Stress – 42

I can't believe my mother. She leaves me when I'm a child, and now she's having another? How could she? Why doesn't she just go ahead and start looking for a family that'll take care of the child? She's probably going to leave again anyways.

I was pacing around my room, having to go to the doctor for my checkup, but I didn't really feel like it. How could I do anything after find out that news? I feel like I'm about to have a meltdown.

Dimitri walked in, and stopped right when he saw me pacing. It was never a good thing when I start pacing.

"What's wrong?" he asked, grabbing me to stop my pacing.

"I'd rather not talk about it right now."

"Then can we please make it to your checkup on time for once?" I didn't say anything as I let him lead me out the door and to the doctors' office.

"So you had a major headache while you were in Russia?" the doctor asked as I lay on the table.

"Yeah, and we don't know why it happened." I said, staring at the ceiling. "But after I took one of the pills you gave me and then took a nap, I felt better. And I haven't had another headache since then."

"Well that's good to hear. Maybe it was just a regular migraine."

"Maybe, but it didn't feel like it. It felt worse."

"Well I wasn't there, so I don't know what it was. But if it happens again you'll need to tell me and maybe I can figure it out."

"Okay. But I hope it doesn't happen, I really hated it last time."

"And I don't want to see her in that much pain again," Dimitri said, holding my hand.

"Giving birth is going to painful though."

"I know, and I'm going to hate seeing her in pain then, but that's not for another six months."

"Oh, great, now I have something to look forward to," I groaned. Dimitri laughed as I smiled at him, glad to get my mind off of all things about my parents, at least for a while.

"But then we actually have drug to take away most of the pain before it even comes," the doctor said.

"I don't know if I should use the drugs. I've heard that sometimes it does weird stuff to the baby."

"It's all up to you, but you have to tell me before it's too late so I know if I should get some ready."

"Oh, don't worry, I will." First I need to ask around to see if people should think I should or not. After the doctor showed us some pamphlets about giving birth and all the drugs that we could use, he said we could go.

So we left feeling pretty good about ourselves, having a healthy baby and all, but soon my mind wondered back to my mom and her new baby, thinking if her baby is as healthy as mine and if she'll actually stay with it this time. I kind of hoped she wouldn't just so it'll know how I felt without having someone taking care of me. But then I hoped they wouldn't. I would kind of hate to see someone else go through what I had to. But then again, I'll also hate to see my parents actually care about a child other than me. It already makes me feel angry that my parents even got pregnant. Did they do this on purpose? Do they hate me having the attention? Do they just hate me that much that they have to taunt this in my face? How could they?

"Ouch," Dimitri screamed, pulling my hand free from his. I didn't even have to ask what happened, I knew. Whenever I get really mad I squeeze my hands into fists until my nails hurt me or I finally punch something, it usually ends with me punching things, like trees and walls. But usually when I get mad, there's nobody else around me. "Are you still thinking about your parents?"

"Is it that obvious?"

"No, I just really know you. But I also know what will make you feel better." He grabbed and tickled me.

"Are you thinking what I'm thinking?"

"Probably not, but just follow me." So I let him lead me to where ever he had in mind.

"This is definitely not what I was thinking," I said, standing still in the middle of the track.

"Running used to take your mind off of things."

"So does hot, sweaty sex."

"We'll do that later, I promise. But the doctor did say that you have to stay in shape for the baby."

"I always stay in shape."

"True, but since we found out that you're pregnant, you haven't done any of your training."

"So, that's because we were looking for Lissa."

"And now she's back, so time to restart your training schedule. Which will mostly be running." Ugh, I already hate it. I hated it when I first went back to St. Vladimir's when Dimitri was my mentor and made me run every day. But it was for a good cause, but I will never tell him that I think so.

"So are we racing, or are you afraid that a pregnant girl will beat you?" I smiled as he smiled back and took of his t-shirt, leaving a tight tank top on, showing off his muscles. I took off while he was counting down, having him stand in my dust and laugh that I am such a cheater. "Like it matters, you were always faster than me anyways."

"Not always. You were pretty darn fast at the airport when Lissa was taken," Dimitri yelled from a few feet behind me, catching up pretty fast.

"That was only because that was Lissa, practically a sister. I would do anything for her."

"Good, because you're her guardian."

"I know, which is even more reason to do anything for her." I laughed as we finished one lap and Dimitri finally caught up to me, grabbing my hand and smiling. We held hands and ran until we were out of breathe, which was like sixteen laps later. "Is it time for the hot, sweaty sex now?"

"Right here?" Dimitri laughed between breathes.

"No. But if you really want to, sure." He laughed harder as he picked up his t-shirt and we walked to the gym to get a drink.

"How about another training obstacle?"

"Really, now? I'm already so tired."

"This one is to relax."

"Okay, what do you have in mind?" He smiled again, man I love that smile, and lead me to the new part of the building that they finished last month. "What's back here?" I asked because I never came in here before. It's new and I never had reason.

