. Though the party was three hours away, I was desperate to find some way to get me and Josh out of it, but I was drawing a blank, and running out of time.
"Reed come on, let's go, it's time to go get ready." Lily broke me out of my trance. I groaned, prepared to whine and gripe my way out of it, but Lily practically dragged me out of the room, giving me no time to get even one word out. I had already been forced to leave Josh almost an hour ago, and I felt terrible. I could still see the dejected look on his face as I let Noelle and Lily drag me back to Billings. I still don't know why I let them do that. Josh needed me much more than they did. I guess in some way, I wanted to know what it felt like to really be one of them. I still had yet to have that experience, but I was sure I wouldn't be able to enjoy it, even if under normal circumstances I would've. Josh's face kept flashing in my mind's eye. I could see him on the way back to Thomas' funeral, back in his room yesterday, and today when I had left him. My stomach was in knots and I felt terrible. I almost ripped my arm from Lily's grasp and raced to Ketlar and hide out with Josh, but unfortunately we were at Noelle's room, that, sadly, I had to call my own. I knew if I tried to make a break for it, Noelle would catch me before I had even the slightest chance of making it outside. And for that, I knew there would be repercussions, and I did not want to face Noelle's wrath yet again.
Lily practically pushed me into my room, where all of the other Billings girls were waiting for us. All of their heads turned our way as the door slammed behind us. The look Noelle gave me just about screamed in my face well it's about time! And by now I had learned better than to piss Noelle off. It never works out well for me. I was a little scared to see just what Noelle had in store for me, would either be spectacular or I would end up dead or something, I couldn't help but suspect something along the lines of the latter. Quite frankly, Noelle scared me, but when it came to confronting her, I knew I couldn't back down, not that it was in my nature, but backing down from Noelle would give her even more control over me, control I couldn't afford to give up, the next thing I knew, she would be deciding to break up with Josh for me, maybe her goal was to ruin my life, if so, it certainly was working. The perfect life I was supposed to have here certainly wasn't what I expecting.
"Good, now we can get started." Noelle stated plainly, apparently they had been waiting for us, that would explain the death glares, God knows these girls take forever to get ready, even in the mornings for school. "Reed, get over here." Noelle demanded, pointing to the chair in front of her. I sighed, and with a little shove from Lily, I ended up in the chair and decided not to fight Noelle on this one. So I settled in for a long day.
AN: I know this chapter is really short, but I'm struggling with writer's block, and I don't know when I'll get to update next.
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