"You'll find out, and you'll love it, especially since I'm going to lock the door so it's only you and me."

"I always love that." And I did love where we were. It was a giant pool.

He didn't waste his time locking the door, and then he did he started stripping.

"So are we using our bathing suits or skinning dipping?" I asked with a wicked smile, he knew which one I wanted. He smiled as he slid jeans and boxers off, showing off what he is made of. He did a perfect dive into the pool and started swimming around.

"What are you waiting for Roza?" he called to me.

"Just watching you, my comrade." I started undressing, and it didn't take long for me to be standing in front of him naked. His grin grew as he looked at me, then I noticed he was looking at my stomach. I looked down and noticed what he was grinning so big about. Oh. . . My. . . Gosh!

"Oh my gosh," I yelled out loud. "Already? Do you see this? Of course you do, how can you not see it? I'm huge."

"It's natural Roza. It's called pregnancy." I looked down again, seeing a bulge in my stomach. I can't believe it, I thought to myself. I'm actually showing now. I smiled as I jumped in the water and popped back up. "You're so beautiful," Dimitri said as I swam to him with my hair all in my face.

"You're not going to be saying that soon, I'll be so fat that I'll disgust you."

"You can never disgust me, Rose, how many times do I have to tell you that? I love you, and I always will." He grabbed me in his arms while we both kicked to stay above the water. I laughed as he stopped kicking and dragged me under, kissing me hard to give me oxygen.

When we surfaced again, I asked, "I thought we were supposed to be training?"

"Yeah, but I said this time it was to relax, to cool down." He kissed me again, pulling me under. We stayed under for a while, swimming along the bottom, our lips never leaving from each other's.

When we finally came back up for air, other than each other's air, I heard my phone ringing from my pile of clothes. I swam over to the edge and looked at my phone, noticing it was Lissa, calling for the fourth time in the last three minutes. I answered it right away, being greeted by a screaming Lissa.

"It's about damn time Rose," she screamed. "I need you right now. The doctor called me, wanting to do a checkup to see if there's anything different about me since I turned back from being a Strigoi." She was talking so fast it took me a few seconds after she finished to understand what was happening. "Are you still there Rose?"

"Yeah, just one minute, I'll be there as soon as I can."

"Just meet me at the doctor's office. I want you to be there, you know, just in case something is wrong."

"Okay, Dimitri and I just have to get dry, we were just swimming."

"Yeah, sure, just please hurry up." Then she hung. I've never heard her be so nervous before.

"Is she okay?" Dimitri asked as he swam up behind me.

"I think so. But she wants me to meet her at the doctor's office. He supposedly wants to do a checkup to see if she okay from when she was a Strigoi." I hopped out of the pool and grabbed my clothes putting them on, not caring that I was still soaking wet. Dimitri did the same and then we left the pool area and headed back to the doctor.

When I ran into the office, Lissa and Christian was already sitting on the same chairs Dimitri and I were not so long ago, like an hour ago to be exact.

"Finally," Lissa hopped up, hugging me to him. "We're waiting on the blood test to come back, he said it will take about ten minutes or more."

"Are you feeling okay?" I asked her.

"I feel fine, like I always do. But this is still making me nervous. What if something comes back and I have some disease or something?"

"I don't think that will happen, nothing happened to Dimitri when he came back."

"I know, that's what I thought too. But sometimes it doesn't happen to everyone. What if I actually have something, what if something shows up that says I can die?"

"Don't worry Liss. Everything is going to be fine. There will be nothing to worry about."

"I hope so," Christian said. "If anything ever happened to you again, I don't think I'd live with myself." Lissa went back over to him, sitting in his lap and hugging him. I didn't say anything, I didn't want to interrupt their moment. I may not like seeing them all lovey dovey like that, but hell, they've had to see me and Dimitri, so I guess I can stand seeing them like this every once and a while.

"Ahem," the doctor cleared his throat as he came back into the room. "If I can have everyone sit please." Lissa sat in her own seat, but still held Christian's hand. "Even you Rose." I looked around, wondering why I have to since it's not me getting the news, but I sat down anyways. "Okay, well, I didn't find any sort of disease. So that's a good thing."

"And yet you act like there is something else," I said.

"Rose," Lissa hissed.

"What? I can tell that there's something else, can't you? Just spit it out," I turned back to the doctor, standing back up.

"Rose," he said. "Please sit down."

"Why, it's not my news."

"I know that, but you don't need any more stress."

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know how you're going to take this. You took your mother being pregnant pretty bad, so I don't know how you'll take this too."

"That's because it's my mother. It's just weird and, well, never mind, that's between my mother and me. This is Lissa we're talking about. It's only going to upset me if she's dying. She's not dying now is she?"

"No, and please sit down." So I did as I looked at Lissa, her motioning for me to sit down too. "This may be stressful, but I found something while doing the tests." And what I heard next, it totally blew my mind.

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